It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLrxkbYesS
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQVCjgeriV
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1tUCc30Do
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYkyFHhgmu
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W26iTgIdO
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6Fn9TmOLZ
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe58Kdhn8my
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIoKh2UdH4
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Oh, well. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXviW0GkJB2
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76ZTbfz56L
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcYLw3nEuX
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpWnGHCo5c
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk09X5MLCly
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqJzkDxvuk
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuRGuHPMxd
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26yDbKEdBh
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhmfQGxSxM
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkyfF4ty4m
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"I—"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznWSQLg86W
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"But—"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahYApvD7gl
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"You—"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnNLypDWXY
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWOHsChrm9
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I shut up.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiRsYupOhy
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpinEwO6A3s
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWnrtoNoAk
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MvFbdHYEE
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74oJUMSEqk
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I hear him laugh through the phone.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD6SxJ2Urk
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"By, Leah."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OL8YLahBu
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"Bye."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDSj9xmp4m
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2eR44QNzz
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JkE2BaJ3W
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4EOtVQEIR
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuRQQeZSLO
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAqFufv8pR
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeIwtJno77
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolDqQt9SaF
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F9zeUdAsX
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Well that's an odd offer. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WYcyIpJm6
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJFdWofa9f
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXATos1wKBY
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLULNvwHon
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepbUK4CcRl
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"So do I."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUE5G6fslR
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyf4JJsW8YC
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKwJJG85Us
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20UIG3ELmr
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"I'm a graphic designer."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM9K5iumL9
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Well I wasn't expecting that.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnE4XtnydI
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMEyz1awpJ
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That's more like it.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4Xk1Jkd3f
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUyAoRTbPZ
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnmdNvqe0D
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"Okay. Bye."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJYzqb9BOA
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuGwIqZEK3
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA0jQc5YNm
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnILL2pwvmW
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVmE0iUzhx
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJCOQ7Ulbv
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"Hello. My name is Henry."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FmDp9Bk9d
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People in the crowd say their greetings.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqibom2OANR
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6dwm5BKDw
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He clears his voice, then begins.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnVMXOZMwp
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"Have you ever been in love?474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVO7QlHzXWM
Had your soul so deeply entwined474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81TAScIUfU
With another's474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMgLs6XSy1
That you cannot figure where yours ends474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffXXNUPp2B
And theirs begins?474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbhKfsgZWp
So madly and deeply in love474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrAn96LWe9
That that person's heart beats with yours;474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nUY9cPSsn
Just looking at them is blinding; 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDEkRuRSe2
It's like staring at a supernova 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkcNchKFcK
But you do it anyway474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rrFIeTCwT
Because when she's there474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXihurOFl3
Logic and Reason die."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7y49npfdR
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzMrwvQReq
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"Now imagine what it feels like 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJbFGkKtz0
To have that person474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8NQmL5sAO
Ripped 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W9t1mms1N
From your life;474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQWc2WvUxe
Torn away from you.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ6ixFDIVG
You can't breathe. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXGmR2TTBx
You're dead, yet you aren't,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4h4HjWWkO
You still 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9MbnI9AA3
Walk474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNk0Gcw1FSx
Talk474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgxwnc2a6g
Interact 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa3DL5wVh1
With the people around you,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShoZb66mxP
But on the on the inside, 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYSukY0mLX
You're hollow;474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdVKkckZZD
Dead."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdM2jWRfxq
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC26nLZXFYU
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"It's been ten years,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0Tmwb9gIn
My love, 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR8Rdi7JLU
And every day, 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3aRntHmx5
Every hour, 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZQXEVWORg
Every second without you 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNbjTMACnl
Feels like 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0SRd7NDGE
Torture."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPlbVqomYt
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRtY1qBLcl
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"I would ask for 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHBQh9dD5W
Forgiveness,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhlohng67U
But I can see that you've... 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5IUNw62ds
Moved on, 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkrd8rzviF
And found happiness elsewhere. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPQKiwhtOr
And I have to live474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyFDTGFPy2
With the consequences 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvA1MYnxyr
Of my stupid actions 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGPc1N4gfD
For the rest of my life. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2lPHH5Wdp
I have to live with this 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJdLpdU7qt
Torture, 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriXGFIV9st
This 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9SMv5UI5l
Pain,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeIuVTUVnl
Because I have never stopped,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8glyGaCHMV
Loving 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA8PJudDwa
You,474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TxRDokr0X
And I don't think I ever will."474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlgq25a4Om
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhACDbjCUJ
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmHe6bzDzw
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwT7YTe6kx
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfekL9yUAob
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PttuYqsKd
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHAlKqT0ri
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwXe76Zoyc
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyQxYs0EjJ
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDkCxySmAl
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotSlRUrU3m
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He doesn't look convinced.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpxTJfZP5U
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Oag0vF0EH
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXN5xOZCJj
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh6iQ3djHW
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvKQnFVmsl
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGV5LLgOQOk
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4RzEWqGjj
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I'm hyperventilating.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCBCutmms1
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhPGQewJWs
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhXvgEf7ji
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsjbPZid9i
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1Q1G4tq4Z
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGguIj5Xyft
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"He died."
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