我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。714Please respect copyright.PENANApYaaNnlI5T
714Please respect copyright.PENANAuVClVP8Cuy
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。714Please respect copyright.PENANAlNnmXmwxTC
714Please respect copyright.PENANASu1RAXkoOI
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。714Please respect copyright.PENANAi191v7YITT
714Please respect copyright.PENANAW3eN90H1Pg
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。714Please respect copyright.PENANAEM5rsbU3Rd
714Please respect copyright.PENANAoL4YEBPtcC
走進了屋邨商場。714Please respect copyright.PENANATpj4lBiWGj
714Please respect copyright.PENANAs3SX1knjGI
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。714Please respect copyright.PENANADBiGAArakT
714Please respect copyright.PENANA12CN3kAnA4
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。714Please respect copyright.PENANAIazTfGup23
714Please respect copyright.PENANAKVmeEFCGMf
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。714Please respect copyright.PENANA55bocyGhmw
714Please respect copyright.PENANAQyURUwfCLX
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。714Please respect copyright.PENANAJvYoWDRskg
714Please respect copyright.PENANANG1m7CTDiJ
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。714Please respect copyright.PENANAs5sqQWy9OS
714Please respect copyright.PENANAJ46O6lLeVf
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。714Please respect copyright.PENANAUKdzAJe77A
714Please respect copyright.PENANA2T1oLe9Rj6
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。714Please respect copyright.PENANADW0T6LmtPy
714Please respect copyright.PENANAfheN4FICxu
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。714Please respect copyright.PENANA2D5r3enmiy
714Please respect copyright.PENANATqJ50vij59
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。714Please respect copyright.PENANAtdWohc9X7b
714Please respect copyright.PENANAjuPooox1ee
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。714Please respect copyright.PENANAnCVZqfNj1l
714Please respect copyright.PENANAIWzQSV6A36
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——714Please respect copyright.PENANARGPiFxpfIN
714Please respect copyright.PENANAiA6y68Xn3k
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。714Please respect copyright.PENANA0TVVkVENZt
714Please respect copyright.PENANAFIMo69KccH
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。714Please respect copyright.PENANARKIVYWC6Ex
714Please respect copyright.PENANAPmXQJKeSUk
腳步還是能動。714Please respect copyright.PENANA3OWqiFBQGK
714Please respect copyright.PENANASNAWC9gGw4
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。714Please respect copyright.PENANAAo6jWdz3TC
714Please respect copyright.PENANAXZJ5oZBMZY
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……714Please respect copyright.PENANAGF82KcD7dS
714Please respect copyright.PENANA1F47i3cEOm
腳步才轉向離去。714Please respect copyright.PENANAhdVbbqdSWK
714Please respect copyright.PENANAOg67QZlHu5
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。714Please respect copyright.PENANA5EwjUMaDYZ
714Please respect copyright.PENANAiGx4NqmOLw
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。714Please respect copyright.PENANAafECUutoZ5
714Please respect copyright.PENANASC4IqLc5j7
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。714Please respect copyright.PENANAAIIJlN96zt
714Please respect copyright.PENANAAsMZfadaOu
但是已經不再重要。714Please respect copyright.PENANAqISsYAAEzY
714Please respect copyright.PENANAPURq7A9Tso
她騙了我。714Please respect copyright.PENANANp7Yj5mxt8
714Please respect copyright.PENANAZPGLBx9NWj
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。714Please respect copyright.PENANAOdoSYArvIY
714Please respect copyright.PENANAKLaW7zjpxn
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。714Please respect copyright.PENANAwSEpQ45OOZ
714Please respect copyright.PENANAMHiqCjJlq8
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。714Please respect copyright.PENANAY1hA8dC9aH
714Please respect copyright.PENANADiTncLypeg
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。714Please respect copyright.PENANAjLojvNAGaY
714Please respect copyright.PENANALjFrXnItfC
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。714Please respect copyright.PENANAnaTsIUrDWp
714Please respect copyright.PENANAsafQDIlsML
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。714Please respect copyright.PENANA4rWpn0m7Qn
714Please respect copyright.PENANAQnZTe7RYAM
但我錯了。714Please respect copyright.PENANA644VptxWC8
714Please respect copyright.PENANAJTWsnku0Iz
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。714Please respect copyright.PENANAPusVfveos1
714Please respect copyright.PENANA9ElUJpRmBa
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。714Please respect copyright.PENANAYBTOag13Ey
714Please respect copyright.PENANA3ruoRbxJ5D
眼下——714Please respect copyright.PENANAvvjF6hAUpv
714Please respect copyright.PENANAU0A9vBoFTK
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。714Please respect copyright.PENANAwtFyeZ97p9
714Please respect copyright.PENANAvw2XFbkxjv
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。714Please respect copyright.PENANA1Yl2atM3r7
