我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。741Please respect copyright.PENANA8ts0LJPYd7
741Please respect copyright.PENANAopGQQvlFBJ
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。741Please respect copyright.PENANAZFhtDt76x2
741Please respect copyright.PENANAeI90Xf0uIG
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。741Please respect copyright.PENANAfTHMFF39a8
741Please respect copyright.PENANAT7PZ7eFhrX
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。741Please respect copyright.PENANA8EDoiYTihP
741Please respect copyright.PENANALIJ7YZpD17
走進了屋邨商場。741Please respect copyright.PENANAy2zn5OxAF3
741Please respect copyright.PENANAEWnJWoe1Vi
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。741Please respect copyright.PENANA4TuTh5uJbp
741Please respect copyright.PENANAsfKzZ754TI
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。741Please respect copyright.PENANARjvq4gE421
741Please respect copyright.PENANAMyf4Bcv3Du
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。741Please respect copyright.PENANAEOgDdWeVho
741Please respect copyright.PENANALhVSIa5Kel
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。741Please respect copyright.PENANAgkuIFzwBEQ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAE7ZLj0BMAI
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。741Please respect copyright.PENANAPRFr55Ziqk
741Please respect copyright.PENANA9i7QMSBgCU
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。741Please respect copyright.PENANA8N8mDYOPQh
741Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6FpyOYx1i
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。741Please respect copyright.PENANAqM4HFwAnXR
741Please respect copyright.PENANAKxpMyyv6xK
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。741Please respect copyright.PENANAh0OYM3lhcl
741Please respect copyright.PENANAk3oYNrlIYM
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。741Please respect copyright.PENANANvIgIJ1uad
741Please respect copyright.PENANALaxbiYNPJz
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。741Please respect copyright.PENANAqmOiZgFiYN
741Please respect copyright.PENANAaemE89PoiK
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——741Please respect copyright.PENANAQiNpJnjMAA
741Please respect copyright.PENANAI1yNthMMqd
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。741Please respect copyright.PENANAoWo7KyWce9
741Please respect copyright.PENANA86qV5kHXzX
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。741Please respect copyright.PENANAkFG5X7HLpo
741Please respect copyright.PENANAp7XgNsyrtL
腳步還是能動。741Please respect copyright.PENANAHyyI9RjFyv
741Please respect copyright.PENANAEkJeLrUBFE
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。741Please respect copyright.PENANA3ig2CCNKnc
741Please respect copyright.PENANA7h4AdQ4jIb
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……741Please respect copyright.PENANAh5rU0I1MTV
741Please respect copyright.PENANAtdxklmWiqa
腳步才轉向離去。741Please respect copyright.PENANA7FdBBkGec2
741Please respect copyright.PENANABz5NZJigM3
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。741Please respect copyright.PENANAOoJK39tthS
741Please respect copyright.PENANA06kzfGaCNJ
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。741Please respect copyright.PENANAABK6XJ9VCV
741Please respect copyright.PENANA4s7RbfDeim
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。741Please respect copyright.PENANAfAS6chUTFJ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAphPWHe9dot
但是已經不再重要。741Please respect copyright.PENANAmujYNOgfWQ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAAwckTTsfvr
她騙了我。741Please respect copyright.PENANAWnPdOOSfgU
741Please respect copyright.PENANA4OgiAVB5i4
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。741Please respect copyright.PENANAIoDKRrBnZu
741Please respect copyright.PENANAjjVTKbD4rx
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。741Please respect copyright.PENANAYwxcR4sCL5
741Please respect copyright.PENANAs9HkYFPe10
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。741Please respect copyright.PENANAc3hQdPdGPT
741Please respect copyright.PENANAjSDnBqEShj
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。741Please respect copyright.PENANA2OhvCrfl46
741Please respect copyright.PENANAVVjKUzNsYJ
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。741Please respect copyright.PENANAvXKGLQwyAA
741Please respect copyright.PENANAeuTGm1lU6c
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。741Please respect copyright.PENANAHPlKcxov5m
741Please respect copyright.PENANAP3f9YdHs8n
但我錯了。741Please respect copyright.PENANAtzhoRW7UQu
741Please respect copyright.PENANA411Ysu3npi
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。741Please respect copyright.PENANAi1TdEEyiIp
741Please respect copyright.PENANAHj3e99JytW
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。741Please respect copyright.PENANA99ZK0ABJYt
741Please respect copyright.PENANAjxnYe4I2CJ
眼下——741Please respect copyright.PENANAksh7KQ8qDL
741Please respect copyright.PENANAwCPwxL7Ru0
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。741Please respect copyright.PENANADg7IPmD7D7
741Please respect copyright.PENANAI82bkP3gZB
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。741Please respect copyright.PENANA3GaZcRnkpm
