我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。740Please respect copyright.PENANA62Fi0TkVIM
740Please respect copyright.PENANAWNV3wychOq
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。740Please respect copyright.PENANAas80Uj9Bij
740Please respect copyright.PENANACrld2ZKs6f
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。740Please respect copyright.PENANANy5ZIE5Xds
740Please respect copyright.PENANAqeC2L1S92a
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。740Please respect copyright.PENANAwgI5O2Urui
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走進了屋邨商場。740Please respect copyright.PENANA3feMJab3im
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。740Please respect copyright.PENANAdz4JwCpZjV
740Please respect copyright.PENANA7leuYSycQo
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。740Please respect copyright.PENANAqorJF4zfea
740Please respect copyright.PENANAEJEt6SE2p6
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。740Please respect copyright.PENANABKvVrBSjGZ
740Please respect copyright.PENANAG0nMjF3Hk5
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。740Please respect copyright.PENANAnOZCNMdaWI
740Please respect copyright.PENANAYazZS4DwUo
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。740Please respect copyright.PENANAzaAGv9IOPt
740Please respect copyright.PENANAUepEHEZmHU
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。740Please respect copyright.PENANAbnPHGrl8gV
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。740Please respect copyright.PENANADxz0VR9ddu
740Please respect copyright.PENANAXo9QP0m89c
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。740Please respect copyright.PENANA3O8wUJz76H
740Please respect copyright.PENANAiX9gAslUkk
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。740Please respect copyright.PENANAGls2wMVN3w
740Please respect copyright.PENANAmMXeMUSI9Q
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。740Please respect copyright.PENANATRIJNUyis2
740Please respect copyright.PENANAmOPavdlSOJ
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——740Please respect copyright.PENANAWhBRHy28AQ
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。740Please respect copyright.PENANAup2H2hC9qw
740Please respect copyright.PENANAZf5osveffb
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。740Please respect copyright.PENANANRwpgmjhog
740Please respect copyright.PENANAd8grkAp60T
腳步還是能動。740Please respect copyright.PENANAjPmKSL7I6i
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。740Please respect copyright.PENANABAxSCWe2hl
740Please respect copyright.PENANAqABkFUU3hP
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……740Please respect copyright.PENANAc8M5WPU4wH
740Please respect copyright.PENANAOTXcYiIa5o
腳步才轉向離去。740Please respect copyright.PENANA2syv3suFwb
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。740Please respect copyright.PENANAGVzIhSOhqE
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。740Please respect copyright.PENANAP7GjSFNaUU
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。740Please respect copyright.PENANACEf22Mh9Wv
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但是已經不再重要。740Please respect copyright.PENANAmpM6v8NFMA
740Please respect copyright.PENANAeQIf1SX5HT
她騙了我。740Please respect copyright.PENANAxSGMgRKaS3
740Please respect copyright.PENANA4ed9tnujwN
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。740Please respect copyright.PENANAZ4U4gt9JZN
740Please respect copyright.PENANAjJQ8NzpqyY
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。740Please respect copyright.PENANARzTnSl0BjF
740Please respect copyright.PENANAGM8CzKjC18
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。740Please respect copyright.PENANAk06tRstgYR
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。740Please respect copyright.PENANAw401WCH0zx
740Please respect copyright.PENANAtdYsjkoA3n
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。740Please respect copyright.PENANAA0dsdL7HD8
740Please respect copyright.PENANA2beuuhhFJi
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。740Please respect copyright.PENANAYyasL8Op5f
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但我錯了。740Please respect copyright.PENANARnouhbllRp
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。740Please respect copyright.PENANAxiNgkBVb23
740Please respect copyright.PENANAQJ84DIHXdP
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。740Please respect copyright.PENANAbPqFUWWGvQ
740Please respect copyright.PENANAAz6efRgZoZ
眼下——740Please respect copyright.PENANA8etsotLFmx
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。740Please respect copyright.PENANAZdLEh0V8a5
740Please respect copyright.PENANABN4cIIlnz5
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。740Please respect copyright.PENANAuXGMqeB2V3
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。740Please respect copyright.PENANAsq7JQmAi0a
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?740Please respect copyright.PENANAiNgvDWK26U
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。740Please respect copyright.PENANAT9ZFnZLwmf
740Please respect copyright.PENANAwOTTL3ChpE
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。740Please respect copyright.PENANAK8CnLwUbW8
740Please respect copyright.PENANAi8K67rvmJY
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。740Please respect copyright.PENANAP8g6HDXqi3
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。740Please respect copyright.PENANAy9329reJRd
740Please respect copyright.PENANATLwxrlMBEQ
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。740Please respect copyright.PENANA9SWNX7l0H9
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。740Please respect copyright.PENANArA1Qvs9TqT
740Please respect copyright.PENANAoZwUpSWLb1
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。740Please respect copyright.PENANAufG9kntlxn
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。740Please respect copyright.PENANAMUdnqKUMLY
740Please respect copyright.PENANAU22aPB1ACl
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。740Please respect copyright.PENANADxEjfJv8KG
740Please respect copyright.PENANAQejbqNsmQy
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……740Please respect copyright.PENANAc6FRFjopFC
740Please respect copyright.PENANAsSqBIVBm86
我樂意代勞的。740Please respect copyright.PENANAgSfyQNUn41
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。740Please respect copyright.PENANAKAwFjtHR9D
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——740Please respect copyright.PENANADoARTjV2TB
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。740Please respect copyright.PENANAEdX1T7CwaG
740Please respect copyright.PENANAYj7Gz7AaQ5
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?740Please respect copyright.PENANA5oEYVBm1g0
740Please respect copyright.PENANAOyhHQu0m97
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。740Please respect copyright.PENANAdDc22Q2KsZ
