於是,Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯,再買了一個蛋糕。回家,放進雪櫃,然後開始打機。820Please respect copyright.PENANArcHXSKp3EO
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。820Please respect copyright.PENANACcvmv7s4sO
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之後,她去旺角,等Matt;他們約六點半,她先到,不停地來回審視自己的臉容,到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝,再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分,Matt出現。820Please respect copyright.PENANA5ArZwY9FB6
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「好耐冇見。」820Please respect copyright.PENANA5wMSm2nND5
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「係。」820Please respect copyright.PENANARaAyb1uM8t
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接下來的不足兩小時,他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣,避之則吉,連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒,總和她對看一會兒然後移開。820Please respect copyright.PENANA1Br2hORebx
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沿路,她問了很多想知的事,還自己一個死心;他說了一些她應該想知的事,渾身不自在,忽然覺得很祼露。820Please respect copyright.PENANABrsd6bsAM1
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他們都覺得對方是陌生人。820Please respect copyright.PENANA6yXWw1Grzz
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但,他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。820Please respect copyright.PENANADUOKEXT5TU
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就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子,明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對,和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感,偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作;可是,當過了那短暫的時刻,就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏,沒有再一起,對方也不再重要,因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。820Please respect copyright.PENANAtdFb4I4kRN
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就像,一切都沒發生過一樣。820Please respect copyright.PENANAfzN8W5ouiA
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「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒,叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌?你係因為識咗佢,所以先想走?」820Please respect copyright.PENANAH20RsF6Sbg
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「我同你分手之前,只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素,但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」820Please respect copyright.PENANAi9IKtQrfpu
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青青變得咄咄逼人,Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢;她誓要剖家析族的知個明白,但他在說的時候卻感到難堪,偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭,防止眼淚掉下時,他又會感到心軟,如他所言:820Please respect copyright.PENANA0kEI13MLul
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「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」820Please respect copyright.PENANAUCwaqDCAcC
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但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」,只逕行,最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯,然後趕急地跳上的士離去。820Please respect copyright.PENANAhyL2yB7Rnd
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青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常,平時,她的眼神從來不兇狠,也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案,更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。820Please respect copyright.PENANAH0PIs5ELLL
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對。820Please respect copyright.PENANAFlWmpf6POf
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她有些不一樣了。820Please respect copyright.PENANA2Lr7gLbf81
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她傻就傻在,有些東西,她想知得很清楚,如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心;但知道以後又更揪心。820Please respect copyright.PENANAIHvN019YrG
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是她,將心掏出來,還將刀遞上去,留有一點卑微的盼望——820Please respect copyright.PENANA1BnldEzSmb
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希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心,留她一點尊嚴,不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來,說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果,被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴,真心愛人何有好的結果?真相是真,比真相是假可怕億萬倍。820Please respect copyright.PENANAmg5qR02kUj
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是她幼稚,不懂得原來,感情的真相是不可推敲的,只可瞞騙。820Please respect copyright.PENANA5UpvBZZcSr
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最後,青青輕輕地和Matt握手,像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生,迴光返照地笑說:820Please respect copyright.PENANAjWkxSUBaqe
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「祝你平安。前程萬里。」820Please respect copyright.PENANAF4mavuwWvs
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Matt有些錯愕地回握:820Please respect copyright.PENANA8C2JD2b288
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「你都係。」820Please respect copyright.PENANA7KXeCAxlM3
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沒走幾步,他大喊,她聽不清,停下;他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離:820Please respect copyright.PENANAmhKDRyfL0P
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「返到屋企同我講聲啦,注意安全。」820Please respect copyright.PENANAZn0ccENFEC
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她挑眉,對他不可置否地笑笑,大步挺身向前行,因為她清楚,他不是真心的。820Please respect copyright.PENANAURuZr7wmId
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行到轉角處,她突然覺得腳軟,隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱,她忽然覺得好悲傷,何有什麼落落大方的離別?她已死去一萬次。820Please respect copyright.PENANAjMmUc9KPia
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屌,失戀啫——820Please respect copyright.PENANAQAM4Bdo08n
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但是她不能再怎樣了,所以她行去乘車,到某個站下車,再行回家,感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。820Please respect copyright.PENANAbNRdEXqwXi
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好痛。820Please respect copyright.PENANAqlwh4l2jw4
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回阿樂住處之前,她先回原先的家,拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜,以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。820Please respect copyright.PENANAMKw85VW0lh
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今晚,她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。820Please respect copyright.PENANAHVWuCwKlv0
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在放過自己之前,首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。820Please respect copyright.PENANALOLo7aYceo
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夜晚十一點半,青青到達阿樂的屋,他替她開門,見她熱得臉紅紅。820Please respect copyright.PENANAZzGqrJXeAe
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「返嚟啦?食咗咩呀?」820Please respect copyright.PENANA3rx6Psnthu
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「Jollibee,但我嗰時冇乜胃口,宜家又有啲餓。」820Please respect copyright.PENANA3Nisz9A4YK
