夢醒來了。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkbwEBkECu
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不論是昨天的那個。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyy6z4h70N
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbi5wYsZzO
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早上８時。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW2oNoJWxp
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8Sp8j83cH
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAeYtwZrDU
我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyqS3D6VHX
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2kw3voBFu
「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXYbZnUNwe
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直接拔電！1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7a8ohYl9p
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKlO8tfhb5
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXIrldTF7C
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapH2fJROro
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBollghdGeI
明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vKlWiPAMX
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAseCraVJJ
我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa8967aQ6u
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdjcOpeKRU
…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOV3YyRB8k
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyadnqHFta
我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI251jJ0UJW
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB8ZaAWXSb
妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLp6U4YnYy
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBFzMdoV9k
感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwSJEM6MYQ
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親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbn18Ez2Xx
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX2UBX8E56
不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnZgHEH61O
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGz4f5E8M37
再炒一隻蛋。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwcaR5dHHd
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJt5BVVHk8
「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcwQGRJK66
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ssaJ5kMJt
「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUbaYneb4U
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHPbNB9bzK
「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQCHHIK5zQ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7zd97l8yy
再再炒一隻蛋好了。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiq2epquDx
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQZWP0T9AK
把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGJu4bro6P
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mOnEt98LR
……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡck3Yt7oW65
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRfKzlhF9D
這是冷清。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2tTW43CtB
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBkATdq4Hw
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6nohzlSwz
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kV3W1Lbr9
牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEvHSu54cu
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVwNL5bCpG
相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSyI5kOzjr
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…甚麼也沒有。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86JrEoG9xT
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1dXuJiGSi
這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJBvF7q2D7
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5AEVdM64G
正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLaXU5K1GI
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eMyqPCQ3E
不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZrRnivez6
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRXnujEUPv
爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewoxtK7HlP
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHMrZhbwXR
明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAVgOQfwH7
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFr4M2Sb4Z
「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CATaBFjen
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEQRGRsS3X
「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIo6wQdTIV
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M6hpIYa8p
「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn7LryLhNU
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNjXgPtlBP
「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79gjiJdeSd
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuszkJFIT1
我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCd50ae2XH
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNve09ViSRj
「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTzYzM86m1
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhTDSSlL2O
字句中，滲透著落寞。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkd34vSaL2v
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi62EHSMN43
剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRG9fvBx4F
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zc0LQYwIv
回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyRW4Y1g4o
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoUOGgmPDB
…叫我心痛。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1HjLK1h7a
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAMh8PhjIu
「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjiUVypKx6
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNl56hKMtw
妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNszxvgzO1
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA41vz7rTb
「易整。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8KhTV2qVj
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAZXJz34fT
我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWpW66Fo81
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19HEgHPY4F
妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。
終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZTPAjjRor
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1TMMZQqGS
「……」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSfmQsbdHD
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnzWl51Jzq
「……」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHYN6FHjwc
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我們都不願打破這寧靜。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzvPFiSNxl
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuUrrFUDmf
我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf44dvMRXtO
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw3ZgdygLE
—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmLMBL0cAH
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyaEhmDe8e
她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInGbnK4OBB
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbfag2VYrA
老天，我做了甚麼。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyJEfXgXNq
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxRpPLJn0f
感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwFhehCJco
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm9ZMtG7Tb
「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRgGybTQYM
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4eVEy7tbB
「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iGsGN1qSM
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y0BlvIwov
「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzovpJkTrIn
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblmZO4egun
「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1djgb8boMa
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRHjaDKM5M
「抖下先？」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKy1fXXjTC
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNv9Xp5dRDw
「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRXquxt33O
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnsY5M6mh3
她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Pkw3Wg0sO
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHRd9PUtP4
「你會搵到既。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynWuUky65B
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6DmRcrx0J
「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lX53EKJkG
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eB7Iz8LJc
「……」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFXzYVc81i
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7X5CQTBpW
「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDBlxCb7rw
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMwvXCRiqg
妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjlyqOi2zQ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCVrdDDoPO
她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOPPqiwiy6
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ0coA0Z5V
「…對唔住。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUZrUhm7aJ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7G10KCMIE6
她先是默靜了片刻。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUjzfFbHpk
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQAHBJx5yU
「點解要道歉？」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jWywjElLN
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvu89vd37a
