於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmjXdEjYsN
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v7IGNdr0w
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpevxX0ughg
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「好耐冇見。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhg9xTdcy8
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡio4rxfvF9X
「係。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIwQtoYRy6
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1bWXuADd9
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDi0PIXizc
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXEQXFi9Nm
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczEfL4H9Ac
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29Bd7Lk15Y
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGjrarjkrf
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFutR2MDuH
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEzV1IzmIX
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLKST3KFJb
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3Pt9W3U3c
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbn8ntbZL7Z
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMpfECzjG4
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUluR6nEY3
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70ahVne5xc
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQ6thpe7fu
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxqgrhPFAs
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFtLe9aWao
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTwA8rszR2
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQjT3QYlaw
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPfrMjqxpd
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P8EIOjosX
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENRP8ypevq
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PizI8MNrq
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNU9iRUVT9
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對。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3HsxRLaBu
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxk5oan0TJ
她有些不一樣了。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOt0Wpf4yX
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHluO9ak1A
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cV7Ebe5KA
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVmZDTgABa
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AwsmHgQuS
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希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsH3ih0b7B
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVT1LdDffEa
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOZEoVVjES
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91nEFK5I7f
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Tci8S3hlv
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt5QwIFHpB
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYsgOEVTgo
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAznvtkUZx
Matt有些錯愕地回握：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiI0umODqE
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38jtKFYY8q
「你都係。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOfVpxc2B2
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKKVmlBmf4
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yfkViILQI
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「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxbg7PhVf5
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXrZaJF1SE
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWIpRiiNRu
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWu1v5JPMD
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCL4JXJ5Wb
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6S1NdoIlYM
屌，失戀啫——788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeIUnWPS0a
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagiiapsY0p
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ06VX0qxIV
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好痛。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5YK24mQlC
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKumYjcQlw
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNffIA4yoo
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg2ZnB68cZ
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWhqolKkEG
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9NdUCj5bz
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoAiuvgoDJ
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouFOhxTyNM
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQseB5j418
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzxw32amy6
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCNT7QePDT
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlTyA75bq6
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12aLRZi5CL
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOh1sfGlwdR
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「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RVgbdaopK
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCwIlswuV3
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVOQrN3jPt
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKkR9F367C
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJAXi5HiFc
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEsKJxpIIf
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23Lzf5ZMID
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgflmqipF1
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqmhb9IYCh
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx5jNLuiYM
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGAHmyv2AY
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmP4VKymVTF
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLgnci0HLZ
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「快啲許願啦。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTo0dCFUhYH
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmD7dihl5D
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ134IwjNb91
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAHetT0rS4
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBC9aYcrhKv
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezcEqJMyPG
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZ6xNYrcyh
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ftNPVghjw
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBKQ3zAhH8
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYbL8MXeLb
她看着鏡子。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5zH5I7wZO
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuPJuUAvxk
一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hylBgICJ6
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mrwlX9EZ7
我都要證明，我有本事。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZc944DFHI
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj7bK2t4hx
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfZFVMrsuE
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglj3cpRkKP
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjQLEiJlkb
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mRtFTRglp
她出來，整個人都很香。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPcuIApHUF
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCnlzPLDlE
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGAVCkaSHh
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjSLIJp7LA
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYALawFqRsy
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne9mCh9MXo
「你咁迷信咩？」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTp7zRjtDs
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzNg9Knjxg
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsYPjRUArn
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPi0DzOkIFV
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanvdU3HG98
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阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb34Ki4GuJJ
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6WABsJlnV
「吓話？」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AWkBQigEo
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「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiM01UKRPB
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzMX8upiVE
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8AtTMLzrU
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiZMLm4U9b
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhb9U1CZWiz
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgkFMFUdCY
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFhEyOv28A
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerdGL0XFNL
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFhD8CYYob
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後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhlH5hVsXY
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDM0gqfrx1
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vEWVE7k9M
788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKk4qMEd3V
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。788Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JO5Ba6Z3Z
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