晚安了，媽媽197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitgn1cAMeM
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ehNyCQBfc
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHpK5z5IGo
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbEGkvO2vG
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kt8pH7sKs
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwaX1W1BHh
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYf2grBego
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8EuRY5c1t
One day, I will be killed by myself
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKezelLwlgThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHpK5z5IGo
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbEGkvO2vG
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kt8pH7sKs
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwaX1W1BHh
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYf2grBego
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8EuRY5c1t
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrnjDevQsd
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtbQjLAhU9
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PaQT8SLaq
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJEeELQK5i
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcwvidom1z
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFwgZwIJnJ
However, if I really wanted to197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqIyFXK9el
I can answer those ramblings197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DcrHneffb
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Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWTGrLOE1y
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTiIwNumfi
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49Q0EFfLfXForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtbQjLAhU9
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PaQT8SLaq
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJEeELQK5i
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcwvidom1z
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFwgZwIJnJ
However, if I really wanted to197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqIyFXK9el
I can answer those ramblings197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DcrHneffb
As easy as conducting an experiment197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTL1inxen0D
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWTGrLOE1y
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTiIwNumfi
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls9xjizcCP
"This is all my fault"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiMr6PIKHi
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbu19CURm8
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As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoewFy2LIp
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My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmXpd83tb0
Though, does it matter anymore ?197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNUU57ZWl3
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicsS5JVoWV
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDQ7kJkXfF
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Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe8psd4xcC
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4fR5PrCSx
I have already lost it all
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4DYGX33rF"This is all my fault"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiMr6PIKHi
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbu19CURm8
I have already gone crazy and mad197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatU9s73O9W
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoewFy2LIp
"It is alright"197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBrSX8zyVO
And it became alright for me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4GrX2wHyg
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJtV2gVbLR
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmXpd83tb0
Though, does it matter anymore ?197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNUU57ZWl3
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicsS5JVoWV
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDQ7kJkXfF
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Am I the weird one here? 197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzMgIZqpRv
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDyTY6uoh1
Am I the wrong one here?197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz5cuRLMTo
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe8psd4xcC
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4fR5PrCSx
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsOKGrqY9Q
Days without worry and doubts197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCfcjssAjo
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There was someone who love me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQfvUErcfu
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCfcjssAjo
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I was happy before197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg1y3ik6rL
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMhUcMZQLG
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpKJGfmmC3
There was someone who love me197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQfvUErcfu
Taught me unconditional love197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyc3FfvSVJ
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bMvTC6LRK
