It's been forever (actually it's only been six weeks) but finally, my stitches have healed, and now I'm all set to learn how to body board from David, if you catch my drift.518Please respect copyright.PENANANRIHMraSkn
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I've never fùcked in the sea before, but as long as the water isn't too salty, and the sand settles at the bottom so that I'm not birthing sand for days, I think I'll be fine. 518Please respect copyright.PENANA3TdqZy9qWc
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"You sure you'll be okay to swim?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAKWfbHhsDKs
David asks me in an uncertain voice, hauling a suitcase behind him and a duffle bag over his shoulder; he's refusing to let me carry anything, even though I've insisted repeatedly that I can carry a bag on my own.518Please respect copyright.PENANAp8ejOwQzCc
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Oh, I'm planning on much more than that, honey.518Please respect copyright.PENANAQyDyq3waNd
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"Yes, I'll be fine."518Please respect copyright.PENANAaKDT3zL35I
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Still looking uncertain, he goes into the kitchen to make himself a cup of coffee before we leave.518Please respect copyright.PENANAMeiDmIvlOY
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If he keeps this attitude up, I'm fùcked; if he has reservations about me swimming, how would he feel about me fucking?518Please respect copyright.PENANAjCWsZBiJFC
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He'll be completely against it. He'll probably even laugh at me.518Please respect copyright.PENANAH5hSrVPWl4
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With my head held straight, I walk into the kitchen behind him, pretending that nothing is wrong; I really don't want him questioning me right now.518Please respect copyright.PENANAnjaCts66Ql
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Instead of focusing on my dismal thoughts, I look up at the refrigerator in front of me, and look at the small magnets decorating it, look at the pictures of him... and a few of his sister.518Please respect copyright.PENANALKkdMsUB5t
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"How do you do it?" I ask quickly, before he can say anything to me.518Please respect copyright.PENANAujguosPDXo
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"Do what?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAjJLEZrYY4s
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"Look at her every day, but know that you'll never be able to see her again?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAOLb8X8Vthi
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I ask him this, because I know that it can't be pain free for him; I watched him cry over his sister the morning after we slept together for the first time. He did so openly in front of me.518Please respect copyright.PENANAkQDopNL6KV
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He bites his lip and looks down, and for a second, I wonder if I've overstepped my mark.518Please respect copyright.PENANAaQcR5mDEEq
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"I mean—"518Please respect copyright.PENANAFI2UVxFg18
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"Because I love her. Eventually, I've reached this point of acceptance, where it still hurts... but it isn't unbearable anymore. I can look, I can remember how happy I was with her, I can smile, I can laugh, I can even cry, and darkness won't consume me. That's what I want for you. So when you reach there, you can put their pictures right there, too," he finished, smiling at me, pointing at the fridge.518Please respect copyright.PENANAkANnAn4ozn
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Well, I never intended to have such a deep conversation this early in the morning, and these thoughts are already beginning to bum me the fuck out.518Please respect copyright.PENANA1zEXXdh28P
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"Thanks. Let's go," I say, with a neutral expression, and walk off, hoping that he realises that it's best not to say anything else.518Please respect copyright.PENANAhS77KVyy1T
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We exit the house and as he locks up, I force myself to think about other things. I go back to thinking about sex, but instead of moping about David's reluctance, I decide to devise a plan.518Please respect copyright.PENANAqNEuT1Bsdb
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How am I going to get David to fuck me?518Please respect copyright.PENANAVIPFG15fwb
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Even after thinking about this for over an hour straight, looking out the window of the moving car, I'm still blank.518Please respect copyright.PENANA0Ve3w4BeqF
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"What are you thinking about?" he asks; I turn to look at him, and he is stealing glances at me as he watches the road.518Please respect copyright.PENANAce2zaBHdHA
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"Beaches," I answer smoothly, and it isn't a complete lie; I was thinking about convincing David that sex on a beach was a good idea... and how good it would feel when he'd finally agree.518Please respect copyright.PENANA2KLpgODMRH
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"Really? So why are your pupils so dilated?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAkC5Mvs6PsV
