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再見了176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQxQkTVtzY
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0N6376k9z
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfD8kNbx5X
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWei8UAwOle
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8040bNPoTE
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0WIHa2tFn
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEB7Fs3zHOl
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnHBfiFI0z
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPurtQ37tvs
One day, I will be killed by myself
176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjfuzlHtbAThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWei8UAwOle
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8040bNPoTE
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0WIHa2tFn
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEB7Fs3zHOl
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnHBfiFI0z
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPurtQ37tvs
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgokJctCjwg
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyE5qO2ds5
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcWeAKPTnN
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3PRDvXMKp
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLzAJ8mPgf
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXosyhiPfJ
However, if I really wanted to176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qwJ4MRyam
I can answer those ramblings176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnW7Z3sg6g
As easy as conducting an experiment176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXg3BLp3yjb
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC5YjciYB1
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O0rnJpjCx
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj4APB0LtEForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyE5qO2ds5
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcWeAKPTnN
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3PRDvXMKp
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLzAJ8mPgf
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXosyhiPfJ
However, if I really wanted to176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qwJ4MRyam
I can answer those ramblings176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnW7Z3sg6g
As easy as conducting an experiment176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXg3BLp3yjb
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC5YjciYB1
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O0rnJpjCx
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyXmE9NCO4
"This is all my fault"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSLz21z8qy
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBjcQS3duJ
I have already gone crazy and mad176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtr2pZLlCo
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIraZCOtkr
"It is alright"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCOhFNYx5Z
And it became alright for me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGqsl8UOB8
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnKOKu0oly
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7QES3r4we
Though, does it matter anymore ?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIRFbbvF3W
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NM9YC1YOK
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgauHCjhmL
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Am I the weird one here? 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR36DrZD1lA
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Am I the wrong one here?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aD8I43DWa
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kw8VJU5Z4
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3odvJBqYQ2
I have already lost it all
176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk2cxJ0Yme"This is all my fault"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSLz21z8qy
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBjcQS3duJ
I have already gone crazy and mad176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtr2pZLlCo
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIraZCOtkr
"It is alright"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCOhFNYx5Z
And it became alright for me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGqsl8UOB8
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnKOKu0oly
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7QES3r4we
Though, does it matter anymore ?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIRFbbvF3W
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NM9YC1YOK
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgauHCjhmL
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Am I the weird one here? 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR36DrZD1lA
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Am I the wrong one here?176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aD8I43DWa
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kw8VJU5Z4
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3odvJBqYQ2
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEAfRdhoSI
Days without worry and doubts176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4Vf70aAo0
Times that are as pure as crystal clear176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJlgpwGlVA
I was happy before176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLirAc9feg
And on that day, when the light went off176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJLcy3pKiA
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4Vf70aAo0
Times that are as pure as crystal clear176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJlgpwGlVA
I was happy before176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLirAc9feg
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In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI3sAQkiSx
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwpz7Rqcnk
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CO6HzsmL3
There was someone who love me176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTbPtGRr5I
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8V1UdNL60
