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天亮，上班。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9v7QZbTX4s
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna0M90Uqoz
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjneBcoVvN
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6tOquyuAe
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoGTtUKMgu
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NjHAwU8tc
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDk1atLAHx
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsqrez0GyB
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVdSEAb3YG
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHeOnq0ORm
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBhaBqtooK
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklX3UMmcP0
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oZzY7c8sy
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYM6AvTgko
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xVOCabuBN
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7K9tMLnQb
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd21ZaWymN
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dvFIVCwwm
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6BuxQRWAB
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cbHTewWTJ
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLemOYiIQt
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujgL7cAxlU
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3w8Bcyyhz
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprwsDg7gKb
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVc0VfEgnxR
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0tnpUT0X7
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMhhLIJCm1
還是……917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tDABgvF0d
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHIboy4m5Z
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Jp4Q68pcy
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMi4PZ6hIES
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa6OfZkHiL
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd6GeNCAVN
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFEMtohltk
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDfcZbcYfS
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyKELJlZde
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTXG7kUuox
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxAA6APiEM
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB44ccC8pSO
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgDsRb4v3p
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O0oWMn24x
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTxYqsbwPh
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabz1NoeAWB
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Pl7SUAEiu
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡab12lr9khb
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV7Kyymypw
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GGwdTGRVA
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpOPaxKcig
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSbhRCmsLN
醉倒。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6RS906gzN
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjtCSoD4DF
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllxRbvRDUL
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsJVGYoEDq
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2R8NZ59UA
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCLNppkt1t
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7VfigaOXX
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAy5mwdfjIh
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgUn0uLaxK
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB2afxdTnr
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXNwZoSKe1
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp081hajmgT
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMar3YOiJJ
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp2kkDiy6M
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QzhM0rfxv
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiOaBpHe2V
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l59po0iGD
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiV3WSgITpp
死寂。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ko1jnOMbw
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03m26iUieH
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkE0OAEBqx
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YEBmlbnBC
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcz5CAQf7OA
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fQlSX9Cy7
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cULwUCzdH
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzO98ktlphU
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lsHRYIBZi
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiDmjJpXj6
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtehvcPZykO
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVbuWeWvxu
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHkXootGmV
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o2oyKJ0NE
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s9hiju7d4
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEmHS5Nq5y
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9XMaZWKFs
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyN64nP6Y0A
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZitHqxsHl
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimhC0h4iPI
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7p7n6kvs75
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0eJDdWeyv
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoh4eb4m49w
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkere6bt2m3
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTqlh5Weec
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtIFwEx0kC
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvKUb695Zi
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZGQeguhea
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQum03eQkA
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWa3v3Bn0L2
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuS6EdvHZw
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3fd4yzfMY
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXBPcAyCNx
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TdqFl6PeM
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOyW5LEGZJ
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Z6lIQ0jkI
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK54DxAkkX2
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJJHuMGdVJ
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoft3PG08Q
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVJTZCCjDT
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoto17JhQc
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBS9rgYVCX
「在你體內。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRoButys3W
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpypHHnjP5n
「甚麼？」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZBXfxWTth
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxPXTsVHns
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2qYCYXSDH
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eoS6iq8H8
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vfwKxuwtI
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNb3I8ZhFL
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrn75sa4Uxd
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jZZskIx5G
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicWItJV9I9
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1jlQGg3I1
「誰？」另一聲音反問。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFJzn4PDa7
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoqgiIMtCT
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zQ3LvLlQG
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7Fa6cKehZ
靜。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSk6MiLBPD
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTG6r5hske
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGmmJJ5TCb
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFspfHFm6xj
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNVv4oCPF6
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VSJQaV18d
我：「我有精神病？」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0pAtr5Qz0
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97EU1sItnN
醫：「是情緒病。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5DqTnyf5e
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9lCxzHmZc
我：「怎麼辦？」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy5ny1nmfO
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkqgataMzj
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2ws9EGvrx
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEVaQ7qM5R
我：「謝謝醫生。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerMaw56WAu
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GsSaIQwzt
醫：「不用謝。」917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmyrTB5Y6P
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6RyhViwsa
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscauUA3aBD
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnjVUiH2MP
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2VpLZK6Sx
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBz5RVCQIOR
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdn0L2Y04x
917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73NzXzfMOQ
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmwbHm8iNx
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWmm1uZ4No
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