我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXeBDN3bJc
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgvyS8Na5d
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrHWoKC8gd
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzY6sSsM3FC
「咬下——」明白了。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsNCartUv8
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhfCk1LPIL
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvFAz9HENu
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNg39JqVrW
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso9wRMs2FZ
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaRUAJAUh2
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEGWmh3eAI
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQyVmdqDP4
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ1SqEs34k
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq72zby7jzP
神是不是故意的？686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6vr7uAHJe
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmf5q7jZbvz
竟然……安排這種測試給我。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEueh1lZV9
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4DW9EmM8Z
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGPSoScdQj
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHGBuddkEG
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMegHGqE79I
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2fASLy8Ij
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG5pD1Ksym
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHUyXv2ktb
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTepyDJ9RUc
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDV4dGMaDz
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf42FnJD5Wm
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8Fy8FuQ1H
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY5VSnn1Nh
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UM180gwJb
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiTGgeexBV
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7C3ySBysK
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWPT9ZvA3s
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU293xEjbS
「唔好再講喇。」我說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWC6KRB2Do
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrX1JQkRPTi
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB4DpwaWqY
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9HPUC7adF
然後我沒有再阻止她。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTaSAAZmDN
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA84NcHjA8G
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5S3JFEpyQ
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZSEesDibX
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M8qIriq9G
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0UxOaoZKI
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJITK2HPTp0
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRqSPTtZXY
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfef2LmiMqQ
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTD4dxuOkm
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvTyROKU9X
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfhBCnTHno
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLwizgmrte
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6W9ruXv2z
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQQX7dCBvn
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWf60wQ4nEH
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMv492SaZf
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw59asNYTLT
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEz69X6FMi
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb98Uui95gG
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMv5H7DWvG
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3gAHa1vMd
我也正在難過。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5fLLBsDIf
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35RsjwJEvU
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmQ3Bxi5gj
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKovjP5IU3
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46Oa37gAkG
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9GK93vIKu
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYmIaZsp4e
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvuhh2Xdbg
「點解？」她問。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo9atlg4pk
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWLdJRW7Ce
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBFsB8z1CY
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs64l3eJL5b
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TGI6STxNg
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2bchVFi6f
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqyOkXnCY0
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwKtddfh16
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY47POEfmtK
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXK72bGTvj
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI6DChpYKX
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefEbOyyc7Q
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfat5uUCKk
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1fPJcVzFM
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4wC3HBQaS
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jvPypkESs
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmEVpOjvMw
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJpOwsouZC
這是……什麼爛方法？686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdToLa0Az1
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoezRoxngHu
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiyDGzdpi5
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVAIWPamDF
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTcyIT0yjE
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnggP08Ri4
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKwPBMAqoc
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0p6ej2e6I
「咩條件？」她問。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAhqEOL8Qy
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R5jDnWcPj
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTqz8GUFgF
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1A1ZMD0oM
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUM1PcuuuRc
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwzWzmbSsk
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHqBnAcGAR
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmwcixLBuy
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivYvRrGn6Y
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuM7aamjob
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwq5Zt8osi
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJEinqhoYk
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aFSe35kFu
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtbvodMbgG
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhhXRozAfu
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwJ4w82Db3
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPx4Go4Fns
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfbOC2S0Hd
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjCupyRi2G
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcqJNQw78H
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvM2qWeVH0W
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseyY3gco4v
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSWqy1RwkH
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQrFnYGydK
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfsUsKmQSI
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm36p2HZ5AR
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVKsRxthKH
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKVsFNT6Hs
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7AoSD81ur
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTfPpqksN5
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4nLvyI1Hf
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEH0v8vSikv
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uzE3nkh4u
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvbh0ARXEY
說完，她聽完。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKV0QF9884C
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AAc3y4J5X
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMIy5OkYH4
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtImwXhFonb
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkq8pm0szjA
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVnnsE7KJ5
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPXF5UH0mc
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAo9JV8tss8
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6vnt8Fuko
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO20bE16pW8
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJcSJld7OF
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBxCTi9yY4
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkoX38jR0c
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLR7nlalpTx
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDe7Wlm2aU
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpw69fAfiuo
「陸傾兒……」我說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hqgSI6Yzg
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAZfmmFCdr
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0NdoPY4N6
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxm0yFOiLi4
「揀咩都得？」我問。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWILoomDFCw
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59ACDp1Zca
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqckkBkv1Ka
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjM0WC6eCO
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmKOE6iCow
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI65kkJHJWP
而我不懂回答。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQJewtI3t0
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx2qFvcKhq
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZiVdAEiEZ
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4T9Vlj6CBT
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R5hwRXT5d
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uZqUkbAiv
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhweHgr5VQN
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwimcMmciU
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66B1tZkSOD
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBatZNprTL
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtJiScqvDg
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrkJoqLncj
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujWIjgiv7k
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ucagA7f4B
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmuyCAu8qJ
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBVEEoq5c1
過後——686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5TlIwcG72
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDX0gpp8DW
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBcXcSNorn
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdleRCIDCts
屁股坐下。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGOi8U6YnY
686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNen9aiAEap
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuZcSLQT24
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