於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUNkj5Blkj
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aUFoC3WXh
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3e6YkF9dvU
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「好耐冇見。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCW6W8gpYkx
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「係。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmbTsJwsKH
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接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56KAhenx2U
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTsJMBxKKV
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAwkdWaaml
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgwCQkX1op
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaBKbqnawz
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkiSLH5VZJ
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnkQfC3Bsl
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1dSAtpJz2
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsHOEm8oWz
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstF7mXh7L5
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTUTNcgxDf
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaTH0h3g3b
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtNWy6iwQ4
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5h8TR5ps4C
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWmXxDc4Cg
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIupCFuNDq
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3wUtaYwgE
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1BDl9duea
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxQ6R69rEK
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGHNFxqb7S
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEwJY3dztn
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlcPdHuftK
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PHSikNxGN
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對。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc4Ep41c5B
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zFckAXwd1
她有些不一樣了。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWKQ5ZVcxC
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09gEoFHaUx
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqSrhrCyEx
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6om5pZ3ez9
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBQwxn6Ufj
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIMp4NZyVq
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLapVd2roN
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIDrQNC3d8
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYPJNRumNW
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRNWqdwlaC
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiN7EOUQiaq
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn4FcHwslk
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2Gm4S56oB
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMbWsSeedv
Matt有些錯愕地回握：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyAtyjYC9Z
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「你都係。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvKIp9CwCZ
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H33WV8xSx
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZEKNiCU1n
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvUuieC0Vp
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqWl2jc79s
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShBKL8sJjp
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTgmUgKqFz
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行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCKSuOAPUX
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屌，失戀啫——706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYaztDlctr
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但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdO3Nz9GsDW
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好痛。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkPyfoAd3z
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8HGBvWLlB
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxdn8gs0Kp
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kBw80Isy0
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfoyo28J2v
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在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaCQG7YuIn
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmSG2kpjY8
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡize2XuWB5Q
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGn29NQWRvb
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMDFbJ5Fgk
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM6czxkqbV
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsTQQ5oGnD
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIsjMXfVE7
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksWO9ZLrp9
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1LPEoiCT1
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJSLkzUGiw
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoD8MJbGA7
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkbrePvNp9
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCFqnEgr8P
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54hdsErK8G
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmWaS1xNQb
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5i9ewgQl1
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxZOZVXKF1
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4G1gUBdLM
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPFpp9R5xR
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9HpqbQlMD
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAyhqFqyBJ
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj4jKAgILb
「快啲許願啦。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPjfVy8o0P
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhAy8QhVUC
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW918a75fRv
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzVGgStKfC
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcmDLSalfb
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg07k1BaDbA
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSxghUF6hn
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlD5CzD2uQ
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjt4r8evgt
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她看着鏡子。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFPebyZDck
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一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i0hsNyCIf
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgAgqCdCyv
我都要證明，我有本事。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj742ez7n0R
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0qXsIE3tA
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVgv8fXTEz
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84PuNSGYI2
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDXqn4SCMF
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLlpyohWf6
她出來，整個人都很香。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmvx1ujgxd
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEFsMVEVUH
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0flzZanoV
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ8QpwgMlP
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk06BHHuvi0
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGLmIshd5l
「你咁迷信咩？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPmOFnTWwl
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcExGBMUis9
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeg1Pa5YcV
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmXtr5FKy4
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQwbkWRLfA
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIT2LT8qQji
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZvgHSy300
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMKHvYCUeh
「吓話？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hYRnXEJKU
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuqd93vCiw
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIm0E21wOU
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSidOSdnWTl
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFxcdS6ClT
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjQPWGFa2j
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sXHDcZB4M
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE96k1ZnGS8
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcftZ48j7s9
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQuZniIfoA
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJVVAViLIC
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後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzo07O2zvO1
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADh8afzge7
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XhAn1uKQD
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYaf32Nxnj
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtZmSPs14C
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi42hT6tSIG
我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpnRC6tMpH
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