這算什麼?655Please respect copyright.PENANArD74a1hSIP
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。655Please respect copyright.PENANAKa3qVHs1bs
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。655Please respect copyright.PENANAC1HArgI1Tt
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。655Please respect copyright.PENANA3y9kiDmlNm
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。655Please respect copyright.PENANAyEkoMPtGaz
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。655Please respect copyright.PENANA95X5Wrmbi8
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。655Please respect copyright.PENANAm1DpEHsLqh
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。655Please respect copyright.PENANAVtLJUs9s8N
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然後便準備下山了。655Please respect copyright.PENANAeqxdQUQk0x
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。655Please respect copyright.PENANAVBKc9AmOd6
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。655Please respect copyright.PENANA7NDiqO0okm
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAmwqZbGWlhx
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。655Please respect copyright.PENANAZz6UwFSldB
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。655Please respect copyright.PENANACYZDSPTtxQ
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。655Please respect copyright.PENANAJxxuLQ8bO7
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。655Please respect copyright.PENANAkGm404D0Lq
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。655Please respect copyright.PENANA6N31Russ0S
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」655Please respect copyright.PENANAiFEODfuS7f
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不會告訴我,又一天了。655Please respect copyright.PENANAPFCJDWTYL0
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。655Please respect copyright.PENANAGeAIb880UU
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。655Please respect copyright.PENANATSscfNjvk5
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。655Please respect copyright.PENANAVkkc0dFzGI
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。655Please respect copyright.PENANALrjt4tKhNi
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。655Please respect copyright.PENANAiCxt5heRNi
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」655Please respect copyright.PENANA1mN14lOEBt
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。655Please respect copyright.PENANAoQFXOr6sQa
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。655Please respect copyright.PENANAIOgaxLcZz3
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怎麼說呢?655Please respect copyright.PENANAZpyJV3w1cw
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。655Please respect copyright.PENANAbxGhX3HSpo
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。655Please respect copyright.PENANAlGpLTcxxMk
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。655Please respect copyright.PENANA5lzzdN5wLA
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。655Please respect copyright.PENANAhmTaK24BpP
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。655Please respect copyright.PENANAvbv2eIjiGl
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。655Please respect copyright.PENANArpZgJlAgwS
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我再點頭。655Please respect copyright.PENANAyZy99gR6Mi
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。655Please respect copyright.PENANAqdNtQii71y
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。655Please respect copyright.PENANAUgdRu0zU3u
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我馬上看第二天。655Please respect copyright.PENANAj8C7N7MIM7
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。655Please respect copyright.PENANAVhHar8aeRK
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。655Please respect copyright.PENANAKDmA6GsRjT
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……655Please respect copyright.PENANAGNrl7soWwx
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。655Please respect copyright.PENANAcWF6lAsF1u
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」655Please respect copyright.PENANAecb8Waop7N
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」655Please respect copyright.PENANAhDUq9V7x4V
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第二天「END」出現。655Please respect copyright.PENANADex3tplLS6
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我蓋上了練習簿。655Please respect copyright.PENANAydtj75ZxgP
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。655Please respect copyright.PENANA5vn5jW0ms1
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?655Please respect copyright.PENANAiyPpdrN3wZ
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。655Please respect copyright.PENANAYaVpL8VFN9
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。655Please respect copyright.PENANA6oUZQKCfOG
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。655Please respect copyright.PENANAYCH5e7Leo1
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。655Please respect copyright.PENANAx1prjuhhy1
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。655Please respect copyright.PENANA36HBXmCbIN
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?655Please respect copyright.PENANARxH4KbdqLY
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。655Please respect copyright.PENANAGRmvj4ZCiI
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。655Please respect copyright.PENANAGYUiOnaDW9
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAznTYql2WNG
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。655Please respect copyright.PENANAEJSsRnTGuB
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAAOo0hWIdny
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。655Please respect copyright.PENANAA2hKLjwBOY
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。655Please respect copyright.PENANAlULJVAMma6
