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這不可能是真的。22Please respect copyright.PENANAbqaigqYEgY
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要快點醒來,站起來,趁現在快點離開。22Please respect copyright.PENANAbEH5tqGL5B
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言曇岫的理性在腦海中急切地說著,四肢卻不聽使喚,這誘人的溫暖,要他如何不貪婪?22Please respect copyright.PENANAWN4RYp718s
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跪在地上抱緊他的黎絳洵輕聲說:「沒事了,別怕。」獨屬黎絳洵的吐息主宰了言曇岫的全部。22Please respect copyright.PENANAZdpoY9WyKl
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這不對。22Please respect copyright.PENANASZvx1LtDND
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這不會發生。22Please respect copyright.PENANA6nJMgGEORT
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黎絳洵不可能──22Please respect copyright.PENANAgXOabvfNuX
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言曇岫的思緒被黎絳洵的吻完全阻斷。22Please respect copyright.PENANAatPFaElCfH
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彷彿要將他揉進骨血的渴求壓迫著他的嘴唇與胸腔。22Please respect copyright.PENANA04ylgpSEjO
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過於美好的幸福,過於美好的夢。22Please respect copyright.PENANAClh7I0nL56
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不可能發生在他身上。22Please respect copyright.PENANA56x54iC1er
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「綉綉,沒事了,我會找到你的。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAMIa9Bn0D3M
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心跳,好像停了。22Please respect copyright.PENANAR7X0HoJdxy
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那天晚上,言曇岫沒能走成,肇事逃逸的貓早就不在屋裡,言曇岫能聽見的,剩下彼此的呼吸聲,許久後,言曇岫艱難地拿出腰間的香囊,按在黎絳洵鼻尖,直到他睡去。22Please respect copyright.PENANArw8D1cfWrS
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言曇岫抱起黎絳洵,將他放在床上,蓋好被子後,輕手輕腳地離開,並在自己房中,枯坐到天明。22Please respect copyright.PENANARG6t87aVdO
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只有生母會喊他岫岫。22Please respect copyright.PENANAheKrBUiAvR
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他從來沒有跟黎絳洵說過這件事。22Please respect copyright.PENANAUR2wArTabu
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那是和自己名字相同的他人。22Please respect copyright.PENANAalf9BXc7UD
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黎絳洵真正在意的人。22Please respect copyright.PENANAYdgEQGu3SI
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也恐怕是,黎絳洵當初幫他脫離言府的真正原因。22Please respect copyright.PENANAhUc2u6p7Rp
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即便是這樣,心底還是鬆了一口氣,他還能……再多看黎絳洵一下子的,對嗎?22Please respect copyright.PENANAaWKCx1EVuZ
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他只是無法下定決心,去問出真相而已。22Please respect copyright.PENANAtU89CDx4JO
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「曇岫?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAnLJeRznkvL
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黎絳洵偏著頭看他,雙手撐在他面前的桌子上。22Please respect copyright.PENANAFRya8FimCr
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──你到底、在找誰呢?22Please respect copyright.PENANALIWALd4Ams
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「你怎麼啦?」22Please respect copyright.PENANA60F9e9yNJj
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──你到底、在看著誰呢?22Please respect copyright.PENANAP29ipv7fE6
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言曇岫垂眸,視線落在自己與黎絳洵指尖之間的空白。22Please respect copyright.PENANAlzYLgPX8K2
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「你要是睏了,就先去睡吧?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAHOzKnpjOjr
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──你什麼都不知道啊。22Please respect copyright.PENANATvO3UQ3gaM
