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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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"That's... not... I wasn't..." I try to explain, but now that the lust haze is gone, I am unable to rationalize my actions. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CZz5yznXX
Was that what I was doing? I wanted to stop thinking about everything and I figured with what I heard about Ben, he wouldn't complain. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSTvYNYEKt
"Ugh... I'm such an idiot." I cover my face with my hands. I just want to get out of here. Laying next to him in my underwear after being rejected is so embarrassing. I need to leave.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGmDptsqGs
He pulls my hands away from my face. His eyes meeting mine. "No, you aren't. You are just hurting."626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtW7CZOKuze
Is that it?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUreIW6aQi7
When I caught him with that whore, I was almost relieved. Maybe I'm just not processing my emotions properly... 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpemwuHwK6L
I should be devastated. I mean, I am really upset, but I feel more like I'm mourning the life I lost, not the person. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6jMbi2AAu
I think he wanted to get caught. He probably hoped I would join in or something.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9wC1gtpxk
What a creep. How could I give so much to him? I cannot let myself get wrapped up in another man like that again. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtIUd4Y2uo
I need to be strong. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmudV2zQntC
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I need to be independent. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH9VhoklqW
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I need to make better choices. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YJiAZhEzu
I need to... not be here. Crap.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeEfETPasJ
Ben makes me feel weak and vulnerable.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuD0bgCEjh6
But also powerful and wanted. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUiGkRaJdX
Ugh... I am so confused. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OVbefonKL
I do know that hopping from one guy literally onto another is not a good choice.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CsgUyIxIG
I also know that nothing casual can happen with my best friend's boyfriend's best friend. That would be all kinds of complicated. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtxuapQxmp
Hopefully I haven't made things too awkward. Oh god, what if they get married? I will have to see him all the time. I will be reminded of this night forever.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXYUluoicz
He smirks, tucking my hair behind my ear. "There she is, the wheels are turning again." 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4w5p1Z4Dm
I can't help the laugh that bubbles up. I probably sound insane, but this night is all sorts of messed up. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Z8YnXGvzE
His face lights up and his dimples emerge. Crap. His smile turns my insides to jelly.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3wJeFz9sI
"Come on, Katarina, give the poor little hamster a break. Tell me your thoughts." He gives me a reassuring smile. I'm not sure I like him using my full name, it makes my heart flutter.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCvj6cHxGE
"I think..." I need a light topic. I just want to ignore my problems. "I think this has been the weirdest night."626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGK4dW4QzX
He nods in agreement. "Weird good or weird bad?"626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQoHl0dvGA
"Hah... Both?" I wince, knowing he's going to prod for more and I don't want to go any deeper.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOCEhfsSZ4
"I am going to have to agree with you." I was not expecting him to agree. "Although, I think yours had a bit more bad than mine." His hand caresses my cheek and I can't help but lean into his touch. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheg7Cozv8R
I am so weak. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyP6UzLArGU
"Hmm..." His touch is relaxing and I feel the day catching up with me. The emotions and tears taking their toll on my body. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGyPanWZyp
"You falling asleep on me, Kitty Kat?" I can hear the smile in his voice, but I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuN6y1WYCh
"I am not a cat." I say, as sternly as I can muster, but it comes out weak. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPYfB2ifNZ
"Meow." He chuckles at his own joke.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbl6uAEFWwx
"You are so not funny." I mumble.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9W9ZTagbV
"Oh come on. You're no fun." He tries to tease me, but he doesn't realize just how accurate he is. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qUTa6dLKR
Maybe if I were more fun, things would be different. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ8XPCS8dO
"If only you knew..." I snuggle into his hard chest, hoping he won't ask anymore questions. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHPnyc1r2P
I know I should leave, but I just can't bring myself to part with him. I'm sure he's filling some void and I'm being pathetic, but he hasn't thrown me out yet.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOc56tevst
In fact, he pulls me tighter. Resting his face in my hair. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjGqMTQjut
"Don't worry, I will protect you." He whispers and as I drift off into oblivion, I actually believe him. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz4CwudRcO
