等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQbWwQeBg7
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmdHZg1EF2
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6fmPnss9i
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFJylZVOsg
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFhESUtJMl
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfI5LVgtm0
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpP8iow1HrS
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV5JUpIE68
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「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYMbY0lyBV
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoJG0JhBKz
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejU9Cdtpzb
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Yx5DS6jZX
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMzopY3cEN
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguK4L0K1UO
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDnb3hFiGE
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhZlGqzsaE
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTse2CftCI
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJ9agpfPNA
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XTJNvsq7w
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJc6D3Etoy
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDyYpf8eQz
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA6fcoPfHn
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjanPIY8p2
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzelHkoDKaI
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「這是新編的。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59nIVSFltf
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEaZcHbcIv
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjs0Y8i1hM
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemvghKFilv
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QCD7GrCpw
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「妳看。」他得意。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZiNboTID2
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi1IEjpZg7
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48UCEs2xQZ
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我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SXd0qbpaZ
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGRcMpPoNi
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「現在拍。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJRQAUIrSV
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「啊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDkXijFIDt
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHnrnXD9Fy
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QfrvvKjdZ
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksyAY22k0Y
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu6a1w4dra
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我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWzSarGHeL
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21qbfD92L0
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「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUBug3yUAb
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我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJVqghvZtr
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJPLPw9cp5
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「…有寫一些小故事。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uIuh4XJPW
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5cpMFpLLc
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qQT6zrLq7
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NV5gDqomn
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「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFl3mPmHin9
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「妹。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI289sIskS
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「嗯？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclDa4ClbQ2
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJEjYRnEEE
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我突然意識到他正在做什麼。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uWOVXDqNu
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSnOt4FGxN
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTdNvBMCW5
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeEP2TgK00
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他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfrUqDCWLL
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtOBX5HkaC
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2AHRGy4st
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBSHi5RRY6
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cREuPJjFI
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4VzpbxXN9
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooVRNjXFYf
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但我是欣慰的。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAP1xjhlKxZ
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那一天來的又快又急。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fGyDtRWO6
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「妹…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd8XmDC34N
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWAkNxFG3l
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIrbOrvYqo
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlMhs7h1JS
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「我還不想死…」他哭著說。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0ZzohnS1P
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那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdbjQhtfE7
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf48NujWP9u
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他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hUUzYWAOn
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英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOwLM8sEVL
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunVLIWLVug
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRzCtY6wQl
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHeAtRWyuq
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「我真的，還不想死。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTHpvpOXpU
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我握著他的手出了點力。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUOgU7YrJH
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「我很害怕。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6NVMPQWig
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「我很怕死…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrK54QVm0YM
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2J4AWP4bBJ
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ly0OSbkKV
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「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYgBT2ShkT
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「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg7fTfU2O0
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我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvyut3FZDp
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofj6csCjYI
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeMKHKgt2o
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡha1pVya9qt
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jHMdLtG4I
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英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKefn5QPExX
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「妹。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡid0JtmXVBf
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「嗯？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gjNJRB9CQ
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4FMA0fKzn
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIx67RQqyp
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「回去再看。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcJut14wZC
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「好。」我收起信。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRImxVUsBp
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「妳回去吧。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN07cb8FzF
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「什麼？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIldGLJREL
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCx6QNuqOm
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「為什麼？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9IWKRZfQl
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CU2LfSXwZ
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「……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUT9yLar2a
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「回去吧。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kxStMhfJw
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwLEnMgPEu
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkKAxJzDGv
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我又抱了抱他才離開。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzodSH7UpVd
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhqOnCSlaz
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「英傑已經走了。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7K67pMsm0
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9h6QhH9S2K
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0swpiZrspo
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「Dear 妹：」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaIhpKQAfU
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「妳永遠是我的天使，530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIS4tUD4Dhf
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請不要忘記我。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwSrwW1455
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「哥 英傑」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVPuffDSd6
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSzYOqYlMh
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeGhcUKsyi
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqzmcl96SH
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxuVF0F1CU
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOH4aPAlzai
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6hrLlfBAF
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvH3KGlYeFN
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf83tAbOqQa
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但我什麼也沒做。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquVncLhOi3
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNPisAikfv
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw2JPzqoQz
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4TOweQrAp
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AshaQNXHE
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxZh5QS3A4
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去年，我沒有寫信。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaTIW04y1o
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmWHZo1HPc
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oylkwqw49
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbRfDk4iLU
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這是，我哥哥的故事。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSuazU9fUE
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