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再見了196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfyZqZ0n3y
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jdZvzLlPZ
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzV1kiW2aIf
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UHhqBn8Uj
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxmeRNZ9z3
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjMyDBehfB
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P4M6Gh8fj
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKAOAmXA40
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRVnnoPuzR
One day, I will be killed by myself
196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTSVkpFWKBThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UHhqBn8Uj
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxmeRNZ9z3
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjMyDBehfB
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P4M6Gh8fj
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKAOAmXA40
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRVnnoPuzR
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMokskqyTG
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9fEe08djL
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAXBlnwGh4
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9TDvxNhm9
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRX1PJBX3B
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4f52IwtPp
However, if I really wanted to196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa5Z8896Hz
I can answer those ramblings196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLYa74i0pi
As easy as conducting an experiment196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sqVieGQUG
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm99rvxnCKA
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO8ZIZ0HUg
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlN0dvPGd3MForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9fEe08djL
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAXBlnwGh4
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9TDvxNhm9
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRX1PJBX3B
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4f52IwtPp
However, if I really wanted to196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa5Z8896Hz
I can answer those ramblings196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLYa74i0pi
As easy as conducting an experiment196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sqVieGQUG
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm99rvxnCKA
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO8ZIZ0HUg
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCebBTy9YI
"This is all my fault"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SWIHYific
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkp0pskh07
I have already gone crazy and mad196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW6QLs1ltY
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxep6Cl4rL
"It is alright"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZoJrkS32v
And it became alright for me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsAWOBMfcK
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMT9IP42jr
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5OILNs07V
Though, does it matter anymore ?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9WQzMlLEg
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1IEtQyY6B
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S31euhffj
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Am I the weird one here? 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdJzajjdnQ
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CWjuelHZr
Am I the wrong one here?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlc35EYbn9a
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6uKMqID0k
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswfgxcBo03
I have already lost it all
196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsS15S9B0q"This is all my fault"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SWIHYific
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkp0pskh07
I have already gone crazy and mad196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW6QLs1ltY
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxep6Cl4rL
"It is alright"196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZoJrkS32v
And it became alright for me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsAWOBMfcK
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMT9IP42jr
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5OILNs07V
Though, does it matter anymore ?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9WQzMlLEg
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1IEtQyY6B
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S31euhffj
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Am I the weird one here? 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdJzajjdnQ
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CWjuelHZr
Am I the wrong one here?196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlc35EYbn9a
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6uKMqID0k
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswfgxcBo03
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSMglqxPf8
Days without worry and doubts196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5I0jzbtbGp
Times that are as pure as crystal clear196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOUlZSjs19
I was happy before196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtqNe3Vc8I
And on that day, when the light went off196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEjTXGa8YB
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8bxlTy3sE
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OSqv0MyNc
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrlINJuQQz
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWZhoC5Suu
There was someone who love me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOvToajMns
Taught me unconditional love196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1YDQ671qt
She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5I0jzbtbGp
Times that are as pure as crystal clear196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOUlZSjs19
I was happy before196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtqNe3Vc8I
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And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8bxlTy3sE
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OSqv0MyNc
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrlINJuQQz
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWZhoC5Suu
There was someone who love me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOvToajMns
Taught me unconditional love196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1YDQ671qt
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGviwytfoA
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHvojJmW0d
