阿樂突然跑去廁所，跪在馬桶前一下下地嘔，聲音像要挖出心肝脾肺腎；青青跟過去，掃掃他的背，又出去斟了一杯温水給他。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCOLrn4Gy9
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他接過，沒有喝下，只保持跪姿抬頭、定神看她，看了好久好久。他的眼睛因酒醉與嘔吐而通紅和濕潤，像哭泣一樣，他這樣腥辣地盯着她，像是在控訴一切的罪魁禍首是她。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYo9t1w9SIg
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLsblj4IN0
她再平靜，也想起了Tim少說的話，內疚而不忍：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZhsXlea9N
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRgtswDX9k
「快啲飲啖啦，你喉嚨會唔舒服。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOEv5dJvdn
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrJTu3Z4tV
她想轉身出去，但他捉住了她的手腕。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q7jiirbA6
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6OGkUK54P
兩秒後，他站起來喝下，他們擠在同一個廁所裏。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qLByGxhda
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMk25e6dWW
阿樂嘔完，沒有原先難受，又清醒了一點；但仍然借醉，擁抱了青青，將重量放在她的身上，包括那二十一克的靈魂。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6HIPIDjVW
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAiw9GCiKy
「喂——」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡta4w114fr7
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青青皺眉，想要推開他；他作環抱狀擁得更緊，沉沉地說：「我有啲暈。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QHywQNqIr
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kqgx87PiH
他語帶哭腔，像哀求，又像撒嬌，整個人都變得異常温糯。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LuYs2Sw9D
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh42sxF2lZR
她沒有再郁動，就這樣埋在他的胸口處，只說：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaPbrHNNiQ
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MRzzgjh5x
「沖杯茶俾你？或者你早啲休息？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzznABQsL7p
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj3JGzU3Y0
「唔洗，等陣先。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSIpi1YP7q
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然後，阿樂就這麼一直抱住青青，突然內心一陣悲慟湧出，因為他知道，連這一個擁抱，都只是偷來的，他沒有名、沒有責、沒有義去擁抱她，要不是他妥協般的聲線沙啞地一陣哀求，根本不能將她擁入懷裏……681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXAqzZzWdk
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終於，阿樂放開青青；她抬頭：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAROvlLNL77
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「好啲啦？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMlKWzrPOr
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKD7khMHjL
「嗯，我想食餐蛋麵。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEKDpO6FnV
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFKRavGFY7
阿樂知道，青青是一個受軟不受硬的人，他若吟吟地向她撒嬌，她必然妥協。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvDG9XNoh7
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVkGrk94KF
「好。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLFxjywpqe
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXqfUYdDiW
阿樂跟在青青的身後，擔了一張椅子坐下。從側身看去，見到她趷腳開櫃，拿下罐頭和即食麵，再開始煮食。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73ejJWeNbd
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla2wfHol2M
他就這樣清晰又迷糊地看她，看她開火、下油，煎、翻、煮、攪。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKsUh9xoN7
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4tCrS7QfF
「落唔落麻油？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3qJYRDTKM
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVksdZPZlO
她轉身，頭向他坐着的方向，問；他輕輕的點頭。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJHQuepcgf
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然後，她將麵拿出餐桌：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVWd41c2ZU
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2jmm02QBu
「以後唔好飲咁多，睇住身體。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkvEupTMDp
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pL8UtkJ4e
他點頭，再扯開話題：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBky6pnfDbq
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgJLoK8c1r
「揾日我哋去街好冇？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcTpwgplt0
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawr6pTZOB4
阿樂要約青青出去，不能再困在有間隔的屋內上演平行時空，Tim少說感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKYjyIpeZ7
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LaZMIAZxM
「好。」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH87cwomOzA
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz0ztohppD
青青已想通，既然她本身對阿樂有好感，不如一試，嘗試看看二人有沒有可能；機會若然流失，就此錯過。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q9oqQfMjj
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsHnGMwSGj
何況，她已經無法喜歡Matt了。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy65qksE0q1
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她不否認自己愛他，只是，不喜歡他了；如此，這一種愛也會慢慢消逝。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaM4XsLtqRv
