「咁你呢，又點呀？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hCcL6erlM
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9tb4gomJE
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「托賴，幾好吖。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxMJQYAYgt
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80QqJix5VR
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5MJWwj5e1
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqnSoTCWlp
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpctZdlR3P
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZG6nB9QBBx
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvFk26xxPM
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuUslZE1Jc
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1WdcZKDF4
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyrZP7p76v
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLs2ulvIPU
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCamJ8y87Av
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOc0pc4YmgP
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPWqAwXX0B
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBfrhWA2KB
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL8ZymPNQJ
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiOkb3TMM3
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFiDDxNjmw
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtS6QyDTcNx
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MEOOjUNdX
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8Nk5JKejQ
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K1WygcL22
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqa5MllfFA2
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7DQxJJvgc
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkg1NWDYRq
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIKWTtnIxr
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每天都不想做任何事。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsmUe7zz5x
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5k1wfEadp
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQqzPolobU
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihwF6cJNTB
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITXTnQwHIp
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtZC29mj1y
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo2l3wXZQt
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOQ7ilJhiZ
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNQAsHrjRK
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7W80dT5Tm
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dYZXgM410
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTKTJ5BeS7
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFLIifyBtR
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsFkUpzwsX
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEvvhql9ga
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUBrr1qZJX
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmBHd21IlH
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGsP7BlpIZ
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M2ZVeuU0H
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9XKbxZ7qP
何況，他們如此親厚。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyGupZm9ro
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqOui6zznh
阿樂問：「去邊？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWohwfqWRA
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOjbhiEned
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZJsZHGvlX
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsv8OMYipd
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnzqDL3aXr
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFtI7U8Cib
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8amjK0ceP7
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphPgis6SuK
Sean回答：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRv4aX3HkQJ
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtp509KYjI
「係。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhDvUWwI2e
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbNJNvqwA5
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxG7NocH2L
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJba6f5AM0K
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2orlY5ONQ
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxgV0GvuEj
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyrXhSK0DK
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1beuuJSCu
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclnkpXhXco
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpkEoZP8Ap
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5yLcq4FU8
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGeR5mK3DO
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51Ezz7WCkF
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhovTiWTDl
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImNeBEGlzA
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvyvTUoOpW
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2MKvm3hc8
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOS9sgMAuF
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0PVfNGazq
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6EB75Qg58
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoa7nE53hUD
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8q8wDu4x1V
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfWOEziNpX
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpK6TWRkIbT
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpz2hTRGfc
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdOYG3JYHZ
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskQiZR2dq0
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZJMEvHdQS
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMWD8AxwnV
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaEczqLtae
阿樂質疑：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR9NYTJVBw
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRNDm86nOY
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0fKw0wobT
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17ANKJJxWB
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCuulFW7Wr
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUXuHHyGbY
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFd5S0xjz9
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRRWKSWBsg
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOAthgQm8q
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNTrnA21RV
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MHDLESTQb
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZDth8cxj3
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdc4Sr2NR3
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnezUA6ndhg
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhADQfEZwjl
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVeXlpioBR
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WDSWxJVyb
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJ4lFIqDbh
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnLP4cihaE
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8kU51bq1J
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqzOFJNMf5
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8ehIWEORp
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkyqP8FNsK
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjMy2rjNMT
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7bYYAb6q5
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7XRx495al
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FiOSiQ2Xh
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA9V320E0w
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyVS0mbqig
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjqlMDgDEk
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqIbPpBaw4
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmUDs1BVP3
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaVtp8vsf2
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38pSU9VJqr
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygwDKdofGW
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RfTGQTL2r
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNApwqCJcqd
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivazrukQyu
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25z8zL2dBr
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGQiEsU6qg
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbj3il5lLY
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPMHHicqJo
她發現自己有些恐懼。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKeMMu48Tf
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfXKUbSk9w
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptIWdqKCIs
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8peUWZmPCU
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IzoqDuIkA
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYwLrChx1m
最後，Matt離開。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R3A7OrPi6
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGi4NnYJKM
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQEgEojiwc
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicjWdp8Nvq
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS9A7oeq6s
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWStZpCFuaR
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUNiRaPel4
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyFvk8H6Fw
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItWdBvQkH3
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKor9mlx5hh
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BF6ubNmLE
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU90AYkB1u
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1KbTauV8H
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp8RcAb7EJ
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqTAr5W2Ja
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51qLYmZAvH
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ymA7RSswB
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK32TzHvTgu
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuMbVGLNGO
804Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE4gypWZ9u
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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