他並非生氣,只是某種有如一頭困獸般的疲乏。107Please respect copyright.PENANAmCM8EIuBZI
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不是受挫,也不是心理防線崩潰,只是壓抑著不算高漲的情緒。107Please respect copyright.PENANAGWx64R3ALb
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那份異常似乎不針對誰。或許是煩躁,或許只是剛好心情糟糕。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAzdJf4u2adl
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向菱垂下眸子,轉開視線。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA7UPqpaYLKC
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她覺得,祁澈實在是一個很矛盾的人。107Please respect copyright.PENANA4aeK7VG62r
107Please respect copyright.PENANAWljFBH1K5p
——對他來說,世界上的人似乎只分為兩種。 107Please respect copyright.PENANATGkJukFZp4
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在乎的人,以及無關的人。 107Please respect copyright.PENANADA0UI4vZof
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他脾氣極壞,但那些脾氣是可控的,並且似乎只針對不在意的人發作。107Please respect copyright.PENANA0xO9zIVVZU
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對於不在乎的人們,他甚至可以直接把那些人按著揍,而他並不會對任何受害者感到抱歉。107Please respect copyright.PENANAwte4Na75MB
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但是,祁澈真正在乎的那些少數人,別人休想動他們一下。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAmeM6InAhMC
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因為一旦被盯上了,就會立刻被反咬、報復。107Please respect copyright.PENANAH91nt2a7Hj
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他可能,就是這樣的人。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAaX4FUBtMXx
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……107Please respect copyright.PENANA3mHllXznEp
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夜色籠罩下的男生宿舍裡。107Please respect copyright.PENANASK0OSBAtXZ
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短暫沉默後,少女清脆的說話聲忽然響起。107Please respect copyright.PENANAdj3EhCJ3Kh
107Please respect copyright.PENANACX1cKWIjW6
「我問你,如果把世界切成兩半,」她慢慢說道,「一邊站的是你在乎的人,其他人站到另一邊去。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAFoEO4hn6un
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「嗯?」107Please respect copyright.PENANAuC7TXbuDwz
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「那你會把自己放在哪裡?」她輕聲說完,用力嚥了下口水。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAlNy5tGn6PI
107Please respect copyright.PENANAKuUMz4uoP8
「不在乎的那一邊。」107Please respect copyright.PENANADWGDSW18ps
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今夜漫長,月色黯然,月球悄然無聲被雲彩遮住大半。107Please respect copyright.PENANASv3hvODKee
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那一晚,她離開後,少年做了個詭異的夢。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAW7tqgPlKJs
107Please respect copyright.PENANAhI6Xkz1yJl
四周一片漆黑,壓力環伺,恍若被什麼可懼的東西盯上。107Please respect copyright.PENANANOKs9d8WB7
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——野獸的目光。 107Please respect copyright.PENANASHEobEFTVQ
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看不見,耳裡聽到的聲音既混亂又雜亂無章,毫無規律可言。107Please respect copyright.PENANAoO1gMCawsx
107Please respect copyright.PENANA6zAi92Ef9q
出口的話成了碾碎的片段,光怪陸離的閃光浮現又一閃而逝。107Please respect copyright.PENANAhABOmKD6lO
107Please respect copyright.PENANAK6OvA8CsnI
世界在傾倒,同時也在下墜。107Please respect copyright.PENANAWW8EE1vwOW
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傷疤被毫不留情地揭開,猙獰的傷口完全暴露在空氣中,凝血彷彿失常,暗紅血液汩汩流淌。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAUSECK2aBr9
107Please respect copyright.PENANAb945ySHmK8
麻木似的,做夢沒有痛覺。107Please respect copyright.PENANAzXeskftylq
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持續墜落的踩空感覺在夢境中分外真實。107Please respect copyright.PENANACaRXP1hRqW
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突然腳跟像是觸碰到什麼冰涼的東西,冰冷的觸感從末梢神經擴散到全身,緊接著是近乎窒息的冷意。107Please respect copyright.PENANAUzuyM14cYp
107Please respect copyright.PENANAgXKyIcmTEW
——落海。107Please respect copyright.PENANA69E60tL3re
