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一九九三年，他六歲。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcThQKNhWcQ
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCfaYvxrWm
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD2jxxwKVH
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgVxWMOhML
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看不見，聽得到。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnyExvYGxw
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2t5TeVZmB
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電車。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2oSnuhs0J
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HqUskmMQw
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNVzJDOjPO
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVLxPYl4ij
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刻骨銘心。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnDN9d3L4n
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叮叮——叮叮——419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNPM8MZ6Tt
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（02）419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFJLwVbwD4
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看得見，聽不到。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxz71voFDb
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vYXIOkZ0B
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg4ZH7eA0v
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnKApA1iMC
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cZwlHc5kX
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT50lEiBYBW
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSB8o9NbxwX
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vKED7dscS
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINQI5OiLGB
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHMn0OX4mS
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爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHA0BNN4Rv
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叮叮——叮叮——419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsqGou5fRj
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叮……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pjwecArfM
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（03）419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBcxYI1rdz
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5siiWdzxy
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOkj84ZEDS
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto0VKemaBE
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVKTBn30Xn
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmak60i6vh
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yzVemHt5s
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpChxnWtxaw
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EBERr7Tal
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkbJS5OQnB
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叮叮——叮叮——419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVo1pWTZ5rT
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震驚。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzE0fj4TYP
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9X6vq7NYAT
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一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrnXRI9drD
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累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft8Gj6qUvH
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSeH6g8eyW
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他不想再追。很累……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54MiaEn0JB
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叮叮——叮叮——419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbMICSpMx8
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFYsGLih1i
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電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2swUg6CPm
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbOXx0EhMS
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMW9sqLOSPN
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUaYFstLv8
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIJ1ld6QJ8
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他接受不了。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiO4akl9bil
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叮叮——叮叮——419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwLqzUbG1y
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電車準備靠站，他快要追到。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKrA3sRSFi
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綠手開始氣化。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoftxGgyfgu
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKgkxj0FO7
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtahJuMs7tH
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgCpsByvF2
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1U07eOo0JY
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緣盡。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEAu4aKikp
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無謂執著。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHFaYCXdVg
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忽爾澄明。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyz8A7qqar
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOVjW7vwXQ
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgumFrhCdtR
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排隊，付款，上車。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj2tiWK6E9
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如同其他乘客。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZn2DS3F3xD
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
