It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjqKnYKmqJ
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtnxsmMpma
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp7DgCaOuA
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAM8Urev3n
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeBBCb18Vl
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8tNVrnMTR
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuqDWq1r9h
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXX03gXCfC
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Oh, well. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6alcGThgIK
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCDpSSFXZV
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXnTKu5T8l
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvwz8lcWy2
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPg2T6C7kzj
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMjMM0NOz4
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItZ9p3AtSC
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlImtCSIDUP
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItf4CJTANE
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvYxVbf5dh
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"I—"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0ASIUBlZr
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"But—"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV1InW7HI4
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"You—"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9zYN0lPj4
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKBJa8m0xk
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I shut up.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9xOi0Lqil
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbozPvJ4YI
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jAv2Vhqts
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu4W7N7BW7
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tBYyH80Zo
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I hear him laugh through the phone.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynzBYEbn8o
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"By, Leah."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVTpD5N9xA
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"Bye."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlbOjMEXz5
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGP6DNTcd2
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSv1XgOnrB
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIHfbjcF6S
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxuW4qzMmj
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOFL5Q8tAL
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimQwGGwiDq
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI4gJpAWwe
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Nu1vj5wd1
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Well that's an odd offer. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbeMhDiWq5
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYbpWD2d1K
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXNi2gf8Yl
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVB45dTXpdu
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8mIbuHF6s
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"So do I."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ95Qb5X4o
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvuxBVJTkw
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6iMHKHeEV
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hOuwODtzc
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"I'm a graphic designer."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6KAJ2J3cV
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Well I wasn't expecting that.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iDWvQ4UuF
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgMo7eC4L0
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That's more like it.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡut3yMXULY9
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiX7nYusSt
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAviPCx56m
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"Okay. Bye."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW930nzTrew
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t9ruBG2px
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxuhQR02gg
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFlhf7pGYo
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEyYGryoOj
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4HCdeZrq1
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"Hello. My name is Henry."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVkVLAugDa
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People in the crowd say their greetings.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgmDDLGnGB
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zMbvjadFk
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He clears his voice, then begins.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6feEvcNyV
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"Have you ever been in love?558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk9mT29Ung
Had your soul so deeply entwined558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtsnHsxj0g
With another's558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKx121H0r3Y
That you cannot figure where yours ends558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgdZ0DvTKA
And theirs begins?558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeN9YBK1iXH
So madly and deeply in love558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV3CLfSFFd
That that person's heart beats with yours;558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqq5LZBtBN
Just looking at them is blinding; 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPr5Lc8qkJ
It's like staring at a supernova 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8oD1YCIw1
But you do it anyway558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0xjS6hkmA
Because when she's there558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtz5yaCm9zf
Logic and Reason die."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSGxC3oi6Y
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ080NSB1kiT
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"Now imagine what it feels like 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9RQkbYGAy
To have that person558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwunyEVEU4j
Ripped 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWdrgkoUU4
From your life;558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxPaDGKDNt
Torn away from you.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qMcL1aWjS
You can't breathe. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dQZjbN8nV
You're dead, yet you aren't,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoRg0tMW1v
You still 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboPAdeZyKK
Walk558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStKdbBzAPz
Talk558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHi4Ftkht8L
Interact 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneX1m1qoCd
With the people around you,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51hdJGDAzk
But on the on the inside, 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0VdAigAtU
You're hollow;558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPugR6hWNuy
Dead."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrvuo1nG26
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFn1OUmrv6
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"It's been ten years,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ569IvJ2Rl8
My love, 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCtKHRH8h0
And every day, 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsgpF7cqsL
Every hour, 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkVLzKRlu6
Every second without you 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjos8TBZKF2
Feels like 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMISjEEe1O
Torture."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBH9ldVIBjW
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHPFSW2br0
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"I would ask for 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKKvark7NB
Forgiveness,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqmsown4uc
But I can see that you've... 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYbOZVsCD2
Moved on, 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjHSxtfmhl
And found happiness elsewhere. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoBKKi2NaP
And I have to live558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTfHMZ2pXG
With the consequences 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Oaq1vVzqT
Of my stupid actions 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq0ssvRrxl
For the rest of my life. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbSRMDnzoa
I have to live with this 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZDccfFwq7
Torture, 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93PvajtokK
This 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6h3B53KdXj
Pain,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuf9E9b1EU1
Because I have never stopped,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0ftl2C8pe
Loving 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡus58Oh6XJs
You,558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOx4mYvmRo
And I don't think I ever will."558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHo7njM7ZCL
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrt9hPye5od
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D4jsueHFf
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAvm1BS0jP
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0prZczwEA
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYDRItHCH8
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4N3dYYtko
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD09LkxiQo8
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27b7ARKONA
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DRQaPFpoe
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRio6yAPQ5
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He doesn't look convinced.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUeZBi5NDA
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTONVHg7zu
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtyG3GZXVc
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPGiOMlrTv
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5nJWcBZmU
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoP8ylvq8bB
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctcAAceOjf
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I'm hyperventilating.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWUMY6r5dV
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAn5dqOuht
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16YBxnKrZJ
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEVyM2PYQe
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdv3SNlEqVE
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ259Fi5NNkp
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"He died."
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