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黎絳洵順著言曇岫的目光看去,遲疑道:「你……應該不會還要撿起來吃吧?」39Please respect copyright.PENANA7whavq2TMu
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言曇岫噗哧一聲,「沒有。好久以前的事情了,別總是記得這些啊,我真的長大了。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA5g1HsNXWd8
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黎絳洵鬆開手,言曇岫暗自鬆了一口氣。39Please respect copyright.PENANAaMAFwRBVGX
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會想踰矩,並非對兩情相悅的機率有期待,只是有種想將一切坦白,以便在見到黎絳洵的反感後,順利放棄這份情感,的希冀。39Please respect copyright.PENANA10mloGm5sX
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許多人都已經離開了廟埕,半數以上的攤販也已收攤,言曇岫走在黎絳洵身後兩步的地方,呼吸間都是令人清醒的冰冷空氣。39Please respect copyright.PENANAD2T2f6PIVK
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心中的拉扯,卻沒有稍減。39Please respect copyright.PENANAUBwOrKdFGE
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言曇岫知道,如果要脫離現在這種繼續讓自己誤會的氛圍,就是順著黎絳洵的話,問他關於言曇橋的事情,只要開啟這個話題,一定能冷靜下來。39Please respect copyright.PENANAiaXWHz2NW6
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他並不在意言曇橋的事情,雖然她名義上是自己的嫡姊,是黎絳洵的前未婚妻,即便是陌生人,做為八卦來說,言府的事情,也是很好的談資,只是不知怎麼地,言曇岫只覺得胸口很沉,即便攢夠了開口的力氣,亦不足以發出聲音。39Please respect copyright.PENANARKkGNd2TLE
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只剩一條街的距離,就要到家門時,黎絳洵停下腳步,言曇岫也沒再前進。39Please respect copyright.PENANAcX4u4FL6hI
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黎絳洵問:「你子夜的時候,許願了嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAGlhjOdBz3a
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言曇岫垂眸對上黎絳洵摩娑著玉珮的手,「人心總是不足,我也不例外。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAtkmoBychPR
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「誰都不願意魚與熊掌不可兼得,更希望能尋出雙全法,以至於最終總是竹籃打水。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAWeTM5eZoX3
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「你總是深思熟慮,能趨利避害,做出最好的決定。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA1wQHWxDfO8
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黎絳洵回頭望他,神色無奈:「你高看我了。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAEOrOrY9w0m
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「事實如何,所有人都有目共睹。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAVYXuEYlS1P
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黎絳洵沒有繼續回他,言曇岫看著他轉入房裡,硬生生按下了喊住他的衝動。39Please respect copyright.PENANA8fm2Z7JRql
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他會怕,要是順從欲望,挽留他更長的時間,等到之後沒辦法維持這種親密度的時候,會痛苦到無法前進。39Please respect copyright.PENANA9egH7peeda
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人心總是不足,俗話說知足常樂,也因此生年不滿百、常懷千歲憂。39Please respect copyright.PENANAnDxfm21Byw
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即便識字了,言曇岫仍舊走不出這囹圄。39Please respect copyright.PENANAs2CDUJDus5
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之後很長一段時間,黎絳洵都沒有喝酒,言曇岫的慶幸混著失落,遇到黎絳洵以前,他不曉得自己的心情可以這樣複雜。39Please respect copyright.PENANAN0e06CngPP
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分明住在同一處宅子裡,幾乎每天都是抬頭不見、低頭見,思念卻越發濃郁,幾乎發酸。39Please respect copyright.PENANALzHGwIJYhV
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「絳洵,你學識淵博,應該很多人勸過你考取功名,為何你能堅持住?」言曇岫純屬沒話找話,他又不是真的不知道,黎絳洵對官場沒什麼好感,不過當今風氣始終是萬般皆下品,唯有讀書高,黎絳洵的選擇著實讓人困惑。39Please respect copyright.PENANACVoJl40SOF
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黎絳洵核對著帳款,頭也沒抬,「商人已是末流,要是我考科舉、甚至做官,媒人還能擋住嗎?他們又不會賠償踏壞門檻的錢。」39Please respect copyright.PENANANm78CuDaFY
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他闔上帳本,「要是你想考的話,只要把工作分派下去,剩下的我處理就好。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAEVHyfCcWYV
