我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。688Please respect copyright.PENANAD4zIuX6g7q
688Please respect copyright.PENANAttEifDp9fq
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。688Please respect copyright.PENANAc8ZnFYdyE2
688Please respect copyright.PENANAZGFnyNGdMp
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。688Please respect copyright.PENANA8jFNOPeYI2
688Please respect copyright.PENANAV8LetDegsZ
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。688Please respect copyright.PENANAI0EqJ7gcU5
688Please respect copyright.PENANAGo8qp9A43Q
走進了屋邨商場。688Please respect copyright.PENANA5b4BKuF9mi
688Please respect copyright.PENANAr4rnkOeP7s
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。688Please respect copyright.PENANAQkptlJEEPn
688Please respect copyright.PENANAbBqJM9TgAr
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。688Please respect copyright.PENANAHwIIPNdvKO
688Please respect copyright.PENANAxQWnH96iFm
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。688Please respect copyright.PENANAHAzIoInEPl
688Please respect copyright.PENANAJFXpv9mW9J
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。688Please respect copyright.PENANAVPXrkpKu7T
688Please respect copyright.PENANApqgQpQjZGb
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。688Please respect copyright.PENANAKRnNBXfMrR
688Please respect copyright.PENANASDh2VX27GI
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。688Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3QzBePf4V
688Please respect copyright.PENANAwDUxWhr3VB
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。688Please respect copyright.PENANAdAfBWDfiVN
688Please respect copyright.PENANAlNzyWXUbPc
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。688Please respect copyright.PENANAkpoWbyI2JG
688Please respect copyright.PENANAcpJhbN8HlN
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。688Please respect copyright.PENANAABRuZ0Y3FA
688Please respect copyright.PENANAZICe3BbXU1
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。688Please respect copyright.PENANAxRxAr6DAkN
688Please respect copyright.PENANAhaw2ubFdDT
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——688Please respect copyright.PENANAZUDmuYUDLE
688Please respect copyright.PENANAmp9xQZN4ao
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。688Please respect copyright.PENANACDAU10CJmQ
688Please respect copyright.PENANAgTmGbv8sFq
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。688Please respect copyright.PENANA2CoaDdhSGp
688Please respect copyright.PENANASqFqyqSWP4
腳步還是能動。688Please respect copyright.PENANAwFyx2rhzph
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。688Please respect copyright.PENANAEqTkQUe88a
688Please respect copyright.PENANAYZrjI1BNZn
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……688Please respect copyright.PENANAYBbTGC0Ap6
688Please respect copyright.PENANAxB0ZZzwNrR
腳步才轉向離去。688Please respect copyright.PENANAisokgJbvAt
688Please respect copyright.PENANAp3tp0YRNDW
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。688Please respect copyright.PENANAR7IW8OuMZY
688Please respect copyright.PENANAUJslPQC4zG
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。688Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1TS03uwj7
688Please respect copyright.PENANA272bwjRX9l
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。688Please respect copyright.PENANAcloHNkDogI
688Please respect copyright.PENANAhKcPZiAhqi
但是已經不再重要。688Please respect copyright.PENANAM6Qt6wnTE1
688Please respect copyright.PENANAeaIAb1enkG
她騙了我。688Please respect copyright.PENANAmGFobLshrk
688Please respect copyright.PENANAupUN1ZX9Zu
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。688Please respect copyright.PENANAVgKYWov8yd
688Please respect copyright.PENANAkaqPQxQxJ5
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。688Please respect copyright.PENANAlaEkyJQnyP
688Please respect copyright.PENANAFg4hcphCYq
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。688Please respect copyright.PENANAcBjiz8f966
688Please respect copyright.PENANA0xVHwuiJFU
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。688Please respect copyright.PENANAWGij1QCBs6
688Please respect copyright.PENANA4PWsyzAqe3
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。688Please respect copyright.PENANA5I3uLJpBtz
688Please respect copyright.PENANAZZY3fFeWbK
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。688Please respect copyright.PENANATR6oYrGdjE
688Please respect copyright.PENANA87Pt75ZjKT
但我錯了。688Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0p5bM2kys
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。688Please respect copyright.PENANA94wv0rZlDH
688Please respect copyright.PENANA7GdOi9NzbP
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。688Please respect copyright.PENANAEIALpRE6Ht
688Please respect copyright.PENANA1c8mZRJnxh
眼下——688Please respect copyright.PENANA1Jsb3Hq8b2
688Please respect copyright.PENANA4dUGUev5AG
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。688Please respect copyright.PENANA9EhXxTaCSR
688Please respect copyright.PENANAE6GGpmVmpG
