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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Mesga3yxr
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vvyGuOTsL
和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdS7XyhZdl
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOXHchi46s
日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIIS380z1T
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnxG3esxK9
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNwbADlk1o
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoq6JoCwK7
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrkpRJeA0D
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnf9AjK9Gm
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkoSmzDReA
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJPnC5zn0K
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5kmrs3bzA
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiUYN8ZIYy
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WJ96UZgPf
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXr6zreclfM
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfXr6lPtaw
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfGFRiLCcr
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQZ9xCUtPL
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wkpCt2aNZ
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotOG75QVwA
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtuUTfpER0
家宜沉默了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUFzEQPP63
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbOlvUJl92
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelxIh1R3Xm
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYo27c1Ibv
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44OgVN7OkU
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECXXkfALes
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9z0uviJyVY
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSSg3sLMQ0
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFyrjPvOnR
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpfEwQb5cF
有人說她成熟了，進步了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8971bBuF3z
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6TaLNv41r
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YqBQnAI3B
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MkAf0i45D
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ905SUj5INF
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmxdaGpjlP
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxDvLtCrQH
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvWrPuHi8v
還是向現實低頭好了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sF6fa6iXP
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8u89qPLhO
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnvoiAwtXi
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56USNKmj7O
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgdewcfMlE
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9zC6RJCRb
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCr4sMo8VNF
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1RCNrOn1h
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz250nxUSj
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8E2C29CNLB
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ73AOKT6Mg
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih8B8BgPQL
家宜沒答話。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8tyJqdJYk
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoSQLJUskA
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlYmsest6h
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBVXeq3XbU
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRAQwkeMqS
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5iRtYX8k3
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5V5sMYFEr
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqUa1AOhLh
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ5JC2kI97
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGs208zwIR
當初…879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbJJCFcRYG
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbDuLHDQI5
整個晚上，媽一言不發。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kSvWDXKuH
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5Ca8ekcD9
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrY10X5G5pB
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gAUppGY8f
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzFkjbHr8c
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfscILuNAQ
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsD4P5Xdsnv
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5CH7o7eon
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgEb4vzmpR
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmF9fwYIf8
根本不是她的錯！879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡky6FLcI4LL
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tuWAsWIBx
但道歉可保住一椿生意…879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD45e73BfJ
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLQTFUw4ln
卻扭曲了自己…879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyNpGCn3Te
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhuDyZXFUW
值得嗎？879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qMgOnSwva
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxToSKWxu6C
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALGP4xNMqc
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSf5JLlZp3y
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCdqrHA6uc
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yaML7v5hY
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBV3cklEiZS
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrpZdgkahM
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraX43e07Tp
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ap4PbKZky
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9hSB1E4lT
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNd8f5dA5jO
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6lfx6CxAA
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWJXhIRM0L
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KpbG2FF2X
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6uBpgeHDv
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8opdIV4VXD
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDX6APGvvL
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfS0EkwISVo
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gmQxQKDyS
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDXLwfYHOr
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtwgLQddMC
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOPOgLD3Mz
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMzzVcyP1O
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5EeAxpAau
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ283qO2byaa
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARNPlfYAco
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICKssOnmYT
不管了，先遞信吧！879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybSKxkeJCh
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwAdsLVpWd
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkivzjQj5X
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SHQGCbIBo
家宜呆了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTAYIisqKH
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfklKPMIB7
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡng7DqO3Tis
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnXxiTj0Fs
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEm8PSaUsfp
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmU7EdegUV0
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaouq6FCNs
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDFvsKXKSn
這是…放棄了嗎？879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEOitFzSge
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6Htb6OXGM
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwt7lDUTgR
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGiHLh6EkK
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ugnnWD1Oa
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU04d2eWi1m
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18aMrhDmtj
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9omaHnaYL
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxnx2kH2tk
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3J1HhWF9Y8
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D86Oa4IF7
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiBmCDdRR4
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6eQxys2Ym
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKwfjmEiqj
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlYH08d4RN
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrFPI5vHyo
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFShZkQcjm
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tak5KFC82
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdh3ZSJmlqU
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrc5EkQu5o
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TVtfnVrGq
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtCEh4EoG9
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecxkx002PG
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYpklbVHhi
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmPIA5RN10
879Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMeYKn0iwi
欲哭無淚。
