我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。684Please respect copyright.PENANA4pW2clUyP0
684Please respect copyright.PENANAqab9CiRLA5
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。684Please respect copyright.PENANA3xfgglLwCL
684Please respect copyright.PENANAgF5A2Aje7E
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。684Please respect copyright.PENANAkNGoS9hLuG
684Please respect copyright.PENANAGTHEBM3Kyd
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。684Please respect copyright.PENANAsxuRcaRnOk
684Please respect copyright.PENANA1Mej7NjJ3p
走進了屋邨商場。684Please respect copyright.PENANA5JzHyeVJ2c
684Please respect copyright.PENANAu8e5RSPy09
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。684Please respect copyright.PENANAlxgifwCor7
684Please respect copyright.PENANAVa6o8NmGTc
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。684Please respect copyright.PENANA6TT6HTWwCr
684Please respect copyright.PENANAgiFFR6Bu3s
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。684Please respect copyright.PENANAxsaxSGeVNQ
684Please respect copyright.PENANAdl9a27e6x7
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。684Please respect copyright.PENANAOdqyB56Une
684Please respect copyright.PENANA6USe1LdwE4
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。684Please respect copyright.PENANAmSfV3B9piq
684Please respect copyright.PENANAjdCINMCyMo
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。684Please respect copyright.PENANAoNC1t1XwDu
684Please respect copyright.PENANAR4KdjXgKMn
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。684Please respect copyright.PENANALMgC4Ntw4n
684Please respect copyright.PENANAGni4XjrXCv
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。684Please respect copyright.PENANAhk7FhdfwBK
684Please respect copyright.PENANABIgkh8R805
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。684Please respect copyright.PENANAqnrCXn1CgE
684Please respect copyright.PENANAShBTFi2WHm
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。684Please respect copyright.PENANAtosZCLMXe2
684Please respect copyright.PENANAChPOJe6YzD
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——684Please respect copyright.PENANA4QrbDQLiEe
684Please respect copyright.PENANAJEO3ANr3EO
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。684Please respect copyright.PENANAKiam85oxix
684Please respect copyright.PENANAbmXYQe9gcz
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。684Please respect copyright.PENANAHuP0q41evv
684Please respect copyright.PENANA5GcgMCMkSC
腳步還是能動。684Please respect copyright.PENANAR4UVUaw38c
684Please respect copyright.PENANAAhUzK1hlik
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。684Please respect copyright.PENANAViY0S7Em9v
684Please respect copyright.PENANApScs1pjSkR
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……684Please respect copyright.PENANARsLIdaWPmP
684Please respect copyright.PENANAOt5ZsH30Gk
腳步才轉向離去。684Please respect copyright.PENANAJYYxYCRfYZ
684Please respect copyright.PENANAhzoogSuYE3
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。684Please respect copyright.PENANAiJ2lJWOQ6j
684Please respect copyright.PENANAcKZ8Ewu9Ik
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。684Please respect copyright.PENANA3UkWtdDgML
684Please respect copyright.PENANAI5g0uOdLRX
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。684Please respect copyright.PENANA5fKn3xiabt
684Please respect copyright.PENANAxiHM9UmPzi
但是已經不再重要。684Please respect copyright.PENANAru0BTVa1eb
684Please respect copyright.PENANAMEa8ZLKO1m
她騙了我。684Please respect copyright.PENANAgAMHbdFo4C
684Please respect copyright.PENANAobPOPYoG6J
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。684Please respect copyright.PENANAlghtkjHRVE
684Please respect copyright.PENANAtyIpjRnupo
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。684Please respect copyright.PENANAmai9kPDR7y
684Please respect copyright.PENANAhzOKqPQRN9
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。684Please respect copyright.PENANAinvkk9jIQH
684Please respect copyright.PENANAqLmgsF3II2
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。684Please respect copyright.PENANAwFTKyr06G7
684Please respect copyright.PENANAA5i4B2W3pt
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。684Please respect copyright.PENANAvZvwzSpd5G
684Please respect copyright.PENANADsDghaROI8
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。684Please respect copyright.PENANAkXnKtPAKCB
684Please respect copyright.PENANAelWaISwKlP
但我錯了。684Please respect copyright.PENANAsoyQuH5R8Y
684Please respect copyright.PENANAZWw3m3Ftzf
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。684Please respect copyright.PENANAh9yEgirCIY
684Please respect copyright.PENANA0nMyzSW1Eg
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。684Please respect copyright.PENANAPH66LYgfRU
684Please respect copyright.PENANArL3g1H3cDL
眼下——684Please respect copyright.PENANAXsk55czqXY
684Please respect copyright.PENANAxY6NZd2JOy
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。684Please respect copyright.PENANAjZpP62mcZH
684Please respect copyright.PENANAmEeAB9XPTc
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。684Please respect copyright.PENANAE0WgcoHobA
684Please respect copyright.PENANAOVY9eFLjXy
