於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxeAvl9tEa
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxLtjJr3Gh
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEfZO18iEb
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「好耐冇見。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysjj1qUeFN
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「係。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJGWyGJtsg
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQH2fTjJOM
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnWmBPzn2b
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyNDEiQT7y
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3luNlmsmj
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpdSklUQdy
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Vp1OPOeXP
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但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8H5wMZPLP
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxXAMXvw2V
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGw3xb9WID
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajn8Xhl630
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4lYX9FjVo
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9imgy84Sfq
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe3hTWk9TT
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Lgl6hosBv
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAHgEj6Xhh
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTo2h8yZJ5
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3PPTNbmKS
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSYo7KSJVK
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuMHxVj0Kp
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0FvweNCW0
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBp73Zvcnh
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAImEmkPLyE
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7bBLp0CIW
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對。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTQXMENTie
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她有些不一樣了。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVni7puVad
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LHgoS1P4V
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSwbdFvFnb
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是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPI7ZyHNiT
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOkM1YWf4P
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5tHf0rdHp
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgEXTUcKiE
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UFAfc6gOK
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqXFZbCsz7
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdRv4Q3oB5
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmDm1nwlo2
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIXpcgxrZq
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Matt有些錯愕地回握：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRuvyA3BP4
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「你都係。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98KujXfXiE
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沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LHv1IFmkh
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHVWXgQyRJ
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDFQVxNkkL
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CW1T42Ytu
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMaE3CAMTr
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行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl29O2BxQfs
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屌，失戀啫——709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Uv34jjVMN
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但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjKhQnp4MH
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好痛。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFLJfgxqtl
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPH69znLEf
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JE3SwBzLr
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSxWncF4k4
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwQv0miO3B
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在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylA4Yc8HpB
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyChe9xBIy
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「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk0oX4YbQC
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevjnNRjEgs
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOgGhxxHXn
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPL6BnSILbQ
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6T8vhw5Dj
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoQkQRpSYm
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7nUESoFrp
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKpXrHeURF
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriKvpzPSv3
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaCNp7Oxcj
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVWvRHsJtd
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVGEQIsGPL
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcZjNDrk97
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpou1mWvMM
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjhTPNLnUw
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNhnb552Lk
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cK0sb0Otr
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTgbj8i3u7
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZX09Y0sON
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgqN9wG00R
「快啲許願啦。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNsmw3veyU
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqA0sX2JDHl
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPttXtPych
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW864jtwsni
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh3WbMCwbC
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlvbJdMymr
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfzpEyEiQg
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF37nyZNAbf
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkcywTQyRy
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPXQJz1QbE
她看着鏡子。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxITKAUsik
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一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYxpoN0oiz
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF7BVRkLH1
我都要證明，我有本事。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFEbxkSPiI
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvFPxNEhxk
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpRgwFdz02
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMosGEDpgvt
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvP7cLRTxE
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kVI6lJ2BY
她出來，整個人都很香。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3JQoNOKSc
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffulOGxC0z
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFoYoOXTC6
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fr71hPgJ2
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3aBOla8zx
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBuuqa7ylg
「你咁迷信咩？」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLNHHf6gIq
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她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLg2nRS9IeH
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZH6W4Ixe6
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUL6QViJbxM
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBElM2hkdiK
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxbzkNB3k6
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b0Z4W03Uy
「吓話？」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmkc6tPefq
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiGHEYZRUn
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfw07W8MWy
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HOJWD8hBX
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fHfMrMaKp
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjireY2STr
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKgLVuMmcl
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3mEccB9Ne
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2VaHLQQpo
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTgTD28wMl
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFYQ5hO9jC
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後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SvBePcDZp
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlY0ndeNHM
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF52J0qJVm1
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBFtN17dBO
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUirHJPqUta
709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunKsxdIEcx
我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……709Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgniVLyktyO
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