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如她所說的那樣,也如同實際遭遇過的那樣。107Please respect copyright.PENANAVOgv9NI9fR
107Please respect copyright.PENANA5NndBeXwfH
清晰的知道自己在噩夢裡,卻醒不來。祁澈感覺得到海水又冷又鹹,分不清是回憶倒放還是夢境。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAk9FfHC8ESV
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完全沒有預警,無所謂,反正他從來就不在乎任何。107Please respect copyright.PENANAUArYYfnOZQ
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如果自己消失的話,那些人會過上更舒服的日子吧。107Please respect copyright.PENANARh9SeYaZhO
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類似的嘲諷念頭劃過腦海。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAKm3oivJyW2
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這大概是從什麼八點檔裡抄來的惱人劇情——念頭冒出來的時候,他諷刺自己一句。107Please respect copyright.PENANAJxNXbcNxkt
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事發的時候,究竟是多少年前,別人大概記得比他自己更清楚。107Please respect copyright.PENANAEotp8dNgEI
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明明好像也沒過多久。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA62ERlv1aX8
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那夜的南雨鎮,也在下雨。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAFV72IVKprs
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狂風暴雨的架式,像是要把人捲進大海裡。毫無預兆的那種,彷彿有人給你一個驚喜。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA2XkOf2Suss
107Please respect copyright.PENANAwQjEcjMfBo
時間宛如倒流,夢境的場景回到不知多久以前,那夜除夕的海岸邊。107Please respect copyright.PENANAuIoSzeXRQW
107Please respect copyright.PENANATiRfwsfSlG
浪忽地驟強,海嘯警報從鎮上的廣播喇叭喇傾瀉而出。器材老舊,音質顯得沙啞。107Please respect copyright.PENANAnw9Sjgy7Vl
107Please respect copyright.PENANAgkJmzWL4v9
潮水一波波湧上,浪潮漸高,伴隨著強烈海嘯,小鎮似乎被黑夜及狂雨籠罩。107Please respect copyright.PENANAHEBCn8gvM8
107Please respect copyright.PENANAHEUfP8fxfc
少年獨自站在海邊崖上,自虐式的,就只是怔怔的乾站著。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAHKLcfnGekj
107Please respect copyright.PENANAWpnw6hbtq4
——其實他從來就沒想過跳下去,也從來沒有那種打算。107Please respect copyright.PENANAYilhoux45r
107Please respect copyright.PENANAkG78otTDII
海浪挾帶著一種把人捲下去的氣勢。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAsjXRDsyGlE
107Please respect copyright.PENANAIkAtPKgElS
浪太大,他站得太近,一切事件的發生連貫得理所當然。107Please respect copyright.PENANAwSUQViYaFv
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不過,當浪真的把自己席捲下去時,他腦子裡閃過的念頭有些過於隨便——好像,也無所謂。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAhvYZHxy8aZ
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那一夜很冷。除此之外,相關的記憶幾乎等於零。107Please respect copyright.PENANA7w0HoO30AD
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破碎的廣播音,短暫的失神。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA0woM6dANwo
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雨幕是殺死夜的嫌疑犯,雨停了,天也跟著濛濛亮了。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA6Fet22NCPu
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海水並不會因為朝陽升起就乾涸。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAccRZuRk4Rl
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沒人發現落海的孩子,他獨自掙扎著浮起來呼吸,他命大,那塊海岸的水又深,沒摔出什麼大傷。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAmRMBfFqip5
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意識仍然恍恍惚惚,一絲模糊的念頭從精神的縫隙竄了出來。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA2rSfuSpcoc
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完了,昨晚沒給祁小波留晚飯。107Please respect copyright.PENANAsNgRNy0WLD
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…… 107Please respect copyright.PENANAdr8NDeXAq5
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後來,他是自己攀著石頭回岸邊的,然後一個人拖著腳步走掉。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAiBw33fzXAm
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身上都是攀著礁石擦出來的傷,渾身濕透又難受,刺痛到令人煩躁。107Please respect copyright.PENANAduj7L33Y4b
107Please respect copyright.PENANAWyjn6Q5Id9
