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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLc31ptlE2
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigwdjGJlMm
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Q5JFXlzbW
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gR0bdjPWC
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgEzutl6nX
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3Bx6owuvn
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pY6bockWp
One day, I will be killed by myself
192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESkWpneRUyThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigwdjGJlMm
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Q5JFXlzbW
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gR0bdjPWC
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgEzutl6nX
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3Bx6owuvn
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pY6bockWp
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKMgh2oHoy
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBsjLUVD5l
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgwD4wNRJM
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQ7kpzfZy6
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrm2ajdKkO
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF1vnQoS5S
However, if I really wanted to192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbau3vXK0wi
I can answer those ramblings192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6C4nVs9MY
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Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdjtZaK9Rb
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8F1HJBiE7
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgwD4wNRJM
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQ7kpzfZy6
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrm2ajdKkO
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF1vnQoS5S
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I can answer those ramblings192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6C4nVs9MY
As easy as conducting an experiment192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5GaNY0N5y
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdjtZaK9Rb
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8F1HJBiE7
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcTafNJ9pE
"This is all my fault"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxuFblwIly
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CvBGc1jve
I have already gone crazy and mad192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgMIEiKSTG
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmC8TSevUA
"It is alright"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj8MecF0ak
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With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsGypK1W9c
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zjUZkwViz
Though, does it matter anymore ?192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDCKFcMbjS
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVrEQiLR2L
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPRDzhiKas
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Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrkn9q3lx4
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eiRnyR4YU
I have already lost it all
192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡridq2jTuNq"This is all my fault"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxuFblwIly
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CvBGc1jve
I have already gone crazy and mad192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgMIEiKSTG
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmC8TSevUA
"It is alright"192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj8MecF0ak
And it became alright for me192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKRhgRcbUn
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsGypK1W9c
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zjUZkwViz
Though, does it matter anymore ?192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDCKFcMbjS
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVrEQiLR2L
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPRDzhiKas
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Am I the weird one here? 192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlfgdxXKxR
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eiRnyR4YU
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGhhASU0wn
Days without worry and doubts192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4xpaRyzx3
Times that are as pure as crystal clear192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb21rHPT42
I was happy before192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdgFrId8mu
And on that day, when the light went off192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygJzstAD6C
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Taught me unconditional love192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO9TNLa2rf
She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4xpaRyzx3
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And on that day, when the light went off192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygJzstAD6C
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcv9dmkZkb
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAg2qR28Ynw
There was someone who love me192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDRfrGn3UF
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwjJxA69mf