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青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水,感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走,後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃,一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在,就如此直直地客廳燈照耀,仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的,又立刻感到餓。820Please respect copyright.PENANAlC7ci6bhki
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「咁就啱啦!我買咗個蛋糕,今日仲未過,快啲吹咗蠟燭先!」820Please respect copyright.PENANAvW95xL0T5a
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阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕,寫着「青青生日快樂」,黑森林口味。820Please respect copyright.PENANAgt88AUakUB
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青青呆了好久,她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。820Please respect copyright.PENANAIr1cZOZKDM
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出外一整天,整個人都零散地歸家,無論他送不送蛋糕,只要他講一句:「返嚟啦?」其實對她來說,已是安慰,因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕,像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒,她就感動,非常感動。820Please respect copyright.PENANAA3YwawMnyt
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青青有些哽咽,但又開心地笑:820Please respect copyright.PENANAAoxOr1Pll9
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「哇、哇!竟然有蛋糕食。多謝!」820Please respect copyright.PENANADgy1G4ilse
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阿樂見她眼紅紅,大概猜到,無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛:820Please respect copyright.PENANAs3rFMNcrg4
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「快啲許願啦。」820Please respect copyright.PENANABGpA8hKI1w
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青青閉眼,吹熄蠟燭。820Please respect copyright.PENANAwMDo1BklFN
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「多謝多謝!不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食,出咗成日街好污糟。」820Please respect copyright.PENANApyYN8LQxg4
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她多在電腦磨一會兒,電話收到訊息,她打開一看,些許憤怒,絲毫不想回覆,然後將目光放在電腦上,打字打得極響。820Please respect copyright.PENANAa4fkw04gPp
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過後,就去洗澡,擦上身體磨砂,敷上香得要死的髮膜,然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨,一併沖掉。抹乾身體後,再搽上body lotion,換上內衣,外穿睡裙。820Please respect copyright.PENANAhph964Na8o
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她看着鏡子。820Please respect copyright.PENANAbGXwhxIK3K
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一直以來,她都有些猶豫,但她決定交給阿樂決定,如果今夜裏他主動吻她,他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己:820Please respect copyright.PENANAfJBF9lHRGA
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我都要證明,我有本事。820Please respect copyright.PENANAix3aod474w
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他在她的房間等她,心想:今日搞咩搞咁耐?平時好快就出嚟。820Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1XWkS9G2t
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他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼,他見她興致平平但不至頹喪,眼睛裏只有累的感覺。820Please respect copyright.PENANAmFK4B5AECS
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她出來,整個人都很香。820Please respect copyright.PENANA9l1tKZ9f4H
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阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒,把刀給青青切:820Please respect copyright.PENANA5jawBg0fUT
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「唔好切到底,如果唔係會嫁唔出。」820Please respect copyright.PENANAMe3uM2c1qA
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「你咁迷信咩?」820Please respect copyright.PENANAWrrqcqaM9R
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她又真的小心地切,提防切到底;她再見到這個蛋糕,還是覺得很感動,阿樂對她竟然這樣好,尤其是她傷心的時候。820Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3EuCIj9EU
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「寧可信其有。不過咁囉,如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出,我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」820Please respect copyright.PENANAyPx2aWqWxp
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阿樂笑笑,接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。820Please respect copyright.PENANAhOCSM7lRcY
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「吓話?」820Please respect copyright.PENANASFsPmbTLG3
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「講嚟聽吓啦,你哋今日做咗咩嚟?」820Please respect copyright.PENANA4PhrSxrzcm
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他們開始飲酒,開始說廢話,講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼;阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事,大概是:Matt因為Retake DSE而忙,青青和他很少見面,之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。820Please respect copyright.PENANAAF1YHY0Y8K
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慢慢,青青的臉通紅,頸也微微緋桃,呼吸輕輕加快,說了最近最多的話,情緒開始激動,但完全沒有前文後理,又突然加入一個新的女角:820Please respect copyright.PENANA1gYB2bQW66
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「佢——啫係我前男友,話俾我聽,個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後,就同佢一齊,但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知?我當時聽到個心好翳?820Please respect copyright.PENANAiqg9PUJlIL
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以前,我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢,我明。一開始拍拖,我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈,佢發現咗之後唔太開心,之後我就冇再咁做。820Please respect copyright.PENANAl7DIJALTkL
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後來,亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面,都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心,所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為,宜家呢?820Please respect copyright.PENANAEF7UOZFPG0
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佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢?我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊!但佢出去就咁樣?好心痛呀!820Please respect copyright.PENANA8g2JJI3lgB
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但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔,佢答我話:『我都好心痛㗎。』,你知唔知點解?我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺,覺得個心喺度燒。820Please respect copyright.PENANATeVnne5eYf
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我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好,我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈,至少喺我呢度,我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷,然後呢?佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人?並且仲要繼續同個女仔過?仲繼續鍾意佢?仲因為佢,所以唔要我……820Please respect copyright.PENANAngXAxQfvXV
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我好難受……820Please respect copyright.PENANAIpy7UhUK6j
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我真係有咁唔好咩……」820Please respect copyright.PENANAPGiegzcImn
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