這算什麼?640Please respect copyright.PENANAAdtDvsJlqm
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。640Please respect copyright.PENANAnuD394RI18
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。640Please respect copyright.PENANAnGSicRjIbq
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。640Please respect copyright.PENANAPDH7sEqYDn
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。640Please respect copyright.PENANAuv8O6k8bxb
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。640Please respect copyright.PENANAnkmrCG5PUT
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。640Please respect copyright.PENANARlt1AOyPtQ
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。640Please respect copyright.PENANAfNemQ1A1F2
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然後便準備下山了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAkAzNeq1wdj
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。640Please respect copyright.PENANAlrFyEMngGf
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。640Please respect copyright.PENANAFAlcyxlJCo
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」640Please respect copyright.PENANA72MmEzm2hj
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。640Please respect copyright.PENANA95akK8zTPU
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。640Please respect copyright.PENANAmrb2qVYenF
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。640Please respect copyright.PENANAZF7fwYvwYS
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。640Please respect copyright.PENANAg0O4lVo9bE
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。640Please respect copyright.PENANAExn8CHTFPw
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」640Please respect copyright.PENANAAUa0mHv16L
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不會告訴我,又一天了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAY0lRZk9V9I
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。640Please respect copyright.PENANApoKgTM5gxe
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。640Please respect copyright.PENANAWmzgAccaIw
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。640Please respect copyright.PENANAUFqiQ71TV3
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。640Please respect copyright.PENANAXrT8jxbneE
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。640Please respect copyright.PENANA3fCUpJ8S2e
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAWfSbsYp79m
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。640Please respect copyright.PENANATDs16pfGLh
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAj83xgVh5vI
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怎麼說呢?640Please respect copyright.PENANABxgXv3v3s5
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。640Please respect copyright.PENANAewYdpvn6uI
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。640Please respect copyright.PENANAmghtZsqPvz
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。640Please respect copyright.PENANAyD4rU7FsNL
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。640Please respect copyright.PENANA6xHAyN3ilt
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。640Please respect copyright.PENANAwnazTLHhbk
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。640Please respect copyright.PENANABUPGUWXGgg
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我再點頭。640Please respect copyright.PENANAJHzsijX9RZ
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。640Please respect copyright.PENANAGDxsigfUGr
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。640Please respect copyright.PENANATVxvbCTaHY
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我馬上看第二天。640Please respect copyright.PENANAHAIXVHDkpW
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。640Please respect copyright.PENANAybIQgxwnj5
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。640Please respect copyright.PENANAtZaS8Kn9yy
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……640Please respect copyright.PENANAZNW3AB6rZr
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。640Please respect copyright.PENANAxUYgmzuJlE
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」640Please respect copyright.PENANAakNDyxbTNp
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」640Please respect copyright.PENANAXmAV2qYEeR
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第二天「END」出現。640Please respect copyright.PENANArtGg22yCWf
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我蓋上了練習簿。640Please respect copyright.PENANARjWmxhplVc
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。640Please respect copyright.PENANAlNIvu3XS6N
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?640Please respect copyright.PENANAGl5eFwLkle
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAfQRakcXwHI
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。640Please respect copyright.PENANALSfHNaA6KO
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。640Please respect copyright.PENANALGwHJHvGeR
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。640Please respect copyright.PENANACnSUfuzbmg
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。640Please respect copyright.PENANAV8FglPGuGA
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?640Please respect copyright.PENANAkp2C8q4a6g
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。640Please respect copyright.PENANAgyRtx0OJCz
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。640Please respect copyright.PENANAr4QIbQVuR6
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAaoa0DzTCgt
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。640Please respect copyright.PENANAyMejnWKcT6
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」640Please respect copyright.PENANA49UmddIHRo
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。640Please respect copyright.PENANAMdkeCgo3ER
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。640Please respect copyright.PENANA7h1CENp1Rm
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。640Please respect copyright.PENANACXNKLfBVLX
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然後再次坐好。640Please respect copyright.PENANA7cmOLk39hp
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「陸……傾兒。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAexMhPdCKta
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。640Please respect copyright.PENANAAan5eW5XSY
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。640Please respect copyright.PENANAPuXCX5zHRV
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。640Please respect copyright.PENANA2qh2sBmmOR
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。640Please respect copyright.PENANAtyXPoqhFT3
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。640Please respect copyright.PENANAgP9wF1pdik
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?640Please respect copyright.PENANAlVjkbFHREh
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。640Please respect copyright.PENANA12eOquJklq
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。640Please respect copyright.PENANA4bJJmdwFzw
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAsTy6TaqWv1
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAozEiINNFWe
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。640Please respect copyright.PENANA9J2MIhSsWj
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。640Please respect copyright.PENANA2BLJpbBM4M
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。640Please respect copyright.PENANAexe02dRj5M
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。640Please respect copyright.PENANAhrqUb1IuJJ
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。640Please respect copyright.PENANAADaCEE4rWM
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那麼,我呢?640Please respect copyright.PENANAUUZ59i3tQM
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?640Please respect copyright.PENANAK9581s32wP
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。640Please respect copyright.PENANAQZQfmgcBFF
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。640Please respect copyright.PENANAUXiSeWphZ0
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。640Please respect copyright.PENANAvaZoKyJVNj
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。640Please respect copyright.PENANAJoJzbeY0fy
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。640Please respect copyright.PENANAYnO8Koa0Uj
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 640Please respect copyright.PENANASfvqmh5G7v
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 640Please respect copyright.PENANAtxaHTNd68c
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。640Please respect copyright.PENANA85v0YrZZMf
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAydYdi16sGV
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」640Please respect copyright.PENANA6fHCoeGymd
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAIorLgl7PIY
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」640Please respect copyright.PENANABrJKGuUjtg
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。640Please respect copyright.PENANARqLVSxtDlS
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAkOYQsobZs1
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。640Please respect copyright.PENANAe3DxlT4VMa
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。640Please respect copyright.PENANAnZim5diTp4
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。640Please respect copyright.PENANAQzMeTJPrRF
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。640Please respect copyright.PENANACB65o3guID
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?640Please respect copyright.PENANAiXNjNNESbT
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我期待著。640Please respect copyright.PENANAotMX1Tb0cd
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。640Please respect copyright.PENANABKZz147SXn
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。640Please respect copyright.PENANAH430e6YHTZ
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。640Please respect copyright.PENANAEw1vkJLwDm
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」640Please respect copyright.PENANA0xdpBg7qxO
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。640Please respect copyright.PENANAPTY3mMZc0b
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」640Please respect copyright.PENANASgV2O30Y2W
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。640Please respect copyright.PENANA9klWYxxzQi
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。640Please respect copyright.PENANAOBxjCTIs2k
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傾耳以待——640Please respect copyright.PENANAkMWAwI8dmp
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAB8M6zoCYqE
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。640Please respect copyright.PENANA6v6Q3uWbUi
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。640Please respect copyright.PENANA6zPgy1aEzd
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。640Please respect copyright.PENANAu9geH0Q30M
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAU3A3Jjaz0D
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身體傾後,躺了下來。640Please respect copyright.PENANABHVOKYTw4k
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「係諗住攤。」640Please respect copyright.PENANAD2CVboqFuF
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。640Please respect copyright.PENANASsV6yhWzJK
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。640Please respect copyright.PENANAcGoQhJ65T3
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。640Please respect copyright.PENANAeoyLbYUfxT
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露出鼻尖和微笑。640Please respect copyright.PENANAIZWYUMIKgA
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。640Please respect copyright.PENANAhsYzo81vD4