五天過得比想像中快很多,星野莉奈覺得自己連時差都還沒調好,就落地回到日本了。11Please respect copyright.PENANAWZzE7xXtSG
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「然後你知道嗎?我真的沒看過那麼誇張的走台現場,根本是模特兒界的神仙打架,光是眼神就能把人震出場外那種——而且我一直以為只要拍照!結果到了他們才說也要走秀!我、我我我、走在那群人中間,根本像誤闖巨人國的小矮人!」11Please respect copyright.PENANADTtVqHtetG
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客廳的沙發上,星野莉奈裹著毯子、頭髮還有些微亂,手裡捧著一杯熱牛奶。講話的語速比平常快一點,聲音帶著剛回國的高昂情緒。11Please respect copyright.PENANAhz0I2qBt8c
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「我本來就知道自己身高沒什麼優勢啦,可是真的站進去才發現——十公分,是世界和我的分界線。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAE1646atJE0
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她像隻捲成團的蝸牛,誇張地比劃模特的長腿,語氣半笑半自嘲。餘光掃過牆上那張等身照片——腿長得像不科學一樣,幾乎佔了整個畫面的三分之二。11Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6aLaEiH9b
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她一直以來最崇拜的模特,也是她每天睜開眼都會看到的身影;一種,世界標準的象徵。11Please respect copyright.PENANAjjqj5AvL6e
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沒有多看,星野莉奈輕輕收回視線,把毯子往上拉了一點。11Please respect copyright.PENANAeMCXY8CGuU
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糸師冴的目光也跟著落過去一瞬。沒說話。11Please respect copyright.PENANAkw28j7OrFE
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他知道那是誰。從小就知道。11Please respect copyright.PENANA9tUJa86jDU
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「——我拍完那天直接靈魂出竅,五天裡只有一天睡滿六小時,其他時間都在趕通告、改造型,連自己擦了什麼眼影都不記得。」11Please respect copyright.PENANADlzHnlBcFx
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糸師冴坐在沙發的另一端,聽星野莉奈從香榭大道講到塞納河;從攝影棚講到試鏡現場的光線。他手上轉著保溫杯,偶爾點個頭,偶爾挑挑眉,但大部分時間只是靜靜聽著她說。11Please respect copyright.PENANAZJPYQI4ZIb
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「不過——也還好啦,我猜我應該沒選上。那邊競爭真的超激烈,連候補名單都快比正式名單強了。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA9pHfjwWRwA
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星野莉奈聳聳肩,語氣倒沒什麼失落,「而且有一個人超強的神人也來了——神谷美咲!她果然也去了!」11Please respect copyright.PENANA2fPQmDgTYm
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「誰?」糸師冴簡短回應。11Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7v9foIfy9
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「蛤啊——你不是知道她是誰?!就那個啊——『亞洲模特界話題新星』!本人真的超漂亮!氣勢超強!」星野莉奈一邊回想畫面,一邊用誇張的手勢比劃:「黑長直髮、超高冷,走進來連攝影助理都不敢直視她的臉,整個房間瞬間變成冷色調背景欸!完全不敢想像她只比我們大兩歲耶!那個氣場——」11Please respect copyright.PENANAFftcdhQLyr
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「嗯。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA6zjkT43O4t
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「而且你知道最扯的是什麼嗎?」星野莉奈像是存心想讓他專心聽,眼睛瞪得大大的:11Please respect copyright.PENANAJH3yP9Oyta
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「——她前男友是一個足球員!」11Please respect copyright.PENANArXROQrLOEK
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這句話終於讓糸師冴抬起眼,「誰?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAhC5A1d07RK
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「我有點忘記名字了,已經確定會代表國家隊出賽,好像是好幾國混血,踢中後衛的,也跟我們差不多大——叫什麼去了?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAi22KxmcLHf
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「奧利佛・愛空。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAnScZNaY3Yp
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「啊——對!你怎麼知道?你認識他喔?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAFNxdXv474o
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「不認識。看過他的資料而已。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAG4GFh5TwlH
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「噢,我還以為你認識。」星野莉奈轉了轉手中的馬克杯,「我好像有聽説,後來因為他們有點不愉快,神谷美咲的狀態跟名聲都受到影響,才導致現在沒那麼常出現。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAd5C8NtXUVG
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星野莉奈說到這裡,才忽然意識到什麼,笑著補了一句:「不過她對大家都很有禮貌啦,但就是⋯⋯你知道有種禮貌像是隱形刀片,說話都很溫柔,但聽完你會想反覆確認對方是不是在罵你?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAuDymadVywM
