等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbfWBTHYNU
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpSSYS7fXr
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNoDzSciGQ
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zYOPvd1mL
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZjQdFI83T
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBK1MrIQW4
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQmaRYxiuh
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00aIV9lYAO
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「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR80EYxfECo
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBx5mHIqyZ5
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4Iu86TtbO
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkvZRoDx8d
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3J7bZeMov
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8BqXxFbh6
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsp8uwxMdL
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEUOnlM0Cd
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabTbIG8Naq
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB8xW8dzuB
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZBmuxCVr7
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShHSj9JsxL
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtAi4MHRV8
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAMFuiqgfv
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQJhxlAtLT
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yDUIzrATw
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「這是新編的。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugxlT3XJnv
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgADkfc3cWJ
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMA4136K0i
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0h1f3cMZAo
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx1njdTte4
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「妳看。」他得意。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkw5fdJH5Wf
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMOrMTPICM
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dWWaWTp3t
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我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaRNLehjPC
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA12r970OU
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「現在拍。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR4gdKlgfV
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「啊？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuexmBhA41
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNA56wo6hH
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZN4kUAN64
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezLXf4heVd
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJeivZpEIj
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我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJoUqHoWaC
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR03jmI6G9
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「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNi9I2JCayh
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我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlmfBbASZQ
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1mIkQvzPF
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「…有寫一些小故事。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fU1LeLht3
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡal5Nd095zD
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzfJW9FhZ6
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk6hnpHH1f
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「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkX06cfOmf4
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「妹。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhneUBfsPr4
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「嗯？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q9s1TWAUR
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2uDgDIZhM
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我突然意識到他正在做什麼。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdls4Oy2Le6
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLorWciNX0g
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSgnoq830Q
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IEhVQ8SbM
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他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yFJrL95Lb
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30rDeLM05W
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUibDBcNsE
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADMGbHHSai
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QdKUaoC6B
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcbRhZv8pH
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWEc8NZpCH
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但我是欣慰的。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0mLwILHYU
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那一天來的又快又急。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FQTCU9bFX
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「妹…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6jSDEifBF
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6XfyvNODO
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZeMKbuTew
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpeLjfZ48Y
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「我還不想死…」他哭著說。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA6ha2ZekT
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那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNfLkJgph6
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwYRRSYcBX
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他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyk78krDYWL
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英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9Ehy9hTIE
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv6eR2tEXn
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5lRALczI5
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMn76MnqRw
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「我真的，還不想死。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94UupZNzQI
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我握著他的手出了點力。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscih8s18Si
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「我很害怕。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTttAPDUvcg
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「我很怕死…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pyZhKRWnv
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00dS6s9wfi
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNm4R4LfMH
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「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mmFJlbsAP
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「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mwdV2hF92
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我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPATR87pgti
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyJJjAko4b
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F8aQ4Cbqm
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOJEiJ5gcl
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5gNqSc6Jn
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英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxO4Gs9M4V
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「妹。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKC1MrAXpa
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「嗯？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgQNy7ogcC
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTv7ouXuWZu
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0DfHFPmiT
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「回去再看。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTgF16t0FH
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「好。」我收起信。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJFkha00Xk
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「妳回去吧。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6dwVycvjr
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「什麼？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4xjTOycGm
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEvVjtAinv
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「為什麼？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z2kIiosWc
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oRSvXOxZj
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「……」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu63BoMzU2Q
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「回去吧。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA5Po7nlyz
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17YO21m09d
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXU2OU42tM
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我又抱了抱他才離開。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQIpG1sTcx
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1riiEDrB0R
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「英傑已經走了。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7ks0kYuxl
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXgw8wBv4t
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSiaZq8nP8
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「Dear 妹：」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRn7efB04iA
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「妳永遠是我的天使，555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu9fBgIur3
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請不要忘記我。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphdA4G1Foa
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「哥 英傑」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHagK7U8WF
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzm9lCVjjU
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaa2oW5i3gQ
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0n6K9fbMbt
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJgTzUSW1r
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7vCq6Aru6
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNF9pvgmel
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6QjVlo0Ru
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtd1sPDVkkM
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但我什麼也沒做。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPCsTNnR6H
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kwdIcpdT5
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jpeUCywvP
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iuok1wcZE
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgA8THVB0NX
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP31PwhXve
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去年，我沒有寫信。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qdGLIGqU1
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGdH2ufmKT
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujsQmjqtLt
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLp0AOvAnt
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這是，我哥哥的故事。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV3VeWbirj
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