這算什麼?677Please respect copyright.PENANAbleGTexia6
677Please respect copyright.PENANAGDrN9aOxgf
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。677Please respect copyright.PENANAeMFBYskp7M
677Please respect copyright.PENANAlETM0ch32G
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。677Please respect copyright.PENANAd7i0iLYCsC
677Please respect copyright.PENANA723AHJxM0U
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。677Please respect copyright.PENANAXCt4pETCmW
677Please respect copyright.PENANADBawjFX10c
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。677Please respect copyright.PENANAxAFIt4dmsU
677Please respect copyright.PENANAMEO17wO5cI
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。677Please respect copyright.PENANArPtnB5s4Jj
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgkJRSXFxqv
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。677Please respect copyright.PENANAHBX3q5Bbqv
677Please respect copyright.PENANA2ExhHr3yE9
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。677Please respect copyright.PENANAk9zvmkg5uc
677Please respect copyright.PENANAqpa9zYVpmr
然後便準備下山了。677Please respect copyright.PENANA88avvV4DbX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAfkOxPEQ9bn
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。677Please respect copyright.PENANAlThDaW0QfS
677Please respect copyright.PENANAKdjiC3OZwc
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。677Please respect copyright.PENANAk7zT2XGNTt
677Please respect copyright.PENANAL4fvBtFRcd
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」677Please respect copyright.PENANA7VyHvjXEWW
677Please respect copyright.PENANA2tbxkOxzCA
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。677Please respect copyright.PENANAwCTBbkU0hC
677Please respect copyright.PENANAaqbHKFERXU
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcfNPTZsW9i
677Please respect copyright.PENANAblUfnHK7ZJ
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。677Please respect copyright.PENANAJEaignDCuX
677Please respect copyright.PENANALmsp3265zH
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。677Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ya6UHsFij
677Please respect copyright.PENANAdwduHipJyn
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。677Please respect copyright.PENANAFyO80HiXDD
677Please respect copyright.PENANAojBmJTphgK
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」677Please respect copyright.PENANAhgPLHVfaVW
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgbedzbcAO6
不會告訴我,又一天了。677Please respect copyright.PENANArpVPvBN7Qx
677Please respect copyright.PENANA3eg3lhc3Nv
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。677Please respect copyright.PENANASiNS3uYPab
677Please respect copyright.PENANApwOb5Wa4hg
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。677Please respect copyright.PENANAChGxzS4MgH
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyuyBpER5y2
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。677Please respect copyright.PENANAVDLAtDLhdJ
677Please respect copyright.PENANA0TWmR1gMph
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。677Please respect copyright.PENANArAQ9eB3C84
677Please respect copyright.PENANAT9UJFcqFOe
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。677Please respect copyright.PENANA8ipOySUNMW
677Please respect copyright.PENANANHjv3C5hst
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAQrxknT7xDF
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgEySyDnq3o
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。677Please respect copyright.PENANAAYvjUTQOvn
677Please respect copyright.PENANAts6c2Wz05a
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcunp4OEpEY
677Please respect copyright.PENANAHomMdEs8Z2
怎麼說呢?677Please respect copyright.PENANAPCkfKBOjZS
677Please respect copyright.PENANAnzNQjDT0F8
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。677Please respect copyright.PENANA4mtmTYXhnk
677Please respect copyright.PENANAldzHbRzkPc
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。677Please respect copyright.PENANASUrqUigaVy
677Please respect copyright.PENANA1npBgpGYZ1
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。677Please respect copyright.PENANAchjPvOInlY
677Please respect copyright.PENANAHB9Xxph6mC
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。677Please respect copyright.PENANAM9W886V9H8
677Please respect copyright.PENANALUa0voDx2R
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。677Please respect copyright.PENANAn1tZ4bmw0e
677Please respect copyright.PENANAzwtQdCMxVn
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。677Please respect copyright.PENANARoeiFCc0M3
677Please respect copyright.PENANA1ppNpZ8HpS
我再點頭。677Please respect copyright.PENANA1OXJNwV1kf
677Please respect copyright.PENANAJEgK24LxIN
「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。677Please respect copyright.PENANAb2lXzl4sCr
677Please respect copyright.PENANAhLWo4ndekH
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。677Please respect copyright.PENANAfv5FMhyLnl
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我馬上看第二天。677Please respect copyright.PENANAgjq7VBk2Zq
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。677Please respect copyright.PENANApNRvFVwnhG
677Please respect copyright.PENANAxbLXapkdip
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。677Please respect copyright.PENANA5oNLl49jOx
