「咁你呢，又點呀？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t9AaycOb2
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLQI6oRqtP
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYYw3VUH0I
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcitnLTw6RU
「托賴，幾好吖。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOvKctCrwa
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfnktCmfiR
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF21PHz1mp
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHz4HNUN4sm
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2ASj4ChQ6
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpXBwgblGW
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqr6cLN9pO
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhvDoUyCmI
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhJQ3RKJVQ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbtTHn5hCT
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60qbpETDt5
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoU1DeEs05
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m6JGaXYcL
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVtYBT00ih
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FfTjmnMTP
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uvHUjqs7V
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWA9qXVuU5
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN01H2EzvaR
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxHBcMtHW1
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKPikSkJcS
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF4JBX7njd
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMt0w7qRDF
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvZQopQIPR
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFz8i1ea19
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2lPbdfuDX
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eMS1MpKnF
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4USRm2jBqi
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYklvCVK0N
每天都不想做任何事。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnFfBbF1iQ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6z6UJtW6a
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jeCdfeNYa
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzncxd28DTt
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE6xhkjW9i
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27Cth2penf
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e0I03DvY5
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVBkQmiyko
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSnTxjv2oE
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd08YhW7uIR
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS2zZ1LRPH
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFiGDEhKIB
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6kDiY2XUt
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDvFE6JfSk
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJgOumovhj
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGy9ez7KXn9
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9ynRVBIeZ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUq11Ye5t3S
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83nBLeWwuI
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj676DKpL9c
何況，他們如此親厚。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNg0gMutHB
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7o8jsZVlJ
阿樂問：「去邊？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmvnU9YuAb
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLyXwyQy6m
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjptqN6FtSy
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOLCqsKa8E
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBQi6zzNS3
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLmz6T4w2C
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDIsXIbDWa
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHJjgJTYsj
Sean回答：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsqLsKlxtJ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoX8kwwf5h
「係。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfeyJ6D3Yq
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyywJp9vuwP
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54GdEhodDp
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNu7fZQVSb
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcztUYksoQ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlfICFQhcj
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2bhFMR1XY
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuyESBqvwo
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1sTr7GbkY
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4EfFEPEHo
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxFZfhmBNV
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBh5NlvR01
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst8oODZQp1
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVXSBpFP7h
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x8hECZf8s
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3ty7eQuPE
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyH5GZhWTR
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoOYbia5ZT
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7m6gvrHMO
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3RAoWx3bi
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaceQX7gfw
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYlpXs2Sp5
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZWXEbRFhk
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71DWo4pXBL
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3lqVdI2og
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYLIyByybe
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2kF3G8jvC
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDpFZOOb09
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIHKP2KgPi
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy88PSOobU
阿樂質疑：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVc6MjQJnr
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6ewBnSP30
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZHe6o16ob
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGeU3wf6l3
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBe6Lf0A5m
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4YzTjOILW
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kLXjHhZje
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFvzPDq9rL
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91cUuF7I1q
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡha4kqQCVWo
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyjBesCiF8
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuGtBDWE3a
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYHnucYF7h
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjL3pcgBZCv
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrHKiDrqLw
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvcpC0c3nv
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GeZQ9v2Nh
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjXj3NeU0h
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kZ5fmoeQI
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKSdQ3uJle
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmYrL2wVwJ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ880Gj0zXz
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UN5zxWpCQ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIo9oYcCymK
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNbM88fdtc
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBfdaPphrh
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCaUjyOnWF
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNwnYckVki
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlyQB1k5GT
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1cf1z84hU
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6qknZvt1G
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20UOAt5U1r
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWfHHC1bY7
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJZhez59xK
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeWz2nOU9z
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfpH7jjBLF
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRa2Y4Z6zz
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdtPTasNYc
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4TwsnLB8k
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoF9toaUzs8
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeth3TKLVF
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f7h7BRbPQ
她發現自己有些恐懼。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYfnpGB1Oc
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC0klCQxDc
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iyrJjTKI0
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs4cfBgNKu
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w2WHrqi5Y
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUE68JPoNi
最後，Matt離開。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHb4xOOh0m8
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhFDulKO5k
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyhS8lsgZt
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxpSNzUFHY
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDg6Ox9WqS
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXXTzIMUZC
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yRiZTo1A7
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPJ2DXclDX
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPju9dnJNBb
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxRF7QR7Gq
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN4D1XPmSp
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoJTZx0haq
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuoA3eqhoV
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULWo0gIk43
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Uv4vO2Eqy
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJAt3FY44p
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pagXIQYIR
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsloBEIbbq
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8E2LXdLC3O
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoFrDsizsa
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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