童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvbAacoQ8J
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubenL2VgsP
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBTP0QQEpi
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我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx242sMR8g6
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P5dkKsYQX
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好可愛…1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAQIVGRzDF
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70JuMgicEB
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQuNy8Rv7J
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「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi063AnIgVF
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「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVikhJ0eED3
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我就不去想像了。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J7TwX8T6b
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonba1Gi4sT
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「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmu92YNZMP
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「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUDE4tQUyb
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「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrWM2jeKMq
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「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqVnq3lm7a
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LniCDnYZU
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「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bZAyLR0aS
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「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnDccDIDIv
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「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW20CiZS8sB
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「嗯…我知道。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomj0NULLJc
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「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYY29B1G7q
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7wLctcrKi
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6G1f1iQwj
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BnXZJsFcB
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至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADj1z8l3aS
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zXf8PxQiY
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「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVzB39xbBd
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「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBn9bPRISb
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「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu1yBio0le
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我愛我媽。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhyHEyZbZY
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinWezca2uj
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我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBwfDIdzgq
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「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI88ahEuNAh
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無需任何思考。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBo7f1B4TT
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「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6vxm4Grwx
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我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡui99bf9YDN
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「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOHAnyC1FW
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已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nk19gJf2t
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也必須要由我背負。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF8eL9TMEM
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aLdGs0bYW
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「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivX4Tq4duo
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnI82fXTnV
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「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHjtjYLO9p
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「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRc0FYgCob5
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「……佢真係好可愛。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSWzzNaVWh
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「佢好唔開心。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JZXf60P3A
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「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHH7tlzmct
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她深深地在自責。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gMBjf8p9z
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別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwJhVISWva
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而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Wv4CsQLUK
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「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2e9lWHBAZi
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「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopcs5PtNrl
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「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTY1zfvRXk
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「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HSwK8Xrr2
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我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv6sA1Xi2P
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「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEYqXTuRkM
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「梗係可以。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qPIvVgmDp
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「講個秘密你知。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfMdORk8NT
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「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvZTAnGpFj
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「其實我驚狗。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0otBZ3QBmt
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「下？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJeiTrHqB7
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnincTUp7dq
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「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23910htWlK
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「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5uPFiuTfS
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「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS8UXZLY7w
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不過原理應該不一樣。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Cdk1w6KwM
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「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDxXFIm9MB
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「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZd3miVWDU5
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「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0pEuIxrx3
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「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNohOP3gfr
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「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AkrPaOwZX
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看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSfxYEchU4
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童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXdAJqh5Zk
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我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLUVsAdlfJ
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我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdZnfLZfFU
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「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSjnXCfMSM
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3cLbVMq2R
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只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFkzZjKAwS
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WGIjYkbxb
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5Pow6eG6z
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnyIQa8VYl
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只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rdERAg4UR
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJKNFtsAnY
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoCL5aawjx
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「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3kb4HNRnZ
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bTFsHha5b
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眼角泛淚。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeG7j0yKHLT
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV9JaH0pEs
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjC4bQF3zT
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ659VQm7mRA
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／／還能互安慰1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXdHEZOhfY
不必天氣多清朗1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXhovpaj8k
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwP82cr5Fjz
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1115Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuU9zCHqzY
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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