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天亮，上班。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjHftSznnc
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YgjYAEQUr
擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHlghkNWZz
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShMSCq7yZe
車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3pXLo5Mtd
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PNSBkMOlW
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq1QRN0xgb
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlOV0Q4xb3
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTx7jDM7Kz
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosrZa5DWL2
看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6wTfxIvOm
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjttBkqCc8G
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EFNphJhGb
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNO7825MWlq
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09TX6haqsE
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ541R5p54hj
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOK5Vd5I6P
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxRTSCEcoe
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JEB4Wh481
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBx6WN3cvh
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYdOpherYb
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XYAIpbTTX
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj4v6tp6EV
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPaHV63e58
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqwjP4yxlI
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqL2RX2dk9V
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzN3V8FZuLa
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAa4U0HutN2
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7ogajlGsr
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V4ZrxS5CY
還是……996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx8sfnQFXm
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx1iUs80gi
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1yV6mGuAP
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSOynpaIFt
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtfU42HpV4
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o2cYT58JT
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUp6A0HwFv
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiovjThQnfq
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AS0O5mZ3p
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntdmqZH2jW
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg72zWIqVj
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Q0K0aqsUE
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5GrmYNd3W
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tNsjPJtZX
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSZTpGIWsp
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14YYbk1pLI
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVzx5F64W7
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXgpon7QqS
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pf72sNyNQ
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTcZlffkji
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HZAqDbeVO
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UDa9Y71SL
醉倒。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNSnjbUClq
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqnR0F6jKq
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNWyWGB0eF
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODMrHBRHjn
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMYT6dG3tE
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluGsKaFsIU
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0gUAwuoI3
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgtk2ehXCG
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAEDuL7YdL
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsnE22K98b
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs02yz1yky7
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmKHZ4F5wW
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDL2RruUU9F
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFkrFS6sIn
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL9v7AfhmF
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07F2i9Ry6w
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQmsduyBkk
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uGCdiBwjr
死寂。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3koFTq75a9
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmyoA4aJBg
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMHVrxcOFZ
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKSefeodLV
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvmev0wFtk
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Wa4j3LFx7
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7vgLeKF9P
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdt2wrWKwk
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nbRbhu7yA
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HOVe7TaGY
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSFrByySkf
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5jnDlx0k8
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOm9G4krCj
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexOwT7SLma
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxylt1CDMK
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEi9QFjccGx
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11eCVJ2G9t
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPMKzORj18
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7tD3khxGn
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvpOz7enKa
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9orp0wrsWY
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwVgI0ASDn
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WCrZD9Azx
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs68oF2LbvX
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwFoeV9KLA
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfvVx6xlCD
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqHvGhhpIt
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6QCG6cinF
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwT7AvXni3
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheW7hUhpnw
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYIlPa2amP
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSr924NiUJ9
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnfg0YzLXJ
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XKBN03XIU
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2315YNAs4
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhh57ZBLw6Q
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8EHsNE2YK
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKU1Z44D43
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNiTlUEmiO
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDhKt1jO8E
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTp4stu6AU
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kWOigoQDP
「在你體內。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdORTRtSho
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyrc0fz8bd
「甚麼？」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKY0mft7dN
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIQuHTClYN
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjjIE9sGT2
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4CUkuWn3u
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCWm7ol6GV
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYuP6ohXWL
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpKHf4kcEO
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUjSLSTTWF
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVI4cVbWhY
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjcMkcNlz2
「誰？」另一聲音反問。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw4n7ys8xD
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvO1Peho3a
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3p2BIqexN
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9McKvQk3dj
靜。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jx5nI5q3s
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53W6fsEmtt
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBKa59zuTg
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GPlWHqRa1
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdAlrLYTKb
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJfrNQjjSB
我：「我有精神病？」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyO8wd1T9O
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtX5alQBHv
醫：「是情緒病。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7uMYi1EW6
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQkroVdGBe
我：「怎麼辦？」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGQf0JOCZv
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXhpS9DnE8
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGP14omjBg
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr5C9fQC19
我：「謝謝醫生。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL9P8LH1km
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM70RZGy6z
醫：「不用謝。」996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsLjPrKamH
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4q3Ucm7N6
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaINWXa5DP7
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqYNhQBX93
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyO6vFTRJ8
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbirZOLQde
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9fGSe69cM
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wEqkczTYm
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgNK3rn98d
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKYXDR4DPn
同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAiMaXBnOZ
996Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnU6mWKFni
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