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……677Please respect copyright.PENANAO1SzNAKkP6
677Please respect copyright.PENANAFBzP04gSyz
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。677Please respect copyright.PENANAjJ9hRdfANq
677Please respect copyright.PENANAm83NxEjER4
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」677Please respect copyright.PENANAkMOY1ihuPs
677Please respect copyright.PENANAHo6Y9pxIxM
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」677Please respect copyright.PENANABylM0jLbzs
677Please respect copyright.PENANAforKy1ERlU
第二天「END」出現。677Please respect copyright.PENANAiPyhczSREy
677Please respect copyright.PENANAM3vMNMDJoP
我蓋上了練習簿。677Please respect copyright.PENANAN3U2WBm5Ew
677Please respect copyright.PENANATG4mLCDKOi
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。677Please respect copyright.PENANApFBhPJJZWo
677Please respect copyright.PENANARqh2vvUEKE
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?677Please respect copyright.PENANAsNKBJjwbsA
677Please respect copyright.PENANAPCLsGX0xsU
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAYj9DpOuu7g
677Please respect copyright.PENANAo1CaBJVqyk
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。677Please respect copyright.PENANAyuaaK7Ij7G
677Please respect copyright.PENANANyCd2c7Zs0
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。677Please respect copyright.PENANADZMYaj43V8
677Please respect copyright.PENANAC4HKh8sLvm
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。677Please respect copyright.PENANAaa0zNK8XZN
677Please respect copyright.PENANAo1wGTeEXBv
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。677Please respect copyright.PENANAjdQzmcQ6nx
677Please respect copyright.PENANAGGB3q6lmeM
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?677Please respect copyright.PENANASXeMRtAgFW
677Please respect copyright.PENANAkvZWKcsW6c
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。677Please respect copyright.PENANAA9dGkvRAF1
677Please respect copyright.PENANAQRnqkefHsr
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。677Please respect copyright.PENANAxFydvbxIcR
677Please respect copyright.PENANAHxtfHyoScH
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」677Please respect copyright.PENANA2oxcbfidXE
677Please respect copyright.PENANAlViFK9gR93
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。677Please respect copyright.PENANA7NmY5SwWNl
677Please respect copyright.PENANAs3oEzPo3Jw
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAaus1C8rYb9
677Please respect copyright.PENANAwz7jQtIRmG
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。677Please respect copyright.PENANAxhD9rsOBP9
677Please respect copyright.PENANAOOZeKRkYpy
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。677Please respect copyright.PENANAKFlUbpG7fv
677Please respect copyright.PENANA2JD3MKDpoC
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。677Please respect copyright.PENANAVTulKDWE0Z
677Please respect copyright.PENANAUTWqP5qVO7
然後再次坐好。677Please respect copyright.PENANAR4aueqZfmL
677Please respect copyright.PENANA0sdVlWC0O8
「陸……傾兒。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAy4YI0dNA6A
677Please respect copyright.PENANAN6Zn7YdygX
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。677Please respect copyright.PENANAVBxpL6NNO7
677Please respect copyright.PENANA5WsLlNBlRR
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。677Please respect copyright.PENANAxJyVRZTFQg
677Please respect copyright.PENANAPF33dilnqI
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。677Please respect copyright.PENANARIDHUGc1UQ
677Please respect copyright.PENANAY3bnd52I9C
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。677Please respect copyright.PENANAPRR7wQOmEx
677Please respect copyright.PENANAIuUc12ijds
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。677Please respect copyright.PENANAmh1F63LO9n
677Please respect copyright.PENANAEWG3OzHtBw
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?677Please respect copyright.PENANA1Iq2cwwqBk
677Please respect copyright.PENANA98mjVnK1rT
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。677Please respect copyright.PENANAN2P2BPy1BB
677Please respect copyright.PENANARt4miwvutd
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。677Please respect copyright.PENANA0qLlNP4LwD
677Please respect copyright.PENANAM0PBt2k5WB
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAGIEUXIAxSq
677Please respect copyright.PENANAGtqFHPNjs7
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAUCCf60JUaZ
677Please respect copyright.PENANASqb1JRMCXr
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。677Please respect copyright.PENANAyTyYwztAN9
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyYZXl6meKH
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。677Please respect copyright.PENANAuuca47z3jN
677Please respect copyright.PENANA1u1Ea7r4DD
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。677Please respect copyright.PENANA7jRMSKD4HA
677Please respect copyright.PENANAxeWsq3Ejt5
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。677Please respect copyright.PENANAhQKstZ7VhD
677Please respect copyright.PENANAdxuovo6rug
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。677Please respect copyright.PENANAEy16i40W5l
677Please respect copyright.PENANAGJh0rEvski
那麼,我呢?677Please respect copyright.PENANARbWY72xQtZ
677Please respect copyright.PENANAZkwsyCZNjq
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?677Please respect copyright.PENANAkQ4JBv8qJG
