向菱出教室,來到走廊上,突然就覺得南雨鎮的三月不存在春天。122Please respect copyright.PENANAR1iB6wY21g
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據說祁小波感冒了,所以向菱那天沒有陪她出去玩。122Please respect copyright.PENANAoU0I0MAOSH
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這事是祁澈先和她提的,那時他像是隨口一提,她點點頭,表示回應。 122Please respect copyright.PENANArsFVqbi3Ms
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她原本和祁小波約好要一同去公園溜滑梯的,但因為此事,也只好之後再說了。122Please respect copyright.PENANAcW2MFjwRe9
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海邊小鎮的春季多雨,多雲又帶點悶熱,海浪拍打得更加兇狠,雨下得更為頻繁。122Please respect copyright.PENANAPdRo1sX1gc
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用一個字來總結就是——躁。122Please respect copyright.PENANAKBfFF2vvEz
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高二下學期的春天,學生們到了適合思考自己生涯的年紀。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAdIYocxUH5J
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台上的教師總會在講課時有意無意地提起,同儕間偶爾也有討論,引起不少人開始規劃。122Please respect copyright.PENANAkS1hy2R7oQ
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楊宛和向菱聊到這個話題時,楊宛提起了她的志向。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAhAWlYnwWGe
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「我故鄉那所大學的服裝設計系!」 122Please respect copyright.PENANA32h1I7zUDp
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幾個同班同學也跟著提出了各自的目標,似乎已經充滿鬥志。122Please respect copyright.PENANAugw6U5d1CH
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某個女同學說道:「我想去北渝市!」122Please respect copyright.PENANAxhPp9Ke6xu
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另一個男同學順著她的話建議,「我也是,要不我們結伴吧?」122Please respect copyright.PENANAEx9Eq5UjWR
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「哈哈哈哈你們倆還真是般配——」122Please respect copyright.PENANA5qP7gTOaY1
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眾人笑鬧成一團,那對男女被同學們說得臉紅了。122Please respect copyright.PENANAfmHSSwPDQJ
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十七、八歲的年紀,本就應該意氣風發,昂首挺胸,耀眼熱烈。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA8zNU62j6Zz
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向菱卻是在此時變得心不在焉,默默退出了討論。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAE6muBjFSIm
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她一直以來,都有些迷惘。 122Please respect copyright.PENANABfXmS3yxRR
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少女悄然離開剛才嬉鬧著的人群,沒有目標的閒晃,直到她莫名其妙地抵達了教室外稍遠偏僻的走廊。122Please respect copyright.PENANABJiQa2AkfB
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那裡是安靜而沒有人煙的地方。 楊宛問了她不少關於將來的問題,她卻經常回答不上來。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAi0Xlgk9eLI
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「北渝市不錯啊,而且你已經是文學界的大人物了,感覺很有前途嘛。」122Please respect copyright.PENANAQeLEIdfFDJ
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向菱不知道怎麼回應這種話。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAZfzj0Jk0j9
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因為她當初會步入文學,只是為了躲避身後的經濟、心理壓力,她只是想遠離。122Please respect copyright.PENANADlBQyOTGUd
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那時候,鄭娟因為向里的過世而開始出現異常行為,經濟困頓,她沒有專長又未達可以打工的年紀,於是只好拿出自己的興趣。122Please respect copyright.PENANAwJoQ34lUYq
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結果最後越走越遠,她已經看不見家庭了。122Please respect copyright.PENANAu5PX7ddzkd
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自那以後,她逐漸把寫故事當成了工作,而不是原先最純粹的興趣。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAcEAESrPmBz
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思考大綱成為習慣,那麼提筆寫作就是例行公事。122Please respect copyright.PENANAS0V4jXJioj
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她仍然喜歡文字,仍會從故事裡得到快樂,不過她好像成為了一個工作狂,也對這樣的現況感到迷惑。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAOyUiCUrJVg
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向菱覺得自己還挺矛盾的,遲遲想不通。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA32VGVfvp74
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她想起前陣子,室友王曉認真問過她的話。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAA1iR7kuxnZ
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「你有想過未來嗎?」122Please respect copyright.PENANAawuVSrCstR
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——怎麼想?122Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0NUIAk0d6
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要怎麼想,才是正確的? 122Please respect copyright.PENANAWwCBxv8DcK
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她那時候沒有回應,只是勉強扯了扯唇角,以示附和。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA4RVx3TOBIm
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大家都具有計畫,擁有目標,唯有她卻像是迷路的小孩子似的,不知所措的站在交叉路口。122Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9kY0H3SV2
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向菱不知道有沒有人可以來拉她一把。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAmKu38P4xND
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後來,大概又過了一段時間,文壇裡的朋友言恬,她說的話迫使少女開始直接面對另一件事。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAz3Fv0i6qI9
