我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBP2AWdm0W8
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41nzJ4uadR
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dBryMM7pI
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGOo0dNywv
「咬下——」明白了。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzjmK16K5h
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxlpzUUcd6
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoz5n8AF56a
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiOw5cKFYO
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKqeESOVAz
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5YUsGqOfI
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopq9P0aQnj
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCddHueP9B5
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QQvpKDNT9
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkN9LGHPn52
神是不是故意的？704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTlLHrOLQq
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhxpSUc3rw
竟然……安排這種測試給我。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QqA6hByCU
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWst9fDBNx
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAt8WMrHklU
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhOAoSug2V
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5OQDzmToI
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt0tYWFXvg
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjj0mgbAHQ0
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnc9ruzexE
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67jFsrvs3B
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMbLVmqQsG
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimrerG1PIz
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOaAhTmu56
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkbgejqTy0
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7UkzvEd5Y
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlFcigtaB4
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3p4SyA11F
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66ArAHxHFO
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGZrqZhgCV
「唔好再講喇。」我說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdivB7HarSc
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRQoksxzB8
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWy8qvCLV45
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXkbDRK2aL
然後我沒有再阻止她。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRHasSRDGY
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnwkd0sowp
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zQWH6Z3bk
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKlu0M1PT5
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo93QLigmSp
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsIjFDWQmJ
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaD2AIL75w
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOinnEIrbg
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs06q9ObwQz
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUiwEleSqR
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGOjy3esNY
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl905lMc7I
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9ZQen2SyO
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DmVFdrXXn
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvZMxd6pQM
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrSO9Mmfzt
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3Vl7SOKps
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyBtjRiHnC
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfNTUqmyZ9
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJbGi6rLIn
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQnYK1Tmh2
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNUDSTJkTu
我也正在難過。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrM9NKRAXd
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBzWMRjFbL
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2RP3k2gMB
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxyyL79Pgd
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KjlfzjXxc
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuwvxpG0uE
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaH5BTjZG0
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgEyLyB17V
「點解？」她問。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOxmyb45uK
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziFDmgnJZi
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JnZJaUOQq
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rOlgExjCm
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCX2vZ2y7N
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6J3YKg6LS
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KW4k06LDE
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAEGNbJwQO
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI5d4XPBd6
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OxXLszWSh
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNu4jPb96Rk
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GynsMBUIX
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dUWnxhK0o
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBxLg6FyYG
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx5N7UDwoq
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5j3fdaovQu
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRl4m5zdUB
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGMgh2GfzD
這是……什麼爛方法？704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlAqUwV2KD
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGCe9byuIc
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLc0KPrbYWq
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P4971Ajde
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyJXkqAep3
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJJ6NmnFbF
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TTbqT5oBt
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOziL53nbm
「咩條件？」她問。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddG3lITiFa
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyZkAollmr
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGqvk1w1Xi
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodIJtOCbMT
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVboxPe4pGE
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnr98cuZdfI
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ABgFzu1lH
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEezdD5zGx
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQLCvuioDh
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIfAP4muss
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKO1TI1eRsx
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFubKfzX1oo
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUmzTYHTkb
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRTzFsH2Qn
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqrUzEIxn4
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx8kbn2B6F
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRMmZYlRrR
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPfZKl0u5G
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtavTECebV
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcw4c7J7Dn8
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09pwvvy10z
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKOoVIuH1p
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuExFfz8B0u
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmB6X2n8gs
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCC4HYGoxvW
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLqBKilyjN
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYO18rtKe9
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2FtRnsuL2
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kphPcKMGa
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikwQHFooSt
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBDHovM6cP
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR92GmUCPEh
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eJnfv37JT
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cFRrtfc5q
說完，她聽完。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7xODg1WIY
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRqpDEGHKA
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC9MxX6JVC
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7GQkOsXph
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGIMp4gAkl
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsqSZVk8wv
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBvnU8fikb
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYhN505py8
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE96AXafUp6
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxZC0hmil6
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg997HrC3vQ
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmfFncdfvY
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWhRBE77Gt
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoFKGra9uX
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ0RymvmNF
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKg2k0TPG6
「陸傾兒……」我說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4I1MH1vZVU
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxeI90Vp0l
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoyrkIkfwi
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHE2hKzoQ3t
「揀咩都得？」我問。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWbSILE1Gt
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8epTQyCwVs
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt1yxySgq9
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0I07HCEiU
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWD780dAsd
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsaOlOcqgf
而我不懂回答。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUhariuKtl
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgyDKYZlYk
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTLb951dBH
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYk1io5eGN
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Krda5F0eC
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFV5kn5jeU
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8czrAeLUxu
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFRo74o6jG
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3ObsPeya5
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtD9aAPV9Eq
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBlfGmbUCi
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jCPT1OnNN
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9Hp8Jkb8m
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwCwczt8pV
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8sf5v0Jp7
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzbVOkIA2r
過後——704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkp12uVCaW
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEAWGMJjxI
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Mkt80UNjE
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUYIYmyObk
屁股坐下。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlbDG3teoo
704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxm0PkM2doV
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuyiMMHkE7
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