家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU2sDHMdY8
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveFwOWZpw1
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBeRozF0qC
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxJcSZKBHO
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrmAX4q6Qf
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSAQ64jin4
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYg5dyMqOy
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSxNf98MUX
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbu3YwR1GJi
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8vBNvuEVU
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxjdC71MJ8
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYkY7lna6X
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbI7Kg6p4t
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7B8VK8pLY
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRaakJbGPU
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lPeM1kaAi
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmGHEoEYqA
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyHLAKw7Ri
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAylKBVpCt
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oULZhU4kV
家宜沉默了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaz7aPiuKU
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78NbevhOLQ
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFlnU5SERk
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7LEEtSyx1
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWi9J0uzYI
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvSZE08TWZ
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn22VNLk9ej
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAACr7xJdDk
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjNI4seRZc
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLAU5vVjGZ
有人說她成熟了，進步了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHRnWX1mUr
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GMyaTUcH9
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHNTHLwzbI
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlKwBvltCt
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEqHoWwen7
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvC5GWcvCEg
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2QN1yY7iZ
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCdV4KvTch
還是向現實低頭好了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOXyYX82Mx
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlRn6PGQ6e
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYTmpeOZiq
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0bDcL7csd
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN0wrzLsoE
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqsBZOVr2E
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NaZxZCbM3
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyjj5NT9Ca
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZbD4OqCbu
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT51hzTTxM5
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2JVKV3J5v
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8Ssm90MmK
家宜沒答話。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCi80GmMxJM
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPpWj3slYX
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW6r8qWTDB
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ipy0fSpiL
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZKkfjy4rL
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ7vMMv2l5
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡad1hblw8ty
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafmgDO2MCC
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uzp9ejlUx
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMFXFJJym4
當初…932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gy42L47WB
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoM6730PCVU
整個晚上，媽一言不發。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmo78xyXEEP
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuawL8todx
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxvSjnO3rt
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC007yicQzw
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyCxybHwvb
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzijtyYvGIp
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPc4fLPIAd
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ctfynGXhI
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaB7s3KMDc
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHjMrfEpA5
根本不是她的錯！932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkuaJWo35C
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Kda7vXh22
但道歉可保住一椿生意…932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6H4R2RF3A
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卻扭曲了自己…932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPSjMbEo7x
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值得嗎？932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjFY7pg0xq
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGtzsmFVmd
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwt5uFAJ0JE
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Nh5iX4qOR
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDqY1g9Am6
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeeBdszVH1
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8kn9sBGlE
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4bBIaRG6P
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15S9rAfm4l
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZ0xMpSUO7
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMt4lGs9AB
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gJR11Eaub
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKX5xvGwnaa
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsck0szuReP
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcCSSAaLec
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSu2Zo9pB1
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4tFtLy0Sw
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDRBu0As5E
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW4lx9eM7r
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRkiTno81s
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9uw3itB9T
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0gTtWZpuR
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8ze7o9ZWW
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhb1R1Q5XDu
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ7x6FDea7
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpe5LeibcKB
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCHGLyu17j
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEx33ZwwTI
不管了，先遞信吧！932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKovjFEXLt
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNZd9XOSey
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpdCwn5Z4M
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0q4Zo6wQu
家宜呆了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡId7iKgF2Jz
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnsPVCm9ZS
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISLFEKebuR
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXApO3GzFZZ
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vF9b8eRmk
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OcsPA2nIk
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkjETsTHVj
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5xN72Nw0O
這是…放棄了嗎？932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpt1KHruKfC
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXm4f3CtKI
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9P0Cd5Ow84
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyD4loKZwt
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc5A006ZkJ
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW63qCsDsXm
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QXP9Op7Lc
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewr41qSkM1
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtKLc9Bdek
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBhtJHkMGv
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUN1tN1s7v
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SwZp1tDPt
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcHaNDfrNI
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgQ9qbpPc1
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBKzu9EHLS
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFwWTuBFj6
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBok0Zv7zzK
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6YznQh8kI
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH56hPVzw0T
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltUyN2St9L
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXf4v33hG7
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb71UxrGoWP
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8o2FjzwOtI
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurC4lYH7ER
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLryAnbYrJZ
932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLt95xBGXR
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