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我坐在那張熟悉又讓我緊張的診療椅上。8964 copyright protection83PENANAYkRH6G3uHg 維尼
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但我牽著湛霖的手──她就坐在我旁邊,一如以往,在我想逃的每個瞬間拉住我。8964 copyright protection83PENANA8EYJYSeKxv 維尼
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醫師抬頭看了我一眼,笑得像往常那樣溫和:8964 copyright protection83PENANAjG0P30Rbj0 維尼
「家瑜,好久沒見了,今天是想討論一下目前的狀況嗎?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAn2FFhWVByx 維尼
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我點點頭,小聲說:8964 copyright protection83PENANAM9ZVsJlT2o 維尼
「……我最近,有點撐不住。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAUWJdSqTL6E 維尼
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他沒有馬上提問,只是輕聲引導:8964 copyright protection83PENANAslMDTe0QHU 維尼
「能說說是哪一塊比較明顯嗎?睡不好、情緒、還是……?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAHvlMYzT3CX 維尼
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我握緊了湛霖的手,喉嚨像卡住什麼,但還是開口了:8964 copyright protection83PENANA5g2GgycmvD 維尼
「其實……我前陣子……自己停了藥。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAoqgimd8REB 維尼
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語氣一落,我整個人幾乎都在等「責備」這件事落下。8964 copyright protection83PENANAduG2xBEtMp 維尼
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但醫師沒有皺眉,也沒有批評,只是點了點頭。8964 copyright protection83PENANAcjAK6TguSW 維尼
「可以告訴我妳那時候的想法嗎?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAcVOzovfy8J 維尼
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我深吸了一口氣,聲音顫了,但還是說:8964 copyright protection83PENANAg32zI45ZBA 維尼
「我以為……我好了。覺得自己變得比較勇敢了,也不會那麼怕了……」8964 copyright protection83PENANAay8ZysLUqG 維尼
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「我以為那是『變好了』的徵兆。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAp0KmO8OkVO 維尼
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「但其實那是……」8964 copyright protection83PENANAwLoZwkfFOL 維尼
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我喉頭一緊,聲音卡了一下:8964 copyright protection83PENANAORVtWtm7Uw 維尼
「那是我撞傷腦之後一段時間的情緒高峰……其實不是好起來,只是……混亂了。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAAdy7wpYDHg 維尼
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我低頭,小聲補了一句:8964 copyright protection83PENANAuLcHez3ZVN 維尼
「我真的不是故意的……」8964 copyright protection83PENANATCNy80Zsft 維尼
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這句話不是對醫師說的,而是……對我自己。8964 copyright protection83PENANA3by95N8UGJ 維尼
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87Please respect copyright.PENANA0JzK1bUjuG
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我聽著她一字一句把那些破碎的東西慢慢講出來。8964 copyright protection83PENANA9oM0bOLtur 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAeFBuceE3cO
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她沒有哭,卻每句話都像刀從喉嚨裡劃出來。8964 copyright protection83PENANASE21QBjTRu 維尼
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我沒有插話,只是在她整個人低下頭時,輕輕握了她的手背。8964 copyright protection83PENANALvzJJPYFum 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAUyM1TPqgqQ
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醫師依舊溫柔地說:8964 copyright protection83PENANAIo2ftHmrMB 維尼
「其實這很常見,不少人在療程中會有類似的想法,覺得好像能自己處理了,就不想再依賴藥物。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA254f5J5Mnu 維尼
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「但就像妳剛剛說的,這些不是妳的錯。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAT1GeUq6VSH 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAYgrdAI06SU
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「妳不是『不努力』,妳是在一個不斷學著怎麼『活下去』的過程中做出選擇──那只是妳當時能做出的選擇。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAEChUPMlJRh 維尼
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他停頓一下,語氣穩穩地問:8964 copyright protection83PENANA1bFXxgLCve 維尼
「最近的狀況呢?情緒低落、睡眠、思考清晰度……有感覺到什麼變化?」8964 copyright protection83PENANARXyKPYNptx 維尼
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我能感覺家瑜整個人慢慢平靜下來了些,她點點頭。8964 copyright protection83PENANAxOvhHRaQfK 維尼
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「我……前幾天在頂樓,真的差一點。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA0U18w3TaWU 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA6clK01FyjG
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「但……我沒有往前走。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAdHswRy4Y82 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAQ87qg9VtqN
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「因為……我想到湛霖……還有……我夢過的那個如果我不在了的世界。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA6d4SL6co3S 維尼
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「我不想讓她的時間……停下來。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAeLvWXKWXDu 維尼
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我回握她的手,沒有說話,卻忍不住用拇指蹭了蹭她掌心的脈搏。8964 copyright protection83PENANABUGVxAuO88 維尼
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醫師記錄著點了點頭:8964 copyright protection83PENANA7rGLmasRqb 維尼
「那很好,妳已經覺察自己陷入危機,並且有能力中止它。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA4Mz7iklvKa 維尼
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「這代表妳過去的治療與努力其實有打底,只是這次可能需要再協助妳重新建立平衡。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAeSHJTv5pzU 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAhhrGe5Xr8w
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「我們會一起來調整藥物配方,找回一個比較安全的狀態。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAMjkjr48Pl8 維尼
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他看著她,不急不緩地說:8964 copyright protection83PENANANMLcmHoLy7 維尼
「但這一次,不要一個人撐。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAAiwa66gOsM 維尼
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我點了點頭。8964 copyright protection83PENANAkDSZ3jXC4g 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAwQVj5XqJ4N
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「她不是一個人。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA10FT27LRsx 維尼
「這次,我會一直在。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA7wp9QpLSSp 維尼
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAw8W2k9GR4T
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這句話落下來的時候,我的喉嚨更緊了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAjMy6gjyJZv 維尼
不是想哭,是——8964 copyright protection83PENANAdg6mKdWS7d 維尼
第一次,我真的有那種:8964 copyright protection83PENANASuT1j2FeiD 維尼
「這不是一個人走進來的診間。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAKOYe68AKiS 維尼
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「這是一個人,牽著我,陪我走進來的地方。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAt3RxIZbZRu 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAp7ln3qytHv
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那一刻我才明白,8964 copyright protection83PENANASRTlLowaqb 維尼
我走得再慢、再繞遠路,都沒關係——8964 copyright protection83PENANAO8Vp29ulOv 維尼
因為我不是獨自走的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAgAlb6SlZZn 維尼
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