我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。719Please respect copyright.PENANAGlrn36sW1B
719Please respect copyright.PENANAf0mkicAw49
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。719Please respect copyright.PENANAgOOgU8aay2
719Please respect copyright.PENANAyj7I6Vx9tu
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。719Please respect copyright.PENANAtn72rIFN23
719Please respect copyright.PENANAoxUk7JYeD9
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。719Please respect copyright.PENANAmohGV6Pnam
719Please respect copyright.PENANAoyHFIhBSiT
走進了屋邨商場。719Please respect copyright.PENANAtxMAyJEZmZ
719Please respect copyright.PENANA0KISg8ak2R
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。719Please respect copyright.PENANAkPdoJnEypG
719Please respect copyright.PENANArbAOyiyno8
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。719Please respect copyright.PENANABrIsN6UnKK
719Please respect copyright.PENANAB7PmPErJy5
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。719Please respect copyright.PENANAozfFFetx1z
719Please respect copyright.PENANA9q8gpugSbX
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。719Please respect copyright.PENANAC9Fetlyi1q
719Please respect copyright.PENANAIzL5WDFcrG
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。719Please respect copyright.PENANA4MmUyXguhy
719Please respect copyright.PENANAlGcwzpb5kq
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。719Please respect copyright.PENANA37Hni8BF28
719Please respect copyright.PENANA4155b4q3Ds
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。719Please respect copyright.PENANAlMIdRFNpPJ
719Please respect copyright.PENANA0j2tBitbw7
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。719Please respect copyright.PENANADBPIFsfBk9
719Please respect copyright.PENANAmuD36SAQpr
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。719Please respect copyright.PENANAllnIBZlmQp
719Please respect copyright.PENANAmq9t1nzhQi
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。719Please respect copyright.PENANAefwpL5CBYh
719Please respect copyright.PENANAa5J8WaNQel
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——719Please respect copyright.PENANAQc3JDtvQ2i
719Please respect copyright.PENANAB896OsTQoU
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。719Please respect copyright.PENANA46TXh0YYNv
719Please respect copyright.PENANAwmOJJHJZLx
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。719Please respect copyright.PENANAcPsDLYdbZJ
719Please respect copyright.PENANAwEVdLcO1P7
腳步還是能動。719Please respect copyright.PENANAPP1b4KsEL9
719Please respect copyright.PENANAfftQ1VG5k0
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。719Please respect copyright.PENANACd4UOWtmI6
719Please respect copyright.PENANAogh0jIcZD2
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……719Please respect copyright.PENANAhezepHunPU
719Please respect copyright.PENANAcaStEJLcJo
腳步才轉向離去。719Please respect copyright.PENANACdRsMJ7KdW
719Please respect copyright.PENANAcocfRF1Sd1
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。719Please respect copyright.PENANAk2eu73tyH7
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。719Please respect copyright.PENANAmtaqhXOX4N
719Please respect copyright.PENANAXZ5ZljsKXU
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。719Please respect copyright.PENANArVkuT6CL6O
719Please respect copyright.PENANAO5cbAjmjaO
但是已經不再重要。719Please respect copyright.PENANAgUYkK7s4wz
719Please respect copyright.PENANAgiVaIruJ1q
她騙了我。719Please respect copyright.PENANA1pkWWFF0eD
719Please respect copyright.PENANAPqVO8UD3k3
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。719Please respect copyright.PENANALqt7I0ZRPM
719Please respect copyright.PENANADwew7nYeeT
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。719Please respect copyright.PENANA3O9WyT7BHu
719Please respect copyright.PENANAxScrbZDFPy
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。719Please respect copyright.PENANAhP4fPQkRIV
719Please respect copyright.PENANAvoL7mtJjiZ
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。719Please respect copyright.PENANAzPOYZdPamA
719Please respect copyright.PENANAqtbSbfInWn
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。719Please respect copyright.PENANAoCGI9zJgNN
719Please respect copyright.PENANA1zRxSZ6KLn
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。719Please respect copyright.PENANACnO0CoKsDu
719Please respect copyright.PENANAZbFYFKa4jz
但我錯了。719Please respect copyright.PENANANuHxvTMhVx
719Please respect copyright.PENANAOZbFOzaa6j
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。719Please respect copyright.PENANA9uy78GNPLQ
719Please respect copyright.PENANAQgZ4hzvoVZ
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。719Please respect copyright.PENANA9DvaxbVTVr
719Please respect copyright.PENANAfa8vpLtnX4
眼下——719Please respect copyright.PENANAod4uq4bEPJ
719Please respect copyright.PENANAROHzCxED6r
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。719Please respect copyright.PENANASspk7fktn1
719Please respect copyright.PENANAqapcWfBBcO
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。719Please respect copyright.PENANAeu14II7vlh
