我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。702Please respect copyright.PENANAvZcaurXNNR
702Please respect copyright.PENANAT7dZqIwiHU
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。702Please respect copyright.PENANAeraBEKZQ1q
702Please respect copyright.PENANAnHphezNGMf
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。702Please respect copyright.PENANAx2b6glMWtv
702Please respect copyright.PENANAtKqEksp0Ud
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。702Please respect copyright.PENANAkxcYLNjpDX
702Please respect copyright.PENANAy7QyRhMO3h
走進了屋邨商場。702Please respect copyright.PENANAof9mecdWSX
702Please respect copyright.PENANAuHLXd6QszY
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。702Please respect copyright.PENANAhZXsJ0AouC
702Please respect copyright.PENANAFPU9VCAFZp
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。702Please respect copyright.PENANAHb1q6T4GBd
702Please respect copyright.PENANAVNFpG7mIJI
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。702Please respect copyright.PENANALNhMhSlt6V
702Please respect copyright.PENANAjJWBYA4eyC
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。702Please respect copyright.PENANAabBEzJLAtA
702Please respect copyright.PENANABRsLxtik6m
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。702Please respect copyright.PENANAsLnyxpKLrD
702Please respect copyright.PENANAU1Je8iOOpC
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。702Please respect copyright.PENANAUkqGT5Akfz
702Please respect copyright.PENANACSlQE20Iwu
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。702Please respect copyright.PENANAJk0YbHoGxT
702Please respect copyright.PENANAkIOrRm4j2q
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。702Please respect copyright.PENANAnsvizQpnQ3
702Please respect copyright.PENANAlsLATs9zoK
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。702Please respect copyright.PENANAIBNsaE0dkq
702Please respect copyright.PENANAKNLGd4fCrc
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。702Please respect copyright.PENANA5nT6GwEdPF
702Please respect copyright.PENANApVsY6ZGkoz
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——702Please respect copyright.PENANAhGSQIURsks
702Please respect copyright.PENANACtEqzKgPKO
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。702Please respect copyright.PENANAqfBqr9dte8
702Please respect copyright.PENANAExBaqzs7Rd
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。702Please respect copyright.PENANAwuealCcyjC
702Please respect copyright.PENANAl3Rq9cyztQ
腳步還是能動。702Please respect copyright.PENANA8x30QtpNR7
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。702Please respect copyright.PENANAAWDUUUW859
702Please respect copyright.PENANAhW5DD7R96x
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……702Please respect copyright.PENANAkvGdywPUfi
702Please respect copyright.PENANAzgK5ihJKKO
腳步才轉向離去。702Please respect copyright.PENANAkApVtJY0We
702Please respect copyright.PENANAI69Ea4Om7e
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。702Please respect copyright.PENANAhZjWzTwpdZ
702Please respect copyright.PENANA8XH7xbHD3I
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。702Please respect copyright.PENANAlxSvnhr8jx
702Please respect copyright.PENANAKGFVxkY47g
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。702Please respect copyright.PENANArxuDSfLBB9
702Please respect copyright.PENANAqwAETxexJo
但是已經不再重要。702Please respect copyright.PENANAP6v83H83Jv
702Please respect copyright.PENANAA31y9FqLE6
她騙了我。702Please respect copyright.PENANAEfG490lcgc
702Please respect copyright.PENANAaT9ocKsjA0
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。702Please respect copyright.PENANAztA95voAXD
702Please respect copyright.PENANAaW4efz2GQd
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。702Please respect copyright.PENANAjysqvS0l43
702Please respect copyright.PENANA6QjMdXbZA4
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。702Please respect copyright.PENANA6S59pGsUzV
702Please respect copyright.PENANA4BlnKkOZYn
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。702Please respect copyright.PENANAYkLNLXll0f
702Please respect copyright.PENANAMJH5h2TxDC
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。702Please respect copyright.PENANAYXRo4XqHHj
702Please respect copyright.PENANAUs3egpdHBk
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。702Please respect copyright.PENANAE2YIE9Igtu
702Please respect copyright.PENANAtIRpYeksx0
但我錯了。702Please respect copyright.PENANAymVcw6HICi
702Please respect copyright.PENANAOrNsUU4uKQ
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。702Please respect copyright.PENANAquNaqGETAS
702Please respect copyright.PENANAE8ofMIltxW
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。702Please respect copyright.PENANAaapXVgXtVP
702Please respect copyright.PENANAymuG1aihqS
眼下——702Please respect copyright.PENANAXUb68XApKL
702Please respect copyright.PENANANOOjchCfK0
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。702Please respect copyright.PENANACsqXXvKpfv
702Please respect copyright.PENANA4Eo7zWluvo
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。702Please respect copyright.PENANALQ7JcifgGK
702Please respect copyright.PENANAh16vr1UPi9
