「咁你呢，又點呀？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgwzlrBnHT
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWHuETpzKq
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrg7QRy8Zb
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicxsL6SLCb
「托賴，幾好吖。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJkybMNTyL
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwBtRw72wM
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iKCwTK5hc
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaoeuDDmz7
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXbrAsUyCn
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1P6wQitfg
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNJ6nJk846
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXW8fnbDOA
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr2Q52nmMx
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32OpTyttmL
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJj7Bm1csft
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51Qz6rXCDl
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFFz2R7WMm
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVdzlrZmRo
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TdVjSBgqd
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMOcXJzUVr
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoe0pAWe2q
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNWI7nNFYe
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1X5QEs8Qa
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUm7Lr7vIip
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgv7bj5bYJY
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vH28TilA0
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiBZ0vExbP
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJVk68929U
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZmXAno21n
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBX89ZvkWgx
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWGDG53qTl
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeC6i7Ny8S1
每天都不想做任何事。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHmuvoea3S
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUetV6jU8s
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5pj09cLBd
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7KTVxeXvU
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0neGWBD9cd
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9h9CPh22FX
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJGzJkKf9D
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUPbgU6GMv
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs5EyIn3nM
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNHdmkWMiD
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqvHBa9cUS
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQISTzqzJRb
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQr6PVXX1A
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivu6gjs24m
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTrmxqH7Yt
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVenZEGPXCq
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b6HrWE46k
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjAfDH6un0
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv22HVmeLH
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡas6oSL25uN
何況，他們如此親厚。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUKupPWk2p
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98MQnmw8xj
阿樂問：「去邊？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6gw8eTMtV
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzJUy5nYeb
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1W9OT7xq3d
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYpE2ERpoh
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvucmgRiRO
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hiGXkUEy5
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70RwiNqyMX
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Sfl564JrR
Sean回答：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2g5Cfa5eL
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DpKKgLzjF
「係。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejxq2pnEIH
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mgELlwMfM
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaWr7QH1nl
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19uo4GWjJH
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAKpRrPXzi
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6nEwUPWpe
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbwlLX7oMS
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUsNN7xMfB
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EzYrggAWq
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcF12o7GcOK
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s2Fkvo9Ds
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4s6tYHtdy
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIDsjyOrrD
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh972CddJDG
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerf9D9HawL
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzb61R98c8
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKwQh5wtk5
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRX8pJYDej
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pCYCnI16z
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeXSvWGEfy
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1LjjBO9t5
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXXvOutarM
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmnqTAjplo
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItuFxM7Jmn
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSeWQEG9mF
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSf15UnXkW
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDILad3RYwL
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhWtfHOoOx
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOPoP95MPg
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VSmVCVTW7
阿樂質疑：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrus2j6Jf9L
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYoG7kEWAf
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreiIUslBTF
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtQdApu9Pl
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4dcCb2YU1
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qjTNfhY8a
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8msDhxOSKf
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFfq2maIq5
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAfuBvyB8X
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpcretgbT5
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDql8TQ6VRY
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8qlJudvCi
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPC3eokouaX
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dJCY1lwgo
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDK1AZ6LrX5
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYDCSuDzqK
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbf732Nanz
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxVsLAantB
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFe2HJTwEuv
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNlMTtt7Uk
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXTbP1y6pJ
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYz7BKbKTB
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YIh02Gcfu
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWUN5Ujy9p
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFly3dauTt
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXT5ubvlnJ
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHnwqOryC1
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdmpVaG4LW
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XOgpz9V3B
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VxHmIJUTF
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi67uzWlBDq
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oTO8VoXdO
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyOVfeCRAk
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAAocbEwVn
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQtNuD9AAZ
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9asSW0crt
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnkoFmfIOi
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDfevV2Vgi
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34ztRhiSQn
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobtBr1K6vv
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdAWEHW2Yg
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiObFZLdipB
她發現自己有些恐懼。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7goZbI4WX
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWyuWgHiKb
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1veFjv4YZz
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTAsWDfGj1
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0CQIWtZmR
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghwgNgeJiA
最後，Matt離開。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGemKb2Pn74
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa2l6oZaqn
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Gnk1np4fC
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaWr2iwiZP
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXjt7mgQgS
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZHsDtmZYq
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bstwT5YGj
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8dOCkrS57
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2oH6fUmwU
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzDbxPDVkL
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstG0Xknxyp
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t1atl9kUQ
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbSoXCUHUr
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nqoNQqBbr
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImxjqpqkmE
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUI8tukif8
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvrIJIRQpt
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIavRxSldfB
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxuLuoCODB
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUprAJAPf9
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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