It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkDtTnY7mz
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KlQJyNT5F
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEaseVap4z
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNKIrGEo1z
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sfqjp9GYu
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjR4hPW7YBT
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObha7cVnja
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqTzbiN5m5
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Oh, well. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwD3lE3EdGE
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2rpk0Vihj
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpu5jnOxpy
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQE5zR5HDTi
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJH9tD9VaH
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pzx7zXZB0
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOGgfP3uPK
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmWh0tqILY
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5mOGkBRHf
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tK3eCgkqO
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"I—"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2eMLddboq
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"But—"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YBVHUPSwu
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"You—"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2yea3hQOj
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydzgxjhDPE
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I shut up.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygZRDs8ZCA
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi4upa5gTt
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3c5xraSAT
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDspZlNfkAF
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvd1bGfqx6j
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I hear him laugh through the phone.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbIC1X1EZp
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"By, Leah."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z5R6wQ2yr
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"Bye."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PChkEQkX3
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMdUD9oltt
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgK7RqC4BYN
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGKcrdOO78
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYWjV6vut7
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInETtSS2gc
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaSIc3zLwq
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iH5HhwMrh
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo87Io5lMom
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Well that's an odd offer. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOSgqN2xOs
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kHVwCGHR8
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkbVGtOiW7
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HQiJMMmUK
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMynr0ErBg
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"So do I."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DZ4v57z33
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkm5HWkWC8
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJuLi5H40C
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeorIKhCsLA
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"I'm a graphic designer."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ5lipETU7
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Well I wasn't expecting that.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2o0sEWvlB
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWlspeRIwz
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That's more like it.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx45z9QOG2D
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZ95vvDinj
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67z2efPRir
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"Okay. Bye."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCqHr9H73L
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTVWJdNugR
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtUwTyMLcR
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5udRomiNIH
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6P0wiSvxv
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlWSPOSlmc
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"Hello. My name is Henry."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsohWhKCcya
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People in the crowd say their greetings.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZmzy4DEQl
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj69HmZ8xYO
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He clears his voice, then begins.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTChe818e2
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"Have you ever been in love?530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXZP5Y9whc
Had your soul so deeply entwined530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuBoq8Vske
With another's530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dzByGaA6k
That you cannot figure where yours ends530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡED6LEjjEwG
And theirs begins?530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe96Y2HBvyP
So madly and deeply in love530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH1cOMfyWs
That that person's heart beats with yours;530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHGZAEnGnx
Just looking at them is blinding; 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqtbjh1wEI
It's like staring at a supernova 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSaTkoGPcZ
But you do it anyway530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DnFDUOy3p
Because when she's there530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW2et7AAf5
Logic and Reason die."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHipQBqZdj
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMbnWv1pS1
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"Now imagine what it feels like 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe7UyXpLn9
To have that person530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOCNFCm6v0
Ripped 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRyOmi2Chj
From your life;530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBB9vupYYSN
Torn away from you.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcBrGKoKt6
You can't breathe. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLm9GBfjGp
You're dead, yet you aren't,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHJltRkSDI
You still 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeENQXJBnmi
Walk530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VkmPpWbku
Talk530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKFHZwDZme
Interact 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5KOdgU9ke
With the people around you,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpob7VFpM1
But on the on the inside, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiI8dP4p6U
You're hollow;530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjqZtfFXcY
Dead."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDyi8tGBLz
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGQBfFItn2
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"It's been ten years,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwFutmdM39
My love, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKC33iOttk
And every day, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNaNN0m7c6
Every hour, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXMckjjwoS
Every second without you 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV556vqDzUL
Feels like 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPugM2jLoX1
Torture."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOP33Cynoo
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXNcJDYWxi
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"I would ask for 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ocZoDbRwL
Forgiveness,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vaExVxZU4
But I can see that you've... 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4THM5SWt5
Moved on, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwQQ3nsgRR
And found happiness elsewhere. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEi2wAgepGg
And I have to live530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfzBAsvu2b
With the consequences 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1KrOcqrhw
Of my stupid actions 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnxN0aXgh1
For the rest of my life. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2sPlNxUs5
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Torture, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOaPMPFUEz
This 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMT9qOS2kp7
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Because I have never stopped,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBObNMtsBH5
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You,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV7rzQjgj5
And I don't think I ever will."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9Hh1O3q3V
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqkxEXJg4Y
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5GmlvSqvh
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0q6Df5iu9
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQcUHfZzeb
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDwaHdIVJh
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7a8jQ7uiBH
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsg26yV1WfV
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQwLprHSI4
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls0RrZaPgj
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pYmxGO0vD
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He doesn't look convinced.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvH07tkfeo9
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv5AW5bYgN
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTkJ0QFKMI
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTh1UKDShat
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyJcnBOSr7
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTRTZbFJIP
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTcCVOUS8L
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I'm hyperventilating.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVPwUm2cYt
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOU2KJzsNt
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyRfTd19az
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiCdcOfzZP
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNCSMQKNwG
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPwVyTTlbN
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"He died."
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