回去的路上,他特意抄進常年無人經過的窄巷子。可沈中奕卻突然冒出來,逼問他前一夜消失不歸的緣由。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAr1IK66GZCZ
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「掉海裡?」沈中奕的眼睛瞬間瞪大。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAENkILYabdp
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「所以你那是什麼,自殺?」 107Please respect copyright.PENANAdteq4L4KzB
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不可置信的眼神。107Please respect copyright.PENANA6xOBimIHl9
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沈中奕是典型「話多反應大」的性格,他看到祁澈滿身狼狽的樣子,又聯想到那段時間他生活有多困難,於是,直覺認定對方是去尋死了。107Please respect copyright.PENANA8WVTAY24Bm
107Please respect copyright.PENANAvNdIbw5Jhe
「……你他媽是在找死嗎?搞什麼,這樣你妹妹要怎麼辦?」 107Please respect copyright.PENANAeaAyTjVYdV
107Please respect copyright.PENANAVFNco3GQUr
祁澈沒怎麼認真聽他說話,又根本沒聽進對方那一長串的譴責,便直接把那些話給敷衍了過去。107Please respect copyright.PENANA3VyEBeO3nb
107Please respect copyright.PENANAbtfHV1RytK
那天,是大年初一。107Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2pnQYE9Ge
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沈中奕大概把他的反應當成了默認,還真的以為這是一場自我了斷。107Please respect copyright.PENANAma4njTNRCg
107Please respect copyright.PENANA1XPDNq4pJn
於是,沈中奕每年春節都打電話過來。明面上是恭喜新年,實際上他的用意太明顯,祁澈早就看透,只是沒有說而已。107Please respect copyright.PENANA7nK9ATsPYr
107Please respect copyright.PENANAldbTDzlI4l
——他甚至沒有辯解,其實是那天南雨的風浪太大,其實他只是單純的失足落水罷了。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAX93LnTKVWt
107Please respect copyright.PENANADBHuJDhUz1
再後來,沒什麼好說的。他斷斷續續高燒了幾天,只覺得愈加煩躁,眼前陷入一片漆黑。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAlAJWiF6DMS
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之後的事太無趣,所以夢境就在這裡停了。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA8eJNpv22gK
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有時候,睡夢和回憶只有一線之隔。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAhjCHPKUSh9
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剎那,夢醒。107Please respect copyright.PENANAt7lFyXUMje
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稱不上是回憶的往事影像跟著消失,空蕩的房間由模糊變得清晰。107Please respect copyright.PENANAwc1XdTg1fD
107Please respect copyright.PENANA5W4lUDySNq
祁澈幾乎是埋在書桌的桌面上睡著的。天還沒亮,手機的螢幕亮起,顯示出從剛才到現在,只過去了三個半小時。107Please respect copyright.PENANAggVKO9kvkQ
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有時候時間的確過得很快,但大部分時候,它走得很慢很慢。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA7z4II4AXj8
107Please respect copyright.PENANACUrPh5ZRwq
祁小波在雙層床的上鋪呼呼大睡,大概要再六、七個鐘頭才能叫她起來。107Please respect copyright.PENANAPys044luCN
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腦海被毫無意義的斷簡殘篇充斥著,混亂又聒噪。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAo90nWcblTj
107Please respect copyright.PENANAIiXnqF9Xod
少年慢吞吞闔眼,埋回自己彎起的肘間。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAdV6JlapJri
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想法很亂,意識卻清醒得過分。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAFk9zgg9FN4
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不久之前,他推估也就三、四個小時前,房裡氣氛僵硬,少女自顧自扒完那碗關東煮,然後就提出要離開。107Please respect copyright.PENANApyUNcbkX6y
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他沒有阻攔。107Please respect copyright.PENANAMk5p9FM8Fz
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她離開的時候,甚至順手把那袋關東煮的垃圾留在門邊。107Please respect copyright.PENANAYbpxllRT1E
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…… 107Please respect copyright.PENANA8RRmlBkZZ3
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夜色闌珊,窗外山頭一片漆黑,沒開燈的宿舍房間映出深沉。107Please respect copyright.PENANAYeCRZqHg76
107Please respect copyright.PENANAtTMBKHW1dn
——那為什麼她不跟那袋垃圾一起留下啊。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAermIePaOrP
107Please respect copyright.PENANAWnzV8PDhbK
荒謬,他也沒挽留那袋垃圾啊。107Please respect copyright.PENANArqhOHrE0Me