I awake to the sounds of muffled shouting. There is a heated argument somewhere nearby. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NGJff69eW
When I try to move, I bump something hard with my elbow and freeze. I hear a groan and feel the bed move slightly. I am not alone.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34kBhHJBuq
Oh no. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbC7PzKgWb
What did I do? 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ofxbaV0Hs
Scanning the room, I realize I have no idea where I am or who could be behind me.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmA41EqWuE
Unless Vanessa is having a really rough morning, that was definitely too deep to be her voice.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzk1eyb8KZ
Crap. I am too afraid to look, who could it be? Bits and pieces from the night come to me, but not enough to piece together anything solid.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡallh2RTWGt
I remember crying at some point.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bSHk5PgKW
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I remember drinking more than I should have.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzd88cZpo9
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I remember Vanessa being her usual self. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYY1ruR3Fj
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I remember her new boy toy stuck to her side. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7d5BYqG4x
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And I remember... Uh oh. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfx4t99vjg
It couldn't be... I wouldn't... Would I?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaAHL83vz3
Am I really asking myself this after waking up next to some random guy? Well, maybe not so random...626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOfGpnt8OV
Oh god, this is all sorts of complicated. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq44cUZxyPi
Okay, I just have to know... I try to roll over gently, without disturbing him. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YNed9KxNR
I find a pair of amused green eyes staring back at me. A gorgeous grin with dimples on his stupid perfect face. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡia8IEx2PKm
Crap. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYsTJZDP6K
I know I'm blushing hard, I can literally feel my face burning. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRE7XgKdWi
How did this happen?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvX8Jpx24B
"You done freaking out yet?" He asks with a chuckle. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPG5MLoDQP0
Is he... laughing at me? 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKMel7brDj
"Uh..." And just like that, he has short circuited the connection between my brain and mouth. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54y1XAhsnz
"Don't panic." He talks softly, like I am some wild animal that might bite him.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oYJrKprvC
I am totally panicking. I just can't decide if I want to run out of the room or stay and figure out what exactly happened. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj46re4TMR7
My curiosity wins, just barely. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyw1PjIqP4
"Nothing happened." I must look really confused, because he feels the need to explain further. "We didn't have sex."626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJi0kR012U
"Oh..." I'm not sure if I should be relieved or hurt that he was naked laying next to me.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCLPTMMAJ2
Nope. Not letting my mind go there.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfI5PlylYDX
I choose to feel relief. I wouldn't have remembered it anyway. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62cjkfNoK3
"Not for lack of you trying, of course." He flashes a cocky smirk at me. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cLOY37CNh
I feel a frown tugging at the corners of my mouth, despite my attempt to keep my face neutral. No, I didn't throw myself at him, did I? 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmIYFaI2mX
I vaguely remember waking up and thinking I heard my name through the wall and then... 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgQEQPiFSj
"No way... I... Oh god!" My eyes pop open so wide, they begin to hurt.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGQs1PcZnI
Crap. Did I really climb on top of him? Yep, I was totally grinding on him.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXtodG629a
I gasp, my gaze running down his body before I can stop myself. I take in his muscles, but his bottom half is covered in a sheet. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJkYbHsgz1
His eyes meet mine. "Reminiscing?" 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmRzClFPhI
"What! No!" My voice is too high and rushed to be convincing. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3sYWABKVa
I remember licking his defined chest.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hY7cRMfg5
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I remember... 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4A1P1m487n
he was naked!626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48UYusgNXc
I inwardly groan. I totally touched him. I know how big he is and... 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDXdn6KBvE
Oh god! I know how he tastes. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c2dTffBTO
"Shit." I know it's inelegant, but I can't think of anything else to say.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8nN3r9iTX
His mouth pops open as his face twists in shock. "Did you just... I can't believe you just said shit!" 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCYYH6NndP
"What? Why not?" I sit up, feeling defensive. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5et5Ll2L2
