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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gxtnn6Jph
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIL3EWRbWI
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcq61f7SbyK
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoFoFd00R4
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6KoyHCqxe
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDI1XqjKS5
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXJVtsrFbU
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk0uainPcf
One day, I will be killed by myself
266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Hbrx5wwvNThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcq61f7SbyK
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoFoFd00R4
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6KoyHCqxe
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDI1XqjKS5
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXJVtsrFbU
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk0uainPcf
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ214Glvek3q
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPcaa0y281
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPKwgWF3nQ
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCtPyQWoWC
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiTbqHb7gk
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwArQaghlk
However, if I really wanted to266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCtDSTvXOV
I can answer those ramblings266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcnkEi8X1k
As easy as conducting an experiment266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhLSbrm2h9
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04bmZd6C5C
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcl1iYlcUa
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm226TVlZtqForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPcaa0y281
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPKwgWF3nQ
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCtPyQWoWC
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiTbqHb7gk
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwArQaghlk
However, if I really wanted to266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCtDSTvXOV
I can answer those ramblings266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcnkEi8X1k
As easy as conducting an experiment266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhLSbrm2h9
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04bmZd6C5C
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcl1iYlcUa
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrdEuCWRIX
"This is all my fault"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ3i0whtU7
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEpEGpArOy
I have already gone crazy and mad266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnOu3DYxdJ
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwaWsPrrly
"It is alright"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v9LSyVVie
And it became alright for me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRCvZTTPm5
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJa0Ewwpxh1
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidO3ZmzH3k
Though, does it matter anymore ?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTTYG7gYHr
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjWWXAHpmb
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7exKlOqot
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Am I the weird one here? 266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2sFbBl7Ut
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Am I the wrong one here?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiFMgXcaQc
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3loWfxDOOo
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGbLWI3jpi
I have already lost it all
266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pBe8yOyo0"This is all my fault"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ3i0whtU7
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEpEGpArOy
I have already gone crazy and mad266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnOu3DYxdJ
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwaWsPrrly
"It is alright"266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v9LSyVVie
And it became alright for me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRCvZTTPm5
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJa0Ewwpxh1
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidO3ZmzH3k
Though, does it matter anymore ?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTTYG7gYHr
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjWWXAHpmb
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7exKlOqot
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Am I the weird one here? 266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2sFbBl7Ut
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHIFjkuExK
Am I the wrong one here?266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiFMgXcaQc
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3loWfxDOOo
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGbLWI3jpi
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWKXyQ2dGV
Days without worry and doubts266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWf7DBA3CV
Times that are as pure as crystal clear266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV7PFi2oyo
I was happy before266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cDChMXBO2
And on that day, when the light went off266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87XrKOd3Mt
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpivQs2zmvQ
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There was someone who love me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFAFdJ46lm
Taught me unconditional love266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8DcbSzgd0
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWKXyQ2dGV
Days without worry and doubts266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWf7DBA3CV
Times that are as pure as crystal clear266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV7PFi2oyo
I was happy before266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cDChMXBO2
And on that day, when the light went off266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87XrKOd3Mt
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In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJXXjNwJnV
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpivQs2zmvQ
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VQyAGVB3s
There was someone who love me266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFAFdJ46lm
Taught me unconditional love266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8DcbSzgd0
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning266Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e0oPYQpB6