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。684Please respect copyright.PENANAPsZhKTImGq
684Please respect copyright.PENANAve7vazmGk4
我能夠再承受一次嗎?684Please respect copyright.PENANAd9S0W5YVJ7
684Please respect copyright.PENANA0OXN0zx6bR
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。684Please respect copyright.PENANAwISBXkM9EH
684Please respect copyright.PENANAdm5gvZIfZL
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。684Please respect copyright.PENANADRGuZow6ka
684Please respect copyright.PENANATVC3cX0tsv
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。684Please respect copyright.PENANAXfzxuSJrkd
684Please respect copyright.PENANAXzPgm69hn8
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。684Please respect copyright.PENANA2KXEAzofgn
684Please respect copyright.PENANAcHbdEm4nW9
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。684Please respect copyright.PENANAJyfrVOkSHg
684Please respect copyright.PENANAkxjJQ6yHMb
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。684Please respect copyright.PENANAK2FY259AUr
684Please respect copyright.PENANAIyosnbzXg0
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。684Please respect copyright.PENANA1XnFx4tZCm
684Please respect copyright.PENANACdiTErEZmO
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。684Please respect copyright.PENANAi9cgoZYbaS
684Please respect copyright.PENANAlSQigunfre
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。684Please respect copyright.PENANApAdvwKRPwI
684Please respect copyright.PENANAw5mxwQS3IX
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……684Please respect copyright.PENANAg2PHc42R9D
684Please respect copyright.PENANA9kdXizHv9I
我樂意代勞的。684Please respect copyright.PENANAiCB6oLWDVa
684Please respect copyright.PENANAU8XFTobGt2
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。684Please respect copyright.PENANAi96mnXSnDA
684Please respect copyright.PENANA4NNCKcGGqQ
我馬上看看後座的乘客——684Please respect copyright.PENANAEb6dpMZxEn
684Please respect copyright.PENANAGh7YujKWQY
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。684Please respect copyright.PENANAR18Rqv4KoT
684Please respect copyright.PENANAudJFalWctf
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?684Please respect copyright.PENANAlHsWMVLEwG
684Please respect copyright.PENANALPp7ycYgSv
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。684Please respect copyright.PENANAOgJinv36ro
684Please respect copyright.PENANAPELCKoQ1IQ
在下午等待至日落——684Please respect copyright.PENANApM8KX0GZn8
684Please respect copyright.PENANAL42zufArWZ
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。684Please respect copyright.PENANApV8ohUUkBg
684Please respect copyright.PENANAiQfSGkWBBC
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。684Please respect copyright.PENANAUx8dOoblQh
684Please respect copyright.PENANAekH2NW0Lru
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」684Please respect copyright.PENANAt3jRwUdef2
684Please respect copyright.PENANA2ymiwP4uWC
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。684Please respect copyright.PENANA0rDnM12o8K
684Please respect copyright.PENANAna2FNkBRSQ
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。684Please respect copyright.PENANAc6snIQd1at
684Please respect copyright.PENANAMx3s5sjYPb
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。684Please respect copyright.PENANAqK4PCDLssf
684Please respect copyright.PENANAWBaf37Io9A
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。684Please respect copyright.PENANACXw3LnWNGI
684Please respect copyright.PENANANucdWkppZw
「嘭——」也是不進。684Please respect copyright.PENANAyGGyH8wwqL
684Please respect copyright.PENANAI2vU7itY1v
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。684Please respect copyright.PENANAUJBc4UCA6K
684Please respect copyright.PENANA60raMwsggB
漸漸出現晚霞。684Please respect copyright.PENANALqErhg88AC
684Please respect copyright.PENANAqnC9o5a11n
回去吧。684Please respect copyright.PENANAb7XeEtoYdh
684Please respect copyright.PENANAlqnIR0riEG
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。684Please respect copyright.PENANAjH0KE9P3We
684Please respect copyright.PENANADWuzyN1l8t
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。684Please respect copyright.PENANANFTIcjefoY
684Please respect copyright.PENANAAglZPPpcxt
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。684Please respect copyright.PENANAx4TwFLHLID
684Please respect copyright.PENANApjTCOINuk6
背著書包,累然站起——684Please respect copyright.PENANArOtsU6R05b
684Please respect copyright.PENANAdtM0JvEn1C
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」684Please respect copyright.PENANAuqMAJM4bnT
684Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4Zix1Jik8
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。684Please respect copyright.PENANAhvDtUspBKK
684Please respect copyright.PENANAWz0iZRJyHn
最後,舉起手。684Please respect copyright.PENANAyvoofTfom2
684Please respect copyright.PENANA8SEfYCrVca
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。684Please respect copyright.PENANAfTLZ9FqMLi
684Please respect copyright.PENANAFTfhYUuNgS
* * *684Please respect copyright.PENANAMask3E2fZ1
684Please respect copyright.PENANAjUxi1xZXws
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。684Please respect copyright.PENANAWHeB3VJKAr