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突然滑過眼尾的是黎絳洵的拇指,言曇岫一頓,整理好情緒後,才抬眼。22Please respect copyright.PENANAaFKi1QEY3R
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「我看你眼眶有點紅。」黎絳洵望著拇指指尖。22Please respect copyright.PENANAWH4ZcmIHCe
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「我沒有……睡得好。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAYZszHbaX5R
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他想著這段時間的夜晚,雖然不願多談,因應熬夜而生的眼下淡淡一層黑色,卻無法說謊。22Please respect copyright.PENANASf3moceR2m
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「是身體不舒服?還是有心事?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAAlLoCJH4Pe
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言曇岫按在手臂上的手指微曲,袖子蓋住的肌膚,留有黎絳洵喝醉之後,用力抓握而留下的瘀青。22Please respect copyright.PENANAkQVoEEkgvP
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「你喝太多酒了。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAqwBkVbXf8d
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「嗯,最近忙著退婚的事情,言府開了很多條件。」黎絳洵聳肩。22Please respect copyright.PENANA4hTvlwrj5A
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黎絳洵變得常常喝酒,因為酒精而升高的體溫,夜裡總是,從容納言曇岫的懷抱裡傳過來。22Please respect copyright.PENANAgWHACZ20O7
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「你有聽見嗎?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAphHSgwNp9m
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言曇岫盯著黎絳洵的眼睛,沒有眨眼。22Please respect copyright.PENANAUwx1BIQL2Y
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黎絳洵微微低頭說:「不是你希望我退婚的嗎?怎麼還不開心?」22Please respect copyright.PENANA7vHo2iJlOi
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言曇岫閉眼,花了幾秒鐘,才按著桌面起身,「抱歉,我先去休息。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAUrV2U08vRd
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明明應該要感到開心,因為黎絳洵記得他說過的話;明明應該要開心,因為黎絳洵沒有要和言曇橋成婚……不應該思考,即便不是言曇橋,也會是別人;不應該思考,黎絳洵更可能是因為他心上人而退婚。22Please respect copyright.PENANAzhBn8Vey56
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夏季的午後雷陣雨,來得快、去得也快,不會留下看不到盡頭的黏膩。22Please respect copyright.PENANAxW0b3cg62s
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言曇岫眼裡映著剛才還滿是漣漪的湖水。22Please respect copyright.PENANAIK5JNM5EQo
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婚約原本就會退,畢竟言曇橋與外男珠胎暗結,言府才會巴著黎絳洵不放,不過是想給女兒一個可靠的歸處,給女兒腹中的胎兒找個假的父親,只是消息無論防得再嚴,黎絳洵總有辦法知道。22Please respect copyright.PENANAV8j5fTE4wv
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他睡不好。22Please respect copyright.PENANALo9L9TYGn8
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黎絳洵喝醉以後,總要抱著他親很久,才肯去睡。22Please respect copyright.PENANAnLX7mWUE3x
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白天看見黎絳洵還是老樣子,對誰都很溫柔的樣子。22Please respect copyright.PENANAer1AjXWrpr
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他睡不好。22Please respect copyright.PENANAYYftJWoSjr
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夜裡被黎絳洵抱得太緊,只要一鬆開,言曇岫便會感到徹骨的冷。22Please respect copyright.PENANAvTu7GH3wgA
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他假扮成黎絳洵喜歡的樣子,黎絳洵喜歡的仍舊不是他。22Please respect copyright.PENANAquL1XO27TE
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他睡不好。22Please respect copyright.PENANAFtZaV5GU3m
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他要得太多。22Please respect copyright.PENANArVoJonN0AL
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言曇岫側躺在床上,眼皮擋住的是酸乏,卻緩解不了疲憊。22Please respect copyright.PENANArttSwnQxHq
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半夢半醒間,他好像看到黎絳洵坐在床邊,手心按在他額頭上。22Please respect copyright.PENANAqiC1HqxDGM
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只要再次闔上眼,就能在夢境中永遠不醒。22Please respect copyright.PENANAg20rcbBql8