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"I was looking outside the window into the sun, then I turned to look at you in the shade of a car. Yes, my pupils are going to be dilated. I'm not a psychotic nympho, you know," I joke. I'm surprised that my answers are so on point.518Please respect copyright.PENANAKdMPYm5Th3
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"Makes sense," David states, sounding amused, but I know that he doesn't buy it.518Please respect copyright.PENANA3ftOi3HGwZ
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We drive in silence for a few minutes before he interrupts my train of thought yet again.518Please respect copyright.PENANAlUfBMvLd62
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"Leah?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAjk0S3bt6T4
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"Yeah?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAIGceAlqVPB
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"Careful what you wish for."518Please respect copyright.PENANAZymYo6AaiC
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His words leave me thinking only one thing:518Please respect copyright.PENANAxCAvgdqezu
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How the fuck does he do that?518Please respect copyright.PENANA3seATtcRme
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"Wake up, baby," I hear a familiar voice say to me.518Please respect copyright.PENANAIgpZO2XMHm
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I open my eyes, and I'm met with his brown ones inches from mine.518Please respect copyright.PENANAuCiQaWIqJ4
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"Are we here?"518Please respect copyright.PENANADCfAbEunRv
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"Yep," he replies; just as the word leaves his mouth, the scent of salt rushes up my nose, followed by the sound of waves crashing against what I'm presuming is the seashore.518Please respect copyright.PENANAGSXXjdfIpi
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By now, it's probably just past midday since we left early and didn't stop on our drive across the island; this is Jamaica. It takes less than four hours to cross the country, and less than eight hours to circle it. By car, that is. Despite how tiny it is, there's always something else to explore, another new place that you've never seen, but you'll always want to return to.518Please respect copyright.PENANAwP90ZaiWa1
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This house feels like it will be one of those places.518Please respect copyright.PENANAAY9QT9Mg9X
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I unbuckle my seatbelt and shut the car door, following him after he locks the car, and when the house comes into view, I gasp.518Please respect copyright.PENANAOCJuBRG890
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It's not the size of the house that baffles me — although it is large for one person, and I'm only seeing the back — it's the fact that the house is made of stone, giving it a medieval vibe.518Please respect copyright.PENANAFGhbdp14rF
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Maybe, he has a dungeon, and he can tie me up, and—518Please respect copyright.PENANAc0mozzNxRm
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Shut up, Leah.518Please respect copyright.PENANA61edIs0IzV
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"Come," he says, walking toward the house.518Please respect copyright.PENANAINwStZQxBs
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Oh, I want to.518Please respect copyright.PENANAFA0LGt9TaE
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I follow him to the front and see a veranda with two rocking chairs and a boulder table, leading into the house.518Please respect copyright.PENANAUkhJqQtiKO
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Inside of the house is, well, quite... cozy.518Please respect copyright.PENANAKcT29I3yh3
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The lounge has two couches with a woven mat and a flat screen television on the stone wall, with a bathroom in the hallway between the lounge and the kitchen.518Please respect copyright.PENANAAIMylXYZTk
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The dining room is right behind the lounge; they kind of just blend into one another. The dining table is long and made of a dark, smooth wood, and has eight chairs, all with red cushions at the seats. The chairs at either end of the table have arm rests, while the others do not.518Please respect copyright.PENANAxL68C3byHU
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The kitchen is average sized, with a fridge and freezer separate from one another up against the wall, the stove in one corner, the sink and then a big cabinet to house the appliances on the other side of the kitchen.518Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZH2GJ04O3
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I caught sight of a few items — a toaster, a microwave, a kettle — but David dragged me out before I could get a better look.518Please respect copyright.PENANAqTeCIL95Xp
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The laundry room has two huge basins, a washing machine, various cleaners, buckets, and brooms and mops.518Please respect copyright.PENANAdeFqQYmorp
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Another thing that I love — there's a clothes line on the opposite side of the house — the side that I didn't see originally. I personally prefer clothes lines over dryers. Call me cheap, I just think that the sun does it better. Yes, it's inconvenient when it rains any your clothes get wet all over again, but that isn't usually the case.518Please respect copyright.PENANApiUqNxoKnK