741Please respect copyright.PENANAaSAKQMsO64
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。741Please respect copyright.PENANAWWqOFVc4ah
741Please respect copyright.PENANAbz3Zc06TKD
我能夠再承受一次嗎?741Please respect copyright.PENANARuzTA8K2g2
741Please respect copyright.PENANAqyKkUIfkfB
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。741Please respect copyright.PENANAsd7DHpXNpY
741Please respect copyright.PENANAxj6jTOcKVr
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。741Please respect copyright.PENANAoO750U1L77
741Please respect copyright.PENANAgnMWbyxbAs
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。741Please respect copyright.PENANABsV0vGNkrk
741Please respect copyright.PENANAuzw3inwjE5
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。741Please respect copyright.PENANAMFNt2TnywM
741Please respect copyright.PENANAcYx6XNNHQw
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。741Please respect copyright.PENANAsdcHb5iZVh
741Please respect copyright.PENANAhhBFWIdRe2
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。741Please respect copyright.PENANAotZOizR6cz
741Please respect copyright.PENANAkT44BgitWs
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。741Please respect copyright.PENANA1xXUOq1UpM
741Please respect copyright.PENANAioBdSKV0FV
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。741Please respect copyright.PENANAX74nEAH6qJ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAbFBevcsFVT
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。741Please respect copyright.PENANAztgvdDmfnG
741Please respect copyright.PENANAZc8UrEi0OH
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……741Please respect copyright.PENANArUNiol7Px4
741Please respect copyright.PENANAC1cAGaoPIW
我樂意代勞的。741Please respect copyright.PENANAFZjxMPtLux
741Please respect copyright.PENANAY2jDUYcfQa
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。741Please respect copyright.PENANAt6TzQLnNxJ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAyBFZXhJT2x
我馬上看看後座的乘客——741Please respect copyright.PENANARwxaqyPHUY
741Please respect copyright.PENANAhOYFM294yH
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。741Please respect copyright.PENANAw6xrsF7D1w
741Please respect copyright.PENANAhyy1wiYB6z
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?741Please respect copyright.PENANAD7DcVjWHgD
741Please respect copyright.PENANAKISzR3kS5V
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。741Please respect copyright.PENANAPMTX0SiMng
741Please respect copyright.PENANA1Yt7E0zM54
在下午等待至日落——741Please respect copyright.PENANAeQK4zSbJ3f
741Please respect copyright.PENANAjEERkr5e3x
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。741Please respect copyright.PENANADGZoVas9YE
741Please respect copyright.PENANATUhcG6Dfuo
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。741Please respect copyright.PENANAuiYQtQyEWd
741Please respect copyright.PENANA4JGVA2gb2j
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」741Please respect copyright.PENANA3UQYciYdZv
741Please respect copyright.PENANAE8HcM3vFgk
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。741Please respect copyright.PENANA2T2fxeXNwY
741Please respect copyright.PENANAyLhkkleS5P
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。741Please respect copyright.PENANAk4h3pP2FCF
741Please respect copyright.PENANAPVsKLiIQCv
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。741Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3bObJ5auu
741Please respect copyright.PENANAKkNszRdPYj
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。741Please respect copyright.PENANADQiB0iMrdo
741Please respect copyright.PENANAC0GFcDgoKC
「嘭——」也是不進。741Please respect copyright.PENANAMAfMDnjzUO
741Please respect copyright.PENANAeDjRzr3GFz
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。741Please respect copyright.PENANAMTRfohNWeS
741Please respect copyright.PENANAIdUJTvYIH2
漸漸出現晚霞。741Please respect copyright.PENANAne3o3Cmcn5
741Please respect copyright.PENANAxpjs0theQ6
回去吧。741Please respect copyright.PENANAyeDBSo97Jd
741Please respect copyright.PENANAPITKoncMEI
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。741Please respect copyright.PENANA4dAJtL1myQ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAdhZ8MYY2Bz
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。741Please respect copyright.PENANAn8BENQ69sK
741Please respect copyright.PENANAarsX4ox4jj
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。741Please respect copyright.PENANAa6421wyhiy
741Please respect copyright.PENANAeNzA0NPIy1
背著書包,累然站起——741Please respect copyright.PENANAaBmKqdqskU
741Please respect copyright.PENANAl4Drlr1XD7
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」741Please respect copyright.PENANAjcgasipDUh
741Please respect copyright.PENANAsitMbXRMom
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。741Please respect copyright.PENANANoH2zVzuxz
741Please respect copyright.PENANA9GgIeipC05
最後,舉起手。741Please respect copyright.PENANAIBMHnStl6D
741Please respect copyright.PENANAi3TiJLM8Ll
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。741Please respect copyright.PENANAimCmqwy219
741Please respect copyright.PENANAiY9UYd9aCt
* * *741Please respect copyright.PENANAV3VloQb4dv
741Please respect copyright.PENANA2NqMhXR5mM
