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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuv5jzNpru8
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcz9EDB8jJ
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI8QbbN43X
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctyB1jUsTK
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBecAl0MXM
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uJMON75AJ
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUECuyhiaA
One day, I will be killed by myself
239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7yAG32PMUThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcz9EDB8jJ
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI8QbbN43X
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctyB1jUsTK
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBecAl0MXM
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uJMON75AJ
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUECuyhiaA
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9HJPg89UI
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibJ6vzcUam
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAE5UtT7SC
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Rr4PdblBi
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7uAEsiiE8
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWHY8wtjfY
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I can answer those ramblings239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YqrPvJm8Z
As easy as conducting an experiment239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOL67yVbgc
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1yRTzZAKN
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKaUkcSIHn
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDH08NdDzSForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibJ6vzcUam
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAE5UtT7SC
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Rr4PdblBi
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7uAEsiiE8
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWHY8wtjfY
However, if I really wanted to239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3kLHbb9Ph
I can answer those ramblings239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YqrPvJm8Z
As easy as conducting an experiment239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOL67yVbgc
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1yRTzZAKN
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKaUkcSIHn
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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"This is all my fault"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuCZRAItfI
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgSIK4hwVG
I have already gone crazy and mad239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwmZO3MJzD
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1mGaWY8GL
"It is alright"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5cLRraYQe
And it became alright for me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUe5FiFVXKc
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My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHQMmnAoJU
Though, does it matter anymore ?239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKeHMVOAJw
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHHbzmurts
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcuu6pkt0a
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Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyfaqX2yvB
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CcCjQX1e5
I have already lost it all
239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYRWcB8E4z"This is all my fault"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuCZRAItfI
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgSIK4hwVG
I have already gone crazy and mad239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwmZO3MJzD
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1mGaWY8GL
"It is alright"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5cLRraYQe
And it became alright for me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUe5FiFVXKc
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1AqgwzzWd
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHQMmnAoJU
Though, does it matter anymore ?239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKeHMVOAJw
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHHbzmurts
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcuu6pkt0a
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Am I the weird one here? 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevPRQlQJPF
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CcCjQX1e5
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNqPoh8lzM
Days without worry and doubts239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8uACcBV4d
Times that are as pure as crystal clear239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCPCPK2oxX
I was happy before239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0IibzxCeI
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8uACcBV4d
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I was happy before239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0IibzxCeI
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Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Uuz88qZ5H
There was someone who love me239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjTd2NZXeK
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWoVarbZrv
