我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvm4NVYzFaZ
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7p0hIFGEuA
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「咬下——」明白了。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZFqEfYqRh
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7n75YlEqW
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYXr1u3tWi
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35lchNAwWq
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywHglrXgZW
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhK1hiNfb3
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxFkGIpfSo
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6WKWUmOwt
神是不是故意的？669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuIpkc41uD
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImTfSFywyW
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayts1FpM3L
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaLl4pX6Az
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorYgUK0rnF
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfha2nLmC6V
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D0V5PBV5U
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSl0dpeuGj7
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bkgyj0sjK
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HcpgaEsQ5
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1Wrl5cMXb
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqtXEr0Th1
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwc67HvY4N
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaoD2j7uWE
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRQflWTL4o
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ002nhMoP5Q
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxganMUSv6V
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CPgahIFkG
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcivjRBwY6
「唔好再講喇。」我說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4rQ3vC9JG
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCboFp6xBa
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33VvAt2rcN
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL1kUKzqM1
然後我沒有再阻止她。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivJDFBBEkx
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2BQ7ZbwGW
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RHaS1oLOd
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAat1ZXHn8T
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NNy8itfdP
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAc0CaCGPI
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb51AH8qSPe
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHaaUuQMG9
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8DODpAvAy
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUjYMdNKha
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9zPICetHF
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YcG6rZGKX
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxbqnInxA6
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGqtM0ot3B
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vdIcjm9Rh
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaqXf9aOcX
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmGlgIZ8p9
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaLMTrj7Jk
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG9ISCmRgr
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd9ohej8CA
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaIfOrB0L7
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9rW0BAFs0
我也正在難過。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqcVeLUhAJ
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSkfezkOut
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOpUv9dyQN
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlmz1wIa4U
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklLZa9lg9U
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRyAt4nWKz
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOYxKzA97O
「點解？」她問。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIgNskktRh
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzuwCKa8MD
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh463zA5nAb
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPg7yOL9pD
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSFMZTQyAv
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzU63auX3D
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZM1EdJ1ca
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBFJKANaTa
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B2qW93Dj9
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Lwch7QJj9
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPEq2Tg87c
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGnoBV4YoA
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuu0oCRg7m0
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQUfUfDvca
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKtCaEGbTv
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMLrP8DaQY
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiB6z79o7H
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzxc0pxowR
這是……什麼爛方法？669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPR33O70QMF
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDO6ObXAZs
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFu3QZDUtH
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPf5MSrLz6
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMWoQ5tfCe
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin6hV1GhlK
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72jwVNyeWE
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmVu7PK6DP
「咩條件？」她問。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZYVOdTBxt
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDzGqXGQLw
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQczxvf9d7Z
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLfgTwGVIQ
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gLOqk0HME
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcJV6Kaih0
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEGSX0gpjt
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUmsHwXdf2
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtPsJTdhS3
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrzymSJXR6
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmgyxBq874
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk6kmkNj7u
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7Bfhrac5o
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDrn6yCwcW
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hO5IMf0Lc
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySdbMRIyFq
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxshUw5NYK
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbtMMaXNQU
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuZGIz4gNo
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMTMhV3SsL
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqKWWhjg4k
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIhfj2hMlY
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4Ah0wxyRh
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6ZubpdcAC
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48kFyLAdux
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmiVTHYo3H
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk3r76ei9F
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzvvbuvJbD
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l1Uush1nQ
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCJsmxhovL
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWoySN5lqh
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwN7gNFWdJK
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZDvEqm0dw
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0NqvF0FNb
說完，她聽完。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpt79WYpN3
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJcNbUdX0r
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NY5Xju9vI
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8fdtvQ5KG
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTPkGB4Xnx
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzffvhIhk3
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtQr4EBEcf
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MKwI41Xvd
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU9jtyu1NE
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJzjZfUMbP
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gw4rXznrB
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UomJsQifE
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIfz1QgIhB
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwTtGlFTBX
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu6nvFsUCr
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hO1LnmaGb
「陸傾兒……」我說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPSXrpJ2mZ
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g90BY0Uve
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡianHQwurIH
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh12xQBZPWE
「揀咩都得？」我問。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStn9xhk9xx
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UOet8Jtd3
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggCWcMnuSr
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiN4LscOOY
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9wFR7z4UX
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrRBJtRrhG
而我不懂回答。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWNMSUyuqF
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp70WMzpg61
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zYeudnuL9
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9TORsy6E7
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrfReMVI0B
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaGnWDOGNb
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIczY1shMI
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMOVVft3T0
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33e42S1GeN
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS063eqPjp
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIK2nJl2vA
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZmRnvUA5j
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLFoHiepNe
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd44xIHsKF3
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwF6QIVVkj
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtUNEjQcAg
過後——669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtU9EcjOQQ
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQQXtTvHBn
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIulNuEAEBS
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC6hKpxNAC
屁股坐下。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZFSThNeiV
669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaVOLZGlzj
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcPy1G7JcO
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