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。741Please respect copyright.PENANAfOLkXirYtV
741Please respect copyright.PENANAV8zLwGa3ZS
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。741Please respect copyright.PENANAbnQMvK74kq
741Please respect copyright.PENANALWofsiSx4D
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。741Please respect copyright.PENANAbyvKNq5guR
741Please respect copyright.PENANAPnpJfj2FIE
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。741Please respect copyright.PENANAwWvo4oybYQ
741Please respect copyright.PENANAPKqSbPk95o
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。741Please respect copyright.PENANATTock0QCMC
741Please respect copyright.PENANAjw0n4kH3xp
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。741Please respect copyright.PENANAxxQTSkGcc9
741Please respect copyright.PENANAOuOIyNeFvk
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。741Please respect copyright.PENANAmJcpRHfyOY
741Please respect copyright.PENANAi588h44g8M
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。741Please respect copyright.PENANAREDihvQvNY
741Please respect copyright.PENANAHMvH78P4cx
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。741Please respect copyright.PENANAcOhaAqdMUP
741Please respect copyright.PENANAiJuMF3id7e
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。741Please respect copyright.PENANAsJ6iZnr41U
741Please respect copyright.PENANA6n3oLk2LMw
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。741Please respect copyright.PENANAzO3T4iYKSb
741Please respect copyright.PENANAxZBECWhrC8
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。741Please respect copyright.PENANAoydgVrj5y9
741Please respect copyright.PENANAgKc7tmGGYh
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。741Please respect copyright.PENANAP6a7srbJ92
741Please respect copyright.PENANAPlDtqQ8qZM
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。741Please respect copyright.PENANAMxYFHAx3zw
741Please respect copyright.PENANAGlFyWQUUQm
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。741Please respect copyright.PENANAMqECoSYYyn
741Please respect copyright.PENANABeojpMq0OF
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。741Please respect copyright.PENANAD4YwT4l5g1
741Please respect copyright.PENANAdFbHlMpEyr
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。741Please respect copyright.PENANAL4nSFr5uUM
741Please respect copyright.PENANAZUE7GQeQvS
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。741Please respect copyright.PENANAQKLfvJV0TH
741Please respect copyright.PENANAxFHy2mpJXB
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。741Please respect copyright.PENANAv0mbVdtVOR
741Please respect copyright.PENANAt27NTRbtOy
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……741Please respect copyright.PENANAM2drjCYzty
741Please respect copyright.PENANAzF1ll8BmHq
——放大瞳孔。741Please respect copyright.PENANAKfg0DnFzqS
741Please respect copyright.PENANA4uM50NUXth
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。741Please respect copyright.PENANABuJJh7oXNa
741Please respect copyright.PENANArKXEgfXHIb
手機就在我的褲袋。741Please respect copyright.PENANAZxgRNykSWw
741Please respect copyright.PENANAe7BMQ0uXOg
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。741Please respect copyright.PENANAK9EsXKcFz5
741Please respect copyright.PENANAcuLv354s9v
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。741Please respect copyright.PENANAgyDJlsPaUm
741Please respect copyright.PENANARP9Tg9krh6
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。741Please respect copyright.PENANA8lwkXtU7PM
741Please respect copyright.PENANAo8Jmf2FAyV
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。741Please respect copyright.PENANAxxi6VJsM3W
741Please respect copyright.PENANAjp9Yu4a7ft
那麼,打嗎?741Please respect copyright.PENANAio5AVRHWQw
741Please respect copyright.PENANARDd6bxURiw
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。741Please respect copyright.PENANAwzuCfxBy1D
741Please respect copyright.PENANAKkrnQLH6sH
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?741Please respect copyright.PENANAy2w7MuRmmj
741Please respect copyright.PENANAGjnVlIbnTp
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?741Please respect copyright.PENANAdY0AlIVUKU
741Please respect copyright.PENANAVc4jeCEMSl
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。741Please respect copyright.PENANAQdaNhA1H9b
741Please respect copyright.PENANAIPe9SUx9X4
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。741Please respect copyright.PENANAFEqSDMb6Cl
741Please respect copyright.PENANAGjgMzMHeiO
幾度拿出手機的我——741Please respect copyright.PENANAC7kAExiBic
741Please respect copyright.PENANAx38tMCJJ9M
算吧。741Please respect copyright.PENANAvHh2qW8Hqa
741Please respect copyright.PENANAUa3xL7Hcuo
把手機放回褲袋。741Please respect copyright.PENANAd5LuFtPyMB
741Please respect copyright.PENANADrz2jHC7pF
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。741Please respect copyright.PENANAq3F9wNwD5B
741Please respect copyright.PENANAxfVu4TQdXq
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。741Please respect copyright.PENANApPRmfQdNm1
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。741Please respect copyright.PENANA4ID4SeDZ0U
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