這算什麼?681Please respect copyright.PENANArzcaPoFsMf
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。681Please respect copyright.PENANAbCPy0bjBiV
681Please respect copyright.PENANAocB0K8lZ6k
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。681Please respect copyright.PENANA4B3Y5oTlXz
681Please respect copyright.PENANAAolb4Muztp
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。681Please respect copyright.PENANAK3cqCRlHdz
681Please respect copyright.PENANAFKbDIeLMlD
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。681Please respect copyright.PENANAs9BWB3PJQX
681Please respect copyright.PENANANBfqher4Kb
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。681Please respect copyright.PENANA7GYYLA79Wp
681Please respect copyright.PENANAvwKHxJuaEk
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。681Please respect copyright.PENANAjZ0yFYNrSI
681Please respect copyright.PENANAjbuxoxokND
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。681Please respect copyright.PENANAA6DbhzySPv
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然後便準備下山了。681Please respect copyright.PENANAkVWbwu1scR
681Please respect copyright.PENANAYe4OakbLx1
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。681Please respect copyright.PENANAjYsv9GSljs
681Please respect copyright.PENANAnmHGcnQmFT
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。681Please respect copyright.PENANAXclgRJ7JLo
681Please respect copyright.PENANA4CKfw94VaP
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAIG5tGSgWj4
681Please respect copyright.PENANAhnoCmfGEiW
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。681Please respect copyright.PENANAowxoC8jbMb
681Please respect copyright.PENANA1fmZTjQG7t
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。681Please respect copyright.PENANAld1qRLDa17
681Please respect copyright.PENANA6kbBpJzSlZ
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。681Please respect copyright.PENANAsMckEwK6xA
681Please respect copyright.PENANAw5SXGMMxmc
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。681Please respect copyright.PENANAhM5KcxXUEu
681Please respect copyright.PENANAh4hFoLVDja
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。681Please respect copyright.PENANAqzzHdd3mk4
681Please respect copyright.PENANAmquDStKIqG
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」681Please respect copyright.PENANAsNZOE1ueVn
681Please respect copyright.PENANAKtUPb13keO
不會告訴我,又一天了。681Please respect copyright.PENANAWsDJM0j1M6
681Please respect copyright.PENANAJYsEIQYz4Z
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。681Please respect copyright.PENANAFwpPRaj1UB
681Please respect copyright.PENANAS5wTCWqOGP
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。681Please respect copyright.PENANAF8Qgm5ZCe1
681Please respect copyright.PENANAyb0p87ADeH
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。681Please respect copyright.PENANAdtQk2VBTp4
681Please respect copyright.PENANAjaG4H0kC7y
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。681Please respect copyright.PENANAWFjV7XRZrd
681Please respect copyright.PENANAvnqxZmDGTn
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。681Please respect copyright.PENANAN2DHTxzZfV
681Please respect copyright.PENANAC9e4dCP50r
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAJWa7tMdYDx
681Please respect copyright.PENANA31CsWOayG1
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。681Please respect copyright.PENANA2IRhKE7jle
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。681Please respect copyright.PENANAJK7OHC5IyD
681Please respect copyright.PENANAY40ILXT2wE
怎麼說呢?681Please respect copyright.PENANA5IHrHoQara
681Please respect copyright.PENANAT2ajkdsaU3
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。681Please respect copyright.PENANAeNPHhZPagV
681Please respect copyright.PENANAMrJDTbLx7f
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。681Please respect copyright.PENANAp8Cgrpvgh9
681Please respect copyright.PENANAjSj7zx9XR8
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。681Please respect copyright.PENANARE7epefLoU
681Please respect copyright.PENANAHtAw7p3zH6
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。681Please respect copyright.PENANAkUfOfrSang
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。681Please respect copyright.PENANA7cCWhM6P2X
681Please respect copyright.PENANA6NPPWGbFUw
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。681Please respect copyright.PENANAEkro21epAX
681Please respect copyright.PENANAYO96UHDiEq
我再點頭。681Please respect copyright.PENANAZIpEM8JTq5
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。681Please respect copyright.PENANAvmdcXy5DX9
681Please respect copyright.PENANApEin0YIdqx
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。681Please respect copyright.PENANAhKKwD5HxJe
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我馬上看第二天。681Please respect copyright.PENANAPaKcP45Lrg
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。681Please respect copyright.PENANAcB0Nhhx4sX
681Please respect copyright.PENANAUgdy9mKXl1
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。681Please respect copyright.PENANAd3r2uA5kvv
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……681Please respect copyright.PENANAbUIuzUjAkB
