愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNGJV2wabf
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETgX0KS9nT
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzWs6iBM4N
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69DWbtjarc
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwWSZIzBAH
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但他沒有。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejYVAuQmKE
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS521co6JzR
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1xZ5OUv9F
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOO9gPGGNTM
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqPs47UJaU
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「妳在家嗎？」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EDnAzgUGd
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「嗯。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsT7fJP08e
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「下來。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpH86uQpLZ
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXEHkLhWZQ
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAQS8mZkE9
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi3QS4xT2E
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6l0z9oGgi
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「把妳載去賣。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsDfJz2tNw
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「嗯，好。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZVmJmodLg
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWVoSI88z5
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhj25kZPWUM
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「起床了。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1rFeeWUTk
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「快點起來，小豺！」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQeBMU5yGW
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGX9uY8NrT
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MSPTczElO
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQu3KoxRtK
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETK33rKYKE
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOzrlnoP8I
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxRdfNl0cK
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「在山上。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGsx2g3nth
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLsaHymIb6
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「你要拜拜啊？」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEhEuejm97
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A47eLfUJl
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWF7KMLK3y
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3wLHHb6ac
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNZkgUOCfH
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「我哪知道。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4Y0DeODWN
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「……說的也是。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuEawBJ8Nu
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15yvJaNEV1
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1FiIw9PXY
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「會發霉。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFnMTMuDoo
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaO2UqKGGm
548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcGT9D1W7f
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8q17A3fhP
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC74D2AspBd
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FhuZhaT78
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「啊？」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObBfSlBky0
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKhAvaOryk
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORstOSM1FT
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoH27HO5vh
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5eIUQkNiL
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYub4qCeiuC
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrAPz1R5vH
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtW4kTrKUV
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqNTXJvfqS
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmwWtBbN52
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUb76s4hcZ
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1zFgMdr55
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待續。
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