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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz2EaXBora
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodKG3s7MPq
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxs5Oi2gjs
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveAfFApidI
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壓花書籤。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOak8xccxU
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紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS8POzh6fP
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「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9cxkndkDG
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6SZYPdyPL
初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwMFcACVRj
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難道是老伴的來信？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOHDmWgOTD
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是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs21zJng3p
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QkFw1gvjG
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgekdENUF2H
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb58aRacgWT
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFqhdLSdCC
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUGWvqh6Is
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQuWtIIH6F
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWhebE4wZZ
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmA1nW9ij1
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI53IvM8jLi
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVFFUzw6g0
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliKPYyIvJo
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUTtZX234U
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrcVAVDrZj
努力活著，只為失去？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsFpMHSyzU
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLlxJVfFxF
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeyOlodUYD
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBYaq23qVf
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLl5tiOwk9
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很累。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbEhbbSEnI
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3kTmwEeGQ
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5grQcw6c35
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想睡。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCrgbCcYG2
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放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzK2vyovRw
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHGhjFxBS1
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfbvUjdCO7
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該要馬上包紥傷口。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYKPs6fYaz
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIkKVA8mxQ
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEyKwXuXSP
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdXAzQ8LNN
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK81zzkoWjB
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3i6Gqb880
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8Kem4EJyV
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDehjQ6V9Zc
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvIsocO3K7
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejMLtybwsG
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4hGqBWz7a
他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT4Y6WE76I
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcGkGpPviO
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsrHyo7qv6
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她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0ftZ156dX
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現在呢？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeA8KoXmmZ
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她主動放棄記住他。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflziLWKzRg
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUnXUcfCts
上天或她更可惡可恨？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqxDXlypBn
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8glMTbYOk
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZqgLDq3Sq
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMOISzIIBO
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yegc2T2wN
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTK0rjbpMv
迴光返照。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU5yu12roG
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她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQDIVbS4y3
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XjpccfLo1
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3lAuGZYcO
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXYOAonh6a
是她將一切與他扣上關連。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTKECIPKNf
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7EYm09V5E
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgzQNqwEls
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAbZ6e4FKK
手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7nfZYehS2
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztXkgj2YTD
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeaPnjG0n2
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZSf8VlGlo
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TQHfoMtOK
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIN8fJIoz3
當時是否不該報警求救呢？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbL2HN4GdL
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBDXx3lJpB
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JGXpyrjjm
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZV14sP5iAe
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaW4mdwEhD
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczhMMnQE5O
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IIuOe3hx8
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOT7ecrnsgF
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkGFXxuh2W
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER93s27Fnw
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77LBegb877
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpKE1NeXjZ
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymAkhT8sM4
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsvq5A3RYk
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbHFFycJzr
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeh9R92xQV
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOK8WPNBTIt
十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdel52aNRv
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9qw4KfFio
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOVYgP1Dhi
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO1NNnjVpA
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkySBmMn0V2
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiuSYEwFW6
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pRpmQOED7
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活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiiDouZSUN
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她打算怎麼處理？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWLiAfy1Xb
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未決定。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFA4MpXBP6
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnN5RF8Hnn
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
