我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0zdHtZKwg
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5dpW5kWTS
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnJWfLDxph
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7mgBiDZxN
「咬下——」明白了。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6hZwcpLac
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwilEo21aa5
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdCmEg4gKu
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl1eOFe6cw
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwouFzJhWT
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO7uhbod3t
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXiB3Ecux7
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhcIXjHtYM
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwQ58ClV9T
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uIBvv24H6
神是不是故意的？670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7hkTmzgKm
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMxdvjy6Bf
竟然……安排這種測試給我。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCn7l40cg1Z
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jAxJoO8qh
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBwLeeH2iv
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxKRFmW6Ow
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1hM9fnBJy
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxgvsFg6uV
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2MveJ9kV5
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpU7h1eEWj
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkkDZnJmb3
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqa1t6FWwC
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFKzMRxwWQ
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oAfPaAo9v
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXrgSI0CEE
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVYluCLKHz
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYCmxCAGMb
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0J1Aq5lpeu
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER4yppp16n
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdH6WK7o9K
「唔好再講喇。」我說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIimMap2zlC
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUeDgsu4ac
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHH4gV2BWI
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4noZPNgCRj
然後我沒有再阻止她。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3sikJHlAh
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wJ9r0yZUi
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vKByfVD9V
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ82ppN0jvS
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhANfb6tVV
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1VDCXOQga
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6Q1fPON6Y
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOe77O8L9E
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77AkqhpHVW
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfJ6ddMLeX
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNitQqd9kV
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0cmY8CwpP
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdaD8sikoz
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzw3Fdd4Wch
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoiil5tiXC
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyOQmzX0XQ
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGj9Z8gqHO
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tOsutmPtu
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lhF34XcWi
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmvnF7uyDl
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9tQr780uq
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPq41n3p1LR
我也正在難過。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZk6i4RiZ6
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBqJwFsAY3
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP3bjYLwXP
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeSeacS8g3
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVQwHO9iBH
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ566WjWbLBf
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrlmlA5hHi
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2FhQM2Mvn
「點解？」她問。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lIuZ2cuY7
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKKxAduQ8e
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkXPQykBZe
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaTWvo7PWA
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyTokOHosH
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMGhUkAzQ6
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yVNGhYvC1
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BZnIj1yNW
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSE2t38obw
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDjBJaaMHw
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6Gl9NEfpw
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIYzq4q6Xn
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2NTkhGAwL
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkigpVvKxR
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qYk0eDYNy
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnp7VyS08oM
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJl235MagS
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQueiF0s4of
這是……什麼爛方法？670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlikDIOCExu
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIOoCqQ9Br
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKObM9l7BeG
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9uAecgkUc
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSg8U61AOR3
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7azkIw4txN
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gEgCIKIaN
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqUHAHZ9A6
「咩條件？」她問。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH7mVAXyin
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDo6NwAHk0
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H0MXRLSyZ
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSGYgbtSpz
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMKKwHA6dG
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukwB6YCEwr
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlb5ltApnng
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJM4B9DWdbd
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEKQFQaR6v
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNSAxtaryJ
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUb0mqyc1J
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZuU4mSbPg
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BBZ5TYQQT
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQypwsdLbZ
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzcET7gSJg
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlApSR0gTF
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxhjnlvb5j
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EnUayQzEi
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu366AvTDRd
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE3VLyLmfg
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajBiT68jEK
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8MhAVmKTI
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ126ZWBBWKn
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLD3kna0fVs
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgUdwEJ4lN
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cmnI0nP49
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbOjDjbRX2
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoawLzrqDd8
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QQFJwpqN6
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVsdYmbxQN
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4C8fYX32hX
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKFSM8Dp1n
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jOUQPyNFf
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX9d1EvvlN
說完，她聽完。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnr5lKQ4M0X
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYW0fbBPHus
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UDk3A4uWI
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8melrjpF8C
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1ec93c9Wn
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVKEz99JmS
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVn5xRWn0f
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFxaBp4R9o
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5NJ9uXw2U
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2jGT7JRXI
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyxnBkHI5j
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuCsSoX7fi
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg7BEIsmBa
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDpdqbZvzf
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTOfVVqUY8
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTF8TFsWry
「陸傾兒……」我說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMzohY8K7J
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvWXd5VLp6
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSYTHqlCbW
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiVbuBLaYL
「揀咩都得？」我問。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAhMRK50Od
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNfg5ZvUa9
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDccPv1p1WZ
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXFUl6cwyc
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyLnA3Axwp
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB60NXUSX5
而我不懂回答。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6K8BwMd3h
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdsN4VA28X
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOv55mHu070
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxrRbACddV
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJbP9xvLYn
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHn3xQjxCb
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvSNC6AaQj
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZE7IsnKelt
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kDJ3CwNbQ
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSmvap5mTH
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrr0tgu1ACX
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk42VL4VFBO
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbdwXVb7lV
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbm3FSxkzI
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLMyJRD6c0
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMru9SZNLln
過後——670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFDs1A70IW
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63np0VDLb4
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaVl1mFsgc
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8dxOLTQL8
屁股坐下。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSQrkBUiue
670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNysBT0Li3O
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。670Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIaAmyAMdY
Penana
search
Loginarrow_drop_down
Registerarrow_drop_down
