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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9tY47CpiY
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HTjAvPyez
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmXiBRwKxZ
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHiwGT8i82
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULp24sdTvT
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip15VEgMLP
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7U6X4ySLt
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8FLBhH3k5
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡha9Yy7ebtr
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Pbk3m1QvM
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPMnXzMARs
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCaZ8qjYKX
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSgSh5dcZi
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGn4cZeQOsP
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuXl7lAopW
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK99bHyfUkB
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZztjhygPY
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家宜沉默了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfutgisGZMw
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXLdR25ajx
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHY6085OL49
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pzlJtR7BZ
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiP6cjPeX8
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qvYn5jwDN
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwaEJKMqXs
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF11eC0Xj5
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA8WCWNz01
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVynhW4KfU
有人說她成熟了，進步了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XzYyL5fm6
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtbnxVh2gp
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvezbPRXdX7
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFx1ZF4ctP
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y6eYz38tQ
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4C0d0eRoE
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdMEdZUhvw
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還是向現實低頭好了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYLpQBQP22
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmbFG3Hefh
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrDLb0ukpL
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JxaztS6fh
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS7nQot2HI
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「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8KDs8SHxk
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DfHEXOBxQ
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9k2GiD6ET8
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOw4FAoeoE
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UjkhtL0R0
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家宜沒答話。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiesrmnLlfN
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUgxzSTljv
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0AfS222G6
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHa8HPoseA
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZj1N2FjZ5B
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcZwbgttTd
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31RaxTWUJF
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQWm26u3FI
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh5eusOoA3
當初…814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aLKtrNfxr
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVG6ei1xmjw
整個晚上，媽一言不發。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYZro5v7IL
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIYBMMNckS
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPYEwbYdec
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX7KRlcZud
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc19Uc2FHtf
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9cuMXwPMZ
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFMRKWAOkd
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQprHXiQB1
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo80w2iz4E0
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVx7m27pHSA
根本不是她的錯！814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi87zwZGIZt
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GFGmz9T8C
但道歉可保住一椿生意…814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob7RabvCeB
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卻扭曲了自己…814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVowHiF68U
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3H1Nj8K1G
值得嗎？814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqp6JRjYOB
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAX2m86snm
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7qZ1oqMvO
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQdGMhvoyS
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQajBonjFhU
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEMFkCBrc5
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcyrohxLRY
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUS1tFB89o
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRd6Z4ptXDi
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqykUp3trG
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSJmYhNqa7
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9W4svSSqm
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fZKBoqaQ9
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlrqGTMdMB
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGkMj2Gr6d
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qnxP73znN
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIvzy1os3f
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaBe5eMyqG
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5stgJ6Ref
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqbjVoUWTY
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFThNRFb8L
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqmr6Rrfgu
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSY3oVbelz
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2U34QuFAOZ
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7abtNERxn
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kNSUrY00b
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWQXp0sPT3
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFZT2moFod
不管了，先遞信吧！814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sPbEBRki2
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqgwVYT8mL
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsfjiODqkQ
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGVfNCMIhM
家宜呆了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPTwE74Rqa
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M5RG8jJKw
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVvnshRLAi
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAVTLdX8NX
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXAiyG4JRO
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2YbNWvG9F
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpt7vGqlAga
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJy8aMqmUF
這是…放棄了嗎？814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifiz5ZEd21
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSywPD0p3L
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv9nOcgP9l
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEVrx5HOBs
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk71KIZpjOB
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstZGVD2cCk
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sA9Scu2Yj
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8Kg2YuGIU
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O0WSeLt0P
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7ski69AyL
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGLp5q1JWh
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvZLyphdFS
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPGyyEBtq5
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWuadEJRqZ
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPY1tGC6OO
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCzR9Xd7xh
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4QxUGBnnH
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsOOWrx76k
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7io9sysGk1
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwVmgqkG7L
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5RMkcnHCh
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zQvEZ0u4X
814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEjPHUAVDj
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