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儘管這麼想很失禮,黎絳洵仍舊想不出,對後續的狀況能怎麼有更正面一點的形容詞。39Please respect copyright.PENANAPHLyjBaBH3
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簡直是煉獄。39Please respect copyright.PENANAxNHxd832uQ
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撞上自己的那位姑娘,衣著飾品都是上乘之物,其中某些更是光有錢也無法擁有的,然而與之相反的是,那些因氣憤而謾罵的話語,聽得他頭痛,分明是對方先撞上來的,卻要求自己道歉,生氣得理所當然。39Please respect copyright.PENANAxJ3BoqZeEm
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黎絳洵按捺著性子,盡可能順著那位姑娘的意思,好沒容易才脫身,來尋他的小廝摀著胸口問:「公子,那真的是未來的少夫人嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAK6RhGEtlgX
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「少夫人?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAlnKZtaJMw5
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小廝驚魂甫定地吞下口水後說:「那是言府千金,公子的未婚妻。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA9fNwLmmnyP
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已經多年沒在他人面前外露的情緒,此刻彷彿將要衝破大壩的暴雨,幾乎能聽見裂痕增長的聲音。39Please respect copyright.PENANAOUcD6yDhG5
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原本……就不該抱持期待的。39Please respect copyright.PENANA9OY2zhcQE7
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黎絳洵閉了閉眼睛,尋了僻靜處,正要稍事休息,卻見有侍女朝著他的方向張望,為防萬一,黎絳洵留下小廝負責攔住他人過來,自己則先去向主人家辭行。39Please respect copyright.PENANANMDtmyB2Kj
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做為今天的話題人物,黎絳洵自是被主人家拉著說了許多話,也不乏勸他留下的說詞,硬是拖到他有些站不穩,才成功離開。39Please respect copyright.PENANANZewF0hcGv
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為了避開更多的人情往來,黎絳洵沒有走正門,側門那邊,除了守門的家丁以外,也沒看見其他人,於是黎絳洵一踏過門檻,就轉身靠向外牆。39Please respect copyright.PENANABRtzvuYdsW
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真的已經到極限了。39Please respect copyright.PENANAbPt9isrKNU
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沒有出現奇蹟。39Please respect copyright.PENANA0wna3Ce8mD
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他平緩好呼吸後,輕輕搖頭,無意間對上一雙無神的眼睛。39Please respect copyright.PENANA65u4KczegH
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言曇岫看著他,或許也不是看他,只是黎絳洵剛好站在那裡而已。39Please respect copyright.PENANAUrcw9qchyE
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略一沉吟,即便心中清楚這沒有意義,可是為防自己繼續深思,黎絳洵還是走到言曇岫面前。39Please respect copyright.PENANAjnsvXwXlL8
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每一步都像踩在刀尖上,當初那個保護不了妻子的自己正在心裡哭喊,阻撓自己前進。39Please respect copyright.PENANAqPRi6pU99k
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不要確認,再往前就是萬劫不復。39Please respect copyright.PENANAIvGoMfNdzH
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腦海中閃過妻子的臉,妻子說話時,想到哪就說到哪,她沒想過其他人會不曉得她的思考過程,進一步說,妻子似乎很意外有人會聽她說話。39Please respect copyright.PENANAUwV3tk54wo
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妻子早在成親時,關節就有問題,每到雨前,便會開始疼痛。39Please respect copyright.PENANAEPgoaRKKmq
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黎絳洵有時候趕著去邑庠,沒能來得及收好書,回來後,案上與櫃中的書籍,雖是收納整齊,可方向並不統一,上下顛倒的狀況時有多見,當時沒多想,甚至問妻子是不是故意要逗他笑,妻子歪著頭看他,彷彿不太明白黎絳洵的意思。39Please respect copyright.PENANAKaiCjyU343
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言曇岫退了一步,黎絳洵也跟著停下來,隔著並不像是要對話的距離,黎絳洵問起言曇橋的事情,見對方沒有反應,他多次變化說法,言曇岫才張口,像是終於理解黎絳洵的意思。39Please respect copyright.PENANA5lWPIEETYZ
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──言曇岫可能沒有與人正常溝通過。39Please respect copyright.PENANAd8P6OwzdKr
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他的句子更像是許多略過細節的詞彙組成的。39Please respect copyright.PENANAwzHk0XMVIo
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黎絳洵耐心傾聽,也試著釐清自己是否有誤會對方的語意。39Please respect copyright.PENANANZ3BMwQzFi
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直到小廝跑過來,黎絳洵才與言曇岫告別,在抵達馬車之前,黎絳洵已經聽完了言府侍女是如何蠻橫地到處打探、找尋黎絳洵,包括最開始找過來的侍女,也是言府的。39Please respect copyright.PENANA7W91r2BXhq
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黎絳洵登上車輿,馬夫還沒調轉轡頭,言曇橋已經走到言曇岫身後,扯住仍勒著言曇岫脖子的繩索,一杯茶就這麼潑往言曇岫的臉。39Please respect copyright.PENANAPBY51BPGGL
