事情要回到幾個月前。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcf56sIYHw
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「豺姐，我想跟妳道歉。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPDi28uA1z
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聊著聊著，他突然傳來這樣的訊息。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIfH08I10U
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「幹嘛道歉？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5khwlOTX28
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「前一陣子，是不是有人密妳的skype，問妳想不想穿高跟鞋踩他？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50l8rxdV8t
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我想了一下，好像有這麼回事。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPadjgQBSv
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「那個人就是我，但我應該馬上就被妳封鎖了吧？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJi0SIVvNY
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「呃，因為skype是個常常會被陌生人亂加的程式，所以看到奇怪的訊息，我都是直接封鎖啊。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFALKIbHn9
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「拜託妳現在不要封鎖我。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TjWiW3Vs3
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「不會啊，都是朋友了還鎖什麼，不過你是在惡作劇嗎？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnUCxWIa43
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「不是。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWa7cBAfSWa
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然後，他開始和我說起，他的秘密。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyx2OsqiPsX
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作為一個M，又稱「臣服者」（也有人說是「受虐者」，但我不喜歡這個稱呼），加上「戀物」及「戀足」，他從很久以前，就知道自己的喜好及性傾向，但沒有讓人知道，包括以前交的女朋友。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiLYYwDL8z
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看到高跟鞋會興奮，產生被虐的幻想；女孩子只要稍微兇他，他也會心癢，更別說是聽到一些汙辱謾罵的詞彙了，那只會讓他更高興。
在他意識到自己的性傾向時，還是個小孩。他下意識的覺得自己不正常，隨之而來的厭惡自己及沮喪情緒很快吞沒了他。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRKmFNgSKW
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所以他掩飾、逃避，逼自己過「正常人」的生活及性生活。
直到過了幾年，進入資訊爆炸的時代，Google大神開始顯神威，在網路上發現同好的時候，他才漸漸接受自己。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98xfQY22G4
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「只是接受了自己，不代表別人肯接受這樣的我。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52bSpzMy5d
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所以他還是持續隱瞞這件事，也許是過於刻意隱瞞，在戀愛的過程中，他反而像個大男人，所交到的女朋友，也都是小女人類型的，這讓他更不可能坦白自己了。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0NkKQogrr
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那天晚上，我幾乎聽完了他到目前為止的人生。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ngcb2yP2c
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「壓抑」，若要下個結論，就只有這兩個字。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4WEEE4Cu4
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「為什麼告訴我？」
不過是朋友的朋友，一群朋友一起出去過幾次，我真的不認為我們有那麼熟。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnvlwpTZ1S
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「我信任妳。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBUBuFFgLA
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「噗，你也太容易相信別人了吧，萬一我是大嘴巴咧。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTwd5SsPPP
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「妳應該不是。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOQi1svWZ1
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「這麼有信心？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVB36nA57fX
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「有一次去唱歌，那個誰不是在說某個人的八卦嗎，說她和哪個歌手有一腿，還墮胎怎麼的。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnpzpUsD52
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「嗯？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA1bqjGp0O
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「妳本來在跟大家聊天，聊到這個就自己喝起酒來，也不搭話。我記得那個當事者跟妳有過節。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6wiYYxMRn
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「是有一些無聊的過節，你怎麼會知道？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqRMgrU8xa
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「因為別人是大嘴巴。可是妳當時什麼都沒說，也不參與話題，所以我信妳。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqWO1DPPPE
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竟然被偷偷觀察了啊。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHyXgSuNBj
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「說不定我只是口渴了想喝酒啊。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5znK2FBt5
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「妳是大嘴巴嗎？」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxbXZ8Ougv
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「我不是，但你的故事可能會成為我的創作題材。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZQTndVgiP
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「哈哈哈。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T9VAaUTuo
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「哈哈。」399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyjLUBxZdp
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他捧著高跟鞋，或許是我的錯覺，他的手彷彿在微微的顫抖。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOY4iGoxUt1
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我看著他小心翼翼的，將自己的臉側過，慢慢的貼在鞋頭的鞋面上，一秒，兩秒，三秒，然後離開它，看了看鞋，抬頭，盯著我。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRCvyobUNg
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他放下高跟鞋，頭低著，對我伸出手。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4hMtHA4Lx
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我有點緊張，所以動作也很遲鈍。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pp11Q0Uzw
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把右腳放進他手裡的時候，我意識到自己的雙手緊捏著床沿。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiaf8iQ5O7
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他微微抬頭，眼神落在我的腳背上。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nUUA0pWYY
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就像電影裡演的紳士，在女士的手背親吻那樣，他也這麼做了，只是把手換成腳。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lWclywpMp
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他輕輕地吻了我的腳背，就一下子，沒有停留，沒有聲響，我也沒有感到不舒服。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MrjcW5ZNR
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他拿起高跟鞋，從我的腳尖套上，再合上腳跟，確認高跟鞋穿好後，放下我的右腳。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2G3qCG8ahh
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接著，換左腳。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzlE6TR3ZG
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因為他的動作一直很溫柔，所以我的緊張感消失了大半。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH703KYrfCE
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同樣的模式（或儀式）結束後，我的雙腳都穿上了高跟鞋，而他恢復了原本的姿勢，低著頭，跪著。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDfb6nZSfI
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「頭抬起來。」我說。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSleO6TvUO
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命令的語氣。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8oUTRmAkl
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待續。399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhhZVWM6Gx
