我和傾姐坐在沙發上,一同蓋在被子下。725Please respect copyright.PENANA8cnQwSgkEC
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拉上被子,右手拿出麥提莎,放進口裡。725Please respect copyright.PENANAwgL17xawJ4
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「咬下——」明白了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAeLAAwHOnO9
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目前,我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上,蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力,使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。725Please respect copyright.PENANAL9kX8QIyPs
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難怪,她會向神許願,祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。725Please respect copyright.PENANA8l3vf29D4w
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脫離現有的生活?慢著,那不正是我做過的,最誇張的一件事嗎?725Please respect copyright.PENANACBfbhdgTmz
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封閉自己的內心,流落孤島,徹底地脫離原本的生活。725Please respect copyright.PENANAOaHLnnUq8N
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神是不是故意的?725Please respect copyright.PENANA5rNZl6V8Px
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。725Please respect copyright.PENANAWs9DkRtxM1
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我望望時鐘,時間奇怪了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAT3pd50kPVD
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點,顯示著一個奇怪的時間。725Please respect copyright.PENANAmjT1veVxXL
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「雖然你好想幫我,但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAr3cnIqsHjT
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「點解咁講?」我問,準備再取下一粒。725Please respect copyright.PENANAqMUYYtlGir
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人,唔止得蔣少,我都有份。」她自白。725Please respect copyright.PENANAWBrxUZes0W
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「唔止有份,我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說,「就好似之前,要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAcFZesm9T6W
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「我做過嘅壞事,一啲都唔少。」她說,「如果唔係,啲人都唔會咁驚我,我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAlYhivNabGs
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「有一次,中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩,希望我介紹幾個畀佢地,我都介紹咗。」她黯然說,「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」725Please respect copyright.PENANA3TmWdRwZz9
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAS3MxU80Wid
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「如果你係想幫我嘅,至少,我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAwK0mPbi0b3
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然後我沒有再阻止她。725Please respect copyright.PENANA5OE35AAm7F
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讓她一直說著自己的壞,說著自己欺負了多少人,威脅了多少人,傷害過多少人。725Please respect copyright.PENANAUl3NtdwIBR
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聽著,我聽到了熟悉的聲音。725Please respect copyright.PENANA0A6BzU2QsV
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不是我也做過這些事,而是我也說過這些話,一些自責的話。725Please respect copyright.PENANAaE9kKOgQWG
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透過用言語來責罰自己,讓自己好過一點。725Please respect copyright.PENANA5MTCV5M0LZ
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除此之外,在寂靜的夜裡,受著海風的吹襲,以虐待自己的方式來受罰;透過惡言惡語,破壞別人對自己的印象,讓別人討厭自己,也是懲罰自己的方式。725Please respect copyright.PENANAK7pAAHcAOO
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象,破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她,同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。725Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZnJJOUOXE
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聽著,聽著,聽見了哽咽。725Please respect copyright.PENANAU4aKZIxhwu
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭,「你聽完,覺得點……仲想唔想幫我?」725Please respect copyright.PENANAFNnXtQyx8E
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「定係……」她自我形象低落,幾乎抽泣,「你已經想即刻趕我走?」725Please respect copyright.PENANApdGS5W9zhn
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「做咩唔講嘢?」她問,終於望向我,「喂……」725Please respect copyright.PENANAWtA4nCQ2OR
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我也正在難過。725Please respect copyright.PENANAaDEMV54eQk
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「啜泣……」我哭了,抹抹眼睛,「Sorry.。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAwuLHEcIEd4
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「你做咩喊?」傾姐問。725Please respect copyright.PENANAahyAEHIV3c
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。725Please respect copyright.PENANACKEsRaRs46
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「點解?」她問。725Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZmXScDItS
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。725Please respect copyright.PENANAQixr4pT7IT
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「我驚你太過自責,之後會做傻事。」我說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAKYT9qTXcjd
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同是做壞事的人,同是不原諒自己的人。725Please respect copyright.PENANAkOprOB5yql
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人,有我一個就夠了。725Please respect copyright.PENANA9u0Hc2Ii9k
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「我亦都好感動,你肯講畀我知。」我說,收住了淚。725Please respect copyright.PENANAweMvzz24Jo
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只要說了出來,就不會鎖在心上了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAqCQQmUFOFR
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說,「我上網識男仔,或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAPr3VRZ232H
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗,出咗醜聞,蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我,我就可以解脫……」她說,「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」725Please respect copyright.PENANA8NoHyWYsIq
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這是……什麼爛方法?725Please respect copyright.PENANADryz5Yekar
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即使要折磨自己,也不是這樣的吧!725Please respect copyright.PENANA4M1Dk8juDk
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在被子裡的手,握緊了拳。725Please respect copyright.PENANAsiUT4frusX