714Please respect copyright.PENANAk2AXz92jYi
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。714Please respect copyright.PENANA6aSf4GtcQ6
714Please respect copyright.PENANAU6mXyOfw6m
我能夠再承受一次嗎?714Please respect copyright.PENANA2qb1mcmJ5z
714Please respect copyright.PENANAghKXhrrsV1
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。714Please respect copyright.PENANAr0GVsdRJxv
714Please respect copyright.PENANAAdabDLHq6g
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。714Please respect copyright.PENANAqyLsudv0cK
714Please respect copyright.PENANAAzUYEVg9Lc
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。714Please respect copyright.PENANA7TocOsn4IC
714Please respect copyright.PENANA6fuSi6ihjI
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。714Please respect copyright.PENANADIj6hwhm1o
714Please respect copyright.PENANAmWOoLXxR0K
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。714Please respect copyright.PENANA8Wx0P4OfUV
714Please respect copyright.PENANAzcezc2qP1B
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。714Please respect copyright.PENANAHOK0Lze7uf
714Please respect copyright.PENANAJgMpLe6Wc5
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。714Please respect copyright.PENANAKlvrolp2sJ
714Please respect copyright.PENANAIGoaF1SgWH
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。714Please respect copyright.PENANArTVdfFZu7q
714Please respect copyright.PENANA1g5laAemNt
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。714Please respect copyright.PENANAg96QRFYCGu
714Please respect copyright.PENANApMdHbrhp62
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……714Please respect copyright.PENANAcvT3JQirDg
714Please respect copyright.PENANAsedKoCpP0q
我樂意代勞的。714Please respect copyright.PENANAe54wLsBbN0
714Please respect copyright.PENANAeNHzKFGmbI
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。714Please respect copyright.PENANAfOZIsXfh8J
714Please respect copyright.PENANAkUBXF8flJi
我馬上看看後座的乘客——714Please respect copyright.PENANAeU9ikUO8ra
714Please respect copyright.PENANAduDpFe0WOl
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。714Please respect copyright.PENANAJuTdDbbpt7
714Please respect copyright.PENANACKYLEFAKAD
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?714Please respect copyright.PENANAyb9RgWMABr
714Please respect copyright.PENANAXV6wmOImkF
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。714Please respect copyright.PENANApPenbZHzNW
714Please respect copyright.PENANAhGeDYm5a4O
在下午等待至日落——714Please respect copyright.PENANAXN21BCLn9Q
714Please respect copyright.PENANAm2RvPjN2wg
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。714Please respect copyright.PENANABa1psvZijr
714Please respect copyright.PENANAywdBO8Imsk
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。714Please respect copyright.PENANAknEr8qXmV6
714Please respect copyright.PENANAW9K88gO0s6
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」714Please respect copyright.PENANAKRmagZhylq
714Please respect copyright.PENANAqVfMF43cqw
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。714Please respect copyright.PENANApQnmHJ4uRl
714Please respect copyright.PENANA10UXBhdxyw
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。714Please respect copyright.PENANAWqfNbq9GdG
714Please respect copyright.PENANAN1ctrz05mh
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。714Please respect copyright.PENANAValHS3j51d
714Please respect copyright.PENANAE2bQQkDBNW
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。714Please respect copyright.PENANA8uInvfdlml
714Please respect copyright.PENANAmAexDCCW29
「嘭——」也是不進。714Please respect copyright.PENANAtcHCOgRv9D
714Please respect copyright.PENANAErBSzq6EDV
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。714Please respect copyright.PENANAN9dFyBIScr
714Please respect copyright.PENANA6FxGXpWmrS
漸漸出現晚霞。714Please respect copyright.PENANAnsoCrEaQg4
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回去吧。714Please respect copyright.PENANAgcAlJUPYb2
714Please respect copyright.PENANASZKFmjYjQF
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。714Please respect copyright.PENANA9PYVvbHOUS
714Please respect copyright.PENANAkQn8YtXmHq
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。714Please respect copyright.PENANAecpcvJCoj6
714Please respect copyright.PENANAlwyzEAmmyB
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。714Please respect copyright.PENANA0L1H0y4GEz
714Please respect copyright.PENANALYq81QHlBT
背著書包,累然站起——714Please respect copyright.PENANAGnTJtSfhNM
714Please respect copyright.PENANAn0rP1sWBth
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」714Please respect copyright.PENANAxvIhPufP5y
714Please respect copyright.PENANA1xsyvbUjRW
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。714Please respect copyright.PENANAq4h5mcLs4T
714Please respect copyright.PENANA6OsHESq4ry
最後,舉起手。714Please respect copyright.PENANAY0jD5YB4pC
714Please respect copyright.PENANARyIUt7xtYw
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。714Please respect copyright.PENANAojX1Adfwd2
714Please respect copyright.PENANAaveJpXhQxH
* * *714Please respect copyright.PENANArCpQcFIfGJ
