「咁你呢，又點呀？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxE0QE9Q2X
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tbXTd9rDj
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「托賴，幾好吖。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UkPn75Yu2
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0gUQsFDkB
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1EaLAmLP4
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcmPt86TwJ
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然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsH334jJMG
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「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfNjvHy1ZN
789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTbHqq2GvN
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAh7IdNSQ4
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阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mDUyA4v9I
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「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsPFW8BqpR
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失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5VcOHboIP
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白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9nFVxFAp5
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她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R9KM3Dfj2
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TYyN7tm7y
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月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZtqXPueyQ
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每天都不想做任何事。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSrV3fFuZv
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9TvcBgwK7
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明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBMEGoKSsO
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明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQv4G34yrr
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阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaYtYtTp8A
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「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRAxejoGQr
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「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJF1o2n8yv
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「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQUEb07Tfv
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最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhFpiAj8RI
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此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNN6TW6HDI
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何況，他們如此親厚。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXItVE1sOl
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阿樂問：「去邊？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXDrdrC9aZ
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青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LIOZPWYcP
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她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURf3EVtP7G
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ekxNsZobd
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Sean回答：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGKeKvyca3
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「係。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuq7OtF7kE
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以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4QG3M3oMD
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隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonLNSZ1r36
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「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyZB5UqeJJ
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阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCiB78x1bt
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他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3osNK0WMIs
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「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbTAlTeIXe
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除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDd8GyQxd8
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「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eaT9HMXPX
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「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm2MvPPjCv
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她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2hBSTr2yd
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「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkmW5sKogv
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阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xVaw6Eijq
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「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4o0lZTtcw
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「係呀係呀。」她也笑。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMvxWULhoZ
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阿樂質疑：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEO53bvJQw
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「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TczBVN7dY
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青青思考，然後緩緩地道：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWn9OB35FjI
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「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41cRIy2HoA
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啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgD6VQkUFm
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我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMqK3x50S2
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因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcFLuYIwI2
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青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzHkOgr2iM
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畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkd3aruGo5X
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「搞咩啊？」青青不解。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4trh7VtZ4
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「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeINClGzeY
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「宜家夏天喎Ching！」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jpELwrITb
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「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZJIcVDokl
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阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaJn42w3B3
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電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlRiUOJ1Uj
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「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjlJY0gqRA
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「因為咁，所以唔信人？」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IfMH8DJdF
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阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFVC7Pqfa3
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「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimvMdlYwlk
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d3qTCw23m
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青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbKfDT66Gk
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她發現自己有些恐懼。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQpq4XZk20
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到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WrjFbmShX
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明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlSkOknrSr
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最後，Matt離開。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurWMJYqU7h
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pG0RBsfDo
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她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKnlOjyOFs
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阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9Is72AVDB
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但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzCRK7ezd7
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是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsXsEGQEIW
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而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqmU17DeoJ
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阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHyNry2ZyE
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此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1iqZZuFz0
789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHvLWjV1BY
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWSnFfweMT
789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBLawZabO6
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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