愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuahylWGs7w
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9aW3usJlz
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWPu3OQPx9
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUC6t0qr25V
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5LUghvA3i
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但他沒有。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsnGEPt47f
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXERNP6fX0u
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1lYEk8puX
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cisX4eZAy
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lZ8v1p1yq
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「妳在家嗎？」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyI2BF9IcO
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「嗯。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb9arQKTcN
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「下來。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4EDAnqAQJ
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBH5M4A5jk
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfImpn9rlDA
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1qEHdUpDb
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtV2bHHcAq
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「把妳載去賣。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPCxXj0REw
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「嗯，好。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDl87zghUZ
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnlHt0USq9
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wZ56aeMLJ
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「起床了。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6cq5lpf43
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「快點起來，小豺！」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5y1R4aw06E
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXB0ZBsvhaY
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNtwz3W33u
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmZqKKT9EY
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbPSqkNjVD
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrbAZxOMlg
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8k7jLPzZz0
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「在山上。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2gmzNvkD0
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRbIc6Eu8j
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「你要拜拜啊？」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhRYxSAQbj
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjmyzaOr8A
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavCQ2Q5pCo
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡib5wqfwHyY
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykZB6nneYD
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「我哪知道。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFBYZlcLBN
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「……說的也是。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEQBHs2m6V
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4QMG5cWZq
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5i8qwoZzaQ
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「會發霉。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIX32qkr1P
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQtU39AT6L
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Cr64PJlsp
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOELCh7X88h
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWXEm760o5
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「啊？」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ823adTSn7P
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxeBrvDtQz
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TMHe6MVjJ
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzlnz9L2VV
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUav761fOT0
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjnezzxEaY
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCRCixdkiI
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkuZjnvICN
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOxleL3FJ1
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2w1ubDiz9
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGgRJegGOz
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15urgatcLc
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待續。
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