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言曇岫以為自己會因為被黎絳洵強烈渴求,而希冀他在夜裡飲酒;實際上他希望,太陽不要落下,黎絳洵眼中看見的,就可能還是自己。22Please respect copyright.PENANAuoMwdWUNm5
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哪怕那是在黎絳洵醒著時,不可能有的親暱,也不真的屬於自己。22Please respect copyright.PENANApVwQx2YmZ7
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不知為何想起了,黎家的貓終於願意靠近自己時,黎絳洵突如其來的沉默。22Please respect copyright.PENANAHHgfCpJmDO
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那時候,黎絳洵在想什麼呢?22Please respect copyright.PENANA9T4aVSc02P
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言曇岫想睜眼看清楚黎絳洵的臉,只是莫名使不上力。22Please respect copyright.PENANAm11jlprpWZ
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黎絳洵的手輕撫著他的臉龐,言曇岫聽見自己的心跳聲壓過了呼吸聲。22Please respect copyright.PENANAnuke009TUD
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確認人已經離開很久以後,言曇岫才鬆了一口氣,能正常呼吸時,淚水也滑落到枕頭上。22Please respect copyright.PENANAF2db3dm4df
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好像很久沒哭了,他想不起來。22Please respect copyright.PENANAxETOVqLhWx
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和黎絳洵無關的過去,蒙了塵沙,模糊得看不清原本的顏色。22Please respect copyright.PENANAd4grUlUCx8
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後來連著幾天,黎絳洵都沒出門,言曇岫試著和以前一樣和對方搭話,黎絳洵看上去心不在焉的,貓咪在他腳邊叫了很久,他才抱起掙扎的貓,走出門前,他忽然回頭問言曇岫:「你是不是不記得這隻貓的名字?」22Please respect copyright.PENANA5ch1xmnOr4
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「我……我分不出來哪隻貓是府裡的,哪隻是不認識的野貓。」22Please respect copyright.PENANA5YlaNk6LUB
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黎絳洵不置可否,背影消失在門後。22Please respect copyright.PENANAzMy6h1v9TS
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用過晚飯後,黎絳洵放下碗問:「今年的子夜祈願,你要去嗎?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAVLLzNKlcLt
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「原來明天是秋分了,我沒注意到。」言曇岫不曉得黎絳洵為什麼問他,畢竟往年,黎絳洵都會在秋分外出,前一晚總是早早睡下,言曇岫去的幾次子夜祈願,都是黎絳洵的父母帶他去的。22Please respect copyright.PENANAxdAVsARCR2
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因為他們這邊的習俗,秋分是休息日,前一晚會有祭典,到子時鐘響,大家會一起祈願,通常都是許願秋收豐盛、來年風調雨順,自然也有尚未婚配的少年、少女祈求姻緣。22Please respect copyright.PENANAq9oQzVVrKM
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黎絳洵雙肘放在桌上,稍微往前傾問:「要一起去嗎?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAuTp7yAGLkh
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「你明天不是要出門嗎?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAy1vuiPhTXt
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「不用啊。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAcCIXH5dsh5
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言曇岫望著黎絳洵,他們從來沒有一起去過。22Please respect copyright.PENANAbDNxHlG9Tz
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「我想去,和你一起。」雖然不曉得黎絳洵為什麼今年忽然不出門了,言曇岫拒絕不了黎絳洵。22Please respect copyright.PENANAt1AlpOXfqD
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秋分前日的祭典,是在輪流在附近幾間比較大的寺廟前舉辦的,今年輪到的這間,陪祀的月老很靈,名氣甚至壓過了主神。22Please respect copyright.PENANAnyPu0MjeHY
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由於今年的秋分早於中秋,明年很可能是豐年,大概今天子夜祈願的時候,來許願的人比較少會祈求穀物豐收,改求姻緣吧。22Please respect copyright.PENANAGhENN57Kc8
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好不容易才撥開人潮、追上黎絳洵,言曇岫氣喘吁吁地扶著膝蓋,看向黑夜裡更加醒目的黎絳洵。22Please respect copyright.PENANAoQF86q7yPI
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「幹嘛這麼急?我又不是不會等你。」黎絳洵笑了笑。22Please respect copyright.PENANAb03rExKjFM
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「我總不能和以前一樣,拉著你的袖子。」22Please respect copyright.PENANA5kaTULJXVW
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黎絳洵不解:「為什麼不行?」22Please respect copyright.PENANA9v3k1n3gzD