677Please respect copyright.PENANA3W27wkhYsp
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。677Please respect copyright.PENANA1WnBzh18CA
677Please respect copyright.PENANAXH5WsNXozV
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。677Please respect copyright.PENANAnbXNk3ebXA
677Please respect copyright.PENANAhM4shQH2ZW
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。677Please respect copyright.PENANAyUI8m2pjsr
677Please respect copyright.PENANAp4T9p6N2wX
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。677Please respect copyright.PENANAqucCEQGe4Z
677Please respect copyright.PENANAdnMLAXCGkd
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。677Please respect copyright.PENANAgQUIuinqir
677Please respect copyright.PENANAE3cf5ign4W
第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 677Please respect copyright.PENANAevg5Tlqt2s
677Please respect copyright.PENANAWouomrI5Ey
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 677Please respect copyright.PENANAGBgNhVWQFt
677Please respect copyright.PENANACTM6suQfU2
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。677Please respect copyright.PENANAPKWTbQSkO9
677Please respect copyright.PENANAf8y8HuPPlX
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAzHhHx0I9pa
677Please respect copyright.PENANA9P29v9LeXC
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAyaxqRrtZSH
677Please respect copyright.PENANAARWZwCRcrH
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAwOJ9ZsjUp6
677Please respect copyright.PENANADF7zELtIIg
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAtAGsSomOPX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAA68qXBANgK
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。677Please respect copyright.PENANAhhFX4KaRk3
677Please respect copyright.PENANAkppxOT2rJK
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」677Please respect copyright.PENANATqHex6GrlY
677Please respect copyright.PENANAjyuj99V00Q
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。677Please respect copyright.PENANAAzTDTYMbMn
677Please respect copyright.PENANARei6ZdknWz
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。677Please respect copyright.PENANAWOPR09cwvv
677Please respect copyright.PENANAXRhZZFCmUl
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAgwjA6VxjAR
677Please respect copyright.PENANAmTXHeyxDmk
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。677Please respect copyright.PENANACufNHja84V
677Please respect copyright.PENANALSPLSh3wdw
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?677Please respect copyright.PENANAfPgpyON5Co
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我期待著。677Please respect copyright.PENANA7q8mdOoYlK
677Please respect copyright.PENANAcI3daWmjLC
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。677Please respect copyright.PENANAwGApvCBbwP
677Please respect copyright.PENANArOx5YfRToA
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。677Please respect copyright.PENANAxna93NLzaM
677Please respect copyright.PENANAn7jGW77RQj
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。677Please respect copyright.PENANAn0sgDkRk8Q
677Please respect copyright.PENANAN5WQn6tnKz
「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」677Please respect copyright.PENANATspJwVjbP9
677Please respect copyright.PENANAXSsnb17Kss
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。677Please respect copyright.PENANA402dPeDymG
677Please respect copyright.PENANAr0258zVAUq
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAEJAI09F5vL
677Please respect copyright.PENANAPjsSbRI8w6
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。677Please respect copyright.PENANANVAw5z97FU
677Please respect copyright.PENANARPkqe0BtvA
「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。677Please respect copyright.PENANAbwDzIbIjVy
677Please respect copyright.PENANAjdkZR6WHOl
傾耳以待——677Please respect copyright.PENANAODf5EaXRoN
677Please respect copyright.PENANA8wBDf6Efvt
「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAgeeX6uIBLv
677Please respect copyright.PENANAUQB0fU4Bvk
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcmncYrtiRP
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgvSpYKhCFr
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。677Please respect copyright.PENANAPl1ffcJLwP
677Please respect copyright.PENANA4nITi95qhm
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。677Please respect copyright.PENANAgM2bmb8ZXZ
677Please respect copyright.PENANAR5lrSHDqJz
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」677Please respect copyright.PENANASPnjq09Te0
677Please respect copyright.PENANA0f3TifThdh
身體傾後,躺了下來。677Please respect copyright.PENANAWPF6FND5Ln
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgHdsvxGOhV
「係諗住攤。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAHF29hZoTQt
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。677Please respect copyright.PENANAv3ekkYNXll
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。677Please respect copyright.PENANApwq82ALDFI
677Please respect copyright.PENANAj1sgOH9TwY
在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。677Please respect copyright.PENANAHNBtYgWSO3
677Please respect copyright.PENANAan17d33UVQ
露出鼻尖和微笑。677Please respect copyright.PENANAHAsty2C1m6
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyQzTNVNIyj
像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。677Please respect copyright.PENANApmINmpUvCh