我比他先到達高潮，直到那刻我仍沒有出聲，在雙腿緊繃幾秒，高潮退去後，我靠著牆滑坐到地上。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC2Y8TUfID
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然後看著他的體液沾滿手指、手掌和手銬。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpeCjYfRZe
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「豺姐…？」過了一會兒，他出聲。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtr5w9irhIl
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff4dIrTWgl
我做了個深呼吸，站起來，拿起椅子上的裙子和內褲。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOlKnAglrj
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSiMBMP2zv
「別動，等我一下。」我走進浴室清理自己。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMYVrn6r8t
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ACtiBMOlq
出來後，我從包包裡拿出濕紙巾，擦拭他的凌亂。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGXw0lggZH
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOyXOf0dHQ
「我自己弄就好了…」他窘迫。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGBzUtDpcX
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「不要動。」我說。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayD2MEHEsF
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擦拭完畢後，我解開他的手銬、取下眼罩。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6Vrt7yyuY
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjz5RMJ4IJe
他慢慢地睜開眼，室內光線是柔和的黃光，他沒有花太多時間適應。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUFDillBTm
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「妳臉好紅。」他盯著我。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBYe8mPAVt
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9qDuIN4E1
「哪有你紅？」我笑了，對著他的身體使了個眼色。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesWs0N1hTy
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjtUZD1S4Z
他才意識到自己一絲不掛，匆忙站起來跑進浴室。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgsuGAbJl3
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而我的笑容在他進浴室後消失。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iWTvt1Urw
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待他出來後，我在桌旁等他，示意他坐到另一張椅子上。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzZeFEGbq4
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3pA29KcgY
「我們結束這樣的關係吧。」
我直接講了重點，在他出來前的內心預演統統沒有用上。說出口後，他的表情定格了好幾秒。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwZ8L4H9rE
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「為什麼？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsj1XHLsWJM
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUP7t6mRvAF
我想像得到他會問為什麼，但我卻沒辦法馬上回答他，只是看著他的眼睛，沉默。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUB9xTMhZ5j
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFV61FXsnmy
「為什麼啊？」他稍稍提高了音量。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkl0N4M8mN
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStrvHgEHjz
「我做錯什麼了嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Xoc71zNuD
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jMZZ5BIxa
他不停追問，而我仍沒有出聲。有那麼片刻，我還以為我們是正在協議分手的情侶。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVyAEbb46h
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而那種錯覺正是必需結束的主因。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSuHDeLAyM
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtnEJ2ZU6r
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「你是不是越來越依賴我了？」我輕輕的開口。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSM3HZALkEs
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Iypsmo94Z
「什麼意思？我太黏妳了嗎？我可以不要太常去找妳吃飯啊。」他急著「改正」可能的錯誤。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNWW0heCOz
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE05A2Uxz3s
我搖搖頭，「那不是問題，問題是我也開始依賴你了。」這刻，我還是盯著他的眼睛說話。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I4iqF8j30
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBC6JKycpz
「……」他語塞。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPtmxO9sVI
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7aksSNerh
「有時候我會覺得你像我的男朋友。」
「你從來沒有做過越線的事，就像你一開始保證的那樣。」
「可是當我開始希望你越線的時候，我們的關係就很難維持了。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgFZ5UojYQ
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfD3uUdUSh5
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「…妳喜歡我？」他猶疑了一下才說出口。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLpDPSALGO
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeynJFifkh
「可能有一點，或只是習慣你。無論如何，這樣不行。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdPnN6jy8w
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZchhF0Csx
「為什麼不行？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GdsbqdGHH
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlKxl6HL3x
「你喜歡我嗎？有想過跟我交往嗎？或你有想過要跟我上床嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD2lfXmO6R
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT4bO8OCfi
他被我突然的問句嚇到，過了一會兒才回應。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLVne9COeb
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHupQcO5Yc
「我…沒想過。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTmQvCs5W0
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「是了。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g7XKc8AB0
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「可是…可是我可以想想看啊，只是…可是…」他慌了，語無倫次。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcZiKhC9lY
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdr5Q74NKh
「別想了，這樣結束就好。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V2NWcxCIq
