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秋夜。與同事消遣後，有人打算到酒吧繼續狂歡，邀我同去，但我婉拒了，畢竟自己不習慣應酬，悉才飯局已然將我心力掏空。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W7A7OqvGR
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踏入職場十多年，仍然未慣與人交流。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMQf3Xh1G9
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也許本性如此吧。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dHX2eDM7d
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討厭。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TShG4tChc
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我踏上歸途。沿路街燈整齊排列，在灰黑路面各自畫出米黃圓形。柔和畫面莫名令我感到難以言喻的鬱悶。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX574iDxko
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路經公園入口一刻，我驀地停下腳步，躲在燈光無法觸及的位置靠牆抽菸。白煙冉升，遇上越過三米矮牆的光禿大樹枝節。我有意無意抬頭望樹望煙，聯想起兒時收看的宮崎駿動畫《龍貓》。當中一幕是兩位女主角和家人浸浴時一起嬉鬧，全然不知可愛的精靈趁著月色飄往夜空。熟耳的背景音樂襯托下，畫面就此定格在夜空、彎月、白雲和茂盛參天大樹。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMenk0WDMy
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溫馨畫面和此刻蒼涼秋意形成強烈對比。我似乎有所觸動，同時也沒法捕捉任何確切感受。千言萬語卡在胸腔間，無法出來。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwakFI8drn6
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討厭。真討厭。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbNvbpTR5Y
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我無視不遠處的垃圾桶，隨意彈走未盡的菸尾巴，看它掉在路中心。隱身菸灰間的橙黃火光晦暗不明，像掙扎，像呼救，像要耗盡最後力氣對我施加詛咒。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDalGdUGvcc
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討厭。真討厭。很討厭自己經常傷春悲秋。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5R4EOwrpN
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不過就是菸屁股。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEa7ju9TAPF
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不過就是同事之間一個閒常飯局。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg22n2lF9d
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不過就是一個平凡人不習慣職場文化。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWrbdNX0GG
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不過就是一件沒甚麼大不了的瑣碎事。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk0ditOKoC
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討厭。真討厭。很討厭。十分討厭。291Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDir0aa1QYi
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這種無法緩解和、無法宣之於口的鬱悶……十分討厭。
