我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。757Please respect copyright.PENANAlsY6twgWpb
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看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAQHUa1tPBhJ
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背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。757Please respect copyright.PENANATPRmMGHkYE
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奈何,心頭一樣沉重。757Please respect copyright.PENANAAeIjRvkRbE
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走進了屋邨商場。757Please respect copyright.PENANArkkhJmIf12
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。757Please respect copyright.PENANA6DtKMygg9n
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其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。757Please respect copyright.PENANAPiOoNZlUCS
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看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。757Please respect copyright.PENANAtZ7NA6tZ2g
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我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。757Please respect copyright.PENANAWfk9pGqcKR
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曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。757Please respect copyright.PENANAp0MopGOCeJ
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。757Please respect copyright.PENANAON6IOvRrQj
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。757Please respect copyright.PENANAPsjV9K0xUY
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果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。757Please respect copyright.PENANAol3eptwrmT
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陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。757Please respect copyright.PENANACi2MrxB389
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兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。757Please respect copyright.PENANAH2LGujnNLE
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我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——757Please respect copyright.PENANAQnqhLNClB1
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。757Please respect copyright.PENANAE3syvobSEf
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當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。757Please respect copyright.PENANAR4WbViMQkK
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腳步還是能動。757Please respect copyright.PENANAdzSNhEritb
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。757Please respect copyright.PENANAXc0sJbPTXl
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直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……757Please respect copyright.PENANA2sD6Bi45hA
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腳步才轉向離去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAXlqubCZajl
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。757Please respect copyright.PENANAzgQypbWQP5
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAllwR0MeOJD
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。757Please respect copyright.PENANAy7i0FYVI6o
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但是已經不再重要。757Please respect copyright.PENANAkjenfAUffL
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她騙了我。757Please respect copyright.PENANA7J7jQdRen2
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。757Please respect copyright.PENANAILMvoEnBXw
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。757Please respect copyright.PENANAw40n1Dltlq
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。757Please respect copyright.PENANAr7PyQqCy47
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。757Please respect copyright.PENANATD1hpYwoaG
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我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。757Please respect copyright.PENANAviiKxUGYcC
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我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。757Please respect copyright.PENANAiRbeKRbhmK
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但我錯了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAeaqxyX4QdV
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。757Please respect copyright.PENANAclhSqUyvlv
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。757Please respect copyright.PENANAvBnntot2r3
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眼下——757Please respect copyright.PENANA7kZqpi8t64
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。757Please respect copyright.PENANA5L5LFigWbn
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陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。757Please respect copyright.PENANAZi4gKU0KkT
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAPD2eHbOo5k
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?757Please respect copyright.PENANAbukO22myaW
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。757Please respect copyright.PENANANJWL8IutF6
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我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。757Please respect copyright.PENANAzWytm18Iga
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。757Please respect copyright.PENANAbQRCvJppS9
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。757Please respect copyright.PENANAHM40P1SRbj
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。757Please respect copyright.PENANAjpwwft4Fpy
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。757Please respect copyright.PENANAQA5kBZNJGS
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有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。757Please respect copyright.PENANAzIjGQRllkp
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。757Please respect copyright.PENANAP7sfvptlPZ
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。757Please respect copyright.PENANAMYWgnt8oTk
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神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……757Please respect copyright.PENANAUlysV14j3g
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我樂意代勞的。757Please respect copyright.PENANA2EmJ1ehw2z
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。757Please respect copyright.PENANA3FU4YXl2Zd
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——757Please respect copyright.PENANAuHMOLLwAPC
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。757Please respect copyright.PENANAqlUGyNivZq
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?757Please respect copyright.PENANAbbuq9ragty
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坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。757Please respect copyright.PENANA0LJWEi3ws9
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在下午等待至日落——757Please respect copyright.PENANAjfeGWkeyNh
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。757Please respect copyright.PENANAbIQywZi1fk
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在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。757Please respect copyright.PENANAXNzpGLJNx6
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「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」757Please respect copyright.PENANArlREJhee8n
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他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。757Please respect copyright.PENANAXlRDlMPrHk
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「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAmNAB3ic5ax
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操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。757Please respect copyright.PENANAaK7WPi9POp
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。757Please respect copyright.PENANAzC0zi5pQ2W
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「嘭——」也是不進。757Please respect copyright.PENANA7G6OXcnHeW
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。757Please respect copyright.PENANAtiE93sIuwz
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漸漸出現晚霞。757Please respect copyright.PENANAz4mxlyTCFA
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回去吧。757Please respect copyright.PENANAJiVJTDb55o
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAty4VCfcFaP
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我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。757Please respect copyright.PENANAFmHF6PmyHx
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAo4U0X0mg3O
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背著書包,累然站起——757Please respect copyright.PENANAWa6LGo1TcW
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手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」757Please respect copyright.PENANA1LsDlwnxMu
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這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。757Please respect copyright.PENANAtdOCA61bi1
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最後,舉起手。757Please respect copyright.PENANAbhoRt6x7QB
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。757Please respect copyright.PENANAevnthJqn0k
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* * *757Please respect copyright.PENANAUNGs6ydOOh
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。757Please respect copyright.PENANA3NUulKQi4Z
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萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAOInJjnypjX
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。757Please respect copyright.PENANAwRhtUhM3Gx
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。757Please respect copyright.PENANAomSMcXWVjT
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。757Please respect copyright.PENANA5OySPA5slh
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。757Please respect copyright.PENANANi0ZWYGHbi
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。757Please respect copyright.PENANAnkBsTitmUh
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我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。757Please respect copyright.PENANAXJsIVVXlm3
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。757Please respect copyright.PENANA1q7RVaQpsB
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。757Please respect copyright.PENANAdB6nEKcHDF
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。757Please respect copyright.PENANAKuX50SeRUJ
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAijHYxDdcS5
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。757Please respect copyright.PENANA09Lgn2mcQa
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。757Please respect copyright.PENANAxuG0OIWBgg
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAiDgFD8LhF9
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。757Please respect copyright.PENANAgxaWxuvv9o
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「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。757Please respect copyright.PENANAz2WQmcHeUT
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。757Please respect copyright.PENANAgxS5uv7WI5
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。757Please respect copyright.PENANAdLTrtSKRph
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……757Please respect copyright.PENANAVX2IBAaRWY
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——放大瞳孔。757Please respect copyright.PENANAmy6VhdlRYZ
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。757Please respect copyright.PENANAsWHJJvtm3q
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手機就在我的褲袋。757Please respect copyright.PENANAXYMNT2D5gH
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。757Please respect copyright.PENANA2ikTYrcWHM
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陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。757Please respect copyright.PENANAV3mV5ceWo1
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阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。757Please respect copyright.PENANAknqc4ZTUE0
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。757Please respect copyright.PENANA504HqU9jbA
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那麼,打嗎?757Please respect copyright.PENANABvbQ7vMPcn
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。757Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5galcGDhi
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?757Please respect copyright.PENANAnf0F6GV6Ar
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?757Please respect copyright.PENANAXDbAkd4Fn3
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我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。757Please respect copyright.PENANANZvuW9GPU9
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。757Please respect copyright.PENANAC1A4cW5KtX
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幾度拿出手機的我——757Please respect copyright.PENANA5fNRbWGdVj
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算吧。757Please respect copyright.PENANAGh2jzwq0qU
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把手機放回褲袋。757Please respect copyright.PENANAJcqAJ2q8Yi
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。757Please respect copyright.PENANAicCWcd0AJ4
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。757Please respect copyright.PENANARdsyayJlPs
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。757Please respect copyright.PENANAvZEgRvYJor
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