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「因為我不是小孩子……了吧?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAi6JNWc8ICA
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「你為什麼聽上去那麼不確定啊?」22Please respect copyright.PENANA763CsBV76K
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「因為,我覺得在你眼裡,我永遠是孩子。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAAiRkn0Qlal
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言曇岫等了一下子,黎絳洵都沒說話,他才將視線放回黎絳洵的臉。22Please respect copyright.PENANAVXezNc7glm
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「那不是小孩了的言公子,覺得要用什麼方法,防止走失?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAttNAqB4nnI
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言曇岫下意識看向其他人,果然很多都是一對一對的男女,比較矜持的,是用帶子兩端綁在兩人手腕上,比較大膽一點的,是直接牽手。22Please respect copyright.PENANAuMFyXecuho
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意思是說,他能在這兩者之間選一個嗎?選哪個都可以實現嗎?22Please respect copyright.PENANATUSO0DAzst
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黎絳洵的目光隨著言曇岫伸出的手,最後落在自己手腕上。22Please respect copyright.PENANAyBhUtJuGmg
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言曇岫看不清楚黎絳洵的眼神,手心也漸漸不再乾燥。22Please respect copyright.PENANAZUWrhxEfTZ
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當所有人被最後一次煙火吸引注意力時,黎絳洵反手牽住言曇岫的手。22Please respect copyright.PENANAmBNHkTUvLh
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「言公子還說自己不是小孩?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAa7hDyIVLeE
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言曇岫看著對方的嘴唇,他有聽見,只是沒有聽懂,黎絳洵笑了笑,拉著他走向準備祈願的人群之中。22Please respect copyright.PENANAVMhRL0LJUd
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很多人的話,不同的聲線,不同的語速,聽上去都是祈求得遇良人。22Please respect copyright.PENANADTOzF2ruPM
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黎絳洵的背部很近,比虛無縹緲的神靈,要近得太多,言曇岫希望黎絳洵能聽見,又希望他沒在聽。22Please respect copyright.PENANAJV1dAId07b
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──請給我、再多一點時間。22Please respect copyright.PENANA3rFRD1fs6J
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言曇岫不確定自己有沒有說出聲,他彷彿被煙火爆炸的聲音炸礱了一樣,很長一段時間,都什麼也聽不見。22Please respect copyright.PENANAmThluJkdmL
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黎絳洵見他失神,把剛買的紅豆餅貼到言曇岫唇上。22Please respect copyright.PENANASLvbLKPBqg
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言曇岫有短暫的時間,想著要是能將眼前的人,拉入懷裡就好了。22Please respect copyright.PENANAjtrX94ipUO
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甚至想,要是現在,能接吻的話,黎絳洵是不是可能──22Please respect copyright.PENANAWojCZxgJHN
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言曇岫用力閉了閉眼,正要下定決心拋棄剛才的所有妄念,咬下那個香甜的紅豆餅就揭過去這件事,人卻被推向樹幹,他睜眼後,只看到黎絳洵的臉靠得很近,黎絳洵一手按著他的手腕,另一手阻隔在樹幹與他的腰之間。22Please respect copyright.PENANAu1SWE3p2nU
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光在黎絳洵背後,言曇岫看不清楚他的表情,直到人聲漸漸杳去,黎絳洵才轉頭看向旁邊,攤販的燈籠照著他的側臉。22Please respect copyright.PENANAptez9eOfRM
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言曇岫想知道他的真實情緒,卻只看見飛蛾在燈籠外胡亂繞行。22Please respect copyright.PENANAE3Gkpe8sie
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黎絳洵終於轉移視線的時候,言曇岫下意識低頭避開,望見的是從燈籠底部落下的著火飛蛾,掉在地上已被踩扁的紅豆餅旁邊,火花很快就熄滅了,比螢火蟲的光還要不醒目。22Please respect copyright.PENANAGlhjfxEGtY
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「抱歉,剛才言小姐在附近。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAKzuAGf732Q
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黎絳洵的聲音太近了,言曇岫只要再前進一些,就能撞上他的體溫,只是將妄想化為現實的衝動,隨著火光熄滅,也跟著泯滅了。22Please respect copyright.PENANA8QP66IPxWL
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言曇岫聽見自己說:「那個紅豆餅,我還沒吃到。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAxKl4j6yewi
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