684Please respect copyright.PENANAGkyKt4pD7v
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。684Please respect copyright.PENANAS7TWjtOYpd
684Please respect copyright.PENANAvvZ7LwJYNy
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。684Please respect copyright.PENANARsUzC7rVet
684Please respect copyright.PENANAlHZzf7dTUk
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。684Please respect copyright.PENANAsLnqHR7mUh
684Please respect copyright.PENANAXJPfP4N1li
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。684Please respect copyright.PENANAi8vrpXE8Yq
684Please respect copyright.PENANAocYEixvSRU
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。684Please respect copyright.PENANAKDcKL3E1gd
684Please respect copyright.PENANA0A1ktevhxy
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。684Please respect copyright.PENANANf3ThvjynR
684Please respect copyright.PENANAtsDzWrWGoO
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。684Please respect copyright.PENANAYVn1f79Rwj
684Please respect copyright.PENANAFz6HYx288s
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。684Please respect copyright.PENANA96WvqZkn6O
684Please respect copyright.PENANAw3Cb2rdOOM
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。684Please respect copyright.PENANAYuESudVypO
684Please respect copyright.PENANAkmni4pOGBG
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。684Please respect copyright.PENANAfHaE4Qwfpc
684Please respect copyright.PENANAbNyCmf0CH5
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。684Please respect copyright.PENANACj8hf3RETR
684Please respect copyright.PENANAhhEhxuBUMq
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。684Please respect copyright.PENANAY6F6NRN9td
684Please respect copyright.PENANAK2Qr50ur8t
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。684Please respect copyright.PENANAHFqUIDrl34
684Please respect copyright.PENANAxeSdpIYHTB
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。684Please respect copyright.PENANA5WLE4gneAE
684Please respect copyright.PENANAjzLhdtJSLe
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。684Please respect copyright.PENANAb7NMcyEeMI
684Please respect copyright.PENANAz4YebnEwOq
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。684Please respect copyright.PENANAwUBH1ngMho
684Please respect copyright.PENANAumfC4FgS81
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。684Please respect copyright.PENANAePjvngQXWm
684Please respect copyright.PENANAejg1C6fjSE
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。684Please respect copyright.PENANArpIeZl2HZW
684Please respect copyright.PENANA8tjdab69Ml
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……684Please respect copyright.PENANAwTwwXqRNMN
684Please respect copyright.PENANAtbU8urLHHr
——放大瞳孔。684Please respect copyright.PENANAFhoNdsLAqG
684Please respect copyright.PENANA1TTxSHDBnu
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。684Please respect copyright.PENANAtt2y5eUujB
684Please respect copyright.PENANAfczROkZoR5
手機就在我的褲袋。684Please respect copyright.PENANA3eL9rTlZGt
684Please respect copyright.PENANAfbmKY0jlbY
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。684Please respect copyright.PENANA8NPfd31GA5
684Please respect copyright.PENANArlGwhl1Cs2
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。684Please respect copyright.PENANAGABcLuPtsY
684Please respect copyright.PENANAciNqxNYv93
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。684Please respect copyright.PENANAYGtA1ta2E9
684Please respect copyright.PENANAAtOgYZHEvx
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。684Please respect copyright.PENANALeX4y9S0ay
684Please respect copyright.PENANAGVvZvepx0S
那麼,打嗎?684Please respect copyright.PENANABwjmsI2lyI
684Please respect copyright.PENANApVbmTeEyv9
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。684Please respect copyright.PENANA3WQMmVM2ou
684Please respect copyright.PENANAlVemP9eztS
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?684Please respect copyright.PENANAMawz6Co83R
684Please respect copyright.PENANAure3voSyd3
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?684Please respect copyright.PENANAi8NK7OUF01
684Please respect copyright.PENANAgtF19VeehZ
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。684Please respect copyright.PENANAv96UezZygV
684Please respect copyright.PENANAmTebVZlPY0
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。684Please respect copyright.PENANAojofzsfgpD
684Please respect copyright.PENANAeXXRIhKIpk
幾度拿出手機的我——684Please respect copyright.PENANAn6XRajskAW
684Please respect copyright.PENANA4wUPYXH98O
算吧。684Please respect copyright.PENANAhoKACEanFN
684Please respect copyright.PENANA0SmnaJOeov
把手機放回褲袋。684Please respect copyright.PENANAfOWKoO2JYY
684Please respect copyright.PENANAO92MuJUDCi
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。684Please respect copyright.PENANAFvXLpV4hjI
684Please respect copyright.PENANAgGm5KISDdU
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。684Please respect copyright.PENANAFa30dQxanM
684Please respect copyright.PENANAGUOLubjMTv
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。684Please respect copyright.PENANAbWxVFO78N7
684Please respect copyright.PENANAeUSwd1ccfO