681Please respect copyright.PENANAw8HH2Xr1Wo
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。681Please respect copyright.PENANAfStVQUh1Qv
681Please respect copyright.PENANAwU9INMvtdx
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」681Please respect copyright.PENANADfCnGFI8zq
681Please respect copyright.PENANAuyGVa3xNzn
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」681Please respect copyright.PENANATsFZgXXCvv
681Please respect copyright.PENANAq6TTRPzrV1
第二天「END」出現。681Please respect copyright.PENANAGET6EtmwX7
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我蓋上了練習簿。681Please respect copyright.PENANAc9JnkxhaLY
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。681Please respect copyright.PENANAZIhmGLuHLw
681Please respect copyright.PENANA1Fj9wJrl2q
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?681Please respect copyright.PENANAnElZAVSbLG
681Please respect copyright.PENANApqyoSwpWew
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。681Please respect copyright.PENANAb4Z2R7FTJE
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。681Please respect copyright.PENANALjUfXyaSe6
681Please respect copyright.PENANAHTtPEIXrwq
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。681Please respect copyright.PENANAHKtZfya57v
681Please respect copyright.PENANA1kOIrc97s7
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。681Please respect copyright.PENANAL1SZ1aScwX
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。681Please respect copyright.PENANAHF1Vfaw25b
681Please respect copyright.PENANAeVZooLgMAu
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?681Please respect copyright.PENANAowm2P3aBHy
681Please respect copyright.PENANAzgf0pvotVp
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。681Please respect copyright.PENANAJYyxUrKYwv
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。681Please respect copyright.PENANAP3MDxPQ5x7
681Please respect copyright.PENANACVvoDurwgc
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAVueRTAbpwj
681Please respect copyright.PENANA7m6QinG4LI
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。681Please respect copyright.PENANAlpCEdCwaUa
681Please respect copyright.PENANAB6Tbq8S4bU
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAKMiTg7l0ei
681Please respect copyright.PENANAXDWNKoZuL1
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。681Please respect copyright.PENANAwdcJ4b3iJi
681Please respect copyright.PENANAnoido08l5k
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。681Please respect copyright.PENANAVAFuIQtWit
681Please respect copyright.PENANAjax2gaciQT
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。681Please respect copyright.PENANADKLJiWlLxe
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然後再次坐好。681Please respect copyright.PENANAFImM8Qo4T3
681Please respect copyright.PENANA2ckIguFHpe
「陸……傾兒。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAiYDZaBk8v1
681Please respect copyright.PENANAQcSJSDIxlr
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。681Please respect copyright.PENANABh2i9Fnxyo
681Please respect copyright.PENANADCGl73u0Mj
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。681Please respect copyright.PENANAzB9YOcyc1s
681Please respect copyright.PENANAgY5Ltsl6Tv
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。681Please respect copyright.PENANAv9D1iwVl6V
681Please respect copyright.PENANAzrYJQPC0Tj
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。681Please respect copyright.PENANAUJqCqg50Md
681Please respect copyright.PENANAgkgEb7bvMA
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。681Please respect copyright.PENANAUa8OyBNyf4
681Please respect copyright.PENANAaXzSpxtHsI
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?681Please respect copyright.PENANAJYQEmOnOKv
681Please respect copyright.PENANAe756abxqBd
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。681Please respect copyright.PENANAIOUUmnkRT3
681Please respect copyright.PENANA6oc6d1Weob
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。681Please respect copyright.PENANAHnQwyVEuZr
681Please respect copyright.PENANAZxzeFdwoHv
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。681Please respect copyright.PENANAXJlu42yuir
681Please respect copyright.PENANAjuPMbR2qQy
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。681Please respect copyright.PENANAYY4G1ai0p6
681Please respect copyright.PENANAMS3nYHg8n1
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。681Please respect copyright.PENANAlkB66G1mDa
681Please respect copyright.PENANA1PGgpDjQ4p
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。681Please respect copyright.PENANAjOU99dAb6u
681Please respect copyright.PENANA5wIe6S57C3
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。681Please respect copyright.PENANApNh5S3Jn1s
681Please respect copyright.PENANAYWMibbSfnM
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。681Please respect copyright.PENANAAKAE94xLz0
681Please respect copyright.PENANAgpgIOgyCSL
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。681Please respect copyright.PENANAur9mRpnoOx
681Please respect copyright.PENANAXoyZt6MTsR
那麼,我呢?681Please respect copyright.PENANAb4NsVamFjy
681Please respect copyright.PENANAX34l2fz4Kc
