「咁你呢，又點呀？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMJHsJtR5G
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMIA7eSLNV
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsNia0nzGB
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpZV1rSXlD
「托賴，幾好吖。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fhQbn5JNt
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAa6jF8VXyf
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74fcVpWFRZ
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD0IzuwaUA
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHaPRMsT0A
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmosPDa94s
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mioqoZowK
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPJhEhQ3lR
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBSVLKyvVc
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIdUWvaAac
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Q7Ci7pTux
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwZWubkvjk
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOrXDGMb37
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiMlQrHwoK
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSrCMTiRx1
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfRyc20JgU
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNp2Ui2FcUq
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrUQlOH5SP
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnO46tcioTq
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvIpIV0TsJ
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHYzSoUNsQ
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv2zKFaOVL
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViUIPX4eZm
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4lfUYIAE3
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JtcYvGutq
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6cFavheoO
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JpQj35wot
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDNj3XJXX7
每天都不想做任何事。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59Bc7edonq
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPZAjMVLNq
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbXQENsr8W
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4u34LJ2zqi
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Obwto9WJf
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVLWSQMm7g
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKczpHoRmPY
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsMvTh7n07
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2q9Iokbjh
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZh3ludMHk
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVnk0aBfxO
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGyFKccGVv
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48FhVhh8Pn
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtimQb4tKX0
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPfEGDMKpQ
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjIVYtj3dd
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxXwzAsrLY
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5xIZxQdZd
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62el0vq8J0
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXe8b4WUrNA
何況，他們如此親厚。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXoYlFL3kD
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUvPmUiqfF
阿樂問：「去邊？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fBUcaLtla
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeO63lKpoe0
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyJyMNmRsM
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFun6dgCdqb
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn01f8ZfAVG
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27hv8cXN7L
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IoHqFzR3r
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfFLQp7tZq
Sean回答：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW13FDaoc7Z
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqMtZi3QfA
「係。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi305ZmeGAn
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QtuIo0k5q
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRYZcVFutR
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaz1dlOdftI
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzyz0HZjXb
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQag36IYeWX
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTEqJ21Ote
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCesJQSEIjT
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQtKLc9VWZ
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCZWkGoweF
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGazsxwajiR
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCIHL6RUlH
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VhfuiYrSP
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKF8ccOjY73
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYs6NtNkTl
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WFentLJsP
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPhTomThYi
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKMoc5qPv6
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ94U2RMRq5
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFErWDlFrcw
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj69zbtrjYH
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzeLpzk4vq
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡky7xAwNicP
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGTdhxuM8E
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ANFHd2uVN
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxXGf431cY
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tgqb81XDV
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSF29SwxmQ
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaowHZGZcEW
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPXAgkZk4M
阿樂質疑：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6wJUwS0NC
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LqFHxFiEi
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7hvSNUMYS
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTRY9dDUN6
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO8ONLVH3v
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfzFssunq4
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kieIyKHvK
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MbNDHTdGg
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrRjR5iODS
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoBR4wI05i
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRARiLTP9R
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreJ7q5gdSD
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNr3SfaKdt
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8JCVYiBXt
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSP8cwO1igH
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC6PVkZYOa
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vuBZgGUrF
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxGgZMSc6x
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNcvGTDQlt
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjkIBaepRt
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkY91bRyj9
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJoxizcuLO
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07kiYPfPoE
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLcWbtYGHE
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOd51nTggE
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB4Oirm38o
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQXpwXs8bm
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQusubZMjR
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWVaGJfCxE
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡya2qBuOOwZ
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aA8f1FbRM
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoreaTJvbgF
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ileE1KiFW
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6niF0jEQSu
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3oXEecJWS
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrq9o1gX32
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN6TMcBiSj
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGGepHW1co
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdoWJz13v1
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPaighVzgb
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5cYFAdU4w
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CwIAFDZG9
她發現自己有些恐懼。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc2G3IisNn
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUHGXMg8sE
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXGdpjOwJj
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7WOQtM0Nb
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8lvpz7Xkx
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0GVmAyh17
最後，Matt離開。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIFkPZE0OV
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2NT2Z5o9K
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudEbiXaEMN
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSYJcBpxgs
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PsrPQJXnh
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjffIhyEA9
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftoWHs051l
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kP8B0kIYa
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSsvaGBQzQ
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv9bDaPYse
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpocKdaSQC
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NFNFvS9ka
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9pyUJgPAq
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1IllMtv4r
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwToMinlEAq
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmSlVKkH4G
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITXHuydlHg
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStewgx3ulf
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDm4kFCsKJ1
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8NF5AaYFX
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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