愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIh4GSILlJo
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnH1RYmnmnt
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdZN8nvb4F
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF12PlNk0rQ
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1Si3HrmL0
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但他沒有。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuLiJr7Z1O
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDoY7F37zn
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymGhnztbpS
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWC7CJzrjhe
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMbgf9pFAG
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「妳在家嗎？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRReFkYeQk
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「嗯。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeWUBjlFSp
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「下來。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZu8ejhqfx
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBr249NSbAM
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aDaCJvaGw
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqTRV3qLq6
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav9z9v10qZ
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「把妳載去賣。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qZzDChtl2
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「嗯，好。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sO2gvTWfd
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Uhx7SwAKn
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRDXcjMupI
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「起床了。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W08b03fAN
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「快點起來，小豺！」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1gTzxS73f
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGEDI15Gw7
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST5rgtFyfT
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUx7DTMPo5
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgo1QteqPk2
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmCatnxLYx
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN8F7DHlSO
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「在山上。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdUb7Ozsbi
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazcyHcs4W5
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「你要拜拜啊？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3k7BSTCVL
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMem7hRjoZ
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNM9nLhIBl
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXCn19y1cq
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOq9sj6KX9m
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「我哪知道。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvWN6ASEVJ
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「……說的也是。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdv4QMcAVQ
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMT5H7icRki
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0E56ybDorf
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「會發霉。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf5PxEZifC
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdC8vrXmXG
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmcVhENHKC
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNe9At10Vc
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopHFG7GvAy
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「啊？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91mmjS4SeQ
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznxBIA7tJ8
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzdwY2lyTD
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9ge14Ng6n
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lU1wiAzyq
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EosKA9V65
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aodRonzR3
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVzD4P58N6
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrglio9bUx
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gNEUlAqJa
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j1HgAJLxD
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfUxncSGBw
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待續。
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