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOwY2aZdyZ
Matt傷害了青青的自尊，嚴重地。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMn5xOXpNAK
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他既不喜歡她、又喜歡別人；既借辭暗示她是這段感情的過錯方，又欺瞞她變心的真相，如非最後她問，他根本不會提記，只像什麼都沒發生過一樣欺瞞她。原本一直陪伴身旁的人離棄了她，她感到十分受傷。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoFj0dnSkW
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直到現在，她還覺得是自己的問題：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXQqZbBd1U
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2WjNif4ik
係咪我唔夠好？係咪我冇能力令留住你？681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6TZz1I7mk
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAw8BKJAP6n
係咪我俾你嘅印象太恐怖，就算你變咗心都唔敢同我講？係咪你覺得我好唔掂，所以就算傷害我，你都唔會覺得內疚？或者，呢一份內疚微弱到唔會影響你嘅所有所有？681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLnElZEBYH
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfLSv9C1l2
係唔係？681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJW3w9wqB9
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是？不是？不、不，無論如何。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdplxEPPYz
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總之，青青若對Matt心懷喜歡，她就會覺得自己很低賤。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrh4Uu2PFH
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlVswm0sJ7
因為Matt已是別人的男人，熱情都在別人眼中熊熊燃燒，青青不過難堪地、被新鮮而有魄力的火焰波及，可是她已是那一吹即散的、無意義的灰燼。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpHytFiMEY
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEeoQiQNBY
感覺像，Matt向青青走來，要求交歡，她心歡喜自覺袒胸露乳，他正攤開手伸向她的胸膊，卻忽然將手指並攏，以指甲插穿她的皮肉、急躁地挖出她的心來，用力捏碎它，無視那種鮮活，不管當中對他的無窮情意；然後輕輕轉身，彷彿她的祼露、她的傷感，都與他無關。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDvj3cg7XF
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8DywpC3j5
感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBi8mag7cl
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfce6kAmJTD
青青對阿樂有一種不能言說的抱歉，因為，她在想要不要給大家一次發展的機會時，心裏想的人，並不是他；而且，她也不確定自己對阿樂的感情。但她有種念頭，覺得，如果一切都好好地進行下去，說不定她真的會喜歡他。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHL3CXucMqN
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8MHszN5eq
他們很夾。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1KnPjyEdB
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclCCBBKc7p
她喜歡和他相處，她不抗拒他的擁抱，甚至剛才他緊抱她不放的時候，她竟然有些感動。她分不清這是心動，還是因寂寞而無法撒手的一種温暖。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Qw21jGldC
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AXMqiJ2cS
即使，他對她是如此如此地好，但她總是猶豫，她又暗暗地質疑他並非很喜歡自己。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCB6yug1pi
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuk2fFIMQG
猶豫過後，她想，應該要試一試。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjCUiJUSXP
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3C9gWb268
追求之事，不應過早談得失，二人都是。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaC1UNlKoZB
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxXMBWOQC3
阿樂高興，雖然他得到的資訊只是一句「好」、只是她肯和他出去玩，別人看來可能是小事，但只有他知道這一句「好」，而非「唔好」的意義是什麼。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6zEpj60HP
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy1sGbntiW
除了代表她不抗拒與他共處外，還代表他開始正式追求她，她也不會再回絕他的好意。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQWzuSvKCt
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBc94AeWja
更重要的是，他清楚知道，這代表她願意放過自己，不再自我束縛，嘗試給他加入她的生命裏。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5CVyONx4g
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvorqFucY2
阿樂又想起Tanya，他想問Tanya：681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZLLvOOR1P
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYgSMqqA9U
「其實你有冇諗過、我哋有機會可以一齊？而唔係永遠都只可以做好朋友？有冇諗過俾呢個機會我？定係由一開始就知道，一定冇可能？」681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpVK6yscRp
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Lq9Z2ivOS
至今，阿樂也不知道答案——因為他沒敢問，卻仍然非常介意；然後他又望一望青青，沒來由地笑一下。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS2tOQViHr
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJXtaYyHMN
至少，這次，阿樂覺得有個人願意肯定自己的用心，而非強行將他安放到一個「最佳位置」，若實現最大可能性，能夠不只做一個大將軍。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIWMlLwSJ1
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7bPO8KE7r
對，至少，青青有這一份考慮，無論最後結果如何，他都覺得比以前好。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIiF8EiUMp
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG23cYg25f7
他稍為心安。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw244GCwDkI
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLj1f9WIATe
如果最後青青真的和他在一起，生命似添亮色，他就會很開心。681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0i8qU3vsk
681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvh4RxJ3EmN
但其實誰沒有了誰，也能夠好好活下去，681Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KNRgmcGNn
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