等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqkWATosU3
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvC9BalwjQ
深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bAPGXgBPs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT5RwrpkZq
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XO6VBIYjD
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB3tHozS0c
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1kO2xRHGT
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrHTGHMW8s
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9Zx3WNDTp
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8a0vw2Kev
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTO1LtyKXBf
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFzvNgW85Z
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweb9DAoWQ0
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpt0fudMUA
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKICVT6Wkc7
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI4bNUBf6R
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbmHxzlM8P
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4glOCa8zcA
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQNw7lYNPp
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvI6E1HFKN
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrPM1VkxET
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfq9A4NvUN
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwUQAMj60R
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRfZk01g3L
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NXW5NI3qB
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWYers2ojZ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxbUCi9WwI
「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoZJOd7S2m
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiXcEQjNy1
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7qeGaRvg0
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2vN943Woi
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOdnhdWBN0
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgexCb5dN5d
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBaHytml9N
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7is07VgGjU
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCeQ0XShVw
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk11ywQQIpY
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OUtKrC6d2
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJX4XpCPnh
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPafkRBV5bu
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnH2ngMNXs
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IRjgqvZxN
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYnEBa9bPd
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PAWG0UYHX
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBNl7zDmaO
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkHHLntvHn
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RklMjuv7v
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZH36lxcKk
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmQEFuICL5
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhVZ7t7UGm
「這是新編的。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxFVql3uKB
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kGoe3cW2w
他看了看手繩，又看看我。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6mdBN9hHG
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eebMx66VY
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoekxlBZjvy
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10qUa117OU
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPkAjxcDmU
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs2bXCxLnA
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeO4UFXVFL
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt5VpwE2OH
「妳看。」他得意。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKNSk64iSe
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZmInNSqFD
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoTr22dJmg
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ0qy7q1mp
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7G7TzCVa6
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBecsWg0M63
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiLLENPKeP
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg0qlTwE84
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG7JvpnjJN
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5FONLHJ5n
「現在拍。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2omqMSxBl
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5MWEowKlw
「啊？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISkVnwODHR
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBE6ZCpcUP
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eUQUYGACt
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiDz5DBzXK
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gNYNIWfnS
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBczdChgtip
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYxd5RcAKr
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYL0FP742m0
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnlTjHWU5M
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkPHxCnhRP
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8X2HrXKRs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW37IAVmGl3
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizo7s7KGTq
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0Hi7gUvgO
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgcHNiChhY
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5lCfEUTzg
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHZSN8bwzW
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5DqMzWXQN
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsO0TULxJy1
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbLQ48kYEf
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJWdPwEWbu
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9H8qzTPJ8F
「…有寫一些小故事。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXj7y9kHWf
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCH2Kzc4Q0
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwBHgj7JhH
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51h95b48Vv
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WJ8T45OKY
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeqDYgNDsU
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXjt4Dhhlz
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdGoz2WnpO
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkytc4Imlr
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRHcyIscK0
「妹。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuNdY7p66k
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwblKkQbKbM
「嗯？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO5b0ulAQv
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgcHhtc6Qi
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmnFv0CYHv
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCio8Ewue2
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBv3mWbmj92
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqGQ2M6FQT
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLXdRdomrb
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pukpCBE2o
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVZWo3eRAs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbo1vpGiUG7
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3TKNRgAOa
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObBNmtrsdZ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoQrFQj9X7
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHfOvWGg8O
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRZbGKLng9
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8ecR2bMOP
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMsuTEx3mb
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgsgleD9yI
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwM6GLGoms
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYoBXqOyxC
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HfKuzhqLd
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdQ5IPyO1K
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcq0xVExDQ5
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBLWj2ARwS
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxX6YpRf5ej
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfJIizMYFk
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAXd7dJEtE
但我是欣慰的。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6aqs4B0cO
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRU5633fAU
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4N5qfBXIrV
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgpnYjGl2n
那一天來的又快又急。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT0zgpBUzU
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXeODGfMcJ
「妹…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohvOniL5j7
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSxxd4XMXk
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVH5okU7z4m
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sneQL54bv
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bBO0r1qga
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLPeGy23ps
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC1Zp0lEry