719Please respect copyright.PENANA1orGnRcNYM
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。719Please respect copyright.PENANAM4KSHgg68y
719Please respect copyright.PENANAmd0lToyLB1
我能夠再承受一次嗎?719Please respect copyright.PENANA7zooF1ehHS
719Please respect copyright.PENANAlpCCKZuEN8
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。719Please respect copyright.PENANAZoaz3MkEy2
719Please respect copyright.PENANAXFd3Wu70bM
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。719Please respect copyright.PENANA122sdq4vMF
719Please respect copyright.PENANA0n9jKdN5vx
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。719Please respect copyright.PENANA1XhLJB4LHX
719Please respect copyright.PENANA3aDpnsXOxc
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。719Please respect copyright.PENANAVRhjLPopau
719Please respect copyright.PENANAb41D8AHq9z
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。719Please respect copyright.PENANAAKaoxxB0Jv
719Please respect copyright.PENANAA2VTqPRUYj
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。719Please respect copyright.PENANAKbVDrYTOXO
719Please respect copyright.PENANAm0aABBWUaB
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。719Please respect copyright.PENANAqPAD3eUArO
719Please respect copyright.PENANAcRjEQt2Mem
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。719Please respect copyright.PENANA4YJF1S0btJ
719Please respect copyright.PENANApbSJfE5bvS
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。719Please respect copyright.PENANAf4QzH75ZCI
719Please respect copyright.PENANAAtjbVk8Eq8
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……719Please respect copyright.PENANA7eMYJyYSbM
719Please respect copyright.PENANAa3moDXwhXE
我樂意代勞的。719Please respect copyright.PENANA5ubGTp2xlT
719Please respect copyright.PENANArDiDPdnQ9E
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。719Please respect copyright.PENANAJFd26CQFAm
719Please respect copyright.PENANApMb0dCphVB
我馬上看看後座的乘客——719Please respect copyright.PENANATSrhEiTqMP
719Please respect copyright.PENANAj8NGJFpYaq
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。719Please respect copyright.PENANAgQ9Y2wF0kn
719Please respect copyright.PENANAd3Ee6PkqpY
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?719Please respect copyright.PENANAQgF6YopRYN
719Please respect copyright.PENANAboJfbznabs
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。719Please respect copyright.PENANAi2pvNWgL17
719Please respect copyright.PENANA5dVJbvdLlQ
在下午等待至日落——719Please respect copyright.PENANAQaCvRB77P0
719Please respect copyright.PENANAyEwr6t1WpR
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。719Please respect copyright.PENANAJDb7SO6FUh
719Please respect copyright.PENANA9gIpmhKAca
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。719Please respect copyright.PENANAUznT5h4FZc
719Please respect copyright.PENANAHctQPyozf1
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」719Please respect copyright.PENANAnofXe0zutB
719Please respect copyright.PENANA9yZdMklDNO
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。719Please respect copyright.PENANAp783eNKmIC
719Please respect copyright.PENANAY40FLC35xs
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。719Please respect copyright.PENANAnI73ZtMiDJ
719Please respect copyright.PENANA4awYQPUI0y
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。719Please respect copyright.PENANAqFGHLMB3F6
719Please respect copyright.PENANAoOZ2hHbWKg
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。719Please respect copyright.PENANAttydTUttAn
719Please respect copyright.PENANAio3q6IwmkM
「嘭——」也是不進。719Please respect copyright.PENANA0YI5YrQFu3
719Please respect copyright.PENANA7rUmFCjlTH
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。719Please respect copyright.PENANAVXdbcBQnzj
719Please respect copyright.PENANAawHcmAhbJB
漸漸出現晚霞。719Please respect copyright.PENANAdHqkEfzVcS
719Please respect copyright.PENANAGfgPyoPCrX
回去吧。719Please respect copyright.PENANApNqvxmyA4i
719Please respect copyright.PENANAUwqnuvxbYR
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。719Please respect copyright.PENANADTl6ie2alF
719Please respect copyright.PENANAc9qmuwlh0D
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。719Please respect copyright.PENANA3POanCLKnW
719Please respect copyright.PENANAelBnauOQ1a
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。719Please respect copyright.PENANAzPnXFJHmTu
719Please respect copyright.PENANAPIAjzt1MBZ
背著書包,累然站起——719Please respect copyright.PENANA2yzH4Rr4eY
719Please respect copyright.PENANAq1TIrOR3j5
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」719Please respect copyright.PENANAQUfS7LBHFw
719Please respect copyright.PENANADoRk33pMJI
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。719Please respect copyright.PENANA1UkBYJNr3g
719Please respect copyright.PENANAgz0JY5dFmB
最後,舉起手。719Please respect copyright.PENANAV3CH10fnvU
719Please respect copyright.PENANAAsOqqWasDI
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。719Please respect copyright.PENANAZkb7UdbS8v
719Please respect copyright.PENANAqLOA6xHZ7g
* * *719Please respect copyright.PENANAwqBwuh5ANH
719Please respect copyright.PENANA8w8JSuEVkU