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糸師冴沒接話,只是把視線落回她手中的杯子,注意到她的手指一圈一圈摩擦著杯壁。11Please respect copyright.PENANAmrMOvFsZtl
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「所以我覺得沒選上也沒差啦——至少去過一次巴黎,還吃到夢想中的羊角可頌,雖然是凌晨三點拍完照後去的⋯⋯但我還是會記得那個味道,永遠。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAia3fyIS1qz
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糸師冴看著星野莉奈微笑說「沒差」的模樣,指尖又無聲地在手上的保溫瓶轉了一圈。11Please respect copyright.PENANAZqgsmeG91A
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她一邊說,一邊撐著下巴看他,「——你都不想問我有沒有想你嗎?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAOq7bChAy9d
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「妳不是已經說了五百次『好想傳照片給你又怕打擾你』了?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAQfv6xV77Et
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「你居然有認真聽我講話喔。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAP6mM7meKbv
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「講那麼多次,失智也記得起來。」糸師冴語氣一如往常淡淡的。11Please respect copyright.PENANAa7D4thhmTr
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「⋯⋯你真的很欠扁。」她輕輕地踢了他一下腳,「不過,冴,我真的有一瞬間,是靠著『你一定會覺得我拍得很棒』這個想法撐過去的。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAJheJ00oQ1B
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糸師冴沒回應她最後那句「撐過去」,只是輕輕地「嗯」了一聲。11Please respect copyright.PENANAR0SQ7DzIkS
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他沒有加什麼評語,也沒有對她的經歷發表任何看法——可她卻從那聲「嗯」裡,聽出一點點像是⋯⋯他也懂的回應。11Please respect copyright.PENANA7m5BJ1r2zL
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會不會⋯⋯其實他在西班牙的時候,也有過,這種時刻呢?星野莉奈眼神亮亮的。11Please respect copyright.PENANAjuEnyYd0Gd
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靠著她,跟小凜⋯⋯?哪怕只是一點點也好,撐過了那種沒人知道的瞬間?11Please respect copyright.PENANAeudOOU4214
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她突然覺得有點得意,好像自己默默參與了一場無聲的並肩作戰。11Please respect copyright.PENANAJMVDyUf0hC
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「說真的,我本來以為自己會緊張到哭,結果在現場的時候,完全冷靜得嚇到我自己。連經紀人都被我的表現震驚到。」星野莉奈笑了笑,嘴角微翹,像是在告訴他——我真的也有長大一點了。11Please respect copyright.PENANADGL8DbOfPT
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糸師冴抬起眼,看著她沒化妝的臉、亂翹的頭髮、裹在毯子裡的模樣,忽然說:11Please respect copyright.PENANA4oP0FMYTcO
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「妳跟以前比,變得比較能撐場面了。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAN04ooI1usr
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星野莉奈一愣,突然被電到似地整個人撐靠在沙發背,眼睛睜大得不敢相信,「什麼——你這是在誇我嗎?現場Live的誇獎嗎?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAyRzxD0HPsd
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「沒有,是事實。」11Please respect copyright.PENANACc7Acohpsg
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「哇哇哇!居然還補一句!等等,我要錄音——」11Please respect copyright.PENANAGxT234Lxto
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她正要拿手機,他卻一把拉過她的手,直接按住她的手腕。11Please respect copyright.PENANAklmHEyMWCD
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「不要吵。」糸師冴語氣沒變,語調好像又低了一點。11Please respect copyright.PENANAD7qm3rg8Nw
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她注意到他指節上微紅的壓痕。像冰敷留下的痕跡,也像球場草皮擦過後沒說出口的疲勞。11Please respect copyright.PENANAzehFQG6rr3
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「⋯⋯你保溫杯裡,還是只放常溫水嗎?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAaX5aTA057O
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「嗯。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAhKSsoKQKd9
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「這麼冷的天不用熱一點的喝,真的不會感冒嗎?」星野莉奈語氣溫柔得像聊天,但指尖卻悄悄幫糸師冴拉了拉毯子邊緣,蓋過他手背。11Please respect copyright.PENANAhI4gD6BiXp
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「還以為你現在應該超怕失溫,畢竟早上五點的那種場地⋯⋯風可不是開玩笑的。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAgYRmJYCD25
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糸師冴沒說話,但動作頓了一下。11Please respect copyright.PENANAoSM1WHsGv5