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言曇岫的臉上原本滿是髒污塵灰,茶水洗去了那些遮掩,讓言曇岫的面容清晰起來。39Please respect copyright.PENANAJPjg9k2OKP
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黎絳洵抬手制止小廝出聲。39Please respect copyright.PENANApQjNPBVHZU
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他們在的位置聽不見言曇橋的說話內容,只看見言曇橋上了馬車後,馬車過處揚起灰塵,言曇岫的五官再次淹沒在塵沙中,過了好一會兒,言曇岫才追在馬車後跑起來。39Please respect copyright.PENANA7w6KuLbiLF
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言曇岫經過黎絳洵身邊後,黎絳洵轉頭朝著言曇岫的背影喊了一聲:「綉綉!」39Please respect copyright.PENANAuBsPAFatW5
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言曇岫停下腳步,回頭張望片刻,再次追著遠離的車駕跑。39Please respect copyright.PENANArrpgq1sSde
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黎絳洵搖頭,思緒亂得擰不出一個有意義的詞彙。39Please respect copyright.PENANAh087vXHwFj
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回到黎家後,黎絳洵走往書房,再次憑著記憶,試圖描繪妻子的模樣,他不擅長丹青,即便這些年畫了數百張,也沒有真的肖似的。39Please respect copyright.PENANAd96y0DAvJX
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記憶是不可靠的,很多事情,都會隨著時間漸漸消失在記憶裡。39Please respect copyright.PENANABDyfDw6Wqn
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黎絳洵不願意承認,妻子的樣貌卻確實越來越模糊,言曇岫的臉,隱約勾起了他的回憶。39Please respect copyright.PENANAqP8HeceNFA
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妻子和言曇岫之間,可能是親戚嗎?39Please respect copyright.PENANAhPHD5VJ6A2
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幾次讓安插進言府的親信留意言曇岫,並在外頭,假裝恰好經過,免去言曇岫幾次皮肉之苦後,黎絳洵拿出預備好的糕點,原要遞給言曇岫,只是見他雙手仍是藏污納垢,黎絳洵不著痕跡地,改變方向,直接餵到言曇岫嘴裡。39Please respect copyright.PENANA9T5qPIa6UH
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直到言曇岫喝下溫茶,嚥下糕點,黎絳洵才問:「你家中,可有與你年紀相近的表親姊妹?」39Please respect copyright.PENANApt1NdTsD6N
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「表親姊妹?」39Please respect copyright.PENANA2H8C4YEJa6
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「你的……你親生母親那邊的同齡女孩,有嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAIlnGeilQAv
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言曇岫想了一下,才說:「只有母親,死了,沒有了。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3OLRxGDGb
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黎絳洵凝視著言曇岫,那張還沒完全長開的臉,依然髒得看不清容貌。39Please respect copyright.PENANAGkzpm7mvBT
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言曇岫忽然縮起身子,黎絳洵抬頭看向暗去的天色,是烏雲密布。39Please respect copyright.PENANAj2OBP32obl
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「你不去避雨嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANASoeMzFN51I
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言曇岫仰頭望著黎絳洵,搖頭說:「生氣,不可以。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAS5wtIMcAeY
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豆大的雨點落下來,雨水打在他們身上。39Please respect copyright.PENANATYjrzgGfpD
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四周也沒有可以避雨的地方。黎絳洵暗自說服自己。39Please respect copyright.PENANAR1a650XQDM
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在驟雨結束後,黎絳洵擦去言曇岫臉上混著髒汙的雨水,蒙塵的記憶也跟著清晰起來,言曇岫的五官與妻子的一模一樣,只差在整體比例縮小了些。39Please respect copyright.PENANAY2Htuezfy4
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回家路上,黎絳洵的思緒更加混亂,沒能理出頭緒,一身濕衣裳被冷風吹著,疲憊伺機一擁而上,他恍恍惚惚間,閃過許多念頭,並陷入自我懷疑。39Please respect copyright.PENANAp3yaIJaqQm
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妻子的事情,雖然妻子不是言曇橋,可是言曇岫的面貌,卻說明,妻子未必是自己夢裡的臆想。39Please respect copyright.PENANAse2E3FYyME
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倘若這世上確有其人,她現在在哪裡?39Please respect copyright.PENANAPaiPCI2LuL
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還有多少事情瞞著自己?39Please respect copyright.PENANAoThmRK3BGp
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為什麼說謊?39Please respect copyright.PENANA9udtUcJqqF
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無解的問題,一個連接著一個。39Please respect copyright.PENANAwDQJpC9qZ8
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如果還要繼續追尋真相,就必須從言曇岫下手,可是黎絳洵已不曉得自己究竟想不想知道解答。39Please respect copyright.PENANADfj1G9rtla