Why is he so shocked? He barely knows me. Why does he assume this? Did I say something weird last night?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbKVUzIjVX
"You seemed kinda offended when I cussed, so I guess I just assumed..." He looks shy, almost like he was caught doing something wrong.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHkqXEWfLf
"Based on?" Sure, I don't make a habit of using curse words, but it's more an ingrained reflex than an actual choice. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtY7rEMhDn
He hesitates, like he's afraid to say and I begin to feel slightly nervous. Crap, what did I say?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFJH3BEPtZ
"You... uh... kinda flinched." He blushes and looks around the room. Insecure Ben is totally adorable. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P2bYOBvM5
"Oh." I'm honestly not sure how to respond because I definitely can't tell him the truth. "Well, I wasn't offended."626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERKvPcOVHy
"Okay." He blows out a breath, looking up at the ceiling. "If you say so." 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwTF9DQO3v
He looks completely unconvinced but I can't give him more than that. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip8BdAUYhI
"So." He clears his throat. "Not to be totally awkward here..." His gaze drops to the tent of his crotch before his eyes scan the floor. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76Lrpvk3G2
"And not that I would mind laying in bed with you all day." He looks down my body and winks. "But, maybe we should get dressed?"626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUWXdXzZJA
I look down at myself, just now realizing I'm sitting here in lacy underwear. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4BcaRSg4C
When I don't respond, Ben flashes his smile. "Or not, I mean you look great." 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp1QF9UN31
I am unable to hide the look of shock on my face before I snatch the sheet to cover myself. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF2tLRJBth
Which is no longer covering "Little Ben", if you can even call it that.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wdeYdQvfN
Oops.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Sy944rnm7
Of course that would happen to me! I take a moment to look at it in the daylight and wow, it's like a sculpture. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5i4f9Gadi7
Unable to stop myself, I have apparently lost my filter completely around this man. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPnj9G3XOD
"Well hello, Big Ben." I try not to giggle like an immature school girl, but Ben's laugh makes me laugh harder. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IzhZ8zGvF
"Big Ben, huh?" He grins, making my stomach flutter. He shakes his head, amused. "What am I going to do with you?"626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9M1taL74vx
My mouth goes dry as my mind conjures up all kinds of things he could do to me. It feels like all the air was sucked out of the room as I struggle to control my breathing. Is it hot in here, or is it just me?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4RJucoQzs
My gaze returns to "Big Ben", as it seems to grow, straining to reach me. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm69Mho612B
Prying my eyes away, I meet his green gaze. He's no longer grinning or teasing, in fact, it looks like he's in pain. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuhCkvYm4Y
"So, you like what you see?" His eyes never leaving mine. I try to close my mouth and steady my breathing. I need to keep my composure, but my head nods without my approval. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKesEsS2EfF
I lick my lips, remembering last night. I can't get my mouth to form words.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00OC2EA9lb
"Because I wouldn't mind seeing a little more." He reaches forward, tugging down the sheet. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4dXsds8JE
He sucks in a breath. "Fuck, Kat."626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4mfPYA1MN
I close my eyes, my insides turning to liquid fire. I love his cussing, like he can't control himself. Maybe it's because of my background and it makes him seem like such a bad boy, but it turns me on, like crazy.626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS99DLmttb
He caresses my breasts through the sheer fabric. "God damn, you are beautiful." 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDkC10dXNz
I absorb his words as another wave of lust hits me. I know this is a bad idea. I know we should not be doing this, but I'm not sure I could stop it, even if I wanted to. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApYihgFKdd
His hands move down my body as his mouth meets mine. His kiss is hungry and desperate and I can't get enough. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QLi6yFJzS
His hand grazes me where I'm aching and I nearly explode. I need him. Now. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0h3kDShlIM
"Do you have a condom?" He has to have one in here somewhere, right?626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DlWB30mpj
He blushes and looks slightly uncomfortable. "Actually..." We both freeze as the sound of yelling grows closer. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNBd4iJkEi
I pull the sheet up to cover myself just as the door bursts open. All I see Vanessa's fiery hair flying around as she takes the scene before her. "What the fucking fuck is fucking going on in here?" 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuQDQR7SqY
I know her well enough to know when she can't think, she drops f-bombs. Her gaze drops to Ben's crotch, before he grabs a corner of the sheet to cover himself. 626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSntbG4u1C
I can't help the laughter that bursts out of me at the sight of her craziness. "Calm yourself, Vanessa."
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