於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmJfNfCkqI
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlDUhATub5
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6iXfFmGhU
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「好耐冇見。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYkquM5NVK
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUhpgQIN8k
「係。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5OtrsBmBQ
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyzKbXNI5R
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kwSNkblqR
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBBdGvvUXA
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EJNb2Zlwk
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4a1q8Ja62Y
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYCrZiXyfO
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSPgrhw2DN
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpuYGX3lrS
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46HNFnazWA
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIM7wyQZTTU
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就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKChLQvhjl
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bFsimjcm3
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57VebovCqh
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrCgi7ir4R
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzN7ptaL9LE
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYZ0ETpVlI
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRc6NLHB8ai
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「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtQRzhQe8F
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9I3Bzu2Uf
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGKqlm0b0A
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzn6tJq05Zn
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QDCxl6BJk
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對。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSZxnWykJU
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她有些不一樣了。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DgnmLK2nZ
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12dVF5qsGn
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15GqCVxj0a
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3riHNLKZu
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLmXt2iuJP
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotZQXnkaEK
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gwmfOGJb3
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dtps6jlQ3
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALMOi5e4MG
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eqZfsBEr5
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZRovuoGbW
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1DvoAqChw
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcB4HoO0Jh
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZySQhj1Sx
Matt有些錯愕地回握：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnsVUPSgXU
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH51Vu3rys5
「你都係。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCGC36qzdo
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沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDK5dFMd36
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「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKSTCKJ06h
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuUoOXqbyj
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwMQjZzxdf
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeTgoHgfC3
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1zhEY3Swn
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屌，失戀啫——719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2MZaqed1L
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但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGsau81jDx
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好痛。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPc5eSafEKZ
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PQbqjfr1c
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKBhwboAj4
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今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMcov3JAwz
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbxIYeaIyv
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZII29rctV
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC33myswQ9
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「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYtxDhyEto
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzt3lobKNVY
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkKZfNgmSU
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青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WWWV2P8xs
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「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxrlAyQsvb
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfCKnLHn1w
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBSm2tVuzL
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCygFDesIbT
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpuSl2oQ8h
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MOWl5Hfbt
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAGxeAsYT0
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青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjYEg8KYy3
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「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhbwkxDt5I
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnz4H5jFU6b
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxJAoBJx7v
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「快啲許願啦。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3e83Ns1n0
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KvzMyVwoW
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrhEJVllqj
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97G3cQE4UI
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacy46vp3IP
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她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZnNQIw82s
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過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xJcYXq0wp
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她看着鏡子。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeu4JEnfHWC
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一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwEHuh56Tb
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我都要證明，我有本事。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEjqTYsQww
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他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaQAo2iR5l
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrhkOyL0ba
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIGjCpigPa
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oc2yT0TFN
她出來，整個人都很香。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJd7nDfwbE
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT1jBbLHjG
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgsZTs1x4I
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8yMHSNJyz
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXfx1zKQRY
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「你咁迷信咩？」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiz1jxZJwCi
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她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDtAeQ2wUJ
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「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebeAzg5Ln3
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBfFVWvI8w
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53vosai4rY
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「吓話？」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA0wEOxJCR
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「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnKRfPqImO
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkpE6kaQOu
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GT8Q6zP3e
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慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqCH1mYpR3
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB89qdK7OW
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZu0hHmZWK
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3SLnYm0CU
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilT43kpx3Q
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後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9dHMslrhY
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佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApYpFMCMTN
719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXaBVYZ1fv
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApiPdHYdGq
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