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這不可能是真的。21Please respect copyright.PENANAvutxYNiOtM
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要快點醒來,站起來,趁現在快點離開。21Please respect copyright.PENANA4PeMlqtgQw
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言曇岫的理性在腦海中急切地說著,四肢卻不聽使喚,這誘人的溫暖,要他如何不貪婪?21Please respect copyright.PENANAS4MOMPAIkW
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跪在地上抱緊他的黎絳洵輕聲說:「沒事了,別怕。」獨屬黎絳洵的吐息主宰了言曇岫的全部。21Please respect copyright.PENANAMQwvr2CqFW
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這不對。21Please respect copyright.PENANAKtipEWGxDz
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這不會發生。21Please respect copyright.PENANAZHXR4lwHGC
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黎絳洵不可能──21Please respect copyright.PENANAFtUjDJqAd3
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言曇岫的思緒被黎絳洵的吻完全阻斷。21Please respect copyright.PENANAOHlqw3KXQw
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彷彿要將他揉進骨血的渴求壓迫著他的嘴唇與胸腔。21Please respect copyright.PENANAc86dMJWUit
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過於美好的幸福,過於美好的夢。21Please respect copyright.PENANAPnWq0uRsfC
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不可能發生在他身上。21Please respect copyright.PENANALKnTbSdcf8
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「綉綉,沒事了,我會找到你的。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAUioUeEpjdv
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心跳,好像停了。21Please respect copyright.PENANA3NP7FwFw4s
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那天晚上,言曇岫沒能走成,肇事逃逸的貓早就不在屋裡,言曇岫能聽見的,剩下彼此的呼吸聲,許久後,言曇岫艱難地拿出腰間的香囊,按在黎絳洵鼻尖,直到他睡去。21Please respect copyright.PENANAM5By8CfMdG
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言曇岫抱起黎絳洵,將他放在床上,蓋好被子後,輕手輕腳地離開,並在自己房中,枯坐到天明。21Please respect copyright.PENANAQsuNu7OVOg
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只有生母會喊他岫岫。21Please respect copyright.PENANARyuCRAaIRt
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他從來沒有跟黎絳洵說過這件事。21Please respect copyright.PENANA0EtafyIoRV
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那是和自己名字相同的他人。21Please respect copyright.PENANA0ZRIaz96PC
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黎絳洵真正在意的人。21Please respect copyright.PENANAO6Y7Njgk0m
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也恐怕是,黎絳洵當初幫他脫離言府的真正原因。21Please respect copyright.PENANAtIACGqFjNq
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即便是這樣,心底還是鬆了一口氣,他還能……再多看黎絳洵一下子的,對嗎?21Please respect copyright.PENANA9MpurLQLXd
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他只是無法下定決心,去問出真相而已。21Please respect copyright.PENANA51FsMyvQx7
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「曇岫?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAaAJqrORrX5
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黎絳洵偏著頭看他,雙手撐在他面前的桌子上。21Please respect copyright.PENANAA7rBiRhozv
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──你到底、在找誰呢?21Please respect copyright.PENANAMXV6buF2Mp
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「你怎麼啦?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAAM0sKcczWv
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──你到底、在看著誰呢?21Please respect copyright.PENANAKzZkl0nEXd
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言曇岫垂眸,視線落在自己與黎絳洵指尖之間的空白。21Please respect copyright.PENANAUU8fHf56xl
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「你要是睏了,就先去睡吧?」21Please respect copyright.PENANA9yRbX58Wxj
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──你什麼都不知道啊。21Please respect copyright.PENANA1afG9QDxAG
