晚安了，媽媽252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1bkB0QewN
Good night, mom252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNKjUuOcyl
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmdtp0ztzh
さよなら252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcJyZmwyB8
再見了252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAiqDg5tSa
Goodbye252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHTZ3Uj7Tx
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL44QRJNIDU
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvGsOuUxLL
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTqUzrjQ6c
在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyh3gUqQm7q
不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ1Hcq0D4z
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCvBAkGC1U
ns216.73.216.8da2 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCvBAkGC1U
Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYqTgl7Nh8
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnhAvbO5jQ
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oItNzfwrc
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3UmlNj9aK
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXnh09QKzO
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPegVBa6tQ
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ1VskusNu
One day, I will be killed by myself
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0NokbUJpXThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnhAvbO5jQ
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oItNzfwrc
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3UmlNj9aK
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXnh09QKzO
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPegVBa6tQ
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ1VskusNu
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtJ0d3DaAV
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡox4E1dCT9g
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuqOZT3dLC
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XFJHyvD4z
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkoXOSWzZC
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3sI9vYwDF
However, if I really wanted to252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzadpdNfMc1
I can answer those ramblings252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQj6qAWDVn
As easy as conducting an experiment252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aBd3V3Y3T
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuHDIO5u08
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw9rU8fzCB
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV2mVnKmWoForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡox4E1dCT9g
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuqOZT3dLC
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XFJHyvD4z
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkoXOSWzZC
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3sI9vYwDF
However, if I really wanted to252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzadpdNfMc1
I can answer those ramblings252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQj6qAWDVn
As easy as conducting an experiment252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aBd3V3Y3T
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuHDIO5u08
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw9rU8fzCB
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRp0dfoyo6
"This is all my fault"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKT4gYEdtd
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXO2anDJOUA
I have already gone crazy and mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V0MGbfLxd
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzMff23rbo
"It is alright"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ3fosgXL0
And it became alright for me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeHAyUzGrH
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gCJwTBIGi
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesdg7MRn5K
Though, does it matter anymore ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRDaePeRST
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoXp1aH1MB
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZndUhbmAld
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0Rl0tKw7y
Am I the weird one here? 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsBWLtrKVs
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9r9zp2eJXa
Am I the wrong one here?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUiinic84y
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3XXwX622j
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaArJNpoX6s
I have already lost it all
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJgD9ZZqVS"This is all my fault"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKT4gYEdtd
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXO2anDJOUA
I have already gone crazy and mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V0MGbfLxd
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzMff23rbo
"It is alright"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ3fosgXL0
And it became alright for me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeHAyUzGrH
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gCJwTBIGi
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesdg7MRn5K
Though, does it matter anymore ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRDaePeRST
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoXp1aH1MB
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZndUhbmAld
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0Rl0tKw7y
Am I the weird one here? 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsBWLtrKVs
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9r9zp2eJXa
Am I the wrong one here?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUiinic84y
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3XXwX622j
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaArJNpoX6s
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlm8BbfPcD
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJdMBCXq89
Days without worry and doubts252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGEdtnZo4B
Times that are as pure as crystal clear252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHeDVXu2F3
I was happy before252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡus2yqj0RpQ
And on that day, when the light went off252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnDT9B8ZTY
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLho7JCUv5
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAzDh3poWm
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0UeeNTuFR
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzIXWHEkOi
There was someone who love me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qkHPnGw77
Taught me unconditional love252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE9mDY3JAx
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJdMBCXq89
Days without worry and doubts252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGEdtnZo4B
Times that are as pure as crystal clear252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHeDVXu2F3
I was happy before252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡus2yqj0RpQ
And on that day, when the light went off252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnDT9B8ZTY
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLho7JCUv5
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAzDh3poWm
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0UeeNTuFR
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzIXWHEkOi
There was someone who love me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qkHPnGw77
Taught me unconditional love252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE9mDY3JAx
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljexDsxazD
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYIEZ6jMFg
Yet her hands were cold that morning252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kko0npSsu
