我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsiX3E3gT6
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSjE9eWjEs
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3C1jN7ypB
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzMHtwY0uW
「咬下——」明白了。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pVMYoeNtf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9ue2LNFX4
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO6K024qhb
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnJIcY27Ug
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp6tR0i5lj
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbpI0vor5s
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRcpPsr4vm
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6AK1xT18t
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GYygrIgDG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnQadowwvK
神是不是故意的？702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh5E2jbWxK
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolUVsxx9e6
竟然……安排這種測試給我。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6ZcWFhzTo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5C2Io9xRQ
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRhZGUBwUa
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPsYRaEnYa
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59s9LzpxIw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGKpQTqJbR
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dhHyuxn5O
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbibOb36j7P
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5dqvgsUjP
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnahgl3O8t1
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFe90CTUNo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvitcN6EHsf
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcwEAQENvj
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEhkQmbtKI
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXSCefe2Nz
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc6NNxJeaz
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQ49S00VIQ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NKmZE6YMk
「唔好再講喇。」我說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom5VjPbv6P
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzrH5Zqu4Y
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO62zce2jgG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPknPHTJQyz
然後我沒有再阻止她。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnTr9ZuxUo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAyu61E5Vd
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqtuHMWphx
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCrNiGX1wR
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPKhwzlk5z
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1jwsAXMi1
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l5hzZXyHj
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yr9jn5hqe
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaXmqNtErs
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JmKxW3bZi
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HNS6we9uo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0zQGk99kp
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKryF5oRnU4
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCMGneHAJv
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wZdxGD1u1
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRukUyMCDN
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7x6iC6Jy5
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUnGWkWrCH
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GybDbAzDk
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh5xVCFN0Q
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCtzqRDKV0
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLqXRoSyny
我也正在難過。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcVhGJFhJZ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgIqw6QwMI
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKcqrIg5jH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfQrED6HR3
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLfykYPrxM
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJHWrQDJ79
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmgS7TdAtF
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMNrQi49oH
「點解？」她問。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonJILzC8KL
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadTmXI38fo
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnH12SlgAh
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNVphaFFD0
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VfuDlg2wG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeccniaEvWk
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOavg9u16m
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaY14u2kUD
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONHdTrR000
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAyfGJoqHZ
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4vH2zA9ZQ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5AIqkAhLa
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GVxwvoTEA
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77ideTc8HV
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9QEyA16Dm
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbODs867xbT
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNmzYMUXU8
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKG8W9ACYE
這是……什麼爛方法？702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBneMPAEuXt
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIzZ12QTUI
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2IpDetfFm
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAvoqeDeKv
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBL1qpcFyiR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWvwqwRbOJ
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGNbPVvydX
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t5kFVsFvf
「咩條件？」她問。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHGyagtQGJ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAWrz2WGUh
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WAPFFJlZi
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIvEmdPI3U
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrC1WWCsp0
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZVqTf2EuE
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHHVb4pDgw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUd22rsD4ZO
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlpkwYEag4
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdR2VvKcZb
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCajmOQ7bhx
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedxmTn2CY1
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsRu8UYCdr
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp87nUmubyQ
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWaROMR9tH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYC16Tge0T
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WtCcfhhCO
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRIalQvg0q
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0GBbfZZh2
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsp9tBJdDi
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSNBOHYYOB
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bPRvvlVrI
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHZe8xjUXH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZetqSi5dt
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZetdGd79Re
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hLfLsjgb1
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD08xvCHBg
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEfkp5n3pX
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzd9kuaIre
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYypcZ6eDnN
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83doNVnwqR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw6MgobI5H
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDgQKCpOga
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXu6pE1j0n
說完，她聽完。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9yVCbMYiG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5dXof9sno
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWJT876kV2
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeTgweymrA
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Tm9fn5AFX
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARvh0Mvmnx
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4JkAcMYRH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaXZoDIPsD
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxhXG6nawV
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIxM9kT3UJ
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokJzPquTy5
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Rpo3py2HL
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAxGu7rz8q
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskzoa8fWm5
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m3XvsSYHJ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBB0am5ptiZ
「陸傾兒……」我說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jGgMIgwCN
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28zWiJ2yqP
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBD8EEYt8V
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7E4yoDods
「揀咩都得？」我問。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HFucAAWBe
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKheJruX5AY
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPWEowUT7P
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdOeEYdREn
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQlzRFMkrG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYYKqtFihB
而我不懂回答。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1CJIvtwK7
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBSmlYWa6y
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstTA72dDxf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2R3m2F7X7
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXOL1m1mES
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdi2oDTUxPV
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8zlWjgZVX
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWXNoYazSZ
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82AXLMyIy6
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3YxbvuNWg
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfuWs57xGG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPk7mlUYeS
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1198JbXpK
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsyvMreaqX
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lYhNF1dsW
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXy58MUsie
過後——702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLz6evlVKe
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQKhQhiPws
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb8fpGFBRr
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSSgVs6FZ0
屁股坐下。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJb6cZG34N
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZG33dC9qBY
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1b3uekLgKV
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