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在下午等待至日落——740Please respect copyright.PENANA7t5qMSsI43
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。740Please respect copyright.PENANAc0z6nZ4GmM
740Please respect copyright.PENANAYpwpTGlwiR
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。740Please respect copyright.PENANAqi1riw8zNY
740Please respect copyright.PENANAuJ8yI2GqOG
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」740Please respect copyright.PENANAQXP7USKa02
740Please respect copyright.PENANAF19tqIyMUi
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。740Please respect copyright.PENANAyCVEFOrSDJ
740Please respect copyright.PENANAmAmUHHiQIU
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。740Please respect copyright.PENANABUWppfxgyj
740Please respect copyright.PENANAzgm4F1f8xV
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。740Please respect copyright.PENANAOLbM1wpFrc
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。740Please respect copyright.PENANA9YSuNdbCGE
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「嘭——」也是不進。740Please respect copyright.PENANAv5wEVW0hOU
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。740Please respect copyright.PENANAgVUnIuPcTU
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漸漸出現晚霞。740Please respect copyright.PENANAxmOCiWkfdm
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回去吧。740Please respect copyright.PENANAqcm0v9mHVl
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。740Please respect copyright.PENANATZ3S3sIl55
740Please respect copyright.PENANALaNlPHJLJq
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。740Please respect copyright.PENANAN0n7LXApSz
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。740Please respect copyright.PENANAMoKUegsiiI
740Please respect copyright.PENANALBUh50fstS
背著書包,累然站起——740Please respect copyright.PENANAgi0eGeLdmJ
740Please respect copyright.PENANAaWC25UjPIw
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」740Please respect copyright.PENANAGfghZ7PunM
740Please respect copyright.PENANAzd5egMSJdy
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。740Please respect copyright.PENANAZvOIa2psjO
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最後,舉起手。740Please respect copyright.PENANA94kJNH0EIm
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。740Please respect copyright.PENANATTq2tLqhcV
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* * *740Please respect copyright.PENANAMoFVzNZ9N3
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。740Please respect copyright.PENANAYd2cLz0KNE
740Please respect copyright.PENANAx4soHuOKrf
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。740Please respect copyright.PENANANOBdTC5VEz
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。740Please respect copyright.PENANACpmu2EzUYG
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。740Please respect copyright.PENANAiHTY7OOxfi
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。740Please respect copyright.PENANANOzztYC5sb
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。740Please respect copyright.PENANAuBU2JZRAsc
740Please respect copyright.PENANALwdvqDJT9u
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。740Please respect copyright.PENANADichsybpVp
740Please respect copyright.PENANAfIqx0FvsHI
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。740Please respect copyright.PENANA82MuheU9xl
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。740Please respect copyright.PENANA7Xzfr6k4nZ
740Please respect copyright.PENANAAug48DwUW9
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。740Please respect copyright.PENANAEZflWp6txV
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。740Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7PjPkH5M8
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。740Please respect copyright.PENANAclVLmvBKkS
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。740Please respect copyright.PENANAHvHrlvVjP3
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。740Please respect copyright.PENANABQ4qpRdnzU
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。740Please respect copyright.PENANAvU2AS85UWf
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。740Please respect copyright.PENANAluOVWvPOZL
740Please respect copyright.PENANAuzTYOgwjBF
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。740Please respect copyright.PENANAYQn1C5VkQl
740Please respect copyright.PENANAOwU3et3lOP
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。740Please respect copyright.PENANA4xG8fAQH0q
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。740Please respect copyright.PENANAKwwRV9g31m
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……740Please respect copyright.PENANAUhBAGxK4pu
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——放大瞳孔。740Please respect copyright.PENANAIpyXH9d6Md
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。740Please respect copyright.PENANA56a0OwSYZC
740Please respect copyright.PENANAeSosYAVmAx
手機就在我的褲袋。740Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0NS9gHU5D
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。740Please respect copyright.PENANAWDRFbYtmIS
740Please respect copyright.PENANAhrbnrOPUq4
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。740Please respect copyright.PENANAqVSfb0EMRP
740Please respect copyright.PENANAY3wzNi4wEa
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。740Please respect copyright.PENANAP4etgArzmA
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。740Please respect copyright.PENANAPi2Tuf9Ghq
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那麼,打嗎?740Please respect copyright.PENANARaDosICtHe
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。740Please respect copyright.PENANAiNdb81HX6u
740Please respect copyright.PENANA8Om9RYxkH1
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?740Please respect copyright.PENANA4F2s9lwwrM
740Please respect copyright.PENANA0p7B0eIjt0
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?740Please respect copyright.PENANAaMcVtdEkXQ
740Please respect copyright.PENANAJPjLBS33Dy
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。740Please respect copyright.PENANAArmzgraIyE
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。740Please respect copyright.PENANASWKw5V45Gf
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幾度拿出手機的我——740Please respect copyright.PENANAAk0PZ2xxEV
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算吧。740Please respect copyright.PENANAv6aaR5YjOA
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把手機放回褲袋。740Please respect copyright.PENANAMwZ8bHPeXm
740Please respect copyright.PENANAs7OrxhWW4N
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。740Please respect copyright.PENANAXaLtXU27RJ
740Please respect copyright.PENANA2c3o4113ON
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。740Please respect copyright.PENANAvjwWs4UTCK
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。740Please respect copyright.PENANASfkbScSPDw
740Please respect copyright.PENANAeKGuVm6gWm