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說,「只係,有一個條件。」725Please respect copyright.PENANA5rv99af74u
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「咩條件?」她問。725Please respect copyright.PENANAj9FtBp4zki
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「搞你嗰個人,要係我。」我說,「除我之外嘅人,你諗都唔好諗。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAGu9h56HVZB
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陸傾兒笑了,哈哈地笑了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAUMOG6e8du7
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「點解?你同其他人有咩分別?點解要係你先得?」她笑著,笑容漸漸僵硬。725Please respect copyright.PENANAF0T9kTrKDo
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「因為其他男人搞完你,就唔會理你,而我會繼續幫你。」我說,「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」725Please respect copyright.PENANAiatatA4xct
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但即使我身在遠方,我都一樣會擔心著你,為你的人生而牽掛。725Please respect copyright.PENANAvq0tHudQdE
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「你可以點幫我?」她問,「撇除哩個方法唔計,你有咩方法幫到我?」725Please respect copyright.PENANA5msnPrJjwq
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「我已經答咗你好多問題,你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAMajWvDzPYu
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「孫正直,你可以點幫我?點幫陸傾兒?」她問,很想知道。725Please respect copyright.PENANATh86spAQA6
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鬆開了麥提莎,我輕放在地上。725Please respect copyright.PENANAmNF2OHeBKF
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「我唔係神,冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAR8j8PkJVqS
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「咁你可以點幫我?」她追問。725Please respect copyright.PENANAyRGzDLsRIc
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她遇上的困境,不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。725Please respect copyright.PENANAbEk53sUDz5
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等,就可以過上美好的生活。725Please respect copyright.PENANAs3269truhU
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說,淚水情不自禁,「但係……」725Please respect copyright.PENANAjSZz7Ae3T1
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「當你凍嘅時候,我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候,我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候,我可以借個膊頭畀你。」725Please respect copyright.PENANArhXalGOEQs
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「今晚嘅我,只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說,「對唔住。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAYAXotfl7b4
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說完,她聽完。725Please respect copyright.PENANAnGepoLXN4n
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「明白,我明白。」她說,「好多謝你今晚可以陪我,好多謝你,可以為我喊。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAmjWBGVqQFi
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「我成世女,都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說,準備離開,「好多謝你,孫正直,我有少少感動。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAJRsrlOMjOs
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等等,時間還沒到兩點,仍然是1點35分而已。725Please respect copyright.PENANAOQkTnkd27H
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「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說,「你值得我,畀一個獎勵你。」725Please respect copyright.PENANA8mcCVqIJPI
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被子從她身上落下,露出了她的頸巾、衣服,和手上的電池。725Please respect copyright.PENANAnrZtyJuBi6
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「個鐘粒電,我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我,「唔好意思,因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAo8A024ghTd
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說,「實在太夜喇,聽朝仲要早起。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAkP6WCSazk7
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「陸傾兒……」我說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAKXkBAWjHNU
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「我畀你揀啦,一個獎勵,當最後一回合係我輸咗,而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。725Please respect copyright.PENANAVfS67T0RQr
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「揀咩都得?」我問。725Please respect copyright.PENANASE7wFI939s
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「你揀之前,我仲想講一樣嘢就係,你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒,我搵到嘅開瓶器,就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說,「但你唔想我飲,寧願呃我話冇酒。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAk7ieLn2t8C
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「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人?」她泛淚,卻微笑。725Please respect copyright.PENANAdVEsShxhHp
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而我不懂回答。725Please respect copyright.PENANAADCgDCLtSc
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我是知道有酒的,昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池,只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道,才會在默契之下,延長了時間。725Please respect copyright.PENANAYv9x61cFvi
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「陸傾兒,我揀……」我準備說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAY79hucovXG
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「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖?」她先說,站在我的面前。725Please respect copyright.PENANARwJ3IxRfsk
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我展露微笑,問,「你覺得我敢唔敢?敢唔敢揀哩樣?同傾姐錫一啖。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAHUCSHNk50d
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「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAKouobSBHBp
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「我驚死,我當然驚死。」我說,慢慢翻開被子。725Please respect copyright.PENANA0fY6fwYivO
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「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。725Please respect copyright.PENANAqT30Pbb9HK
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過後——725Please respect copyright.PENANAREUf50L987
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。725Please respect copyright.PENANAsWiB6IY0rS
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屁股坐下。725Please respect copyright.PENANAYxLQjfimyI
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。725Please respect copyright.PENANAwk3FELpFtk