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。719Please respect copyright.PENANAMDLk6gIFzf
719Please respect copyright.PENANAUuHWKCVHOU
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。719Please respect copyright.PENANApsdlRiknt3
719Please respect copyright.PENANAGONIGi6FTL
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。719Please respect copyright.PENANAN3QLexhJJf
719Please respect copyright.PENANAJlslcZNh1h
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。719Please respect copyright.PENANAvqrreOESaf
719Please respect copyright.PENANAf6z0CofSIu
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。719Please respect copyright.PENANA4mK9r21cHt
719Please respect copyright.PENANA3bZKauoEM7
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。719Please respect copyright.PENANAxE53xBH0N3
719Please respect copyright.PENANAzByzRHTtMO
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。719Please respect copyright.PENANAV07EWtfI9G
719Please respect copyright.PENANArH7cBMwgYl
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。719Please respect copyright.PENANAhfbTbZIqLg
719Please respect copyright.PENANAjUbmct7ViC
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。719Please respect copyright.PENANAnV29l66IHF
719Please respect copyright.PENANAfOpoc7x6dc
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。719Please respect copyright.PENANAPKDC4MrwCs
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。719Please respect copyright.PENANAASSaUKhBIr
719Please respect copyright.PENANACpEx5ovCdy
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。719Please respect copyright.PENANAccpHH1xSFK
719Please respect copyright.PENANAqHoUHeWkdg
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。719Please respect copyright.PENANAfut5MLjR3m
719Please respect copyright.PENANASqr9E14cjG
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。719Please respect copyright.PENANAkup1nEyDJ1
719Please respect copyright.PENANAh2CW202RGR
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。719Please respect copyright.PENANA9VkP5VkckD
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。719Please respect copyright.PENANAN5MWopYujv
719Please respect copyright.PENANAs9TAKvCZs3
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。719Please respect copyright.PENANAIkAocageK5
719Please respect copyright.PENANAIYPE4ySf67
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。719Please respect copyright.PENANAwfFJSj6H2D
719Please respect copyright.PENANA8EwzcSb02r
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。719Please respect copyright.PENANAImu47JR1Ls
719Please respect copyright.PENANAPLoKaKQPua
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……719Please respect copyright.PENANAP6s8v9LyWa
719Please respect copyright.PENANA0iAKqIOA5C
——放大瞳孔。719Please respect copyright.PENANAlOGLo8hq2v
719Please respect copyright.PENANAZbwHm5DmN4
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。719Please respect copyright.PENANAonwy6FFLe1
719Please respect copyright.PENANAUSoTsu4Yip
手機就在我的褲袋。719Please respect copyright.PENANAfKZ4R0QCla
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。719Please respect copyright.PENANAW4Qi2iJkXD
719Please respect copyright.PENANAbG4vIoCwxc
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。719Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5zaNd29C3
719Please respect copyright.PENANADLgVMEFLvB
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。719Please respect copyright.PENANA5nP2NcN6xd
719Please respect copyright.PENANAV1Wlqnjk6l
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。719Please respect copyright.PENANAa6MrSWIgzf
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那麼,打嗎?719Please respect copyright.PENANAflgJtjnlSC
719Please respect copyright.PENANAGIy56JgwWS
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。719Please respect copyright.PENANAFXAmDXiEG0
719Please respect copyright.PENANA3Wilh1uC4r
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?719Please respect copyright.PENANASjZhZvgHy6
719Please respect copyright.PENANAb8A1Dv5b0f
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?719Please respect copyright.PENANAv8Vx653l8E
719Please respect copyright.PENANAaApkrkY8cq
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。719Please respect copyright.PENANAmpehfsjMuR
719Please respect copyright.PENANAJrvAWMwxZJ
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。719Please respect copyright.PENANAuKldcW1LOf
719Please respect copyright.PENANAcJ8UXJyyo5
幾度拿出手機的我——719Please respect copyright.PENANAQfapsDQP35
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算吧。719Please respect copyright.PENANAm3wVljmzm7
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把手機放回褲袋。719Please respect copyright.PENANALwfHK4XdnR
719Please respect copyright.PENANA2eM15wZwKt
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。719Please respect copyright.PENANAkzMWzEtYLG
719Please respect copyright.PENANASftBAtEJIN
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。719Please respect copyright.PENANAqMJoItR3Uo
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。719Please respect copyright.PENANAwrwy6WUX4U
719Please respect copyright.PENANAtlpczQHChr