夢醒來了。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKdDin4Xye
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不論是昨天的那個。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVGvFC0Td6
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kzs95ZgFg
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早上８時。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡculBazkDf5
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxHY5TQLyt
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我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQhLixpIkd
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「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKffn8Jbxs2
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直接拔電！1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdxF3tRDKe
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEb68QWdhA
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xLmYZEbBP
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGzIK02Zxw
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9h4oOVNOZ
明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamEUJ0h0Nv
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtp4TsKnsG
我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYpEd3vfRV
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…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9e2VkN5lX
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我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNE3CecHeRq
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妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiS3N1SM1gp
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjdl0LW8jH
感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXgkD9oUFy
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親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡherhZj2ZYL
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuygz8xHfYp
不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd82GCnKAZM
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HWeyVcp7A
再炒一隻蛋。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCfiE1kjPM
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxNS6ogXtp
「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9atfGbuqkw
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSoD2J7n1x
「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdj9o0DnNn
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnOpRXbY5F
「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndx3MwjtYh
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk21kqq4t4
再再炒一隻蛋好了。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov6fisYDHu
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KWdHbn1G7
把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjuw2ZXxyZ
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGqHqFwPU0
……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FrkOt1xyb
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這是冷清。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDYySD01fo
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZ2omLnwTG
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡid1jPtShoy
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牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcNynRjYoE
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu92AtHocuP
相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykP5ZLNZWN
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…甚麼也沒有。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZjQ2aYGig
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這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8VFtFN5GZ
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSul4jWoxF
正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANX6ugMMNW
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02W0yqGdsU
不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOGABA3Uwl
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCI2DwFpKb
爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXGilFcCJ9
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMbi1NM6dD
明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUcWE0DK6n
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3spNQAZMh
「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw74mX2kTUl
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnugLxEHOv
「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrqZtgI07S
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbe22EywAmp
「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuhKN7nUOv
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qu94VDits
「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydZzIhLyuC
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aXMJth9ut
我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWkiEL4Rts
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TSacx57ai
「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQJpdAcAdK
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NJ6cuDaEX
字句中，滲透著落寞。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AYVdTXRIY
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剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTKtMwgAG1
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrymyq5Rka
回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX0kiNGTGU
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeUyhq1veD
…叫我心痛。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5HSEZWQ03
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「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bBlIyzheo
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33oJrtZFUQ
妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuThkIJEljP
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzjAMKtCls
「易整。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLQzbLdvrw
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgV93smyUv
我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDGYXcYAFK
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1U71lN1j8a
妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。
終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyo7WXYm09
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「……」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEU8K8rerpL
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「……」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPyOGUkXX3
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我們都不願打破這寧靜。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFbHWKjmFq
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgASaAg7Ld7
我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uS9U6QZ6x
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—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCp8iFK9SE
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdPkiSXURd
她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzdxBL0T30
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老天，我做了甚麼。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXkyAsPXBQ
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSXmq2rMt0
感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNv9B2oYNgl
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hVIgfF4Ru
「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsexc0NVbI
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「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisrgjzyahu
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRI274Y20d
「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwplWeaMeKQ
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1A5mRR63R
「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2LKNzaYpr
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46PdbV3Wx6
「抖下先？」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgMqUfnrHi
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc2bESNeSn
「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkUDca5vOv
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD99f63mTdi
她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDYLbElRSK
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbJ7bCSN4i
「你會搵到既。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVQJsF7I7v
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5vIPknene
「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQLMNjRS9Q
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyetjkuNs1H
「……」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIweapkCMfT
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgMTwhuIcw
「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT1qeCznnl
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWLkK329s1
妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87F9pROtNM
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANGtAdBaPW
她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOmdZwaIn4
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMIyKsj5jh
「…對唔住。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCSAPvFjHh
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSYfHWiZSa
她先是默靜了片刻。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQ6eC4p7as
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「點解要道歉？」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3q2PVcsd8
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29LoTLP5fG
我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9ANlJqhuo
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg38fU4fJL1
她嘴角揚起。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMCbJkfnKL
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0a0HPqcnEK
「…但係。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzo5xxJjUr
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她嘴角塌下。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcpnzn3KIo
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgajF9kd8L
「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8IjrgWHIH
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「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes7XGgxvNu
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOC08dcQxYd
那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdfv79Zaiy
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvcBxecZaz
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發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaDIHMR9Ax
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「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeXyIveykE
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…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrER8YEHdOP
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「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3WqHyq3QP
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGodZj7GFN
「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9syoXzDvG7
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「……」我無言以對。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVhfoUBGVu
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「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxyuWHeMN9
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCakAjrSTmq
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「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmORmMYE2nm
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由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC713B6E5w
「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm7Zw7Jihj
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3rNXfzBXD
不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAhug8PhWD
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錯的只是我罷了。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWTzdTgelJ
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我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ifzxbNeBa
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxrorTEe1v
「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ93m9SIypc
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTQWKmR0AQ
一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcps3wxRYa7
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老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmKjq5rVVf
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ShxBlOTyO
我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJKJ21Mvlg
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這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWeIfPkErf
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面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36uuWT7hL9
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未讀訊息：７1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKup6hAhDX
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUnX2F27bC
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydcdKxf98X
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkLRd72i5n
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我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe7Sysgynm
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[OK] Beta1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfRYqwHdit
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDS3zF80UW
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加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFMzEZMY8c
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDml8LC5vH
鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8IaJa47FC
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qpm4wTvyP
「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuBtPmHYR4
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkws9rTwUk0
平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIrsHUtfHi
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不，好似不對勁？1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMkCHXllJq
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「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6uvpB0gyy
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAWs4XMoxC
和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS22nM91w2
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SUBW6S5ko
「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo19mfdNb2M
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyakFjJSAsz
「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtvahsoig4
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但我可能是。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ru2wzmPvc
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「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdRmDj0JvS
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3l99QvYbS
老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsysNKZmUsL
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyksU3lJQm
「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34ALJpjZ9G
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrWVm2Jq2V
「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpgjDCwwtR
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaAqJ1QD3I
「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLruz2NJ5j3
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解決辦法我真的想不到。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPYTQbuRsm
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但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtolUIlmVLC
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohTDXfaQwj
「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」
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和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncXAMO3WHn
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhwfxKs6DY
放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDwdW4Np3o
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我們已經走到了死胡同。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVx9eKwgK9
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「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tcvwytRfz
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「…嗯。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaSDPfNQg6
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「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1vNJGAqLt
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不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ttz1CLGdW
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「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbSa5q68wx
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「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZC8iDMhfz
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「…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxfssBK0zV
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「你咩意思。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrfJ0SMc4v
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「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJQxJvSyIA
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「……」我突然心中生畏。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8d2BlEquJv
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到底是…甚麼的理由？1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG1hbdh6jN
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妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGzQ2p68Ss
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPudVziNMcG
「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdOqcLdB2a
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…妍妍竟然…1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4HFMuuAkB
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「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRCuIGSM4V
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirrEK7ql1m
「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr04xPcZyL
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她只是在給我一個下台階。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7aK8zTbEb
1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4L6DVoFd4X
妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyDSQSRry2
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那麼。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmQinpusWs
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1170Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqhZQ0KuE2
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便只剩下妍妍自己。
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