107Please respect copyright.PENANAdKWfv5dUwG
……107Please respect copyright.PENANAG4dWfEtdun
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少年自嘲似的無聲笑了一下。107Please respect copyright.PENANACFJ7ikZj01
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他覺得,自己可能腦子有病。107Please respect copyright.PENANA7Gg0vzj90b
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寒假那段期間,宿舍裡只有兩個人,其餘室友都不在。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA7JwfmA1Z2c
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還是同一個日子,仍然是同一個夜裡。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAiyiDso7fJP
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夜色很暗,男生宿舍,雙層床的上鋪裡,祁小波悄悄睜開了眼睛。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAI30tOqEQkz
107Please respect copyright.PENANAWaPs17RjEh
——六、七歲孩子的年紀雖小,但她其實很敏銳。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAWZ8HyHJMyS
107Please respect copyright.PENANA5cRdfGxz9m
祁小波有時候半夜醒來,會發現哥哥根本沒有在睡覺。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA0o6mgwI5Eb
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她睜開眼睛,房間裡很安靜,哥哥就坐在書桌前,眼神很空,不知道在想什麼。107Please respect copyright.PENANA6OG7dVd0DO
107Please respect copyright.PENANAOA5SGtd90O
祁小波不太理解「空洞」這個詞的意思,也還沒學會使用這種詞彙。107Please respect copyright.PENANAmBaEsLyzyK
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但她就是能察覺到,哥哥看起來好像沒什麼精神,眼底沒有光亮,有時候,甚至像是在看一個不存在的地方。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAOO1qjG3mk2
107Please respect copyright.PENANAap2sAmRt2H
如果換作是平常,他的眼神必定是清醒的,帶有一種屬於少年的銳氣。107Please respect copyright.PENANAMpZub4YCFz
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可是,在那種時候不一樣。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAiFiAyWT5Mv
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祁小波看不透她哥哥在想什麼。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1CEU6sy6a
107Please respect copyright.PENANA8Cpp7SwhGR
然後隔天早晨醒來之後,她會問一句:「哥哥,你昨天沒有睡覺嗎?」 107Please respect copyright.PENANA8TnZjppW5Y
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他會回答:「……睡了。」 107Please respect copyright.PENANAue0DIX6Jfo
107Please respect copyright.PENANAgh9HZEgu4M
——但是她知道,哥哥那時候一定是在說謊。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAmdKfs1UNYN
107Please respect copyright.PENANAyQaVrwfPQd
祁小波的想法很單純,別人都以為她哥哥兇,但她知道並非那樣。 107Please respect copyright.PENANA5V1evu08HC
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她哥哥才不是真的兇呢,明明自己都沒錢,還是會偷偷給她買好吃的。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAWOPnvXTlLH
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他總是讓祁小波別亂跑、別吵鬧,但其實她一撒嬌,哥哥就會帶她去買糖吃。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAK9HU3cH2rX
107Please respect copyright.PENANAG5G1BhQTY8
祁小波心裡的祁澈,或許是世界上最厲害最溫柔的一個人。107Please respect copyright.PENANA0gg5yGa2Lt
107Please respect copyright.PENANAVS8ZXzZ3Lw
但是她覺得,有些時候,哥哥看起來很累。107Please respect copyright.PENANAuJtpevXPBI
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他的眼神會變得很淡、很靜,甚至有點「空」。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAw0KMw6UXaU
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祁小波有點害怕他這樣。107Please respect copyright.PENANA6WzwbxgPnA
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那種時候,他會笑一下,但那只是一種「安撫小孩用的笑」,眼睛裡卻沒有真的笑意。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAZZNpKUmV2D
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這樣的笑,和平常完全不一樣,祁小波看得出來。107Please respect copyright.PENANArccNoWh8vG
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她不一定能理解「累」這個字的全部含義,但她能察覺到哥哥不對勁,然後用自己的方式去理解。107Please respect copyright.PENANAfSgRDa5WkF
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——哥哥每天都很累,但又不說。 107Please respect copyright.PENANAad4fNTcAJe
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祁小波不是笨蛋,她能看出來。107Please respect copyright.PENANAM6aVT04vm5