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Upstairs, the house has three bedrooms — I don't know why the hell a single man would need a three bedroom beach house in the country — and each one has an en suite bathroom; each one has a window that opens with a view to the Caribbean Sea.518Please respect copyright.PENANAfYAmzOipSm
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His bedroom is the same size as the others; the only major difference that I can see is that his bed is bigger.518Please respect copyright.PENANABKp43fpn0b
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The bed head is made of wood; it has to large columns on either side, with intricate carvings on it. They're at the foot of the bed, as well.518Please respect copyright.PENANAaVvpMeNP8A
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Maybe, he could tie me to them and—518Please respect copyright.PENANAuHPGEix2We
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Leah. 518Please respect copyright.PENANAGrusC9UGOm
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Shut. 518Please respect copyright.PENANAUwAxGBdxur
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Up. 518Please respect copyright.PENANAjOdaQA8hEG
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Now.518Please respect copyright.PENANAYSjuEY0qUc
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"You're so quiet. What's on your mind?"518Please respect copyright.PENANADqoiAz7PQ3
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"Stuff," I answer him shortly, going to sit on the bed, the sexual frustration getting to me.518Please respect copyright.PENANABtYP6IYX4Q
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I came prepared; I brought condoms — Durex this time — as well as my horny ass clít and vagina, attached to my horny ass self.518Please respect copyright.PENANAWkXaSJ25sY
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The only problem now is that I don't know how to get him on board with this.518Please respect copyright.PENANAvH5gh8EKyT
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He raises his eyebrow, as if he knows that I'm horny.518Please respect copyright.PENANAnw1UOac5Pw
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And I'm sure he does.518Please respect copyright.PENANALFVELdzRN6
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It's as if every time I get turned on, I unintentionally send some message to him via telepathy. 518Please respect copyright.PENANAeB4VHQBNC8
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"Okay. Well, you just stay there and continue to think about your "stuff". I'm going to shower. We're having guests over."518Please respect copyright.PENANAGkFq5RbG8x
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"What?" I ask with a frown. It was supposed to be just us.518Please respect copyright.PENANAun48vJtgS6
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"Two of my friends are coming over for dinner, and before you start bitching about how much you don't want to see them, when is the last time you properly socialised with another human being?"518Please respect copyright.PENANAy2ucE07loD
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"I do it with Marcus all the time!"518Please respect copyright.PENANAPcCUuKWjRG
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"That doesn't count. He's your agent. Socialising with him is crucial to your business relationship."518Please respect copyright.PENANATc1i2wKPMj
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"I've slept over at his house when my house was flooded."518Please respect copyright.PENANAoTocd5MD1z
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"You had no choice; it was that, or wake up to a gully for an apartment, and lets face it, no one wants to do that."518Please respect copyright.PENANA0V59W5c3Tx
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I hate how he keeps coming up with these smart ass remarks, bouncing back so easily.518Please respect copyright.PENANA8TNsnjAevx
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But the truth is that he's right. I don't socialise enough.518Please respect copyright.PENANA05xycQ69gb
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"Fine."518Please respect copyright.PENANAqv7T5Zhqz9
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"You didn't have a choice," he replies, going into the bathroom and closing the door behind him.518Please respect copyright.PENANAjVsJ6tDxNe
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I let out a sigh as I watch him walk into the bathroom alone. I want to follow him in there so badly. Under ideal circumstances, that's what I would do.518Please respect copyright.PENANAZMsd5UWduo
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But right now? Right now, he's treating me like a fucking figurine, and I hate it.518Please respect copyright.PENANAzViKgEJoPq
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What am I going to do? I can't live like this anymore. I have to act.518Please respect copyright.PENANAofF2yfe4oy
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Don't do anything stupid. Don't embarrass yourself.518Please respect copyright.PENANATpvf23yTa7
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I lie down on the bed and squeeze my eyes shut, opening them again.518Please respect copyright.PENANAMdDfr9WWfD
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"Fuck," I curse at the ceiling, still having no idea of how to deal with my issue.518Please respect copyright.PENANAK5e4B0Yfj4
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This is going to be one long weekend.
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