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6APs0xeEEl
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0K0R0vIYP
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZV24S2JTZ7
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5T77bKPvp
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgwO29WZUt
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDAeDWhvKR
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cUsX4SqOu
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiELEl5Ddy6
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h1KxSVr1G
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAUYJ58BL4
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkU3vUQgRNs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnYl84uOBs
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj13q82XDzp
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDomKUBaswP
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPArZTqLPzS
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsST5fYfLIb
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbR3ZzBuOdK
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXHJlt76DT
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPS9ndifSy
「我真的，還不想死。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbORCUupaVr
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZJadg0pC0
我握著他的手出了點力。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkaKEq3dVP
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwBeWP3tPC
「我很害怕。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTXhr8o3OX
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EikC4C0VP
「我很怕死…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwdmHZQBId
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlElsWDK2Q
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XOeUtuqAz
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdCfqDf51o
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DrXXJVyfP
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKZsBvjduV
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv76jxAK0m6
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpLHyjfwKw
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCi02PW61C
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGBsfNDVi6
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7j3OiQXNs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mN9JYt1pS
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZkVHeLW1Y
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLirqjPdiK
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWWDed23UU
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xIVTmg53F
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAlu1oXgkc
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy0nkDEJjw
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVihARCodmJ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOf0kpW4f2c
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeMc3N4lBJ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ82zf5s49
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5qrOMAS5I
「妹。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tSNC3VkjE
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyrY0WLnG7
「嗯？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33EUW4OkBe
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGcl5SNChr
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi1yhSedYy
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBVHcjMCz0
我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqG69Pj7G8
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXtFJfH7M5
「回去再看。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8KTdtAkND
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSzQOolDEe
「好。」我收起信。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscFu8z1GKK
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTlAIECgVD
「妳回去吧。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda2D3rq9tS
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSWdPbzONM
「什麼？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScDkMbwXko
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26JRvLX7jR
「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qDcBgvZIX
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXM0c2ipm1
「為什麼？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaDY3uNGeo
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH8ttrbDCe
「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJgFMIa7ER
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdwMZU3FpF
「……」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPE49YmO1N
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64aFZ4FCkE
「回去吧。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlY7xcvEoli
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfq0cIk1SAf
他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNuPkVW7dK
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkJ7e6dQd1
不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXdbsoJQwF
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAibkIaYiNa
我又抱了抱他才離開。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszfdsAJPIE
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqcrVWMdZk
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP2gsZHrxq
當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6y1o2MfqNe
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaoLkLzB9q
「英傑已經走了。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA49VpgknEQ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyYYZJxU5V
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OeuMjhsoQ
那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf5q0G9e4N
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1OhCo6XyQ
我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgMfwz6mvB
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXTWx4WZpK
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJrcMdtAZy
「Dear 妹：」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXhzokn9JU
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQxET0PG0a
「妳永遠是我的天使，567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCw1yArFRlq
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5LBX9aUML
請不要忘記我。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEZEqFIbKW
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbvQxSJCgy
「哥 英傑」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf69BUn0tH2
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YLxA8KAMs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbRLGR9Pmp
我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvCUsYD88U
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRytEwMBwv
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOoJVqHAue
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvykPmWNG8b
之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26JAQDowbA
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfGx0waSAi
每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTqANsAnoD
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58Oea8c7yC
前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2v9V7uGFh
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3dQvNpoZi
後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7rxClzTNs
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS2v2YXkmw
英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13jWByZC4W
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpwPBvew7v
他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAfvVmGTNy
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvITdXNEOhJ
曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnngeC0yZq
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4e4g6OcCj
但我什麼也沒做。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqY4UQu22b
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgLTUcwN9v
因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanH9lIucFg
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1AbfBMTwn
所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x6n9kTSnx
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05M4ZLbDGm
我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsR07iW2tK
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV6YsOIsNZ
一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5i6d3kpxH
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GNqZEsfId
說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPsJjNR8V4
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqtTM7fnAe
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETw6MwiUpl
去年，我沒有寫信。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjHScHi0s8
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUf9y1Rwlp
我選擇在當天完成他的故事。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsc0i1szebi
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRixIqycaNj
他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X9tzFWCFR
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oAiyPXWii
我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53g9pKscMl
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqNxZTdfcm
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzMBgAqjYE
這是，我哥哥的故事。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhDRUTlZvq
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UOV3KJDjm
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNn85DIeCWe
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBikK81I3O9
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