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突然滑過眼尾的是黎絳洵的拇指,言曇岫一頓,整理好情緒後,才抬眼。21Please respect copyright.PENANAkxp9HncTz9
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「我看你眼眶有點紅。」黎絳洵望著拇指指尖。21Please respect copyright.PENANARkjeDPTHes
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「我沒有……睡得好。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAyC0YRZHyJE
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他想著這段時間的夜晚,雖然不願多談,因應熬夜而生的眼下淡淡一層黑色,卻無法說謊。21Please respect copyright.PENANAqiziUGZVcu
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「是身體不舒服?還是有心事?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAWNiPJ3q3Wp
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言曇岫按在手臂上的手指微曲,袖子蓋住的肌膚,留有黎絳洵喝醉之後,用力抓握而留下的瘀青。21Please respect copyright.PENANAnF2NauoUhn
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「你喝太多酒了。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAE4UZUhcpZd
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「嗯,最近忙著退婚的事情,言府開了很多條件。」黎絳洵聳肩。21Please respect copyright.PENANAUE84eFUjOW
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黎絳洵變得常常喝酒,因為酒精而升高的體溫,夜裡總是,從容納言曇岫的懷抱裡傳過來。21Please respect copyright.PENANAubGLvjEmeg
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「你有聽見嗎?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAkoPsOixGsa
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言曇岫盯著黎絳洵的眼睛,沒有眨眼。21Please respect copyright.PENANA3DIryroDOL
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黎絳洵微微低頭說:「不是你希望我退婚的嗎?怎麼還不開心?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAyvkWom5Jea
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言曇岫閉眼,花了幾秒鐘,才按著桌面起身,「抱歉,我先去休息。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAxvlYeWUQRf
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明明應該要感到開心,因為黎絳洵記得他說過的話;明明應該要開心,因為黎絳洵沒有要和言曇橋成婚……不應該思考,即便不是言曇橋,也會是別人;不應該思考,黎絳洵更可能是因為他心上人而退婚。21Please respect copyright.PENANAG938JLxLUB
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夏季的午後雷陣雨,來得快、去得也快,不會留下看不到盡頭的黏膩。21Please respect copyright.PENANAHL70AnEFof
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言曇岫眼裡映著剛才還滿是漣漪的湖水。21Please respect copyright.PENANAZQFuZDwQH4
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婚約原本就會退,畢竟言曇橋與外男珠胎暗結,言府才會巴著黎絳洵不放,不過是想給女兒一個可靠的歸處,給女兒腹中的胎兒找個假的父親,只是消息無論防得再嚴,黎絳洵總有辦法知道。21Please respect copyright.PENANAL8hb8MinIo
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他睡不好。21Please respect copyright.PENANAdYlFXM78sN
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黎絳洵喝醉以後,總要抱著他親很久,才肯去睡。21Please respect copyright.PENANAGrtxHDZe6w
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白天看見黎絳洵還是老樣子,對誰都很溫柔的樣子。21Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7m5iMamyo
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他睡不好。21Please respect copyright.PENANA3GkbRuExMD
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夜裡被黎絳洵抱得太緊,只要一鬆開,言曇岫便會感到徹骨的冷。21Please respect copyright.PENANA3PaPZt5vlR
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他假扮成黎絳洵喜歡的樣子,黎絳洵喜歡的仍舊不是他。21Please respect copyright.PENANA0TE4Nz2pdj
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他睡不好。21Please respect copyright.PENANA9qYGAshwLc
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他要得太多。21Please respect copyright.PENANA83eanQR1Sh
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言曇岫側躺在床上,眼皮擋住的是酸乏,卻緩解不了疲憊。21Please respect copyright.PENANA5lrngybdwl
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半夢半醒間,他好像看到黎絳洵坐在床邊,手心按在他額頭上。21Please respect copyright.PENANAgbZ3c9Weww
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只要再次闔上眼,就能在夢境中永遠不醒。21Please respect copyright.PENANA3du1hwP5fm
