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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCz9KRAVOM
This is not me.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpeVrZ4bBy
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I am not impulsive. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5n3I9Jc0Y
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I do not lose control.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbpkpxsnHe
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I do not kiss random guys.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRad8JUnTz
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXiFKNRXAF
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3dPuKbbf9
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0R9w8frVIw
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With big bulging muscles. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6026H9EomO
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJy1sF9U9Fi
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And dimples... 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRRloCT3gJ
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPECHLoHlfj
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp2ajyDL2h
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAClHwfFMFu
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWp9eQQ5jI
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAAU3K0taE
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4nbKlzkCA
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbjANPYbux
The flow... 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4l98kChZVx
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsMPYkm5fN
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaQWcRvO0i
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ms6uWBoe0
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMMlBwdux8
I am not this girl. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4CjEr5VHm
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I am independent. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcWP5Rrl2I
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I am intelligent. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjojG0SKAw
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I do not crave any guy. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDWTigw3EC
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I have my head on straight. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBx54ogv1Tk
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtY2w9HvF7y
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TmNOj2mOY
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB7wJjNYWe
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYBQSA8fvK
Hey, a girl can hope, right?816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIZn5mTDjC
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGKOLYT1tz
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgyGyVJyrA
Or am I just totally crazy?816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnk93FIuP0
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYczGA55pkS
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9NP206IvE
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZXJMwgSB2
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeRuzJdELw
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K2OlArdUX
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZrXVWIWG6
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6U0BnI7Wl
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwmyBlxXSH
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q1WYeS9W6
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lJEmDtFHW
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI8tzyKXS0
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgZtXNBRky
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdeh0h3jTb
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQamfJLVXRy
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9scj05byF7
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy0vzaRQVV
I am so screwed. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTvsKAiZPb
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUX8lLjunK
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0objB3JjVG
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfewIRz95V
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXqUYqldMP
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GesMF6uOP
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcefDcEuEh
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6yJddfrkS
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFDqz6fb6l
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUOFRqVAy1
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6e6ETsfuS
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35mBVCB9ar
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UxNcMj44W
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 816Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzte6xydUr
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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