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她沒逼問,只是淺淺笑了下,換了個話題:「我在巴黎每天被造型師抓來抓去的時候,超羨慕你只要穿訓練服就好。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA5SLJH6CBtG
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「妳那叫工作。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAG5sTLo7ZiN
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「你也是在工作啊,不然RE・AL怎麼會一直派人來監督你。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAmJ3c8kY4TK
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星野莉奈說得自然,像是從報紙上讀來的公開資訊,也像是從什麼群組小道消息中不小心滑到的。11Please respect copyright.PENANA0PlUdJMlQj
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糸師冴轉了轉保溫杯蓋,沒否認,也沒接話。11Please respect copyright.PENANAUX7EkVaz38
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星野莉奈舉起杯子喝了一口牛奶,視線隨意地落在他身上。11Please respect copyright.PENANA4KEFDU8Lhz
——不過好險,她擔心的那些事,一件都沒有發生。他沒有被YIPS擊潰、沒有獨自去踢很冷的夜場;也沒有在她不在的時候,真的撐不過去。11Please respect copyright.PENANASty9BaJZJz
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「我最近看你的影片啊⋯⋯」11Please respect copyright.PENANAExoSqJt9TS
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星野莉奈語氣像是不經意地提起,語尾卻輕輕一挑,藏了點壞心眼的笑,「你影片裡的動作啊,一個一個都像在交報告——其實是你在考教練眼力吧?」11Please respect copyright.PENANA7XKJonnzw3
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啜了一口牛奶,星野莉奈杯子放下時才慢悠悠開口:「不吃甜食、不蓋毯子,還每天五點去場邊結霜⋯⋯你到底是訓練,還是想變成冰棒?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAlVIOJYIqde
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他微微皺眉。11Please respect copyright.PENANAFlKkpoAJFb
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她笑了兩聲。像什麼都沒說過一樣,然後又補了一句,半開玩笑地呢喃:11Please respect copyright.PENANAEmgXK2Gsm4
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「你那種冷到會結霜的練習場啊,如果哪天忘記帶手套⋯⋯我可以借你一邊手放我口袋裡喔。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAaSwH5v3yt0
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糸師冴轉頭看她,眉毛都沒動一下。11Please respect copyright.PENANACenr0N2qQ2
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星野莉奈笑得很乖巧,「一邊而已,超出不收費。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAgB20T0lWzc
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他沒有回應,只是伸手碰了一下杯口。11Please respect copyright.PENANAdb7Cbe8DiY
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她笑了幾聲後,忽然安靜下來。抬頭眨了眨眼,輕聲說:「我可以再多問你一件事嗎?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAiAzBD3xXEh
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「什麼?」11Please respect copyright.PENANASVHK4DiaR4
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「你有聽過——就是,神谷她之前的事嗎?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAy4EQssl0CT
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「我第一次聽到她的名字——妳覺得呢?」糸師冴挑高一邊眉毛,看她的眼神像在說:我為什麼要關心她。11Please respect copyright.PENANAd8CbYGfVmW
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「噢對吼。」星野莉奈傻笑了一下,又猶豫幾秒才說出口:「就是⋯⋯她那時候跟奧利佛・愛空的事,好像有被拿來炒作過。還有她公司⋯⋯我有聽說過一些⋯⋯不太乾淨的操作手法。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAK5o52OQkGo
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糸師冴沒有立刻回應,手指輕敲了兩下保溫杯。11Please respect copyright.PENANAEX2g5QqRjF
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「我們圈子也有那種人。」他終於開口,語氣平靜,「不是運動員的問題,是有些人會把所有不甘心都掛在別人身上。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA8tNs7jdwB8
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她抬眼看他。11Please respect copyright.PENANAmRHQmtNpni
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糸師冴語氣沒變,只是語句明顯轉向:「那不是他們的問題,也不是妳的。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAgd2f5JWTBE
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然後低頭喝了一口保溫杯裡殘留餘溫的水。11Please respect copyright.PENANAxiKp7OAM9y
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「別讓那些人的帳算到自己身上來。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA9xPSVL0Yza
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星野莉奈輕輕笑了:「我也不想那麼在意⋯⋯但她看人的那種眼神,真的很難不記住。我覺得她應該不只是想拿代言,她好像⋯⋯想證明些什麼。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAKArhIh8vyA