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「我沒有。」言曇岫知道黎絳洵是在開玩笑,只是他笑不出來。39Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ft5xsBlDy
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和言曇橋的婚事告吹以後,說親的人最少能排三條長街,原本只有平頭百姓家的姑娘,現在什麼高門的庶女、小門小戶的嫡女都有,一味拒絕卻拿不出原因,光嚼舌根就能嚼死人,能像言府那麼厚臉皮,在風言風語中,仍然為了利益而犧牲女兒的名聲,實屬少見。39Please respect copyright.PENANAX0fFUFFI8v
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言曇岫雖然從沒主動問起過,黎絳洵也不太可能以為言曇岫不曉得自己長年以來都在找同一個人的事情,何況言曇岫也知道,用找尋言曇岫的家人這個名頭,確實很方便。39Please respect copyright.PENANAfzzIp2hrgr
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夜裡被噩夢驚醒時,言曇岫很容易會想,要是當初,黎絳洵本就是為了找自己而來,那該有多好,可是即便是在夢裡,黎絳洵都不曾只看著自己。39Please respect copyright.PENANA0bvszIfxPo
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雖然不清楚那位名叫「綉綉」的姑娘和自己有多像,黎絳洵之所以會帶他離開言府,很明顯是他沾了綉綉的光。39Please respect copyright.PENANAvnbhkKxPv8
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「不過既然媒人都來這麼多了,要是你有中意的姑娘,請人家留意一下,他們應當也是願意的。」黎絳洵的話音打斷了言曇岫的遐思。39Please respect copyright.PENANArwOgHrsqtq
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他想說,自己不想跟其他人成婚,理由無論是說不想離開黎絳洵或者想報恩,都不會讓人聯想到他對黎絳洵有什麼非分之想;只是他也不想聽黎絳洵說服自己,說什麼讓言曇岫不用在意,不要因為黎絳洵的舉手之勞,就擔誤了終身大事,這種話。39Please respect copyright.PENANAxhfd6OGeWP
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言曇岫沒有正面回應,黎絳洵便也沒有繼續這個話題。39Please respect copyright.PENANAXKBnpEQQhE
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本該如此發展。39Please respect copyright.PENANARKaWvPhPjI
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「絳洵的話,之前子夜祈願,許的願望和姻緣也有關嗎?你喜歡什麼樣的姑娘?」39Please respect copyright.PENANA4Hm1AvtOFK
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「姻緣……」黎絳洵揉著指關節說:「倒也不局限在姻緣,更像希望讓我有機會報恩吧。以前總覺得既然喜歡,緊緊追著不放就好,但如今,要是在意的人,能得到更美滿的幸福,那不是選我也沒關係,我並不是什麼好人,只是保底的選項而已。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAcVYuOATGAR
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言曇岫試圖理解對方的話,著實不理解自己到底是哪裡覺得違和,他出言試探:「如果我有那樣的對象,而他也對我是相同的情意,我反而會想,把他交給別人,我不放心,因為我會竭盡全力對他好,比其他人做得都好。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAFTpEfWJuQI
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分明是違心之論,黎絳洵卻沒戳破他,只是說:「毫無保留地對人家好,和她選擇了更好的人,這不是互斥的,反而可以是疊加的。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAoZK3rGonRj
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言曇岫隨即藉口要餵貓,逃離了書房。39Please respect copyright.PENANAgvbIuZPVqw
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他摸著只有吃飯的時候才讓他碰的貓,呢喃著:「為什麼這麼好的人,對自己總是這麼沒有自信啊?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAENyGyUMAKY
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黎家兩位長輩雖時常爭執,不過顯然是情意相投,婚姻也並非不睦,又沒有家族利益之累,亦即是說,黎絳洵的想法,和他的背景經歷完全相反。39Please respect copyright.PENANASCaTuzbnAY
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不只是這件事,很多事情都是,讓人難以理解黎絳洵。39Please respect copyright.PENANAZSd0FXZ4eA
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黎絳洵通常都只在商鋪之間跑,也沒有特別親近的朋友,按理說思考方式也不會受到其他因素影響。39Please respect copyright.PENANAcgINlplydy
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隨著言曇岫接觸的人越來越多,這種突兀感更加明顯了,他甚至覺得,黎絳洵的早慧很不尋常,那是一種只有需要獨自撐起一個家才會有的孤獨強韌。39Please respect copyright.PENANANDmRNDzwtI
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而且,黎絳洵的眼神,看什麼都很淡然,彷彿已經歷經了所有大風大浪。39Please respect copyright.PENANAVe0MtiUkG6
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只有看向綉綉的時候,才能從他眼中看到執著這樣的強烈情緒。39Please respect copyright.PENANAaBaTcGzqRy
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言曇岫在他眼裡,和其他人沒有什麼不同,影響不了他。39Please respect copyright.PENANADWC6lh8kz4
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人心總是不足,而言曇岫害怕自己終究有天為了這種不足,而傷害黎絳洵。39Please respect copyright.PENANAOG6cwEUcym
