尋死的念頭一出現,我就被自己給嚇到了。562Please respect copyright.PENANAMqCjKMn8uJ
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「妳瘋了嗎?」562Please respect copyright.PENANAIL4GWCtETR
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腦裡出現兩個我,理性的那個正在發飆,狠狠咒罵另一個我。562Please respect copyright.PENANAkWwRzolfOP
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而被罵的那個我,只是一個勁兒地哭。562Please respect copyright.PENANA6tYsD5orN9
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我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事,便躲進被窩,用厚厚的被子蓋住全身,連頭都包在棉被裡,不讓任何光線進來。562Please respect copyright.PENANASPzISoHvuV
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在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡,我全身是汗,滿臉淚水。562Please respect copyright.PENANAJNXZpS2Fjd
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我側身把臉埋進枕頭,把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。562Please respect copyright.PENANADe6EdfaAIw
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我往自己的腳下看,有一片草原。562Please respect copyright.PENANAm5Mo50nxH8
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面前有一條石頭道路,盡頭是顆大樹。562Please respect copyright.PENANAUdVogoT7eB
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樹下站著一個人,太遠了,我看不清他的臉。562Please respect copyright.PENANAgIbYSOYGeo
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所以我走近,愈走愈近,直到我看清楚他是誰。562Please respect copyright.PENANAqLqoGGSLtn
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站在樹下的人是英傑。562Please respect copyright.PENANAEEvlKboyh7
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我跑向他,勾住他的手。562Please respect copyright.PENANATWmg7hDeTv
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他對我笑著,什麼話也沒說。562Please respect copyright.PENANAperHO1uscU
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我像是要把這些日子以來,所有發生的事情都告訴他,開始滔滔不絕地講。562Please respect copyright.PENANArrHVCxtam9
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他陪著我走到我原本站的地方,就停下來。562Please respect copyright.PENANA3gMR20VXmh
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我還在講,他轉頭看我,伸出手揉了我的頭,就像他每次做的那樣。562Please respect copyright.PENANAahhBkVylzb
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我張開眼睛,才知道自己夢見英傑了。562Please respect copyright.PENANACbpcRezVit
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我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。562Please respect copyright.PENANAPaQADyKFNA
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是太想念英傑了,還是壓力太大需要出口?562Please respect copyright.PENANApswFkCgA3Q
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或是…他真的怎麼了,才到我夢裡來?562Please respect copyright.PENANAnN1eSPfGn6
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我心裡很害怕是後者,但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。562Please respect copyright.PENANAN4vEpiKKQP
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這個夢緩解了我的情緒,也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。562Please respect copyright.PENANAGsziTlPp1L
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不管是什麼原因,都是英傑救了我。562Please respect copyright.PENANAv7BmCxntMt
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我度過了心中的那個坎,日子雖然沒有改變,但我的心態改變了。562Please respect copyright.PENANAByF2OzmqUa
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「沒錯,都是我選的。所以,我要更努力才行。」562Please respect copyright.PENANAJ42gZrnuRV
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雖然,從那個時候開始,過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮,但我很幸運,擁有很多好朋友,如果我開口,他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我;就算我死愛面子不開口,他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢,繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。562Please respect copyright.PENANAhl5qzIii5K
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高中的最後一個學期,我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學(當時已有就學貸款,但沒有考慮,只想著沒錢就去賺錢,別念書好了),但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學,硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡,要我慢慢還,要我和他們一起畢業。562Please respect copyright.PENANAhbAMKOXwuU
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我沒參加考試,畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢,卻欠了好多人情債。562Please respect copyright.PENANA9UTIzkGjSR
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生活條件穩定之後,也談了戀愛,生活圈的人換了幾輪,越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。562Please respect copyright.PENANAPtHFPWJW8O
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我還是沒有更換手機號碼,一直抱著小小的希望,562Please respect copyright.PENANAYiMAjfD01y
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可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。562Please respect copyright.PENANAPIiwXVRFvR
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某天,我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了,找也找不到。562Please respect copyright.PENANAOlZOtOPhrO
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我辦了卡片掛失,心裡希望有人撿到皮夾,會願意送還給我。562Please respect copyright.PENANA5nonSo3wqT
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這時,我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片,也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。562Please respect copyright.PENANAfNbGaL4oOu
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我的皮夾沒回來,英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。562Please respect copyright.PENANAdTSEoAzOGV
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有時候,我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相,便努力回想那段日子,但畫面只是越來越模糊。562Please respect copyright.PENANAvJTCZoNPUY
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一年、兩年、三年,當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候,我卻看見他了。562Please respect copyright.PENANA6nC3m4oTkD
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在電視裡面。562Please respect copyright.PENANAkB7k7UuApr
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待續。
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