愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs8EMnVkYN
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgheOA6E0u
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkEre8CPIW
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlSkqrwqYL
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2TE8pSY1R
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但他沒有。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmUBtDUyVd
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTe8g9n08v
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡif8pAM5qrw
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvLk8ZheSj
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfR4TtM18Mw
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「妳在家嗎？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjHISbOlZ5
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「嗯。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLjiPTZU57
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「下來。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu8QZaV986
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BslHDbYjg
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgodixyfaGf
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B71Fmhaau
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14S8hDp6co
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「把妳載去賣。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2vSFfe7de
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「嗯，好。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvNblOpvz2
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpoRqd9uAV
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpPU1D6szF
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayIRi2llet
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「起床了。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBOT4Pf3YQ
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliwLXppTuR
「快點起來，小豺！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLVsL97UsB
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDqPksKxfS
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzFo7H3j44
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQNRlxAwTm
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoeBZM9les
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhzpry9iP1
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GDY8LSsuv
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「在山上。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZTAUdkLsZ
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnZAaKUu2P
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「你要拜拜啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kaBmJ8V5a
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN6CjuSY2S
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdp5k3dN3I
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkS7ZJxoIbl
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLwWSG42gg
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「我哪知道。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgoHN0EceW
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「……說的也是。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEa9aswA2V
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZLflWA0pY
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTA42jsJwb1
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「會發霉。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerhiSeUqGv
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcgZI37BEB
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY6yWYqZI8
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiQZBsytOA
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e49GmFN3O
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「啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvKmSLqJcd
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbpmPHkkfp
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5149qazra
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWvWTaRibp
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYHBaVcxUy
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiwjcVJ7Db
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb88MlbRXh
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHMRj2PTsb
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3pYMZQ2j1
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUto3iv6xG
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9mOPRpCko
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKBEOOXLRS
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOZs3anY8Z
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待續。
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