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。688Please respect copyright.PENANAbO50wQ725U
688Please respect copyright.PENANAoECoMIsrg9
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。688Please respect copyright.PENANAuNSRa6c94k
688Please respect copyright.PENANA6AiaycnUtS
我能夠再承受一次嗎?688Please respect copyright.PENANABXEBZBWC9k
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。688Please respect copyright.PENANAzCpnpJXG1x
688Please respect copyright.PENANALAxVIFiYAq
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。688Please respect copyright.PENANA6NY0Y9EoY7
688Please respect copyright.PENANA5gPIItPl9v
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。688Please respect copyright.PENANAVxEphHNbmf
688Please respect copyright.PENANAVJNKvdLpN7
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。688Please respect copyright.PENANAOsVhzJIh9y
688Please respect copyright.PENANACr6odt0zMB
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。688Please respect copyright.PENANApxqJsvGVjZ
688Please respect copyright.PENANAHWScKYmxiC
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。688Please respect copyright.PENANAh5WVDbpaTO
688Please respect copyright.PENANA9Fy4teOgMB
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。688Please respect copyright.PENANAJPFalWRLhh
688Please respect copyright.PENANAst7xvSz3la
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。688Please respect copyright.PENANAfxZqpYSR5Q
688Please respect copyright.PENANA5LV0vMdoE1
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。688Please respect copyright.PENANAgYguZO5RP3
688Please respect copyright.PENANAZqUDrEi458
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……688Please respect copyright.PENANARKRRxhbEsn
688Please respect copyright.PENANAEBnX5VNZ9r
我樂意代勞的。688Please respect copyright.PENANAdEcacD6eMI
688Please respect copyright.PENANAUiTJQl1nS8
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。688Please respect copyright.PENANAqdCaPf7zB5
688Please respect copyright.PENANALTAYWd16UN
我馬上看看後座的乘客——688Please respect copyright.PENANAiYtKt5ufPl
688Please respect copyright.PENANA3ygAh2JfEX
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。688Please respect copyright.PENANAUSPFIjeXaz
688Please respect copyright.PENANAk6XHhv4rby
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?688Please respect copyright.PENANAZRpb6orA0V
688Please respect copyright.PENANAo0tFInNARR
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。688Please respect copyright.PENANA66SQoE4idI
688Please respect copyright.PENANAig5x8MM8KZ
在下午等待至日落——688Please respect copyright.PENANACmI3TkBHBI
688Please respect copyright.PENANApdxi73Jpi2
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。688Please respect copyright.PENANApEd2nP75lj
688Please respect copyright.PENANAjICTsS8MNx
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。688Please respect copyright.PENANALhecEOEs3f
688Please respect copyright.PENANAP7SPbLDHKt
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」688Please respect copyright.PENANAfBZs7auyms
688Please respect copyright.PENANAHMT8MwD2Ll
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。688Please respect copyright.PENANA4iSaVjpO7f
688Please respect copyright.PENANATsfBg1CsCX
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。688Please respect copyright.PENANATkhRt5mExP
688Please respect copyright.PENANA9pPtZqRcHb
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。688Please respect copyright.PENANA8XeDUg1kYl
688Please respect copyright.PENANAZVF4EJ3iQ7
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。688Please respect copyright.PENANALEy1QUsWZ0
688Please respect copyright.PENANAQHMqBc4Rep
「嘭——」也是不進。688Please respect copyright.PENANAEIMXmI2bAa
688Please respect copyright.PENANA9UXgrio0If
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。688Please respect copyright.PENANA9iDhyXDNXR
688Please respect copyright.PENANAmRMkOOXS28
漸漸出現晚霞。688Please respect copyright.PENANAfqpPthTfYU
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回去吧。688Please respect copyright.PENANAzddf0vUTim
688Please respect copyright.PENANAUTTHiLm0Jv
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。688Please respect copyright.PENANABCCX3PUZV7
688Please respect copyright.PENANANd0noOfwtu
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。688Please respect copyright.PENANAWiHJTODa4v
688Please respect copyright.PENANArvvbBTWHGf
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。688Please respect copyright.PENANA0pfPwgisaT
688Please respect copyright.PENANAr1XHKd00ht
背著書包,累然站起——688Please respect copyright.PENANA6Kj2qFIBF0
688Please respect copyright.PENANAMifRAqgEuV
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」688Please respect copyright.PENANAyG8ENBVyB1
688Please respect copyright.PENANAb98xt4Gp8D
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。688Please respect copyright.PENANA2a9NLfrAt0
688Please respect copyright.PENANAxq4yrllzeY
最後,舉起手。688Please respect copyright.PENANAsVNduLU4XF
688Please respect copyright.PENANAx2e5WMgbHm
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。688Please respect copyright.PENANAyxVGGHVpQv
688Please respect copyright.PENANA4HgxUdlg7S
* * *688Please respect copyright.PENANAIieeCexzo0