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——她似乎喜歡上一個人了。122Please respect copyright.PENANATDIwr6IpfY
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原來不知不覺間,她也抵達了,會因為學業和愛戀煩惱的年紀。122Please respect copyright.PENANAzE5BRpYpV5
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那些事讓她愈來愈困惑,無法立即下決定但又無法乾脆割捨,陷入一種無止境的內耗裡。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAe3eb6QuBvN
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這很不像向菱以往的風格,不乾脆,而且拖泥帶水。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAUkWAniqcKW
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她覺得越來越看不懂自己了。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAvHOgNPlkQ7
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這麼稱呼似乎有點矯情,只不過她喜歡的人……算了,還是稱呼全名吧,祁澈。122Please respect copyright.PENANA9rvP2woaOq
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——她喜歡的人,祁澈,從中午那節午休之後就消失了、再也沒回教室了。 122Please respect copyright.PENANATU0QlU9qei
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這種事不是第一次發生了,下午時向菱問過沈中奕,對方一臉莫名的丟給她一句——你第一天認識祁澈嗎?122Please respect copyright.PENANAZUkcVzmNEb
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…… 話雖如此,向菱還是有一點想找他說話。122Please respect copyright.PENANAAvWwP4yrT8
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放學後,她打開手機,讓螢幕畫面在對話框裡停滯,一邊思忖著她應該說些什麼。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA1Bj8E6dTTp
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「祁澈。」 122Please respect copyright.PENANAtqBMUUVyd0
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無意識的輸入了這個名字。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAP7fnAAemmn
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彷彿肢體比她先記住,這個人的身影。122Please respect copyright.PENANAQSGEgQsYWJ
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奇怪了,她又不是失戀,只是和他說話的機會減少而已,自己在發什麼神經。122Please respect copyright.PENANAZttl4JAp0O
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半個下午都過得魂不守舍,難道這個人是她過活必須的能量嗎?122Please respect copyright.PENANAu4S5W5QsH4
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她腹誹了一會,手動刪掉輸入框的文字,重新輸入。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAsU7Q3pm0Ds
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——「在嗎?」不對。122Please respect copyright.PENANAeIZI0F83wp
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意圖太明顯了。122Please respect copyright.PENANAp0b5pu2swl
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——「你在幹麼?」也不對,這樣未免太故意了點。122Please respect copyright.PENANAsPhILE2LoX
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她猶豫著要發什麼訊息,最終還是沒發,盯著那個對話框框發怔。122Please respect copyright.PENANAD2HOjzGaym
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幾分鐘後,向菱挪動指尖,點按幾下手機,忽然突發奇想決定給他取個名稱備註。122Please respect copyright.PENANAlfnRIDqjDY
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指尖在空白的名稱框裡停頓了下。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAlPbc3s0KXg
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然後,她沒什麼猶豫的從手機鍵盤裡戳出一個「?」,想表示神秘又行蹤不明的意味。122Please respect copyright.PENANA3OgqM0Op2M
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三秒鐘後又迅速刪掉,默默改成了別的內容。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAiFsJ7yThQR
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她怔了幾秒才按下確定按鈕,看著新備註,她突然覺得心裡樂得不行,唯一美中不足的是她有些羞恥。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA6PfaE7NWdz
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新備註:「我才不喜歡他」。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA0PIupDPMOW
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看著新取的備註,少女的唇角壓抑不住地往上翹。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAactKaUJX6Z
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她還在傻笑,一則新訊息突然從底部彈出,對方的訊息竟然主動來了。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAyi2XVLgZCs
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祁澈極少主動找她,所以向菱有點驚訝又有點愉悅,她點擊訊息閱讀。122Please respect copyright.PENANAkq4LsKeBms
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那封簡訊,簡單直接而且很有他的風格,只有一句「在嗎」,甚至沒有附上標點符號。 122Please respect copyright.PENANATg26MFSt48
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向菱本來打算秒回,但突然想起言恬的話,於是便退出聊天框,刻意延遲了幾分鐘才回覆。122Please respect copyright.PENANAvFJ7oPuWUV
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……意義不明的舉動,大概只有這麼傻的人才幹得出來。122Please respect copyright.PENANALmfMxWNF15
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向菱:「在。」122Please respect copyright.PENANANzLFtaNIH6
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突然有些好奇對方給她取什麼備註。 122Please respect copyright.PENANASIlP1sAWNN
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對面的訊息停頓了幾秒,像是在斟酌怎麼開始,然後才發送過來:「你在男生宿舍嗎。」122Please respect copyright.PENANAnPlTgVZozn
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教室換座位之後,向菱還是經常找祁小波玩耍,熟悉之後變得像姊妹一般親暱。122Please respect copyright.PENANALGBFBtcvOM