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。655Please respect copyright.PENANAXhfZ09bAoZ
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然後再次坐好。655Please respect copyright.PENANA7nWCQRz0MQ
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「陸……傾兒。」655Please respect copyright.PENANA7vDMjHElyK
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。655Please respect copyright.PENANAmTtw2Bg6qz
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。655Please respect copyright.PENANA27nYk3qzjW
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。655Please respect copyright.PENANAJKmpIYXGCn
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。655Please respect copyright.PENANAixUrYQQQvm
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。655Please respect copyright.PENANAEm7Ox74w1G
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?655Please respect copyright.PENANAHOfqIWbQh4
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。655Please respect copyright.PENANAGmAMuezCWG
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。655Please respect copyright.PENANA9580cECG1T
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。655Please respect copyright.PENANA7RsePkwbae
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。655Please respect copyright.PENANAb7TxYkzwAh
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。655Please respect copyright.PENANAMFCYIuoS1T
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。655Please respect copyright.PENANAkK5rHMouvQ
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。655Please respect copyright.PENANAD3j953oFNW
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。655Please respect copyright.PENANA7M57DHsH3W
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。655Please respect copyright.PENANAaTbu87MBbR
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那麼,我呢?655Please respect copyright.PENANAFZQeQQk3BL
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?655Please respect copyright.PENANA2OjJ9sZTRi
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。655Please respect copyright.PENANARjGSFh5Bac
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。655Please respect copyright.PENANAhIxzOgQZOk
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。655Please respect copyright.PENANA6XG4HmJyvW
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。655Please respect copyright.PENANAVjom4sIr20
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。655Please respect copyright.PENANAdLdXbF10ZG
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 655Please respect copyright.PENANAnM292g3sAh
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 655Please respect copyright.PENANAMODcn676Hz
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。655Please respect copyright.PENANAGFSnbVa2PK
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAW5mmeCxXsD
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAi7xYzfJeM7
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」655Please respect copyright.PENANABJdC1c163H
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」655Please respect copyright.PENANA0VOG797zZA
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。655Please respect copyright.PENANAECTp9fTqdU
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」655Please respect copyright.PENANADiFl3FhwT2
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。655Please respect copyright.PENANABHTJVxOBDH
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。655Please respect copyright.PENANAt2teUj9VM1
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。655Please respect copyright.PENANAg6ggMzH3DC
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。655Please respect copyright.PENANAWQziwwB3At
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?655Please respect copyright.PENANAn6B2wj8ReW
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我期待著。655Please respect copyright.PENANAaaJhgA24vH
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。655Please respect copyright.PENANA70A7XXyj3S
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。655Please respect copyright.PENANA5wGe1NsuVe
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。655Please respect copyright.PENANAOZsVAwrJCq
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」655Please respect copyright.PENANAMy0UVT8PYs
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。655Please respect copyright.PENANAKGJtsJ7Wrc
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」655Please respect copyright.PENANASpZMAgIC2K
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。655Please respect copyright.PENANASJhg8QbnrK
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。655Please respect copyright.PENANABfcsaV5HyU
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傾耳以待——655Please respect copyright.PENANAhi2VaHsyI4
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」655Please respect copyright.PENANA2ShKwQVjSK
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。655Please respect copyright.PENANAv4pq7Gt5YG
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。655Please respect copyright.PENANAlV5pNAPLTQ
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。655Please respect copyright.PENANA346tUkUqr5
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAbw0pKIAZOq
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身體傾後,躺了下來。655Please respect copyright.PENANAympDR4w7sM
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「係諗住攤。」655Please respect copyright.PENANAk8bpP3ZSjK
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。655Please respect copyright.PENANAP7hCaU6c6p
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。655Please respect copyright.PENANAlrL4tUZ9JG
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。655Please respect copyright.PENANAeGjJX3bgwe
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露出鼻尖和微笑。655Please respect copyright.PENANACDHKB4hWtX
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。655Please respect copyright.PENANAlpbEefDXqg