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?681Please respect copyright.PENANAjHeT12fkpL
681Please respect copyright.PENANAWQCSaaZf5P
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。681Please respect copyright.PENANArkA9vjeftc
681Please respect copyright.PENANAGSoSosOEDR
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。681Please respect copyright.PENANAsjqIOX5nB4
681Please respect copyright.PENANACd02cvyWPZ
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。681Please respect copyright.PENANAFxQJNYlewc
681Please respect copyright.PENANAZpeU6IMPHz
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。681Please respect copyright.PENANA6fViYAllXj
681Please respect copyright.PENANAwvtooTY1YO
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。681Please respect copyright.PENANAWzfYn4O6vN
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 681Please respect copyright.PENANAkgQdK3Zq50
681Please respect copyright.PENANAwMfjaYTEbr
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 681Please respect copyright.PENANACgrIFm3w4B
681Please respect copyright.PENANABKN2l4eBBj
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。681Please respect copyright.PENANAg2M9Ov99AK
681Please respect copyright.PENANAf4wuNcLwiG
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAwWABaxAMW0
681Please respect copyright.PENANAeyQYNQF2JS
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」681Please respect copyright.PENANARFq5Nxonhm
681Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ftk3UCwYX
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAKZi3tOxUwU
681Please respect copyright.PENANAnoB84yejuK
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAdAIqrlNZRd
681Please respect copyright.PENANAyOL08v44fh
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。681Please respect copyright.PENANAABy9WikY2i
681Please respect copyright.PENANAwC7iIiK7Xh
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」681Please respect copyright.PENANA7DtESsGNPH
681Please respect copyright.PENANAebYafjlVQm
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。681Please respect copyright.PENANAdazCGic2SH
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。681Please respect copyright.PENANAQy5SrxlqVT
681Please respect copyright.PENANAMAeYtFQec0
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。681Please respect copyright.PENANA7iYan1N2q1
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。681Please respect copyright.PENANApEGnaVopOQ
681Please respect copyright.PENANARgUmwZVZUW
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?681Please respect copyright.PENANAwHlVjHyKpf
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我期待著。681Please respect copyright.PENANAvqZqcPJi78
681Please respect copyright.PENANA7vTnDJEwCW
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。681Please respect copyright.PENANAKIWlxLWInR
681Please respect copyright.PENANAKrQuyqIE3l
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。681Please respect copyright.PENANAXaDPoZXCW5
681Please respect copyright.PENANAkWjit3Hhxb
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。681Please respect copyright.PENANAPuoAXKoecs
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」681Please respect copyright.PENANAWgTfCHw2J8
681Please respect copyright.PENANAHpUxbGZeKW
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。681Please respect copyright.PENANAbd3K8XWwWT
681Please respect copyright.PENANADU0aW5Pvn9
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAOo2IHpxmxY
681Please respect copyright.PENANAaJI4iJ2ZZl
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。681Please respect copyright.PENANAidgFHACNA5
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。681Please respect copyright.PENANARkpKtgstq1
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傾耳以待——681Please respect copyright.PENANA8rjztA5L4y
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAf84nix3tEJ
681Please respect copyright.PENANAB4vooWyYbK
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。681Please respect copyright.PENANACcBqAC9SMd
681Please respect copyright.PENANAQmc93mpKYb
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。681Please respect copyright.PENANADti6P90diP
681Please respect copyright.PENANAODiLlg5lzb
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。681Please respect copyright.PENANAEC6QarwfrW
681Please respect copyright.PENANAQmwBYbrfNK
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」681Please respect copyright.PENANATO2XAS6lQS
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身體傾後,躺了下來。681Please respect copyright.PENANALjEj71zGAJ
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「係諗住攤。」681Please respect copyright.PENANAcXOBbVNCBb
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。681Please respect copyright.PENANAM1YB9xEqTM
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。681Please respect copyright.PENANAL14jMiepDC
681Please respect copyright.PENANABEeh7upNpR
在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。681Please respect copyright.PENANA33fh0MgAEo
681Please respect copyright.PENANAaowbebVWMU
露出鼻尖和微笑。681Please respect copyright.PENANAFqRftv9wN8
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。681Please respect copyright.PENANAGN7t1CfB0j