我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCyJlo98XT
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBgbdKSiz2
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「咬下——」明白了。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HVSD6MAVS
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfLvzJR0rk
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BCXFXPTsB
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7ImwRdKsI
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPxXSSaOrF
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsVDHNDwxZ
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKF71cqLqU
神是不是故意的？685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyh5zbGrHU
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscGCjCxlQV
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzAewzex6E
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9J0Ec4zNW
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKnDpiD3FU
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jttald75a
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj11EjwKKMb
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgVqyNDuhN
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHa1CiOnJA
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gkrMciBnH
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoKW0fTXl3
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD75frgINRy
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmZpjJ87hy
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvrRElbIdE
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuX35oDYiq
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QlHZi9YxX
「唔好再講喇。」我說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1m2oPH4N2
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1lD6W9iEN
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuAmZJauxF
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然後我沒有再阻止她。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9hFGTGQgr
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHehZq7YvkB
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlgMGtea0x
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbskeqnefuG
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUnUfFev4B
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZd6ykeNF8
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qOvQRDkK8
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8g2yumgaV
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ewPwtBAIB
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jG3yEADEl
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnqoe6AWwX
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW7imUvy7e
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPtt39WHDm
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroGMwLK601
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq3g5mW3R9
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEIoXUNBS9
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH4jWRBS4j
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1umkPMMzW
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOYXoPnKGY
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst0PLTzaEA
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2Ht7QlE7b
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr4f0Y8Ury
我也正在難過。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo56UcE8oIP
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArEU5pGECY
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTM1YYfIh8g
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTmyLqg1TU
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGcjqGsu88
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjjQUFk8Jf
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySGX9SwjZX
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdklMilcMR
「點解？」她問。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQAZnZU1Px
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmnASheAvZ
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52kML4YRXb
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBbt09ql7G
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkE12XIExY
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5PdMs12uG
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡci0P9pv77v
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOXWg8Gnjq
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnN2dZVj5aV
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlX30jpOmk
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKDSrY7jmg
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKcqcsUJf4
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uEgukAWo8
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w9rwlELQr
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfWl4rgilj
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b2YlaoOk4
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uW9jTwLhe
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這是……什麼爛方法？685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqX5JfLDCNj
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZeeaXlFps
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZFzKDReRR
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ekiVOZsEu
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GGkONChQe
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MbDVDspod
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwH1Hg46SN
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxT4D2rReZ3
「咩條件？」她問。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgJAnonwjN
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCvuhwDQ5f
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpdC7JNZKb
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbevgMmCY6S
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ILTOP1CHr
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMYndH1nWc
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdATopF0RGW
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukx0Aqg6qo
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshcXBT57s4
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDSRDTTIPt
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cRUL3xUPs
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntrsgZ4caS
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavZKpoD7Tf
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdVYnYDlFZ
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGCZZtmOIQ
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZwHcEqXK8
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPvIBlgrom
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf7Tz9SgFO
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OxHMVxckh
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVwi58R9q9
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4M9HsVHWz
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpe6yTXxEdA
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP1gn9iU5S
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom1j279nnS
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8i81qeWgXy
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7y5rjjQ6F
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW50xMmGbJx
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jXaNxvzvA
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6jM3WXebu
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzt6xS4Qbo
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kwbu0E9sg
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoEao7nXvG
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA54Et6UyPp
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iOJhxALch
說完，她聽完。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8NQTwp0hY
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz38PfCQ6TD
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAG4zeV9Y0
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXkx8VXEj4
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfupUd39sz
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAZFceLGu2
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnX47EfOKUV
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4J13MPdaeD
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNX8ZKjBl4
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZplfc3RP62
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhvqtcritd
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHmuEkmMJB
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SLFt3Gigc
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0uCCOzF6H
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3Agcz6B0s
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2kudUQADB
「陸傾兒……」我說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwWmhqvWtI
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ8C1OnxaS
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwr2FTINgVM
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTojTalncRv
「揀咩都得？」我問。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HBNFEoInr
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK26WOOldQ4
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEFztLqJJ0
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdt3ds5cvl
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzbwVpxoda
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMve0QMkru
而我不懂回答。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQpmqvA1Gk
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3n6G5FqiS
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7hRXsOD58
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49GtHnkLXt
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TLajTf8I5
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0dayC3L4P
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRzJby5LmC
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOsZz2JsAC
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlKXk8k1U1
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxRac3wQio
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Olt387WLU
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhfXAsnD7w
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXHhpDIfNX
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9iSHxOrQH
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWvUN65pHd
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEm5F7mBnk
過後——685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCkucpuOgo
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjWsUGLH9O
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQpmfbW4u1
屁股坐下。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Y5xachs2U
685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhouCrfrZQ6
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。685Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHnoFfkIOp
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