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再能下床已是兩天後,他受了風寒,反復高燒著。39Please respect copyright.PENANArDXZvezdWq
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光怪陸離的夢境,扭曲了妻子的笑靨。39Please respect copyright.PENANALTqOZU8hRP
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在其中一段夢裡,他仍在黎家破敗後,搬到簡陋的小屋,大雨一直下著,沒有任何人來找他,門前只有雨滴墜落,天永遠沒有放晴。39Please respect copyright.PENANAs6VnR48YxU
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黎絳洵病癒後,便全心投入拓展商務,用心經營下,展店迅速。39Please respect copyright.PENANArXelPHMb0L
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彷彿一切都沒有變。39Please respect copyright.PENANA4CPj2Op3yt
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至少在被母親趁著父親不在時,拉往院中前,黎絳洵不覺得有什麼問題。39Please respect copyright.PENANAcUWaow8THl
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「你最近是怎麼了?」母親焦急地拉著黎絳洵問。39Please respect copyright.PENANA7I4o2u7pkv
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「娘是指什麼?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAAEU5G9dTRL
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「別以為我不知道,每到半夜,你就走到湖心亭,在那邊吹上很久的冷風,你有什麼煩惱嗎?怎麼忽然失眠了?」39Please respect copyright.PENANA1GMentX66H
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黎絳洵看著母親,他好沒容易失而復得的母親,他腰間還有母親為他尋來的玉所刻成的玉珮,結著母親親手打的流蘇,以前沒有在意過,因為這類的禮物,以前收得太多,常常不知道收到哪裡去了。39Please respect copyright.PENANAkDba3pG6Ui
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他不願意欺瞞母親,只是事實又是如何能輕易說出口的?39Please respect copyright.PENANAtHKm1jR34V
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若承認,關於前世的記憶、妻子的存在,全都只是幻夢一場,那原也就是南柯一夢,不是什麼大不了的事,自己也並非全無所得,至少自己的改變,也換得父母對他少操心些。39Please respect copyright.PENANADnawnqvwAx
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只是該如何做到?39Please respect copyright.PENANAg4eDbdIXNb
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曾經滄海難為水,除卻巫山不是雲。39Please respect copyright.PENANA1UARcxUhpL
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本以為已一無所有的時候,是妻子笨拙地扶起他,支撐他走過那段渾渾噩噩的時光,為了讓黎絳洵好受一些,妻子為他做了太多,雪中送炭所得的溫暖,遠不是錦上添花可比。39Please respect copyright.PENANAQsveoZzSQF
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徐徐微風吹過他鬢邊,他第無數次想起那場大雨,自己推開簡陋的門,妻子站在雨中,全身都狼狽得不像樣,那時他以為沒有什麼能再讓他訝異,言府的人找上來,橫豎不過是要退婚,他們又沒有私交。39Please respect copyright.PENANAXsa68cTGX1
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如果將這些事,都視為真實,則是說,即便妻子做了這麼多,才換來自己對她展顏,甚至讓他卸下心防,讓妻子走入心裡,互相扶持,成為他唯一相信的人,卻連這樣的她也欺瞞他,那麼他該相信什麼?39Please respect copyright.PENANAIHwbcBtAT7
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又要改變什麼?39Please respect copyright.PENANA1E5B3dM9km
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存在在這裡,是為了什麼?39Please respect copyright.PENANAVKdMRZDRq1
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黎絳洵的手仍抵著母親溫暖的掌心,那是他一度以為再也無法體驗的溫度。39Please respect copyright.PENANAG0R3yCFRk9
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每當因為想念妻子的事情、或計畫不順利,他就會想起父母,即便不是為了妻子,能和父母共享天倫,也是千求萬求來的。39Please respect copyright.PENANA7GbZt4MQW7
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只是,自以為是做的這些事情,是否真的救了父母?39Please respect copyright.PENANAzdlTqzNU4U
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父母真的有因為他所做的這些而過得更好嗎?39Please respect copyright.PENANAaRasmQQiuh
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要是一直自欺欺人,仍舊不願意否定妻子的存在,又該以何種心態自處?39Please respect copyright.PENANA1Oppsr8JqI
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或者承認,妻子打從一開始就對他說了無數個謊,那麼,從謊言中清醒的自己,究竟算是跳樑小丑,還是別的什麼……39Please respect copyright.PENANAamMI9hTvmY
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唯一一個信任的人,卻騙了自己半生,如果不曾回到過去,就不會知曉這件事,仍耽溺在溫柔鄉,以為自己獲得了最真摯的愛。39Please respect copyright.PENANA6GAoYDjbkB
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無論信或不信,哪邊都是假的。39Please respect copyright.PENANAEu6YAkV0mE
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黎絳洵已經想不出來絲毫回到這裡的意義。39Please respect copyright.PENANA2lH4OmmHT7
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