我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cnQwSgkEC
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgL17xawJ4
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「咬下——」明白了。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLAAwHOnO9
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9kX8QIyPs
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l3vf29D4w
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBfbhdgTmz
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaHLnnUq8N
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神是不是故意的？725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rNZl6V8Px
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs9DkRtxM1
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3pd50kPVD
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjT1veVxXL
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3cnIqsHjT
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMUYYtlGir
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBrxUZes0W
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFZesm9T6W
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYhivNabGs
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TmWdRwZz9
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3MxU80Wid
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwK0mPbi0b3
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然後我沒有再阻止她。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OE35AAm7F
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl3NtdwIBR
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0A6BzU2QsV
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaE9kKOgQWG
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MTCV5M0LZ
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7pAAHcAOO
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZnJJOUOXE
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4aKZIxhwu
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNnXtQyx8E
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCquZ9dAN7o
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdGS5W9zhn
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtA4nCQ2OR
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5w1jjOQHr
我也正在難過。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDEMV54eQk
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuLHEcIEd4
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahyAEHIV3c
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKEsRaRs46
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「點解？」她問。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZmXScDItS
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQixr4pT7IT
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYT9qTXcjd
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同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOprOB5yql
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9u0Hc2Ii9k
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweMvzz24Jo
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCQQmUFOFR
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPr3VRZ232H
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NoHyWYsIq
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這是……什麼爛方法？725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDryz5Yekar
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M1Dk8juDk
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiUT4frusX
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rv99af74u
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「咩條件？」她問。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9FtBp4zki
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGu9h56HVZB
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMOG6e8du7
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「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0T9kTrKDo
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiatatA4xct
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvq0tHudQdE
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4B9MwXRyCJ
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5msnPrJjwq
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9br5PMR4O
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMajWvDzPYu
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCdRqbXZTK
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTh86spAQA6
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNF2OHeBKF
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8j8PkJVqS
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjt6NmYGxM
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRGzDLsRIc
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW8CCMvgbn
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEk53sUDz5
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcpwg4HZdl
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3269truhU
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSZz7Ae3T1
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhXalGOEQs
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAXotfl7b4
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說完，她聽完。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGepoLXN4n
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjWBGVqQFi
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「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRsrlOMjOs
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQkTnkd27H
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ777k9kIM86
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mcCVqIJPI
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrZtyJuBi6
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8A024ghTd
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkP6WCSazk7
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「陸傾兒……」我說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXkBAWjHNU
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfS67T0RQr
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「揀咩都得？」我問。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE7wFI939s
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7ieLn2t8C
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfJv8ZEPaZ
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVEsShxhHp
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6c0c9aGb4
而我不懂回答。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADCgDCLtSc
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYv9x61cFvi
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCpfjf5vYS
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY79hucovXG
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxDVdtswP9
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwJ3IxRfsk
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGih1tYnA0
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUCSHNk50d
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrxbMXRqmr
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKouobSBHBp
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC0a5Lg0Da
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fY6fwYivO
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9rK5uOqOG
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT30Pbb9HK
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過後——725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREUf50L987
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWiB6IY0rS
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屁股坐下。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxLQjfimyI
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk3FELpFtk
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