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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4SnYzHhcP
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgioP3Mhpo
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cBT0NZFAH
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yf1kzLmHN
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpHOw3cPZz
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHMMI88yLW
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcI8H4ssDh
One day, I will be killed by myself
214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRA2u6SLE3oThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgioP3Mhpo
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cBT0NZFAH
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yf1kzLmHN
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpHOw3cPZz
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHMMI88yLW
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcI8H4ssDh
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3cw0XqcBS
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLL132ngm4
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx7q02qjXT
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvERt2nNms
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuZtpxTkCx
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmdud0G7LZ
However, if I really wanted to214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquGmeU1p0D
I can answer those ramblings214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y4xNo9Srp
As easy as conducting an experiment214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxS9I4RNlR
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2sKAHCLCY
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmG7JnyRi3
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuD5EZPbYbForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLL132ngm4
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx7q02qjXT
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvERt2nNms
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuZtpxTkCx
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmdud0G7LZ
However, if I really wanted to214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquGmeU1p0D
I can answer those ramblings214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y4xNo9Srp
As easy as conducting an experiment214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxS9I4RNlR
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2sKAHCLCY
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmG7JnyRi3
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjvzxRu5S2
"This is all my fault"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawWF07TbaK
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WSZrvDW14
I have already gone crazy and mad214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvoE0nadax
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhUHF74Ut9
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And it became alright for me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVKIHKTnAG
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7i79vo65c5
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPomy5x3U4
Though, does it matter anymore ?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqZQP4oSSK
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuIfw83BDc
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdF3MGZ9dXD
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Am I the weird one here? 214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh6unSJxHR
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmv50dxFExF
Am I the wrong one here?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHlCrXU92b
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7U384P3D9S
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTj6zzLOWR
I have already lost it all
214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgCEe7tccW"This is all my fault"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawWF07TbaK
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WSZrvDW14
I have already gone crazy and mad214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvoE0nadax
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhUHF74Ut9
"It is alright"214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPbwMbCgie
And it became alright for me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVKIHKTnAG
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7i79vo65c5
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPomy5x3U4
Though, does it matter anymore ?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqZQP4oSSK
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuIfw83BDc
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdF3MGZ9dXD
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Am I the weird one here? 214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh6unSJxHR
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmv50dxFExF
Am I the wrong one here?214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHlCrXU92b
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7U384P3D9S
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTj6zzLOWR
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0quDOqQubK
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXsfCwWVct
Days without worry and doubts214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDQlH4wjy6
Times that are as pure as crystal clear214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylSdYsUa5f
I was happy before214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyZUBvA9p2
And on that day, when the light went off214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOg1TAq1Ua
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp94kGViaHd
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wx6NhtpFF
There was someone who love me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxYDbXvHtO
Taught me unconditional love214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyG0fVqF3c
She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDQlH4wjy6
Times that are as pure as crystal clear214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylSdYsUa5f
I was happy before214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyZUBvA9p2
And on that day, when the light went off214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOg1TAq1Ua
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In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPQpeIIphv
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp94kGViaHd
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wx6NhtpFF
There was someone who love me214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxYDbXvHtO
Taught me unconditional love214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyG0fVqF3c
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcunhG9WB7
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning214Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgM7D6E3KT