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。702Please respect copyright.PENANA3L6eZS5XmH
702Please respect copyright.PENANADghohhoAiu
我能夠再承受一次嗎?702Please respect copyright.PENANA68wwRluCKw
702Please respect copyright.PENANADv3BGTB8Qq
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。702Please respect copyright.PENANAZjqUvva1yf
702Please respect copyright.PENANAuL4uSaeTkF
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。702Please respect copyright.PENANAos30yQubG0
702Please respect copyright.PENANADNygPOkxX2
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。702Please respect copyright.PENANAlbPaq8D3g1
702Please respect copyright.PENANAVaKPq5XIe1
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。702Please respect copyright.PENANAjGaeERGT5y
702Please respect copyright.PENANAVFDHauydiC
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。702Please respect copyright.PENANAR3cl900egy
702Please respect copyright.PENANAs2TQYGXATW
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。702Please respect copyright.PENANAY7x9ffK4tC
702Please respect copyright.PENANAv0pUHjZBCV
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。702Please respect copyright.PENANAGVIsMTJO3S
702Please respect copyright.PENANAMolXAsfdBY
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。702Please respect copyright.PENANAlIkYUViG8k
702Please respect copyright.PENANAaZvJzlQrzb
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。702Please respect copyright.PENANAoMuYGjiH75
702Please respect copyright.PENANAto2f0cH8Nq
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……702Please respect copyright.PENANAnsmfbDXvu7
702Please respect copyright.PENANAWNwx7zc2Xs
我樂意代勞的。702Please respect copyright.PENANAKjlVjVEgzV
702Please respect copyright.PENANAt3gWcYBe0X
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。702Please respect copyright.PENANA3DZckzYuDJ
702Please respect copyright.PENANAwI6Um7OGNK
我馬上看看後座的乘客——702Please respect copyright.PENANA1KNWaLirYd
702Please respect copyright.PENANARENFbvVVaJ
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。702Please respect copyright.PENANAJD1FojCqPE
702Please respect copyright.PENANAqBLMvgReYe
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?702Please respect copyright.PENANAK09alqVpkC
702Please respect copyright.PENANAhMDUwhwuAy
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。702Please respect copyright.PENANAZoFjltOHn5
702Please respect copyright.PENANAO1KKigQs0R
在下午等待至日落——702Please respect copyright.PENANAwwLoLqIcXw
702Please respect copyright.PENANAZI2zzVM4Pg
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。702Please respect copyright.PENANANeQZ9LUB4j
702Please respect copyright.PENANAG4KTEJfIs7
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。702Please respect copyright.PENANAhweM96Dgva
702Please respect copyright.PENANAbO8mpBs8Sx
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」702Please respect copyright.PENANAdHwinPFmCD
702Please respect copyright.PENANAt2qYWdqvxu
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。702Please respect copyright.PENANA6YJgXdKGL8
702Please respect copyright.PENANAqDQh70kpqh
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。702Please respect copyright.PENANAusBnCTfr4i
702Please respect copyright.PENANAXr8LlafVsR
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。702Please respect copyright.PENANAAB6dzGA2Ef
702Please respect copyright.PENANAL7xJ59szPW
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。702Please respect copyright.PENANAg4F8TAC0Di
702Please respect copyright.PENANAIH0vvV7Pdh
「嘭——」也是不進。702Please respect copyright.PENANAhimYKqsvlt
702Please respect copyright.PENANAs5bREXTnzm
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。702Please respect copyright.PENANAT4PlA7uhgf
702Please respect copyright.PENANAZTAvDP9Yub
漸漸出現晚霞。702Please respect copyright.PENANABrkFFT92an
702Please respect copyright.PENANAZYLCzsemEu
回去吧。702Please respect copyright.PENANA86bQ7ZZ046
702Please respect copyright.PENANAMN7rLM0y0U
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。702Please respect copyright.PENANAFJIJgNOmLw
702Please respect copyright.PENANA7WW0sTaolD
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。702Please respect copyright.PENANAcOi6kahJgJ
702Please respect copyright.PENANA3pWJeXeAjH
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。702Please respect copyright.PENANAd4oxfznlmR
702Please respect copyright.PENANA1ttcucuHIH
背著書包,累然站起——702Please respect copyright.PENANAvC9AExyc7x
702Please respect copyright.PENANAoCz0wRRl3o
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」702Please respect copyright.PENANAtQJR4aNGS2
702Please respect copyright.PENANA6gHwZUz2ai
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。702Please respect copyright.PENANAsyOYBWrsUf
702Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2Ai9a0gWB
最後,舉起手。702Please respect copyright.PENANAdNTxVyY4Db
702Please respect copyright.PENANA4IUb26ToFo
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。702Please respect copyright.PENANAH80Q00ID6U
702Please respect copyright.PENANAnyDtI0FPU3
* * *702Please respect copyright.PENANAoxCsBOj31n
702Please respect copyright.PENANArdJ9zgwING
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。702Please respect copyright.PENANATZZMuPc1E3
