我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYQySlsfUC
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRod7HRx9kP
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「咬下——」明白了。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOC5U9pUci
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91RiJELnw9
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPanv18A4s4
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL8sThP0Bf
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbMa2NHWkR
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神是不是故意的？699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z5KGGskpL
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6RBas7TgG
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDphOEvUL6
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziM6TJvwzn
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Q28oubqK2
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEjof37QP2
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15y1fxXWJj
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aNDiM81v2
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbjJOofQf5
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUWa1y4uGl
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucGphhXsW1
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L766DBFP9
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然後我沒有再阻止她。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hMC9bDfCT
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjq9F2TcXC
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe1WxTWBIb
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr3d9PiYko
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTHSAm0jBz
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthcNUEhzso
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLqtvqRE2D
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs8bxVcylx
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bvspYYIN6
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「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPXY3jzcr8
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTkkazTKua
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我也正在難過。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3m6GdxGf8
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF865Tfkjv
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwrwF22WwZ
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksOPMgWjxc
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「點解？」她問。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEZim3F58S
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHMLMEL22Z
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hlgAjmV5u
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同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPceFfR2FWZ
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWHp6WrTDv
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2vd0SjzCe
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYis7lcRvaF
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ4xJdW2xB
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1hYEThSc6
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這是……什麼爛方法？699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRakHiucUy
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2vfU4aJrb
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSsBmszS7u
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVC7dSdOZYn
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「咩條件？」她問。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMCGw6Xara
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemW8Ff66v6
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LJliLM6mA
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「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNWPVDSYNE
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqAf3b5hgb
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8z220I4gE
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAKLMYn89p
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「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10HgztHjpf
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「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbAbBmWj58
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTXgpyTbdf
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v9QDTbXSn
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「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwUuHNNzG7
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她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6caKlot03L
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSmFoVlx4t
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA8yfEOfDC
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhHdRsIrDx
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYMewSSgrv
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說完，她聽完。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeODpYsEer
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmiuKYdtHo
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「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9LRlvw0Ql
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc68tG1ZjEp
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「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLApAIt0eP
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58EXpoaTha
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q129AuTbL
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aaKZy4cdY
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「陸傾兒……」我說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3DyW0oLnC
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF0mDQEOlG
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「揀咩都得？」我問。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuuYJ3yPZp
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJF5Ci53tXR
699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMFV2aVbty
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyY1w7wgSKw
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而我不懂回答。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkYMWQc1gM
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjXZAlqZSn
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「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVcm53DDWH
699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzxr2GLs6E
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTR4PwkvH0
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我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdQaFTkhrk
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「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnuXJc7I8g
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「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UhLcFnqLq
699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXXoJsQEcN
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWwDzW58AL
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過後——699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNixijcyslR
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fKv44lVmR
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屁股坐下。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3crk2tUz0
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4evxdBIRcY
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