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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFG4cwZwj2y
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05sbsAu0m4
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD4EZaW0t8
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終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtq6ArOZkQ
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOlOtImH5M
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJnmQsxWDi
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f5rPtIW06
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnU4kY721O
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「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNYcmHguDn
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0iIHsClRr
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB5XARTa45
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTol2N0srGg
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家宜沉默了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK7PAdbyez
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媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KiVgCCjvj
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB9liKxMw1
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原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzahe3OsAGv
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznzXIkSiyB
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojkFlVLJdS
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有人說她成熟了，進步了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PLKOM5AlG
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「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvSFxRyxsS
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ae5ReRHnW
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMeEJZHkut
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeh0Mh259iW
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還是向現實低頭好了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZdchks98R
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsyCMJ8oVB
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2V53cyTkxj
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZrKFYjANx
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBP5zIU1jq
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「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9ozbc2sLr
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrn6SgkaTPi
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLzY5z5bHC
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNBOu23v9r
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZ6LLshB4w
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家宜沒答話。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsVhZ9A9JG
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkKgjcKDYW
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當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtixdxA9lV
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeMNvJomsG
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9eCmeOCLS
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當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJ1S4aFNPi
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當初…854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWNH0pvDUs
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整個晚上，媽一言不發。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWZr65mfZo
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家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaUnDTZnk1
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAduFGFdxC
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYJI6Is6t9
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgWnFkEjdr
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNBwGK02tR
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjT0Zq2RuI
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FK9glHAWw
根本不是她的錯！854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEsPqyoBMn
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7nMaaE24F
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卻扭曲了自己…854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxasEXkUfz
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值得嗎？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnvMLIDPbk
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy4RNzsQl0
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnv4BaLe6I
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdbpffajbO
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fAsr3jTtT
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7znu10m0n
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU2ISaUumi
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dfPmjBHcG
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXW5Qak8ROu
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFucEUsg1x
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNMaDu5Lb6
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtJDjM3eJN
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4RjdYbEFe
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx46BjrkacU
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jnwyDsyr7
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQSIy8fNFg
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeFell9xKi
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf69ZbpeRmt
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9Hk9LXZzq
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41bhQZaeDo
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl8MTymDvN
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptuVbvQei3
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArbns26Bnt
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不管了，先遞信吧！854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1As8JBbsO3
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEJ1F2LALZ
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家宜呆了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbDTsVOIHE
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCguJ49OEBl
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZopUfK12M
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsUkp8xVBM
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這是…放棄了嗎？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqIEPxiegS
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHGcLJmTFK
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhUaajPy9B
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWb33z2Mp4
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerzCnwjeIV
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGM9dxSn6KM
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmI4RWxNPW
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyCqjLjREs
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhoH0KVtnN
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKtqSOuMBN
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspbiaqOMCW
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「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi0oEH3y5c
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPEm5AbJoU
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9s4jt4t9I
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLTIexuJ29
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99vTcOHiPo
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAJVXtySKT
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