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言曇岫以為自己會因為被黎絳洵強烈渴求,而希冀他在夜裡飲酒;實際上他希望,太陽不要落下,黎絳洵眼中看見的,就可能還是自己。21Please respect copyright.PENANAbqPA2nTXp2
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哪怕那是在黎絳洵醒著時,不可能有的親暱,也不真的屬於自己。21Please respect copyright.PENANAmJtD9G2Gn6
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不知為何想起了,黎家的貓終於願意靠近自己時,黎絳洵突如其來的沉默。21Please respect copyright.PENANA5fjWExKODG
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那時候,黎絳洵在想什麼呢?21Please respect copyright.PENANA8HTAz3uiak
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言曇岫想睜眼看清楚黎絳洵的臉,只是莫名使不上力。21Please respect copyright.PENANAAlWftpRgxP
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黎絳洵的手輕撫著他的臉龐,言曇岫聽見自己的心跳聲壓過了呼吸聲。21Please respect copyright.PENANAQTENMbwbKE
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確認人已經離開很久以後,言曇岫才鬆了一口氣,能正常呼吸時,淚水也滑落到枕頭上。21Please respect copyright.PENANACnmwPWwQoy
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好像很久沒哭了,他想不起來。21Please respect copyright.PENANAgdJvX0gmK9
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和黎絳洵無關的過去,蒙了塵沙,模糊得看不清原本的顏色。21Please respect copyright.PENANAaEXYi9X344
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後來連著幾天,黎絳洵都沒出門,言曇岫試著和以前一樣和對方搭話,黎絳洵看上去心不在焉的,貓咪在他腳邊叫了很久,他才抱起掙扎的貓,走出門前,他忽然回頭問言曇岫:「你是不是不記得這隻貓的名字?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAZkrdc0ENBj
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「我……我分不出來哪隻貓是府裡的,哪隻是不認識的野貓。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAeOJjjIvXqn
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黎絳洵不置可否,背影消失在門後。21Please respect copyright.PENANANUA2GbgRX9
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用過晚飯後,黎絳洵放下碗問:「今年的子夜祈願,你要去嗎?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAl08G0naKEp
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「原來明天是秋分了,我沒注意到。」言曇岫不曉得黎絳洵為什麼問他,畢竟往年,黎絳洵都會在秋分外出,前一晚總是早早睡下,言曇岫去的幾次子夜祈願,都是黎絳洵的父母帶他去的。21Please respect copyright.PENANAzLx5XzgJBZ
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因為他們這邊的習俗,秋分是休息日,前一晚會有祭典,到子時鐘響,大家會一起祈願,通常都是許願秋收豐盛、來年風調雨順,自然也有尚未婚配的少年、少女祈求姻緣。21Please respect copyright.PENANAtutHEHhryp
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黎絳洵雙肘放在桌上,稍微往前傾問:「要一起去嗎?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAFcLfeWWNj4
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「你明天不是要出門嗎?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAjcJYDpfMV7
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「不用啊。」21Please respect copyright.PENANApQzCQ1t2hV
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言曇岫望著黎絳洵,他們從來沒有一起去過。21Please respect copyright.PENANAA7WO4WYg8T
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「我想去,和你一起。」雖然不曉得黎絳洵為什麼今年忽然不出門了,言曇岫拒絕不了黎絳洵。21Please respect copyright.PENANAUPC2w3D4os
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秋分前日的祭典,是在輪流在附近幾間比較大的寺廟前舉辦的,今年輪到的這間,陪祀的月老很靈,名氣甚至壓過了主神。21Please respect copyright.PENANAedwEdEEb61
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由於今年的秋分早於中秋,明年很可能是豐年,大概今天子夜祈願的時候,來許願的人比較少會祈求穀物豐收,改求姻緣吧。21Please respect copyright.PENANAt8Gzn9xEa5
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好不容易才撥開人潮、追上黎絳洵,言曇岫氣喘吁吁地扶著膝蓋,看向黑夜裡更加醒目的黎絳洵。21Please respect copyright.PENANAF3CDD2lnF2
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「幹嘛這麼急?我又不是不會等你。」黎絳洵笑了笑。21Please respect copyright.PENANAkmCTifprpk
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「我總不能和以前一樣,拉著你的袖子。」21Please respect copyright.PENANA7exIkSbJxa
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黎絳洵不解:「為什麼不行?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAxCb6zaEX5l