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她說完後低下頭,用大拇指劃著杯子邊緣。11Please respect copyright.PENANAFzWLVAzIva
順著杯沿在心裡劃出一道軌跡——其實也在問:那我呢?11Please respect copyright.PENANASEbli71fIp
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「那妳呢?」11Please respect copyright.PENANA9sSUl8A7cp
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「我、我啊?」星野莉奈頓了一下,突然被問住了,但很快輕笑起來:「我⋯⋯我就是想——站在鏡頭前,被很多人看到,然後⋯⋯」11Please respect copyright.PENANAOH7xqirXWN
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話說一半,星野莉奈低頭看著杯子,聲音慢了些:「至少,有一個人會覺得『很適合』,就夠了。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA5xL2tz3Opp
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說完這句話,怕被聽懂什麼似地,她趕緊補了一句:「當然啦,如果能拿到代言,我還是會開心得飛起來!」11Please respect copyright.PENANAXx4PUjiTIr
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糸師冴沒再說話,只是稍微垂了眼,看見她把腳趾縮回毯子裡的動作。像是怕冷,也像是怕被看見她的在意——11Please respect copyright.PENANAfZpjQfrJEM
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「巴黎很冷吧。」11Please respect copyright.PENANADFewWX22wx
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「有你冷嗎?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAjp0R2ATOIs
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他又挑了下眉,「比我冷的地方不多。」11Please respect copyright.PENANANRUeKv9YEb
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星野莉奈笑得更大聲了,躺在毯子裡像是整個人都鬆了一口氣。這才是真正的「回家」。11Please respect copyright.PENANAvrze2aZjcy
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「欸,我媽說你今天想睡我們家客廳也可以哦。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA6uorUG3mp3
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「我想睡床。」11Please respect copyright.PENANALracMcNllb
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「冴你⋯⋯」星野莉奈睜大眼盯著他,語氣瞬間高八度:11Please respect copyright.PENANAPvmY75IOUm
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「你該不會是說你今晚⋯⋯要——」11Please respect copyright.PENANAVSUArl0yGN
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「回家睡我自己的床。」糸師冴面不改色地打斷她,語氣比平常還平。11Please respect copyright.PENANAkuiRhRIy7y
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「⋯⋯哦。」星野莉奈當場啞火,然後小聲補了一句:「講清楚嘛。」11Please respect copyright.PENANApkQBUyyD8t
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她也知道他口中的「家」只是慣用詞,他根本沒打算要回去他家。11Please respect copyright.PENANAAUjORLzFQh
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「對了,你跟小凜和好了沒啊?」星野莉奈跟糸師冴一起起身。11Please respect copyright.PENANAmYwUDUcXsD
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「沒聯絡過他。」11Please respect copyright.PENANA7vAYhgGwMV
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「你不回去見一下嗎?」星野莉奈用拇指指了一下糸師家的方向,「你不在的時候,小凜真的一直很努力⋯⋯」11Please respect copyright.PENANARLtkkCOHDn
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她停了一下,又補了一句:11Please respect copyright.PENANAc90nEzptOx
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「那種努力啊,有時候看了會讓人覺得——他是不是太拚了,拚得有點孤單。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAAsGlvWvwfP
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那種孤單,不只是因為哥哥不在,還有全世界都看不懂他真正的渴望是什麼。所以他只得獨自向前——拚命想抓住某個東西。11Please respect copyright.PENANAXIxPqq878l
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而她知道,那東西的名字叫「哥哥」。11Please respect copyright.PENANAWjIPuJuwo4
比自己還拼,比自己還更相信「糸師冴」的,糸師凜。11Please respect copyright.PENANALsuqTSZOIK
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糸師冴沒有回答,只是走到玄關前,拉開門時——手微微停了一下。11Please respect copyright.PENANAA0NdaS9snk
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「那是他的事。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAzSUfTkgFV4
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星野莉奈沒再追問,只是默默看著他,心裡卻想著:你嘴巴再硬,也還是會來找他的吧。11Please respect copyright.PENANATmHFwidTFj
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認識他久的人都知道,糸師冴的眼神,有時候會比他嘴巴誠實一點。
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