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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTt3uAGHLM
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIreLfVR8H
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSgwdmBceQ
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EMH9N0asO
「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb45Pr8Dsv9
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壓花書籤。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gP9aLogbs
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvDXEUvGdd
紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Rt9cyxLek
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXPKgxy63Q
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQkRsXVq0m
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNjHz0AqvV
初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2ldmSdbOT
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWKaUg63Wx
難道是老伴的來信？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17Rk5MEqCE
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mtMYHdwgO
是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhtxBCmfo6
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmZWvnzipF
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBFBa6bZdG
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqehdDi7uDC
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWe6xvWQ2zo
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZyWaH81RT
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmVgjxH5Ne
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZbWvwePFl
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JY0QNrvWJ
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3e6pEo6HB
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r83Kti3VG
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgO3qPzH95R
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSqYAhZY9f
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCvGqiYz8E
努力活著，只為失去？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgejWERVGH
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzeTV4sguu
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXPCmjpnyu
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkohLieoCWH
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI479vlp0OA
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeCZCxBMJs
很累。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNAv1j47s1
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9yuYuWflP
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdbLzXAXXd
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfsWio8HqF
想睡。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GhKVaYxdk
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C0wz2vkXU
放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgv8lHZrKgr
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMoACJQU6d
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJMdZjLzQX
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4gGf4YIVz
該要馬上包紥傷口。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnbmymThek
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEl9PyLKPY
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrlPbiEl2g
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViHI1jZaso
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoycq5DWqkf
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRZpP32cq1
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoOeGiMn2g
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRce6BJuFE
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKmmHULduF
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrwmMl800D
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZTKrKYlGs
他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Glk5Xg3hN
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqJiGeEqcR
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUklfnyruHS
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0SroXzfwj
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJ6OiCWxXd
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmI9kKX17Ec
現在呢？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXrl5zlwGX
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5qqqOoCZQ
她主動放棄記住他。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrcsr1FBmB
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiylNH0j0JV
上天或她更可惡可恨？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx07TaSZ02u
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡII33hd8cbL
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeXliiL6tB
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0d6by8Fep
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GotQMtYg0
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoEtwuUqtG
迴光返照。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaxD2eKHkg
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfWiqrtgqA
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJoqKT6hcy
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ546Pqsn1ay
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJiXKukkTD
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvn2RmhoVM
是她將一切與他扣上關連。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFh6xbKB1b
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtfhlE1HAo
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY88jIBllF3
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOZVXhSvgQ
手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoF0WX931gu
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZHLSIDnqO
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeV4hyRbaP
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2BDrrpYlq
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJuHfHyul8
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaQ6P8fUAH
當時是否不該報警求救呢？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGxWxhsgSf
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL8f0CFyXC
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZaEVhFGkq
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK92Z4ToMBo
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRI7oP8wkb
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEI6DasONJc
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAG6tvd6z6U
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTtuvoXgWH
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuARIFhPIR
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHEXqdXy3I
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAl47cuG6BK
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3lyTeypux
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUVcDogOGn
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmOFFZDvDW
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPD5QXjnD6Z
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oK9EXITGQ
原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡji0tVHRYXr
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qEpIuuDrU
十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHRTFxyZGG
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2Bt3m7qi8
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0UEzlLwW9
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHRLCcPdmq
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKyfqmJH4A
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVeIlm7juU
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXWBJlXmF6
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1O8NfRjbC
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgiMUHAaCe
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUGuBMvJyn
她打算怎麼處理？592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdW8QLpgKN9
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未決定。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBz0iA5893M
592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrIZMtBeqe
那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98t9rJJOCQ
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
