愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRiDrWyQtn
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrs0Sc3BPw
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn09yGO1A9p
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIg8leuPuZ
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kKW7hUGEK
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但他沒有。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq428MwtXN3
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxeZ1cgVTV
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMP6pzvYEza
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OS8XTnNlf
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3Y503LUik
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「妳在家嗎？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEMD6aeRli
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「嗯。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXr8XXReWH5
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「下來。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMvbn7dF5X
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7gBRTKwPP
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbanKV5VVV
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFZKBb9nlB
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVW1tantzu
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「把妳載去賣。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakS8FgRXbv
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「嗯，好。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3oC82J8jq
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsjFMwupF0
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDczxFo77W
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「起床了。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8RF9KCEUq
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「快點起來，小豺！」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XNO6FSZ2m
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLYh4rkQP7
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjkNYwxouK
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0RXJKe4Sq
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdMjShgeQa
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjKhg2zm17
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUCA2HkY2I
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「在山上。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlemP2z4SqP
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4sIthvolN
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「你要拜拜啊？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0ASdP3q8L
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6AeVDEWCA
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUtVDWy5Fl
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi91rCf4ZO7
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZCyG0zuci
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「我哪知道。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3KUzBFLMc
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「……說的也是。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9KIfm1UXT
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoAKoOdw5u
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtptoVZyuZR
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「會發霉。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TaO6mKZIY
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5YNFwJe72
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqCmfeQ2DR
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdvg01AGRy
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WiwXtoSKh
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「啊？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6esDwSshC
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT75yo0zWeu
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDLeZwRxcY
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7WtRb0VY9
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j0hpbMfdI
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KmADxUFVM
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfwOESyEeo
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63svUYokfK
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYKs0kDLdz
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjYDe7x1X2
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGafDoah6L
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV6y44NoMu
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待續。
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