「咁你呢，又點呀？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrHk4twepG
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjThL8So0L
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「托賴，幾好吖。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaEGFwCrnd
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrwC95ynkt
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCXAk1oFEr
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrTD2V6MTE
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然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMNH31tb8A
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「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7RUVReqwB
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我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWYX2BG21T
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阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ243oiHeL6l
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「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6zNfDVnOp
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失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdTKG0qban
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白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYILiDmjE5j
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她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCJRfh8hCn
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnwqYZAgie
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月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0A3GgbFGS
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每天都不想做任何事。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjgvDVP1fk
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8tQVa2NgI
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明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDfcFHqn00
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明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpb9ff7cFZb
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阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RiGR6q7hN
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「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjEv3ddRzJ
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「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfB1bNffpe
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「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7HBBB4QDJ
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最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yIGJKGNk8
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此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLe68Lz2Buv
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何況，他們如此親厚。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qkDAn3u9y
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阿樂問：「去邊？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsD9ofGdR90
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青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1Rqp7HVO5
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她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsUu4fGAMU
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQIflpYOhg
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Sean回答：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuNMOi8Iic
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「係。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iFOsLsNqQ
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以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzTThtSO8g
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隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbW3edNEJM3
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「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBYiFdQm37
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阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2ikDeBhgX
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他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6lweSD6hb
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「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgrXwSEepl
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除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyMcWXgfEb
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「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeC2gpoJ9S
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「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0Yss4WYI8
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她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5fXDEJT05
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「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5fiqzA2JZ
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阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUwRXGc4Np
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「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wTn8nWB4o
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「係呀係呀。」她也笑。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84ii62Xiu2
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阿樂質疑：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuxudf47pK
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「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkczywLaQWF
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青青思考，然後緩緩地道：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepu24iP9f6
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「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHjDtZdbQt
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啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDW2HQaDOf
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我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuE2fZgST0h
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因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxObIYsjNa
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青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3xamrZVp5
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畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRX033cB2oc
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「搞咩啊？」青青不解。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHuLoT4J9A
803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9Yy2WJxLQ
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIIJ277kHk
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「宜家夏天喎Ching！」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuppm94E44I
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「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgzv3liWV3
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阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweZ9IUaJVZ
803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7mpBYpgUC
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fZxen8D6b
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「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80K3fxl7N0
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「因為咁，所以唔信人？」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLMGU1vA0x
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阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhCdZjg9fN
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「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJsz5V3j9g
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhyWzxsIYB
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青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Uklst2WXQ
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她發現自己有些恐懼。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DXeV656mw
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到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVVbqOgeku
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明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTmGMqjNg4
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最後，Matt離開。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZceiTMWyM
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7Z5MQPVCn
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她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVPdvYwgIr
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阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NajNw6Nho
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但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEDHdm6CvU
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是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnINUHHq0L
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而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77sH3MWwkR
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阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeJu3sGtEC
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此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnUUC3CHi0
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「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」803Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKuAIV8fN8
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青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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