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。688Please respect copyright.PENANAjvf5kZGxDf
688Please respect copyright.PENANANydRdicFt0
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。688Please respect copyright.PENANAReetmdnwFE
688Please respect copyright.PENANAtysMX0JKwc
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。688Please respect copyright.PENANAjgDmSGAMV9
688Please respect copyright.PENANAp4SLzop6xL
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。688Please respect copyright.PENANAJY7Tj58GIX
688Please respect copyright.PENANAWJSKtmuMib
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。688Please respect copyright.PENANAuR0o0ueGL0
688Please respect copyright.PENANA306h3Eozgm
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。688Please respect copyright.PENANAl9xyxHZHnv
688Please respect copyright.PENANAx7vqdTVkYX
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。688Please respect copyright.PENANAdVYwcXlEgu
688Please respect copyright.PENANAHar5jGknWg
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。688Please respect copyright.PENANAzSmQzHVjXR
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。688Please respect copyright.PENANAbiZjADsDeF
688Please respect copyright.PENANAGyirqxgnUY
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。688Please respect copyright.PENANAQIFUhFV24i
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。688Please respect copyright.PENANACO6FgDtdQs
688Please respect copyright.PENANAmYeCzyzmwj
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。688Please respect copyright.PENANAS9BpV96ep5
688Please respect copyright.PENANAmM0BUzkYVq
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。688Please respect copyright.PENANADlOgYuW30E
688Please respect copyright.PENANALmqpGY5tBj
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。688Please respect copyright.PENANAF1JxMDdIM8
688Please respect copyright.PENANAWoop1MlVrI
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。688Please respect copyright.PENANARfdRyCaYRG
688Please respect copyright.PENANAppBQCUd6I8
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。688Please respect copyright.PENANAJtbCtDEo85
688Please respect copyright.PENANAVxGfa7FAtH
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。688Please respect copyright.PENANAzpACUCLfMj
688Please respect copyright.PENANAg9ZoR39CKZ
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。688Please respect copyright.PENANAZWMswQIUKi
688Please respect copyright.PENANASXXTl59dD7
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。688Please respect copyright.PENANAIiMBvm99Si
688Please respect copyright.PENANAZN5g99ogeK
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……688Please respect copyright.PENANAf05Oa64WDF
688Please respect copyright.PENANAKgWjrIxj3q
——放大瞳孔。688Please respect copyright.PENANAPEfyYY2FqH
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。688Please respect copyright.PENANAvDaGLZhB62
688Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3NigKO35s
手機就在我的褲袋。688Please respect copyright.PENANAmWZHubrXeh
688Please respect copyright.PENANAsdS5gMoEjg
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。688Please respect copyright.PENANANiixCWghZw
688Please respect copyright.PENANALhHYkwr040
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。688Please respect copyright.PENANARgykDgGXdr
688Please respect copyright.PENANAeawcFifyxe
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。688Please respect copyright.PENANAwSpJhUbj16
688Please respect copyright.PENANA9iSg9VmRXz
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。688Please respect copyright.PENANArOCCVZLAoN
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那麼,打嗎?688Please respect copyright.PENANAVadIvCjTe3
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。688Please respect copyright.PENANAUU7d4MgWZc
688Please respect copyright.PENANA3fnEgDBGWe
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?688Please respect copyright.PENANAgrHPzzdVfz
688Please respect copyright.PENANAGOOwLWrwlC
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?688Please respect copyright.PENANA0PuxXd0AR0
688Please respect copyright.PENANAGI9mRMg222
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。688Please respect copyright.PENANAIqGmuEnCzO
688Please respect copyright.PENANAsnEKkexqwy
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。688Please respect copyright.PENANA29wpOxIGeT
688Please respect copyright.PENANAvRCDuVqFDD
幾度拿出手機的我——688Please respect copyright.PENANArOTbULrbeW
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算吧。688Please respect copyright.PENANAyofInmY4zF
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把手機放回褲袋。688Please respect copyright.PENANA82cu1IuGFF
688Please respect copyright.PENANABvnDcMRTMr
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。688Please respect copyright.PENANAq9HHR5F5No
688Please respect copyright.PENANAp3x6uTSw3X
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。688Please respect copyright.PENANAAYHj3btsir
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。688Please respect copyright.PENANAR9O0pHm7Iq
688Please respect copyright.PENANAH3noMxRzV9