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「因為我不是小孩子……了吧?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAdTCDQpwJU8
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「你為什麼聽上去那麼不確定啊?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAWdaa3WVicD
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「因為,我覺得在你眼裡,我永遠是孩子。」21Please respect copyright.PENANArH8OOGk1zd
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言曇岫等了一下子,黎絳洵都沒說話,他才將視線放回黎絳洵的臉。21Please respect copyright.PENANAQEuMf8Q59S
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「那不是小孩了的言公子,覺得要用什麼方法,防止走失?」21Please respect copyright.PENANANucyevCUCo
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言曇岫下意識看向其他人,果然很多都是一對一對的男女,比較矜持的,是用帶子兩端綁在兩人手腕上,比較大膽一點的,是直接牽手。21Please respect copyright.PENANAzTnTwMt7Od
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意思是說,他能在這兩者之間選一個嗎?選哪個都可以實現嗎?21Please respect copyright.PENANASH1oexEsH7
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黎絳洵的目光隨著言曇岫伸出的手,最後落在自己手腕上。21Please respect copyright.PENANAMRmC3uB9v0
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言曇岫看不清楚黎絳洵的眼神,手心也漸漸不再乾燥。21Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1UN1s45gT
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當所有人被最後一次煙火吸引注意力時,黎絳洵反手牽住言曇岫的手。21Please respect copyright.PENANAOKmDdSoFfM
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「言公子還說自己不是小孩?」21Please respect copyright.PENANAZXdt0hnBiv
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言曇岫看著對方的嘴唇,他有聽見,只是沒有聽懂,黎絳洵笑了笑,拉著他走向準備祈願的人群之中。21Please respect copyright.PENANAAnikBHRISy
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很多人的話,不同的聲線,不同的語速,聽上去都是祈求得遇良人。21Please respect copyright.PENANAC6lavaK6OX
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黎絳洵的背部很近,比虛無縹緲的神靈,要近得太多,言曇岫希望黎絳洵能聽見,又希望他沒在聽。21Please respect copyright.PENANAe4pfMC15WY
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──請給我、再多一點時間。21Please respect copyright.PENANACfZvX4nJBN
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言曇岫不確定自己有沒有說出聲,他彷彿被煙火爆炸的聲音炸礱了一樣,很長一段時間,都什麼也聽不見。21Please respect copyright.PENANAeY7x88pY8k
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黎絳洵見他失神,把剛買的紅豆餅貼到言曇岫唇上。21Please respect copyright.PENANACk8AiE0Yjw
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言曇岫有短暫的時間,想著要是能將眼前的人,拉入懷裡就好了。21Please respect copyright.PENANAiRpVSbpWwL
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甚至想,要是現在,能接吻的話,黎絳洵是不是可能──21Please respect copyright.PENANAy6HQK7p6kV
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言曇岫用力閉了閉眼,正要下定決心拋棄剛才的所有妄念,咬下那個香甜的紅豆餅就揭過去這件事,人卻被推向樹幹,他睜眼後,只看到黎絳洵的臉靠得很近,黎絳洵一手按著他的手腕,另一手阻隔在樹幹與他的腰之間。21Please respect copyright.PENANAKBdJ3O0fVn
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光在黎絳洵背後,言曇岫看不清楚他的表情,直到人聲漸漸杳去,黎絳洵才轉頭看向旁邊,攤販的燈籠照著他的側臉。21Please respect copyright.PENANALOqPqVP1BT
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言曇岫想知道他的真實情緒,卻只看見飛蛾在燈籠外胡亂繞行。21Please respect copyright.PENANAxSrD6tcajY
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黎絳洵終於轉移視線的時候,言曇岫下意識低頭避開,望見的是從燈籠底部落下的著火飛蛾,掉在地上已被踩扁的紅豆餅旁邊,火花很快就熄滅了,比螢火蟲的光還要不醒目。21Please respect copyright.PENANAU83wL4rPSW
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「抱歉,剛才言小姐在附近。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAlyUp8vXu8p
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黎絳洵的聲音太近了,言曇岫只要再前進一些,就能撞上他的體溫,只是將妄想化為現實的衝動,隨著火光熄滅,也跟著泯滅了。21Please respect copyright.PENANAoydWubcLJB
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言曇岫聽見自己說:「那個紅豆餅,我還沒吃到。」21Please respect copyright.PENANAepBq88Wu4n
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