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。714Please respect copyright.PENANAeR8jWJTaoV
714Please respect copyright.PENANAC4kk7fwo5A
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。714Please respect copyright.PENANAXoQYLKuvPT
714Please respect copyright.PENANAaXyOkjYeXT
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。714Please respect copyright.PENANAS2DEo1ONDF
714Please respect copyright.PENANA3wndJKEwnm
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。714Please respect copyright.PENANAKCuEraCpcI
714Please respect copyright.PENANAQxbmRiDp9M
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。714Please respect copyright.PENANAWlr0lldoQj
714Please respect copyright.PENANA2mvnUktvhm
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。714Please respect copyright.PENANA5QuCdhEtDM
714Please respect copyright.PENANAGcG935Zlvu
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。714Please respect copyright.PENANA1JXrAme3zR
714Please respect copyright.PENANAVJKfCXUxnZ
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。714Please respect copyright.PENANAu80mKu7FrN
714Please respect copyright.PENANAhO833HSFJO
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。714Please respect copyright.PENANAMPfG4oTVvT
714Please respect copyright.PENANALjWhnFvJka
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。714Please respect copyright.PENANAVdqC8kMN48
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。714Please respect copyright.PENANADsL1YB3suy
714Please respect copyright.PENANA8wfWjpfONY
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。714Please respect copyright.PENANAhQcjGpM9Lr
714Please respect copyright.PENANAvPeVBpCFOc
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。714Please respect copyright.PENANAYFhozdu5r2
714Please respect copyright.PENANAoBbp0ckylj
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。714Please respect copyright.PENANAj6JKDctcNh
714Please respect copyright.PENANANdH9Oob2ag
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。714Please respect copyright.PENANANCLOe4J3lw
714Please respect copyright.PENANAtL1msDSpEh
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。714Please respect copyright.PENANAmQrQx1FEnj
714Please respect copyright.PENANAgtK7JHpxEB
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。714Please respect copyright.PENANA55HUK7KmFX
714Please respect copyright.PENANA4FmVAd326k
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。714Please respect copyright.PENANACDars7Z4Tz
714Please respect copyright.PENANAZNjldkijgX
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。714Please respect copyright.PENANAoMxwjoBbbN
714Please respect copyright.PENANAAjsFnLE21N
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……714Please respect copyright.PENANAfKSyR333jO
714Please respect copyright.PENANAn0RGUdGHOB
——放大瞳孔。714Please respect copyright.PENANAbLTtU2voWA
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。714Please respect copyright.PENANAsus8A6YxUE
714Please respect copyright.PENANAc8tO8xarHR
手機就在我的褲袋。714Please respect copyright.PENANAQuMBX5jOdB
714Please respect copyright.PENANAYrSEpNDDxb
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。714Please respect copyright.PENANAzDRbTl06Ky
714Please respect copyright.PENANAr6I4vSaImo
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。714Please respect copyright.PENANAwCY8s6BCXj
714Please respect copyright.PENANAZrxAdCfpq1
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。714Please respect copyright.PENANAa9h8cmgKb1
714Please respect copyright.PENANAy4piGuz3mr
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。714Please respect copyright.PENANAKT9joM1VVH
714Please respect copyright.PENANAaDJSr6S1OD
那麼,打嗎?714Please respect copyright.PENANAqIqD3lKjT1
714Please respect copyright.PENANACTLfm6shk7
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。714Please respect copyright.PENANApX2ghB0jLk
714Please respect copyright.PENANAx3gkI7Yawo
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?714Please respect copyright.PENANA66dK3vwE1L
714Please respect copyright.PENANA3InL03mRak
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?714Please respect copyright.PENANAmVUypM7xja
714Please respect copyright.PENANAkKGIL7XL89
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。714Please respect copyright.PENANASHDNnQ64Wl
714Please respect copyright.PENANAkb6KNJV7zD
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。714Please respect copyright.PENANAvWYiWHP68t
714Please respect copyright.PENANAHOPHpb7cXv
幾度拿出手機的我——714Please respect copyright.PENANAZ27GxzRpZH
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算吧。714Please respect copyright.PENANA9L77sL6xaJ
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把手機放回褲袋。714Please respect copyright.PENANAWYUQ3NsSWH
714Please respect copyright.PENANADLzEStgdcl
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。714Please respect copyright.PENANAncjBM2LuU7
714Please respect copyright.PENANAPUGXo0ZW1s
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。714Please respect copyright.PENANAJ46B53MpGw
714Please respect copyright.PENANAPJNFNE0eea
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。714Please respect copyright.PENANAVfyhKBshKA
714Please respect copyright.PENANAakG3Z6TDWo