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──要是演變成那種狀況,不如提前離開。39Please respect copyright.PENANASInvmeENbS
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言曇岫很清楚,只有自己需要黎絳洵,對方不需要自己,即便努力那麼久,自己也並沒有不可取代的能力或地位。39Please respect copyright.PENANA9i0P0yWyTG
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在他開始將自己的工作整理成文字後,沒多久,樹枝上的枯黃葉子也少了許多,家裡的貓睡的時間也越來越長,每次就寢前,都要掀開棉被,仔細確認沒有貓先躺進去睡了,才敢上床,否則很容易誤傷了貓。39Please respect copyright.PENANAgrcAEMLE0K
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回想剛入府的時候,渾渾噩噩地也不曉得時間流逝,以至於如果問起他來這裡多久了,他其實回答不出來,只知道白天與黑夜的差別,對他開始有更多意義。39Please respect copyright.PENANAlF5ycanKqC
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言曇岫趴在桌案上,冷風吹拂著肌膚,不過無論如何寒冷,都不會下雪。39Please respect copyright.PENANAzZgaNPITyP
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聽說北方到冬天是會下雪的,雪和雨很像,雖然落在身上沒那麼痛,終究也會融成水,潤進衣服裡。39Please respect copyright.PENANAKE6lrQbOPs
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想到這裡的時候,門忽然被敲響了,言曇岫打開門,是黎絳洵拿著一小壺酒,問他要不要喝。39Please respect copyright.PENANA0MlmgxSdYR
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溫過的桂花酒散著暖香,黎絳洵膝上的貓時不時調整著姿勢、卻始終不願意下來,言曇岫估量著自己應該最少也喝掉一半以上了,便不再酌酒,看黎絳洵有一下沒一下地摸著貓的頭。39Please respect copyright.PENANAmXgMbKZmMT
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「你不喝完嗎?」黎絳洵問。39Please respect copyright.PENANAcHQQ7UGfa3
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「我喝酒只是為了暖身,既然已經不冷了,也不是一定要全喝完。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA15k0BNQCky
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「說得也是,貪杯容易誤事,能節制是好事。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAIxfCuuPutI
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「冬天……」言曇岫頓了頓,「天冷的時候,確實會想多喝一些,不過,如果不是在家裡的話,我未免會擔心,要是沒有遣人跟著你,你會不會醉倒在某個地方,有失溫的危險。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAH55kvdpS4H
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「要是當了官,推不掉的酒局只會更多,還是白身自在。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA3pYa0XDDSN
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「絳洵,要是……」39Please respect copyright.PENANABxsVwfJMty
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「你最近,好像總是欲言又止。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAjkLTW5uaIc
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言曇岫扯了扯嘴角,「感覺最近想事情越來越慢了,雜念太多。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA3xPiAZ0m39
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「雜念?是有心上人了嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANAeILHU5D1gp
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言曇岫閉著眼呼氣,「每到年末,我便會想到有句俗諺說『瑞雪兆豐年』,雖然不曾見過雪,希望來年豐收的心是相同的,只是天太冷,凍死的人就多,施粥也不是長遠之計,官府的救濟,不可知的狀況太多,指望不上。要是能少死一些人就好了,也許賣兒鬻女的事情也會少些。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA7zmHVXxOMa
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「或許你真的該考慮做官,很多事情,只有官才能做,也才能救更多人。」39Please respect copyright.PENANA55UjpHKKxo
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「我沒那麼大的理想與能力,光是要顧好自己,旁及親近的人,已是不易。」39Please respect copyright.PENANABAj6YBD49z
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「你想好就好,反正你還年輕,還能再猶豫。」黎絳洵抱起膝上的貓,「看牠睡成這樣,我也睏了,想借你的床小睡一下,可以嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANACJWgmDbgf3
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言曇岫望著正在安撫貓咪的黎絳洵,緩了幾秒,才回:「好。」39Please respect copyright.PENANABS6QkmbbRf
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最終,那壺酒,依然是他自斟自酌至空。39Please respect copyright.PENANAAaWtyOW5dw
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「絳洵,你睡著了嗎?」39Please respect copyright.PENANA3XuIFq2EGR
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