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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNtgKtOpm0
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt9UIJDZAp
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76mprzJZ3E
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aZEqXZvo2
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAAWJzO85e
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwC1olkv91s
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dzK12RNSI
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMs73pOmc8
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3qcE0BhEY
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZJfp9Lgtd
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwIxvmQIa1
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hL4qWLWnx
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVMM3JukIx
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgwijWNWWT
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey1JbKg9Cp
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHAVNFCY3F
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBqdr9ggxR
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStSizpjssA
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8qqg8IsJE
家宜沉默了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8uyVfQ9z2
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKxU5SySTX
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdC5CSCluLN
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzxKrOKQPj
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0d8hZPFdq
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRlaGtwIIH
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7zLA6X9YO
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJIUwoHJ0U
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OuYasbIut
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FuoNDsy8j
有人說她成熟了，進步了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpEvPVK2iP
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGYFPyEvJa
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdbOliqvwR
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO4bxlCDTy
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdapQvfr2pe
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ7c3IOQSh
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtkz8C0nov
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJygaC4RLh
還是向現實低頭好了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt9CjzeejE
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEScEfPUcD
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxpkz7O3rM
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsW6KYBnEdd
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPh71XZ46nw
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e5VMKHkSj
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yZeTqfyxS
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqenqftIRl
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlqXmdFHrE
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqGIhHrL1e
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhn17lL6gK
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXBFsJFJFD
家宜沒答話。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4ResjWKhA
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrHPfEiUro
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVS7C0Wygt
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8qhnAKIvf
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPL3drU0ei
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ehO5M8pdx
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4xPrvWjtn
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7K8no55p5
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicTekgnaeF
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGZHEwaRVT
當初…787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQvmLGwfwt
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZXuQeqRDA
整個晚上，媽一言不發。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sHjwNS2E1
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GGpFZNW5Z
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNWbQNx1MV
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDM8vdI9nTF
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4deTQObdA
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZsmPycRYX
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQWmO6itx0
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRls18yE4O
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXrxCFStwm
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQgyBTGnWR
根本不是她的錯！787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamLBFl96li
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0FptlB9HK
但道歉可保住一椿生意…787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNk2CZ6AE3e
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZhX7RXNYx
卻扭曲了自己…787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjVTtvZaFh
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhlC2IVCJA
值得嗎？787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkVRIPlDdv
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuiEd72UuD
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsox6dd11Cm
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLc5bfn6a2
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5q3FPnutyk
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80XmyW5aiZ
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfKFL83No3
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFMlBLcYpe
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKNPeVtNiF
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwKiBHcu51
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsDMtzczCg
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fpHPorX4Z
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLvoO6Hr3M
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbBBXruOSi
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1k25iDU6z
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxvkxMC6Hs
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdqDijxmbG
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiZ4gO0uJG
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrcky7GImz
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndkRNUKKiX
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmSdf0untJ
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ87nleRMHZ
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ypSRJ9jwG
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkiDY3IyJd
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv08jSvj5Hx
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXcz16fTD7
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyORx4qino
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF867wzFEYT
不管了，先遞信吧！787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0iaVdinDL
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BTIJM3hqR
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8b8v148mH
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGjQKw2CIu
家宜呆了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2EPDPwVTf
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYj1zFcOLA
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8Nib3o5fe
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0C7et0g0v
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOAmNj81XX
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91jTI8A35d
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGp4ssWpS3
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSVOiwnom2
這是…放棄了嗎？787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOO2Vjxglfd
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iNnH6DSHV
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ggm30GbTW
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JAgilMkkN
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1W75wkbXL
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgUnHt591M
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6ZoYfOle8
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJoYBFSSS1
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6q1cPWvn1
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXtEz3IiPP
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSqgDCIdWh
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnykWM0IQHL
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4smxPwIqi
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYamn5fyrNC
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFFBraOrZy
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77YIyfjMrg
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54lNIUt2ej
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkSYI966id
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zGchDwagD
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GJplvRUWD
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTixuqoG4n4
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpT7hr2h9PL
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyWhtjNnZq
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6Yyf1GFsb
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXquUZRNjDD
787Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKm5XXEZSm9
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