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RHdZEdZDb
「我不要！這樣太突然了，我不要啦…」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0sUUcl5my
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdz0AzAGut
我摸摸他尚帶有水珠的頭髮，覺得他像隻淋濕的小狗，443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOn3hXQBP5a
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惹人憐愛。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSVaEWplok
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從一開始就是這樣看待他的，我心裡的情感疊了太多層，無法和他明說。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMrpL7bTem
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50KkBmGVp1
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xSnmsLy6y
「你只是捨不得能陪你玩的對象而已，趁現在結束才不會有更多麻煩。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqt0DDUCwz
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c42LndlDs
也許是被我冰冷的話語刺中了，他的眼睛滾下一顆淚珠。我預料中的反應。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjwa9zYmQh
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDOQpBL9Nj
他離開椅子，跪到我面前，像犯錯的孩子。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0t9kNWr9h
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fQJiW1zbK
如果是情侶，跪著的那個人大概會抱住坐著的人吧？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XlTKUZnLv
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但他沒有，就是隔著剛好的距離，恭敬的、卑微的，跪著。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxk3n8gvlac
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT3Qq7uHp4
那就是我們之間的距離－－主與奴的，即便我從不肯承認。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnutZU0I13
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwff9Tt9Cx
「如果我們變成男女朋友，我就能夠留下妳嗎？」他嗚咽的說。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRNjCAkvLc
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpU5e8kEbY
那語氣裡滿是委屈，被拋棄的、不情願的…443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4l9Zt3exV6
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4XspvxcS4
「我們不會變成男女朋友。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeem40PHMY
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWmJbtgOvW
我把椅子拉開，也跪坐到地上，與他平視－－不再是主與奴的視角。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4B8RouJm5x
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuocjLHpw1
「就算我們變成情侶，也沒辦法滿足彼此。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOwkJtFQfN
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWTyS5MTUT
他看著我的眼神，表示不懂我說的意思。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfRI59od1a
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVgEvywUIe
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsSypUobXo
我握住他的手，允許自己坦白。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W3qxNsKbj
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulc5Ziw3pj
「你不是想知道我為什麼會使用麻繩嗎？不是一直覺得我對這些事很熟練嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqC0R9AHO7
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbECWa4e8C1
「那是因為我以前也做過。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EOtrVzbMw
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleDP4zyal0
他的眼睛倏地睜大，「我沒有別的奴。」我的雙手使了點力，示意要他繼續聽我說話。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6oHx3uwNK
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX7r3XW7pv
「……我以前是服從的角色。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00Cfqztqbp
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPFHvxtuWm
「那些我對你做的事，都是以前別人對我做過的。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2qP8L3rz4
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxjjEb5Odq
「所以我才知道怎麼進行，但以前那個人很野蠻，我都被弄得很痛，所以我才不希望你受任何傷。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdDVOGiErE
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCOqRPshSn
「我更不希望當你看見傷痕的時候會想起我。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHDEhhaoU4
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOW2BzbRg5
我看著他，沒有移開目光。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXwcbjqqlY
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnEFivlv5h
那些時候我看著他，會把自己的過去與他重疊。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQxKlh8TBJ
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eS27eSxY0
對他的處境所衍生的心疼，或許也參雜了更多私心，不曉得是心疼他，還是心疼過去的自己。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibcsJBTF8i
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O7jfD2UMX
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLa0ktuJ48
他傻住了，什麼話也說不出來。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkPxk2UlM9
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNi5D6XQ9V
我放開他的手，再次摸摸他的頭髮。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhfFljVZNm
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXk2ioFhRT0
「去吹乾頭髮吧，會感冒的。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdolLuuqfGi
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPRrnC5IB9
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFL4U1VX9D7
離開旅館後，我們再也沒有見過面了。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe2QPaGT7O
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3CMpaxhNc
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那天晚上我在自己的記事本裡寫了一段這樣的話：443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzREEYA6hH
443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6OgO4bSZj
「我們都只是被情慾支配的獸，你是狗，但你不知道我是狼。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJEAYboYS6
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