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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01g5f1Oe78
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyiSQqGkS1
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡethevSGEbR
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終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd0dNN6gFF
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXD5ee80Rag
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1RSm8k6Va
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1J5toMh2SL
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkICPaKUHWd
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebcNaeICmC
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqskZTW2Z9
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0k3z5d2xo
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2sWgHeSTt
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「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86ime8eVWE
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家宜沉默了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKd94P77J6
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媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOs0ymV8rI
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtReyftuyjJ
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原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShLUcuaE2m
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjEeAhWw5F
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUCeLIjgua
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有人說她成熟了，進步了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaURmeyf16b
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG5yjdselc
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fXEi1eaGP
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjpTVlDiwh
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9xLUxp5xS
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA3JlPoITG
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還是向現實低頭好了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgegioDdFD
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvnCZlgGPu
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZBwqqvPJ7
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxceehXZMjy
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLGNlTsgRR
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「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvPXyKZJaZ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1WgbHJPPC
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQuWdieV3i
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1R72XLnfUw
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfU1D4v4Lz
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家宜沒答話。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOZLunoDG5
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowwcDRbcSF
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefyDMyiByF
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZjpcn3cbK
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RgQKkgf0y
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcHbKqFgeX
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTJYXNNYgR
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFjD1RgbJP
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當初…864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2oxx6cEoT
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整個晚上，媽一言不發。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdMOi5I2uo
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRudIH38KU
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnCur3H58S
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetu0aWpPL8
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJmdosymr8
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCJcz7QjgQ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwtj4ay7Et
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXcARgb9HQ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUImS4C1GxE
根本不是她的錯！864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHhq4NpL6T
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXFxmBSaFK
但道歉可保住一椿生意…864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBCkZeCWHQ
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卻扭曲了自己…864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMU38E818Z
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值得嗎？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpbN9UU4Jn
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBMYOWdy1z
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHz5DXgALUl
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA09odYA6RG
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaC59HdlpZ
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75lKIygRKP
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYDYH3g0BX
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWkJv0bgRv
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HTYNtf6rW
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7mEo5WbtD
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrOds7s9DR
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPf0EoQlSMY
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhB8SLLJbO
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0qmWJ1f0v
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ADBvcAsfH
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3f3Vh2Buh
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLJHzSjCxu
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PID0VpukT
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYHUPKny3l
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0glG88KIF
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Dqc4VSOHq
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxKodlj49S
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUmtZciKch
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK1hxwmmtF
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不管了，先遞信吧！864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaS8eQXVeU
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIeIO6LkIg
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklSAzlciKL
家宜呆了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKwoYO4dQX
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SPmE010Bx
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBLaUcfBsA
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pD2YVcCXU
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPaCtMPi3n
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxLDIlxw5o
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這是…放棄了嗎？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1GZs4Z5Zr
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CUmAkmv05
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5zHt6bUrY
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys3VgCYzAC
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfV6f9Sou3
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnukSkynn0e
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2s1sWZLV4
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrj6n7JVqZ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7tjCs2xrs
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjZHP3c4Sa
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjArW97v1Gs
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0lhyWsFN
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「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMdXaRxVj8
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKS9zaZHeL
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w9AMb49cn
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpIhLdexXM
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDfrnXz0b5
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6vMOYN4tw
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欲哭無淚。