702Please respect copyright.PENANAYQGLYGQl8A
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。702Please respect copyright.PENANAX0PLtqEXYD
702Please respect copyright.PENANAz2Wgk6wBk1
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。702Please respect copyright.PENANAWEZmCCNWg6
702Please respect copyright.PENANA1LwDI6bGCw
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。702Please respect copyright.PENANAv9zWWtqR4t
702Please respect copyright.PENANAKvbLfNpljz
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。702Please respect copyright.PENANAm33s1OnDor
702Please respect copyright.PENANACgif1q5yGI
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。702Please respect copyright.PENANAzq7ppPoyIx
702Please respect copyright.PENANAbyYm5CwdKA
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。702Please respect copyright.PENANA2ruNhWjh0E
702Please respect copyright.PENANA8ej50B1rP0
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。702Please respect copyright.PENANAYeRfS2aeg3
702Please respect copyright.PENANAqeqgAvYew8
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。702Please respect copyright.PENANABklpUa1d4e
702Please respect copyright.PENANAQWcgECK5yh
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。702Please respect copyright.PENANANQcHf4DdZ4
702Please respect copyright.PENANASjbVBaLwAU
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。702Please respect copyright.PENANANFcXazW1aJ
702Please respect copyright.PENANAQrF12jwt77
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。702Please respect copyright.PENANATfXHu3XsGU
702Please respect copyright.PENANAi5FJi4oNJz
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。702Please respect copyright.PENANAxDBRDyEUiN
702Please respect copyright.PENANAt8XNNW2D8T
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。702Please respect copyright.PENANAxGTCNJuw38
702Please respect copyright.PENANAt9FtZAQDFk
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。702Please respect copyright.PENANAnHrXbfSqgx
702Please respect copyright.PENANAto2gJK4Jvs
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。702Please respect copyright.PENANArH9DtzsqKR
702Please respect copyright.PENANATtC6B747tF
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。702Please respect copyright.PENANADbomIo1om3
702Please respect copyright.PENANAgLqmEa9SaN
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。702Please respect copyright.PENANAPA0mcSHPg4
702Please respect copyright.PENANA9tOkfTLGgG
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。702Please respect copyright.PENANASFaousDc0j
702Please respect copyright.PENANAJUMvx6iC6f
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……702Please respect copyright.PENANAZNYLpZCu4U
702Please respect copyright.PENANA1sb00z7mJ3
——放大瞳孔。702Please respect copyright.PENANAELVG8sSX5W
702Please respect copyright.PENANAdR6uS0ibpk
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。702Please respect copyright.PENANAFojZ0oB2Cg
702Please respect copyright.PENANAokgfrqYuXH
手機就在我的褲袋。702Please respect copyright.PENANATVklC6Rrdt
702Please respect copyright.PENANAVVNfAtmg8d
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。702Please respect copyright.PENANAT0kjk8nw3b
702Please respect copyright.PENANAl4VhoPnCwK
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。702Please respect copyright.PENANAm3M1c1wywF
702Please respect copyright.PENANAagyA978JEu
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。702Please respect copyright.PENANAPHJDyt8THx
702Please respect copyright.PENANAgaHB7UCRp5
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。702Please respect copyright.PENANANAwe8PQwF8
702Please respect copyright.PENANApYHZkRk5Yl
那麼,打嗎?702Please respect copyright.PENANAZxn3oFBNhh
702Please respect copyright.PENANAizZ9a3eEAN
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。702Please respect copyright.PENANAUTi0RYe99T
702Please respect copyright.PENANAyK4oJkzEhO
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?702Please respect copyright.PENANA8mmrrQnGuu
702Please respect copyright.PENANAd5vVCsSIu5
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?702Please respect copyright.PENANA6hAcLfwepE
702Please respect copyright.PENANA0F91dS0GYD
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。702Please respect copyright.PENANA25pjZBFrtf
702Please respect copyright.PENANAYJKsuvpYIu
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。702Please respect copyright.PENANAGMR5EigrLr
702Please respect copyright.PENANABynDUsyxXN
幾度拿出手機的我——702Please respect copyright.PENANAY7TKCZlBxL
702Please respect copyright.PENANAFLUtCKcXT5
算吧。702Please respect copyright.PENANAh1R2qB2B7a
702Please respect copyright.PENANAvw4PMwA3yy
把手機放回褲袋。702Please respect copyright.PENANAClNLYMApdS
702Please respect copyright.PENANAxZywo36o2R
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。702Please respect copyright.PENANAqaUQmhDKI5
702Please respect copyright.PENANAM98C1A7zLm
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。702Please respect copyright.PENANAFRd9P6Y7dT
702Please respect copyright.PENANArCaTylMgwx
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。702Please respect copyright.PENANAehZ69W2q3s
702Please respect copyright.PENANAuxsKX36q1l