我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHMYjdQCJz
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWEa5EgkIz
她嘴角揚起。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysUPbBSMju
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「…但係。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0Ditu7qR2
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她嘴角塌下。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5JdNFm0dM
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bYuSZfEL0
「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHEsK0FpqU
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WLAfDF83Q
「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvq62r6MJKv
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那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeagPmkxxv6
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz50tX9knfY
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPd0fchrJl
發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJ7EhgpP9B
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWadNcyqzoJ
「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6dGSdZY3W
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuEdM7G2P9
…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWMV6iEWgV
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijtUjmObbE
「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hFnBtIUIw
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYX4y4f4YWJ
「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2t0qAPbXn
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「……」我無言以對。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡji3hh7j8Oj
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscASjV3CO6
「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueChKBSPYR
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkItVqQWa0b
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN53mVjv7kn
「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeyRfQv62j
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMP1ZW5N1VR
由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA8KzS85IY
「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nEpEzmH7R
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxdjLP6B6B
不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtMgdXaJyi
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oCD0J7yUf
錯的只是我罷了。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPJxlkrImm
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19G6u9esh0
我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGZhurQ8B8
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsCXmN0saR
「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oiOGdImWj
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvYTm0mZbg
一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG19mDoE1I
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E2yaHpz8c
老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZ3YS0ISQr
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FSKdTz6Rl
我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M4VQpF65i
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRyUeMQOqL
這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzX5OikXCZD
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2Yu9On2Ga
面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaroxjSJace
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未讀訊息：７1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7vbMt4dwZ
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24TrqniyHZ
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1e8cf8izO
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOgBiUzzS4
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvxke3AeCI
我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbg4PMV4O1Y
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[OK] Beta1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJxUEBiZP2
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkLJyfB97Y
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LqgrLPXDx
加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtBSS3A6eR
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXTiiI5hQM
鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7Ux8Goe6K
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa7DrLUAS3
「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j4Jepy6OP
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJoc2luviT
平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoOpwIaFv5
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjiahNRn4e
不，好似不對勁？1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCjhL7jGuU
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL52satLGu
「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwGZnZ07nJ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGZCJWCTJ4
和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3zPYXxwaZ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwuR6AfpJx
「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr6RinKfUe
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiODAIKLVz
「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqQeeefbwb
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但我可能是。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1HF5Wczx5
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlN4QdaPP6
「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsO6eFnbCP
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixKB0voV8I
老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzMC2ZCs9D
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkFxuIOkql
「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVYUevOFRd
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtYY9LotOc
「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzqbJGMXDP
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5frLSU5iMG
「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyolIpqYBnh
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI55eD8IUa
解決辦法我真的想不到。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSLiTFGVP3
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但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgogXlPxp3
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaNUpp689B
「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JbP7QC7iK
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeW6rcM1SPN
和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qrxDxyye4
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPvS4PVHqA
放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4WebdaiXW
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jHzjNki47
我們已經走到了死胡同。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmfKhmGn9o
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsH9zeGLAPZ
「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkreAqLevt
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqJPoRkBgM
「…嗯。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcJz2MsvRX
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「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7S0r8j4L7E
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYMqtLbi2J
不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0OXwS0CMZ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSX1Ekc0bz
「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUll4CPndJ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCppOPV8ox
「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNIO3nbD20
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq7yhmdv5i
「…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIt0UoVYHp
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「你咩意思。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zyaoLWD3B
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「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUHeYMzHf8
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfrZl7WXTP
「……」我突然心中生畏。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKEtATNk8n
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO5Gf5c3XF
到底是…甚麼的理由？1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMu6DUfwY7M
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjDDFdASvj
妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XQMA5PSyb
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaqwC0yj5i
「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz9QKrequN
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dSlWtQM29
…妍妍竟然…1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyj7duEqFQ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1DdJyxbdi
「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBzDYid5ls
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKajai6A7Z
「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94inMqJYMZ
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcTCBMJgQ1
她只是在給我一個下台階。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Hdn49nKw1
1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBDyTeUgD3
妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMtYeMj7DL
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那麼。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0faeeWkT14
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1157Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VfoT5Od2P
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便只剩下妍妍自己。
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