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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了250Please respect copyright.PENANAPRWY79J8ys
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from250Please respect copyright.PENANAiqLH5jYTAu
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart250Please respect copyright.PENANAqIZ2CrLb2A
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self250Please respect copyright.PENANAUYo53OMafy
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"250Please respect copyright.PENANArJ7GBS4yNj
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me250Please respect copyright.PENANAdVGYIVsD4o
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me250Please respect copyright.PENANA9c8A2TbpS5
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes250Please respect copyright.PENANAC5kTfHT8uD
One day, I will be killed by myself
250Please respect copyright.PENANAf0VeVagLQWThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart250Please respect copyright.PENANAqIZ2CrLb2A
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self250Please respect copyright.PENANAUYo53OMafy
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"250Please respect copyright.PENANArJ7GBS4yNj
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me250Please respect copyright.PENANAdVGYIVsD4o
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me250Please respect copyright.PENANA9c8A2TbpS5
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes250Please respect copyright.PENANAC5kTfHT8uD
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?250Please respect copyright.PENANAhF5vcyKwIA
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again250Please respect copyright.PENANAizavvXacsG
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered250Please respect copyright.PENANAjj0metWFOz
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"250Please respect copyright.PENANAjjUI6fnSd6
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind250Please respect copyright.PENANAoJCwlEJzHF
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 250Please respect copyright.PENANA1qwQmsqDEV
However, if I really wanted to250Please respect copyright.PENANAxdFAsVa8Ed
I can answer those ramblings250Please respect copyright.PENANAKWkV6ak9og
As easy as conducting an experiment250Please respect copyright.PENANA1IJ8t0lGmW
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible250Please respect copyright.PENANA8UtCDM7JXx
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning250Please respect copyright.PENANAujAhMmj4dN
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered250Please respect copyright.PENANAjj0metWFOz
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"250Please respect copyright.PENANAjjUI6fnSd6
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind250Please respect copyright.PENANAoJCwlEJzHF
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 250Please respect copyright.PENANA1qwQmsqDEV
However, if I really wanted to250Please respect copyright.PENANAxdFAsVa8Ed
I can answer those ramblings250Please respect copyright.PENANAKWkV6ak9og
As easy as conducting an experiment250Please respect copyright.PENANA1IJ8t0lGmW
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible250Please respect copyright.PENANA8UtCDM7JXx
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning250Please respect copyright.PENANAujAhMmj4dN
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"250Please respect copyright.PENANAjzUGTt0AV6
"This is all my fault"250Please respect copyright.PENANA2HgnW402Hc
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed250Please respect copyright.PENANAKs0AiBboxS
I have already gone crazy and mad250Please respect copyright.PENANAn5F5UI8sN5
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself250Please respect copyright.PENANAzjWjIPrY0y
"It is alright"250Please respect copyright.PENANAdFddXYlFgY
And it became alright for me250Please respect copyright.PENANAQReCKohTZj
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them250Please respect copyright.PENANAwjp4KZEMUK
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path250Please respect copyright.PENANA3nrmGiEsxa
Though, does it matter anymore ?250Please respect copyright.PENANAMPbVfLtyT9
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?250Please respect copyright.PENANAXLiRWsOTdW
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after250Please respect copyright.PENANA11OWYHbgS1
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Am I the weird one here? 250Please respect copyright.PENANAmAoyXTk40Z
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Am I the wrong one here?250Please respect copyright.PENANAI8EocNaVcO
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist250Please respect copyright.PENANAYomGkXw4DT
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back250Please respect copyright.PENANAOYtMvjV0un
I have already lost it all
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The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed250Please respect copyright.PENANAKs0AiBboxS
I have already gone crazy and mad250Please respect copyright.PENANAn5F5UI8sN5
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself250Please respect copyright.PENANAzjWjIPrY0y
"It is alright"250Please respect copyright.PENANAdFddXYlFgY
And it became alright for me250Please respect copyright.PENANAQReCKohTZj
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them250Please respect copyright.PENANAwjp4KZEMUK
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path250Please respect copyright.PENANA3nrmGiEsxa
Though, does it matter anymore ?250Please respect copyright.PENANAMPbVfLtyT9
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?250Please respect copyright.PENANAXLiRWsOTdW
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after250Please respect copyright.PENANA11OWYHbgS1
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Am I the weird one here? 250Please respect copyright.PENANAmAoyXTk40Z
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me250Please respect copyright.PENANAHxsFdfZDWo
Am I the wrong one here?250Please respect copyright.PENANAI8EocNaVcO
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist250Please respect copyright.PENANAYomGkXw4DT
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back250Please respect copyright.PENANAOYtMvjV0un
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad250Please respect copyright.PENANAD41aCN5MyH
Days without worry and doubts250Please respect copyright.PENANAl4lmy9DbRA
Times that are as pure as crystal clear250Please respect copyright.PENANAAVCIlAUPJT
I was happy before250Please respect copyright.PENANAnnTWB1iSKL
And on that day, when the light went off250Please respect copyright.PENANAjA2LDicbgi
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In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer250Please respect copyright.PENANAEOJ2FWyY6f
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything250Please respect copyright.PENANAzXqhbjmo6D
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then250Please respect copyright.PENANAFNwfNudaaF
There was someone who love me250Please respect copyright.PENANAjLdQQxkmmC
Taught me unconditional love250Please respect copyright.PENANATF2n39Yklr
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad250Please respect copyright.PENANAD41aCN5MyH
Days without worry and doubts250Please respect copyright.PENANAl4lmy9DbRA
Times that are as pure as crystal clear250Please respect copyright.PENANAAVCIlAUPJT
I was happy before250Please respect copyright.PENANAnnTWB1iSKL
And on that day, when the light went off250Please respect copyright.PENANAjA2LDicbgi
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter250Please respect copyright.PENANAxu8gwwKxMB
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer250Please respect copyright.PENANAEOJ2FWyY6f
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything250Please respect copyright.PENANAzXqhbjmo6D
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then250Please respect copyright.PENANAFNwfNudaaF
There was someone who love me250Please respect copyright.PENANAjLdQQxkmmC
Taught me unconditional love250Please respect copyright.PENANATF2n39Yklr
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning250Please respect copyright.PENANAT6MlBQR5qW