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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCobym8ta7
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeQZxzigUK
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWZA3LGkYV
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHUxr5eciP
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VtZbnYQ6S
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjMHWhrq2C
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rT9BptCPN
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgScoNWLdF
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5ITsVaWNf
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtfdKgCkzB
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1j4i1E3Alz
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5VhZKIZDf
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwqeu8aiQP
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyuOUWqlIM
Shoot, was I saying something? 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0iA2BcPYg
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovxjce0urC
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8MsQbzCcf
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlXD5zAdzh
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ngqBeJnUA
"Nine." He licks his lips. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cLCrahebz
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpZOBUR5Lm
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReFMTTQ8hY
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDHbSlsmPX
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9315Gqxdlx
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgo0DTJCQ9m
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaivFAyous
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBWzxyXsP5
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOWF83vDVi
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZUNYZa74i
I could get lost in his eyes.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShU9WLWIyh
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yXSxdRSah
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnpizB82Vr
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULd3oR3K41
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSgpaCgDmw
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXbQcQr1Lc
All too soon, he pulls back.809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkLXjh640b
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE2hBQDxjA
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBd4LO2awz
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH9rjal9kd
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICRmACcN7V
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iVw77U1yw
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 809Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdPnpL1XBy
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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