「咁你呢，又點呀？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq1zYsCvS9
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP42SCqKy4v
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyS78skySZr
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡca1jjBp9LU
「托賴，幾好吖。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSDJ1hE9iz
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFef2OJMwdz
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLLDTIkuNq
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31NjJUXLeu
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa68Ra9VV56
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3Bq3Rbae1
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NT1iNRcte
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPp8J2vzUq
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoVrGoMLdg
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIbkF4Nh0y
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKdLcn7utG
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2GE8VDfXl
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TRKNggLeZ
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTqVvMP5Wm
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcLYE7kSBV
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ObRN41yWs
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2a4dghhJk
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyORmlrgOiv
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUKyKzUZxj
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtVhV7lYMZ
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV07JWphUOZ
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehUBg01OGX
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIaDeyWhum
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaALw9Ae1kd
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijpS4h62zK
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozfWAapLEs
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x9qQkeF3a
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGnp3G98yS
每天都不想做任何事。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡui0yfusOUu
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuW0s4zVn8
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8YvmXW6VD
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkj5iqXsOU
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oLy3MPQgO
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNQhBp8mTP
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnB4oFqFIq
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHCl33gkHl
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhtxC3apeR
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BrznenH7s
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6l8csjg7c
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZc9MJcGwoz
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHuanGsGFa
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSurg4VFyHa
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWDVdSH0sQ
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuEep3vRfJ
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTkfp2V0d2
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCRI8ls6pG
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVUhFGsMSw
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsOKo7xVWE
何況，他們如此親厚。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mHOSSLgaA
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5SG0fHKiB
阿樂問：「去邊？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPBBoTfaaO
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYBM5aeqdo
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiEsngZJrY
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpZJbQkRgL
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPRRI8FiVE
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS3EVHyAn2
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dAsfhBRmZ
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOKq7GozCt
Sean回答：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4W706D8dQ
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRhHHFYtls
「係。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtfwCCNYhW
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqtHh92yu3
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdyRvdbKuL
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OOt0EdTjM
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFMBWIgvn0
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBOsInNEot
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH33IgWNQrX
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmADGRFsBLX
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmp0scwEb9D
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0r8IaJFPL
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGVsHX8U2u
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUZB97TGmX
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5frEEMpiX
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KFANE4MFF
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTg5cOB2ox
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiz38Pftg4
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9N1HwnpcRB
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9Gi3s6AA8
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0QUBiANRW
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpH0evmnRN
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpZh8eXR9H
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9YSBrAoeD
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYe1QwECOnr
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqsseJVvIz
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuOmnyMJHk
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9HqKqAIRL
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4p6ml6Tlh
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUo5F5UGS4f
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0qqT3jxQ8
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg2mkS70s4
阿樂質疑：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Jl6O5qdk3
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMeENGYP0z
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJZz1mpAMS
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg5ghCzhcG
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3CrjRT1zM
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBvPSxeFKS
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhntNh8kHq
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYzcXxLg2A
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jB8g6mGhL
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdg0P5dPsZ
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsLd1btraa
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIyQU0WHlj
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6wM2KG2Rv
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiStsqeAhoP
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ABTYPsEw4
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QylCtY6ek
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0MgX3isJi
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNg1TRETy1L
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeepK7YLeTa
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCuEce7UBP
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuj8UpDhdL
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifgDhutgKJ
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeJxUi8lcy
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u6MjgPY4x
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNYTfZEw9j
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk0aGQ6iPi
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsScdQ0Bwd
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS76xVie7a
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmHAvhgoJP
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYpSv8S1yt
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE5sU9JDcH
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkwjsecGCy
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpeWFrmhhZ
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8UbGkaH4y
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBRsz5Pvqj
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGLgqRfSF5
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6uGwDtelV
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xuZPLDN73
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPXX1aUETB
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KxiMB1jBh
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FfBP3tSIf
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdAZg2yo1s
她發現自己有些恐懼。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfBAPUszd2
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzFloaNuj6
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfpVAm37o4
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco5tzYgStJ
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbgZw1ybAy
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3dAy1jr46
最後，Matt離開。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4WOQsRQbr
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFLA2GIIGH
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaD5CMNtbW
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFSNpltNRg
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjCrZKv8nc
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZesU4CvHQT
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3Hyaw7bvb
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4klMGKfJ0
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9h9H3xOmT
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6NU1qiOXi
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWn8glD96s
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQntGEYZI2
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAmOrZYK4n
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedcrCdepxE
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1rK2Tbqiw
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlz4JH5TfUv
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZvkd1MoIl
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmICXEpFWL2
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iMAeFm5Fi
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimj1JLGhlk
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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