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「我憎恨你！永遠憎恨你！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtupwh1B5CT
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwLdE8tB6x
衣衫單薄的阿妹無視冷雨紛飛，跑出遮雨簷篷，衝過警方封鎖線，直撲上前搥打我胸膛，拳拳復拳拳，拳拳到肉，拳拳入心。我沒有還手——不打算反抗，而且雙手被手拷反扣在後——默默垂眼看著她雙手沾染我衫上血跡。這時何等奇妙的感覺：父母的血在我和她體內，亦在她手上、我衫上。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4RXTRvhLS
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附近幾位警員沒有立即阻止阿妹，待她發洩將近十秒、有記者正要舉機拍攝時才拉開她。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzMfQ1q8wP
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登上警車，我輕問身旁警員：「你們是故意的吧？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UNWvxhAXG
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZsJAkorIs
警員目不斜視，對著空氣道：「你殺死父母，是故意的吧？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFunfU1PcS
操場上，烈日刺眼，人影紛亂，或逃跑或追趕。兩幫囚犯因私怨扭打起來，其餘局外囚犯連忙依獄警指示離開現場。我混在逃走行列當中，驀地發現走在前方的人正是與我關係不錯的獄友——阿青。靈機一觸，想到一個減刑方法。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2NU3PKCcN
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupeRh9aJ6Q
「他有參與打鬥！」臨近操場出入口，我突然指著阿青呼叫。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzmCiaKXsx
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mDksSuLOT
阿青尚未意會我所指何事，已然被獄警壓制在地。他面帶怯色，嘗試辯解：「冤枉啊！我沒有……」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHC2JM5D1m
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpRBH677le
「我真的看見阿青參與打鬥！」雖知阿青無辜，但為了建功減刑，我唯有狠下心腸補上一刀：「我平日與阿青關係不錯，沒有冤枉他的理由。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWwYOh7h4i
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdYKmKGsos
阿青抬頭望我，似乎明白這是甚麼一回事，瞬間臉容扭曲，極力試圖掙脫獄警。更多獄警上前制伏激動不已的阿青，甚至對他施用棍擊。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHpboQoeRS
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ETltjvJhW
亂棍之下，頭破血流的阿青咬牙切齒，勉力抬頭怒目瞪著我：「你這忘恩負義的傢伙！枉我在獄中處處維護你，代你吃下不少苦頭！走著瞧！我定會算帳！我不會放過你！我永遠憎恨你！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6bo2NV6bu
狹小房間內，淫穢之聲迴繞不散。在我胯下的年輕小女生或嬌喘或呻吟，胸前兩團白肉隨著抽插節奏晃晃盪盪。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu6gyUhMcD
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咔——558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL5HJS8f1r
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlpKC5nIE9
小女生被房外聲響嚇驚，表情僵住：「客廳有人。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFfL82BKUF
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FDitWkZzu
「是我妻子。」我處變不驚，繼續重覆腰肢動作。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQs7cLTBV7c
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFxtD0texc
「你不怕……」小女生奇怪我的冷靜。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1KmZ2bTCV
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0zin0v7nB
「孕婦，跑不遠、跑不快，怕甚麼？」我伸手微微施力掐住小女生細長白頸，暗示不滿她話太多。也許不安導致情緒緊張，沒多久我倆雙雙高潮完事。小女生沒有洗澡，匆匆收錢離開。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrBuoEkNqj
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnuv1VDBsn
我叼菸走向梳化，在芝芝身旁坐下，安慰道：「放心。金錢交易。不是長期關係。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQkUYq8zI5
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hE8RGkC0V
挺著巨肚的芝芝低頭不語，臉色玄青。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTP40DJGKS2
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VPT7aw6oj
「沒法子。生理需要。總不能憋住十個月。」我口說得輕鬆，心裡細細數算芝芝跟我多少個年頭。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6iRfKAyul
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFgrCkSoPR
至少三十年。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJXN76Z2pc
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWY1rwiP0D
我們相識於中學三年級，彼此都是十五歲。我當時是小混混，她是不良少女，一拍即合。後來我殺人判囚，幸得減刑出獄。沒能回家。苦惱之際，誰料芝芝主動聯絡，供吃供住，只求與我再續前緣。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXEQfXin5Z
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5VPheVrMh
「我曾為你的付出感動過。奈何純粹的感動無法改變我本性——我天生就是壞人。」我向芝芝坦白感受，不是出於內疚或推卸責任，而是我沒有隱瞞的原因。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JeCduHgrf
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「你曾愛我嗎？」芝芝眼眶通紅，忍淚問了一個傻問題。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YCJDMXB0d
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnFzCmrwNZ
「我不知道那是否愛。」我對芝芝沒有愛，但在她身上我感受到何謂愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04mvoycgO7
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWxN0mKxuv
「你走吧。我和孩子不需要你。」芝芝終於按捺不住，流下兩行清淚，語帶哭腔：「這刻開始，我會開始憎恨你，永遠憎恨你。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpP1VwqaSs
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEJyw0S2hO
「你早該對我死心。」我聳肩表示沒所謂，直接走出大門，離開單位。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPmiMmvK0g
七十歲的我獨居劏房，不良於行，少有外出，平日依靠社工幫忙購置日用品。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIdtaHYm44
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzucDf04N0
社工是個初出茅廬的年輕人，不知人世險惡，對我毫無戒心。我撒謊說自己被兒女拋棄，她就拿著我提供的假資料尋人。尋人不果就來關心我更多，買來更多物資。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDI4Rqwd4lf
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0ahY6g5j9
相識之初，我經常在心裡嘲笑她笨蛋。不過隨著相處時間增多，我多次目睹她為我無私付出，不禁開始動容，深切自省。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87yJGfBXBl
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZtuHGPAT5
夜深人靜，流浪狗吠聲忽遠忽近，對面大廈招牌的刺眼強光穿透薄窗簾，在牆上映出花花綠綠迷幻色塊。無眠，憶起很多人，很多我虧欠過的人。爸媽……阿妹……阿青……芝芝……孩子……其實我一直以來知道自己有多壞、多可惡。為何明知故犯？因為我不相信永遠。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bTRVplnvf
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgXYmRPLpC
沒有永遠的惡，沒有永遠的愛。只有眼前利益和當刻快感。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFl9T3usNzn
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWYJq8ajYl
我自私？誰不自私？爸媽養兒防老，阿妹需要爸媽供書教學，阿青幫我是貪慕虛榮，芝芝救我是為彌補遺憾。誰沒計算？人人都在計算！558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EDL5fu5N9
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJ15zKKXaz
感動退散，惡意再生。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuYF8obZSD
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ4CItJrDA
缺失很多，要求更多。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXKF6Tu0rU
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdfqvFIZLz
缺失愛，索求愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0M6QBAsSFT
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21aXbCxPJi
變本加厲。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FAw0IkMum
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理所當然。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDagOVrmSA
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVm3MlP4yb
社工說疫情險峻，求助人數激增，難以經常前來探望我。我埋怨她不關心我。她解釋說機構人手資源有限，無法重點照顧我一人。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeK6WM5YYaq
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4Z3d8csgz
她離開。我撒野：「你偽善！快走！別來！我憎恨你！永遠！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fMNxzWlaz
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沒有永遠的愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDT8XRHe1C
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlapNECdu5b
缺失愛，索求愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgNllnyLTZ
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鳳姐索價三百元。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfT4QvXA5h
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她有眼前利益，我有當刻快感。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5xeYfJ0zK
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完事。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3XabbZDAu
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一切歸空。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwxIuEirfN
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理所當然。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdHz4dOytC