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——只是,她很少在宿舍碰到祁澈。122Please respect copyright.PENANAU0NeO4y8Ov
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想想也對,他似乎極為頻繁的打工。記得某天她路過魚市,碰見他在那裡幫忙一個老人將新鮮的魚隻裝進大袋子。122Please respect copyright.PENANA1mPThhOpMA
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她知道他每天固定蹺掉的那節午休,都是去給祁小波帶飯的,但這不為其他人知道。122Please respect copyright.PENANAtZOsIzdnl1
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向菱回覆:「祁小波感冒了啊,你早上說的,所以我今天沒過去。」122Please respect copyright.PENANAH6BQUWmTZV
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「怎麼了嗎?」她敲下這行,然後送出。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAldaJHO5I6N
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訊息傳送到網路彼端,很快已讀,接著對方的文字沒幾秒又傳過來,「明天也別去那裡。」122Please respect copyright.PENANAoeVE2Q2tAN
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——向菱不懂他的意思。 122Please respect copyright.PENANA5efwQPZLjO
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她用一隻手指戳出單個符號:「?」122Please respect copyright.PENANAppsiCmIEUj
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這一次,祁澈的訊息許久沒有傳來回覆,久到她差點以為他網路掉線了。122Please respect copyright.PENANATdqVbyJHTb
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從以前到現在,還是第一次出現這種情況。122Please respect copyright.PENANAGE3U42r4RM
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她常和祁小波玩,他沒阻止過。她經常去男生宿舍遛達,和小女孩一起亂翻他的東西,他也沒拒絕過。122Please respect copyright.PENANATydxrFQftg
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向菱有點錯愕,心想這人的態度轉換得有些過快。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAAV2bYg9FHU
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她故作玩笑的發送,「你是被盜號了?」 122Please respect copyright.PENANA7UDLbt0CAf
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「沒。」否認得倒還挺快。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAWINKaXjI05
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「那是怎麼了?我和小波約好明天要去公園盪鞦韆的。」 122Please respect copyright.PENANA7Yc8Iq072s
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「抱歉。」 122Please respect copyright.PENANAmerKfjM8RU
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少女打字的手驀地僵住了。122Please respect copyright.PENANAU7jvnimfHR
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其實她的第一反應是——這傢伙居然會道歉啊?真稀奇。122Please respect copyright.PENANAK6g12q8Uur
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緊接著她的思緒是這樣運轉的:等一下,他真的在道歉嗎?靠,好像是認真的,不對,他幹麼道歉?122Please respect copyright.PENANA6o89FiI6OV
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為什麼要和她說抱歉?122Please respect copyright.PENANAxm3Bv6Vpkz
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一瞬間,她的腦子像是過載了,運轉不過來,甚至倏地空白。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAfifv8Iyhak
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這算什麼,變相拒絕還是撇清關係? 122Please respect copyright.PENANAZwiTXq9T3Z
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她首先聯想到的是電視上的八點檔連續劇。122Please respect copyright.PENANAl0qUCuEpH8
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對不起我們不要再打擾彼此了、就這樣結束吧、再這樣下去也不會有結果……為什麼她滿腦子都是這種沒梗的俗濫台詞。122Please respect copyright.PENANAB4WR3DLvBu
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突然就慌亂了起來。122Please respect copyright.PENANAgDGrMXW4F2
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但是喜歡一個人的心思,本來就是很敏感的,她知道自己反應不應該這麼大,因為一句抱歉。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAz9R52csedL
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又或者因為失去了一種可能「巧遇」他的機會。122Please respect copyright.PENANA2PWXWIqncQ
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少女開始胡思亂想,腦袋一團暴亂。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAtWQWoaeNco
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難道他已經意識到她的喜歡,於是決定開始疏遠她了嗎? 122Please respect copyright.PENANAj8gKNGiby5
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她陷入一種莫名的恐慌裡,像是憑空懸浮於半空中,踩不到地板,像是失重。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAhQWkOwkA4i
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這種感覺,一點都不踏實。 122Please respect copyright.PENANAKhfnkkS9Ef
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窗外陰雨綿綿,烏雲潛伏在暗色裡,連消失都悄然無聲。122Please respect copyright.PENANAfgRrT8eHBh
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隔天是周休,但向菱絲毫開心不起來。122Please respect copyright.PENANAf6plgcrvAL
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她一旦變得鬱悶,就經常直接倒頭就睡,因為現實讓她覺得很累,睡眠做夢反倒是最好的去處。122Please respect copyright.PENANAZOkPkFlJyC
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室友們見慣了她假日睡長覺的習慣,都見怪不怪,放輕了動靜,不驚擾到少女。122Please respect copyright.PENANAW78XjjzthR
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她睡得比平時更晚了一點。122Please respect copyright.PENANAEldSRobdTA
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下午起床時,她覺得胃臟空得發慌,腳步沉重虛浮,囫圇拆了幾包糖果餅乾了事。 122Please respect copyright.PENANACpf8f6Uc5J
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